Day 11
Alyse Balson 16, District 2 Female
I'm a idiot, no doubt about it once again the rock that stuck me to the hard place absolutely crumble and I reacted like a complete idiot maybe deep down I think with a killer instinct and that horrified me because I never wanted wanted to be a killer
I knew the life I had back home eventually I would have to let go of my morals, my beliefs on what I condone as necessary and not necessary, I panicked the second Cian's cannon went, I had a slight feeling of joy knowing the boy who ruined me in these games is dead but them it hit me and I looked at Xander and saw the boy who stood in my way of seeing my brother again and I panicked
In the inner circle, we are taught that the best way to get rid of your problems, is to get rid of them, all I thought is if I killed Xander no one would be standing in my way of seeing my brother again and all I want to do is see Campbell because I have to know
Know if he hates me
Yet I didn't realise that this is final three, and now Xander somehow escaped and is chasing me, I started to run late last night but I fell over and go my foot stuck in something and saw him in the distance, I have think I have lost him at the moment because I have better endurance, but now I'm in some small and nice mountain village with snow slowly falling from the dark sky, but it is a ruined villages, debris and stones are scattered on the ground
I don't know why I ran, I don't know what the fuck I'm doing, I'm confused, scared, angry, tired, all in one tired of these games but in a sense I know if I see Campbell again things won't be the same, deep down what he said to me, it was like ripping my heart out, and I know the way I lied to him, things what we back to normal, they can't
In a sense I'm relieved Xander is still alive and I know why the capitol want a villain this year, that's what Everett told me someone who is willing to do anything to survive and if Campbell and I were in the final two they wouldn't get the long drawn up fight or revenge mission and that's what they want
I just duck between a pile of rocks catching my breath, this running and hiding is pathetic but I need more time, maybe if Campbell and I left off on a good note then maybe I would of been okay knowing my time is now but I don't want to die thinking he hates me, because that wouldn't be nice but I'm not a good person we don't deserve good things
I feel broken inside I burst into tears again last night, wanting someone to just hold my hand or wrap their arms around me but I was alone and I'm not use to it, having a twin it's like you have another half, you know if you are upset they will be there for you, that it's us against the world, it always as been us against the world and we plan to go into these games together, to stay together in a sense being without him, I don't know what to do, and then when Xander had me as captive I hated feeling that way feeling like he owned me but I had company being alone scared me
Makes me feel vulnerable and insecure, makes me wonder about my morals and what I'm really doing with my life, I guess having Campbell he was my purpose, looking out for him, that's the reason why I survived the trauma the scares that boy gave me, why I survived knowing I can no longer be a normal child all for my brother and I guess him saying he hates me, just hurts too much to comprehend
Saying I should of never be born, I think that sometimes, twins are rare, very rare, they said my mother was lucky to survive child birth, we were the golden children, the first twins to be born in years but that fractured when we weren't the perfect children, all I did was try to help him, I knew I shouldn't haves lied about it, I should of told him but he needed the medicine, he could read as I kid, he didn't believed people died, he saw things that weren't real and I was worried he was going to be sent away
I didn't care if he hurt me, he had to hurt someone, like Xander I can see it in his eyes, the emotions, the rage, it's made him homicidal and now he wants my blood and deep down I want him to win, I don't think I can live through this, not without Campbell and I don't know if my brother could but what happens if I see Campbell again and he still hates me, at least dying now could save the pain, pain worse then death
I stand up "Alyse" Xander growls from the distance as I take off running again I don't know why I keep running, I don't know, I'm just not ready to fight, I want to fight but the look in his eyes, the sound in his voice, he has lost it, I knew he did to begin with him but he put all of his anger, and his rage towards Cian now it's towards me
My feet hit the ground as the snow start to fall more and I slip over when I see a ice rink fuck, I hear Xander come and I just over the barbed wired fence swearing when I run into another campsite one with a outdoor boat house, this area is dark and I can barely see him lunging towards me as he falls to the snow and I just run past him into, a small forest area with nicely lit trees and rocks everywhere
What am I doing?
I stop, I'm no coward, I never once never wanted to run, and hide, I'm the girl that fights for her self, I always have I made sure those boys that hurt me would never do it again, I never let myself get pushed around but here, I have done nothing but be a coward and I hate myself for it the knife flies from my hand as Xander yells when it lodges into his shoulder
Two knives left, that's why he only gave me four because he had a feeling, we would have to meet each other again, yet I never thought I would make final three but once again a district two girl has made it and once again she will die, I know I can't beat Xander, he has this deranged look in his eyes even worse then when I last saw him as he just walks closer "Are you going to run again" he says, I pull out my sword my hands shaking
No more running, no more hiding, I have to fight him, I have to kill him, even if the consequences will lead to the hardest decision of my life "Your a fucking coward, I actually felt bad for you, was it all I lie" he growls
"Why would I lie about something like that" I shout his eyes soften
"I just don't appreciate being stabbed" he says
We have this weird relationship I know that, He knows that, I understand him I really do but I know he is my biggest rival in these games, he is the only person standing in my way of seeing Campbell again, yet his the only person that can end my pain
"I also want to torture you to death and it scares me" he mumbles
"You were never stable" I whisper he just growls lunging at me with his hammer but it's the truth he knows that, you can see the insanity in his eyes
You don't just get a mental stability of 5 for no reason, and these games the break the fragile ones
"I Want to live Alyse and I know I have to do something" he says
"No you don't Xander, they don't choose who wins, you don't have to kill me slowly" I say
"I want to live" he repeats but I hear the hesitation in his voice, he doesn't know what he wants, I can relate if Xander kills me I die not knowing if Campbell hates me, having the last memory if him trying to kill him and screaming at me, I don't think I could die with that on my mind but if I kill Xander then Campbell will kill him self and I don't think I can victor
I want him too, my hands shake "I want to see my brother again" I say softly yet I know that can't happen it's final three and Xander isn't stupid, he may be some boy from 9 but he showed how deserving he is for victory
"I don't trust you and we can't just sit down by the fire telling scary stories until your brother comes where I won't last a second we have to fight and who ever the winner is decides what they do to the other, you know street laws" he says
I just nod for street kids or children that have black bands it's almost a code of honour, that if you choose to fight someone and they beat you they choose your fate, number one reason why I avoided fights because living with the inner circle I know how a boys brain works, I was just lucky they saw me as one of them
I just grip my sword as he lunges at me swinging his hammer and I step out of the way blocking it, the issue with Xander is he was trained the same way as me. in gangs you get trained how to do long drawn out fights, he would have much stronger endurance then Griffen did so, blocking and defending won't work, he won't go for the kill but he will try and get me to the point I can no longer fight him, where he will decide what he does to me meanwhile I need this fight it be drawn out hoping Campbell will come
Do I?
All my life I have felt that apart from one case when I was getting beaten or I was in danger, Campbell would come and save me deep down I never fought for my self, I only ran and escaped, deep down I don't deserved this leather band, I block Xander' swing, he isn't as trained as Griffen if anything his just swinging towards my chest hoping to disarm me yet I'm not strong with my sword use and I only have two knives left
He swings again and I block lunging forward as my sword cuts his shoulder as the tip of his hammer slices my leg and we both jump back he looks at me then the blood growling and I see the slight blood thirst in his eyes
He is loosing it, there was a brief point in my life I saw a boy died and I almost smiled after that day I swore to distance my self from death wanting to choose my humanity over strength, Xander looks completely broken the games crushing him into pieces
I can use that
He swings again as his hammer hit my chest and my sword cuts his arm, as he angrily swings and I wince when the sword smashes against my head, a small cry escaping my lips, my grip shakes and I swing my sword towards his arm and his hammer hits my shoulder as he just growls slightly the pain making him angrier
I swing towards his legs as his hammer hits my hands and something cracks as my sword falls from my hands and his quick to drop his body weight down, but I'm able to grab my sword blindly swinging it as it cuts his eyebrow and I shove him off
"I have to say for a career clearly your aren't confident in your sword use" he mumbles
"Cleary you don't know how to use a war hammer properly" I response as we both catch our breath
He swings and I duck sidestepping swinging my hammer as it cuts his stomach shallowly as his hammer lodges into my knee and I whimper
"If both of us aren't going for the kill shot then throw your weapon away and we do this with our hands" he says
"Like that's fair look at you and look at me" I respond
I don't know if I want to kill him but looking at him know seeing the blood thirst in his eyes, I know his fate for me won't be quick and gentle, I need to go for the kill shot I can't hesitate but deep down I don't want him dead but he needs to die, I know that, I just swing and he grunts as my sword almost cuts his head off as his hammer hits my jaw again as I step back I swinging his block as he shoves me towards the grass but I slice his leg because he makes it over to me as we both jump up both of us bleeding "Stand your weapon down" he growls
"Why not you" I yell
"I know you prefer to do this hand to hand don't lie" he scoffs swinging at me and I block
"Maybe with a career but not a street boy" I say
"I literally got my band two years ago, you had yours for 8, stop shitting yourself" he says as I swing he blocks
Like he can talk the entire time I have knew him in these games he has not said one nice thing about himself
"Says the emo" I growl
He just hisses back which gets me a little nervous, okay maybe I should just surrender or run
Running sounds good, Xander is totally loosing the plot right now it's scaring the hell out of me
Then all of a sudden
Poof
"THANK YOU" he yells at the sky, my heart sinks and I take off running as I grip my knife throwing it blindly, I scream when a knife enters my back as he yells and I fall on my stomach as I see the knife lodged into is rib cage, he growls at me trying to pull it out as I try to pull the one out of my back but they both disappeared I throw another one as it slices his shoulder
Fuck
"Be creative next time" I screech at the sky
Fight or flight but when he runs at me I just look like I'm about to run then I slam my shoulder into his chest as I loose my footing and we fall over each other and I quickly jump up knowing if we are on the floor together he will kill me in a second, even if he stated he wasn't a fighter, he would of learnt techniques I remember watching Camden in his year and this boy lived with him, he stands up
"Where did you learn how to throw knives" I mumble just putting my hands up as he slowly walks towards me
"How did you learnt how to use a sword" he says
"I'm a career" I say
"And I throw things in anger" he growls lunging at me with his fist as I duck out of the way not realising his other hand clashes towards my stomach as I wince and I slam my boot on his as he grunts backhanding me in the face making my already throbbing jaw hurt more
We go at it again as his fist hurts my eyebrow and my elbow jams into his nose as he grabs my wrist twisting it, he tries to wrap a arm around me but I just grip him by his short hair slamming my knee into his chin then his stomach as I shove him away, he just wipes his mouth anger on his face, my heart pounding against my chest, his loosing it and I'm afraid the longer we go at it, the more angry he will get
The more pain he will put me through if I cant beat him, he has been a orphan a lot longer then me, he as been through bullying it's made him stronger, he slams his elbow into my nose grabbing a fist fall of my hair and slamming my face into his as his fist smashes against my stomach again and I wince, as I kick up and he yells as I shove him away again
Okay maybe not the smartest move, he just blindly lunges at me as I slam my fist into his nose, he just spits some of his blood from his mouth into my face as I sneer in disgust but I know it's dirty fighting, he rams my head into a tree and I couch on some bark as I just grab his wrist slamming my fist into his throat again but I'm getting tired and he is easily over power me
I just run slightly from his grabbing a fist fall of grass and dirt and when he lunged at me I just grab onto him shoving it down his mouth as he yells and I shove him to the ground again I kick him in the waist, as he tries to couch the dirt from his mouth, just screaming lunging at me I scream when his finger hooks in my closes eye as he grabs me by my hair again
"Give some you get some" he hisses in my ear just shoving his mouth in my hand
So he had the same idea I just cough some grass from my mouth as he just throws me to the ground trying to put himself on top of me but I just grab him by the leg trying to fling him away but instead he grips onto me, as he just to get me onto the bottom wrapping a arm around my neck as I awkwardly move my self under his arm and we get caught into each other, our arms and legs almost locked to the point I struggle to get my self free, I just bring my fist harder punching his groin area as he screams and I untangle my self from him
"FUCKING BITCH" he screams, I just flinch the anger even more obvious on my face and I'm getting nervous now
Please Campbell please come back
He blindly lunges at me his fist hitting my chin, as he knees me hardly in the stomach, trying to get me to the ground but I twist myself from his grip, as I grip his arm trying to hook my finger in his eye, his screams as I hardly push my thumb in his closed eye, and I scream as his sinks his teeth in my neck, as we lean against each other, ignore the pain of his teeth hardly digging into my neck, as he screams as my finger digs harder in his eye as we fall on the ground, I wince and I move my finger from his eye as he moves his mouth and I throw him off me "Your sick" I growl holding onto my neck as my blood just rubs from his mouth as he holds his eye
"It's called dirty fighting darling" he says
I don't know how much longer I can keep doing this my entire body is throbbing, I scream when his knee hardly hits where I hit him by accident, shock by how bad the pain is as he shoves me down standing over me chuckling "Didn't think it would hurt a girl that much" he says
I just close my eyes ignoring the pain, as he tries to step on my hands to pin me down, I know he wants to get on top of me if he does yeah I know I'm done, he isn't overweight not even close but he is a lot heavier then me and a lot better built then your average boy from nine
I kick up again slowly getting up "FUCK SAKE, if I do win you are going to suffer" he hisses
I flinch his loosing it, his eyes are wild and it's actually terrifying knowing he is my opponent for once in my life I'm scared stiff, I'm so close to giving up, hoping he will give me mercy but all his emotions are hitting him full force
Please campbell please come
"Fuck this" he says he flings me towards a pile of rocks, I yell when he his boot stomps on my knee and I grab his knee flinging him to ground as I use a rock to smash the his head as he yells gripping me by the chin and spitting at me directly in the eye as I feel blinded slightly and I feel his knee dig into my back, as I panic slightly and he pushes his hand on my face
No but he isn't pinning me down he isn't down properly and I'm not done with him, I can't die this way not by the hands of a insane boy from 9 that self pride I never had I'm feeling it now
I can't let Xander kill me but I need a miracle right now
"Give up" he growls I just swing the rock to his head again throwing him off me jumping
He tackles me again as he we roll onto the ground and when I roll over him I didn't realise we were at the edge of a hill as we both grip onto each other rolling down, he just hooks his hand into my mouth as I claw his cheek, and he gets on top trying to pin me down but I wrap a leg around him flipping over as he grips my hair slamming my face into his as pinches me in the jaw, as he rolls back on top and I wince when his nails dig down my into my check as I slap his face
This is how you dirty fight, he spits into my face again as I try to scratch his lip splitting it, he takes a rock and I yell when it smashes my teeth but I just poke his eye and he yells as we roll over each other more back and forth as we end up just using the hand that isn't onto the others top to claw each other's face, he just pushes his forehead against mine and I yelp in shock when he bits my lip slamming his forehead against mine again when he gets in top
This is way to close and personal for my liking yet there is no over option, I'm getting tired though I use all my strength to throw him off but when I stand I can barely stay up right, I try to catch my breath "You are good fighter I'm impressed" he says just wiping his face splattered with blood
I just fall to my knees slightly as I just use the small house next to me to help me up I'm exhausted I look at my watch 89%
My wounds aren't even close to killing me "You too" I say
We just catch our breathes in a moment and I look in the distance "But I want to live" he says this time when he storm over to me all I can do is put my hands up knowing I could barely move at the moment
He grabs my wrists using his weight to to knock me over as I try to push him off but this time he just pushes a knee hardly on my chest and his over knee on my neck as I panic slightly and he holds one of my hands using the other to grip the ground, I start to panic when he digs down deeper and he just just stares down at me with a insane and cold look in his eyes as I panic "Surrender" he says
No I can't, but when I struggle to push him off he just pushes more weight on my neck, in my chest the sky gets darker and I barley even realise I use my left hand to tap on the ground knowing he is using the technique that wouldn't kill me, this technique is a lot more slow and painful
The signal you use when you surrender a fight and as much as I feel self hate for giving up, I can't because he will just keep pushing his weight on my neck until I become unconscious "You win" I say
I have no fight left even when he moves his weight off my neck pulling me up all I can do is fall into him as he wraps his arm around my neck, using his other hand to grab both my hands holding them together, as he forces his forehead against mine as I stare into his eyes the insanity even clearly "You are a good fighter" he repeats
"You are a worthy winner" I say, I always wanted to be honourable and for the first time I lost a fight I have no strength left
"We have two options" he says pushing his forehead more against mine as I just tense
Please just end me but Campbell, I still want to see my brother
"I kill you quickly well as quick as I can with my hands or I draw it out, giving Campbell the chance to come find us" he says
I just look at him my hands shaking "He could come any second" I say softly
He clearly doesn't want the capitol to hear that's why our faces are so close well as close as they can get but I surrendered I am his now and that terrifies me "He won't, time is ticking Alyse" he says
"Your not giving me a choice" I whisper
He just smirks "I win you are mine, and I have this rage I can't hide I am sorry" he says softly
Yet he isn't, he barely said that word properly, he moves arms from around my neck as he just grabs me and I scream when I experience the worse pain in my back as he snaps my spine tears flooding my eyes and I just fall on my stomach as I see him grab a vile of medicine swallowing it for him self, he jus grabs a fist fall of my hair pulling my head up "We have all the time in the world and this isn't going to be quick" he sneers as I see the tracker my heart dropping when I just see how far my brother is
Please Campbell, please come
If I'm going to die this way, slowly, all I want to do is see my brother again
I just look up at him my heart against as he quietly mumbles to himself, like his having a debate on what to do to me but when his eyes meet mine I know
I know I won't see my brother again because we have hours until he could make it and I will be dead by then
Xander Clark 18, District 9 Male
I just look at the blood on my hands, as I just growl then I look at the younger girl on the floor staring at me with nothing but fear and terror in her light blue eyes eyes and it makes me angry, she is looking at me like I'm a monster and it makes me want to hurt her more and that terrifies me
Yes I'm a cold person but I'm not insane, I'm not sadistic but at the moment all I want to do is cause her pain, to hear her scream, to see her blood and it terrifies me I just growl again, my mind all over the place, the pain and anger hitting me fall force
"Xander please I don't care if I don't see my brother again" she says softly as I just walk back over to her standing over her as she looks up at me, blood dripping down several parts of her face which makes my hands shake
"That's a lie Alyse, I have to do this"I say
"You don't have to torture me" she whispers
I just sneer at her and she just whimpers trying to crawl away, but she can only move her arms reason why I paralysed her because if Campbell come and se isn't dead I will let her die in his arms or be killed by him, a broken back can not be fixed
And I doubt the capitol would want another cripple to win I pretty much destroy all her chances, and I feel evil, she is right, I have become sick
What the fuck am I doing with my life?
But I have no idea what to fucking do
I just kneel next to her gently grabbing her hands and putting them by her waist, I just move my leg kneeling on top of her resting my knees on her hands as she tries to push me off but she can only move her head, my hands are shaking and I have no clue what I'm doing but in my head I want to make her suffer, not her personally but the images of when I was bullied, when I was the runt has come back to me, has made me spent hours of the night crying, that now it's my turn to make someone suffer
To show everyone what they have done to me, the orphan boys, the district, the capitol, everyone that made me suffer, that I can make someone else suffer, Alyse is just a unfortunate victim and I have to show them I am a villain, it's the only way for me to get out here they don't want some pathetic boy from nine to win, they want someone who played their game, I'm not a puppet but I'm not ready to die
She just whimpers again just placing her head in the dirt, good girl, it's a code of honour you almost sign up for when you get a band, we look down upon people who surrender which is why we do everything to make our opponent surrender so we can make them suffer and if you do if you tap your hand of the ground your at your opponent's mercy, she has no fight left and me being two years older being a lot bigger then her is the reason I won, I just look at my long nails, my hands covered in bad
I don't know how to torture someone especially with my hands but then I remember something Elijah use to do to me, and it hurt like hell, I just growl again, my bullying never really effected me but the second Cohen died, when the doll of Camden spoke to me it almost plagued me yet here I'm am on top of a young girl her has been through worse then me but then I just picture the blood as she tenses when I growl again as I just place my hand under her clothing and she flinches when I place my bare hand her back
I just place my other hand on her head "Xander" she says quietly
"Don't speak" I say
The more she speaks the more I will start feeling something my emotions are all over the place as it is the last thing I need is guilt, but I want to feel guilt
Not yet, I just move my hand to clamp on her mouth, as I slowly bring my nails up and down her skin she just shudders and I scratch down hard as I feel the skin slowly peel off and I make sure I start from the top slowly dragging it up and down as I just look ahead me not being able to see the full damage of her back due to her top covering it but I scratch harder as she just whimpers again
"This is a necessary evil" I mumble, she just mumbles something in my hand as I bring my nails down harder flinching when I feel a few crack in my finer but I keep dragging them up and down her back as I feel more skin fill into my nails but I drag harder just rubbing my nails up and down her back as I look down at her and her eyes meet mine but I just look away, I just slowly spend time making sure I scratch all the skin off her back
Yet I don't feel guilt if anything I want to see and hear her beg in pain beg for my mercy but we have time, Campbell isn't even close and if the capitol are seeing what I'm going to her, they will make sure he doesn't come, I just move my hand from her mouth as she quietly whimpers and I pull her top up seeing barely any skin in her back as I just place my hand on it and she whimpers as I used my thumb to scrap off the last piece of skin off her, knowing that took minutes felt like even hours, as I just flinch at the blood sweeping on my hands no sign of white skin as her back is completely raw my fingers hurt and the snow slightly falls
I just get off her back grabbing her shoulders and pulling her up as she just falls into me and I hold her up remembering she has no feeling in legs because I broke her back and to be honest I enjoy the sound of cracking bone like how I like the look of her blood on my hands but then another part of be is screaming about what I did to her
I just let her lean on my chest for a brief moment "It's okay don't stop" she whispers
"You want to see him that much" I ask I know she is confused, deep down I want to think I'm doing this to reunite the twins but deep down I know I'm not
"I want to say sorry" she whispers as just grab her by the shoulders
"You haven't even said sorry to me stabbing me in the chest and leaving me to bleed out that was a dog act" I growl
That could be why I'm doing this, I don't know but all I want to do is make someone feel something, to feel the pain I had to suffer through "I'm sorry" she whispers
"I don't care" I say
I just shove her to the ground as she whimpers and I smash my boot on her knee as she shouts and I directly press it in her knee cap, moving my foot as she screams again
"I'm not sorry for this" I snarl, I just stop again pressing my boot down harder as I hear more cracks, I use it hate the noise, it reminds me of the night Elijah kicked me over and over again it took me two years to recover and I just scream stomping on her knee cap again and she just grabs at my pants but I ignore her stepping on her other knee as I just bend down grabbing it
"Please don't" she whimpers
I just flinch but I just snarl at her grabbing her leg and twisting it as she just screams and sobs at the same time and I stand up, kicking someone while they are done is fun he said
Let's have fun Xander and see how long it takes you to pick your self up
I just growl at Elijah's words kicking Alyse in the side as I move her so she is laying on her side and she screams when I slam my boot onto her right hip, as I bend down stuffing a whole bunch of dirt and grass in her mouth to stop her from screaming not that it is her fault
I just close my eyes slamming my boot against her stomach
Get up you pathetic runt
You weak piece of shit you can't even defend your self
You are hopeless, pathetic, a stain to this earth
I just grip my eyes shut, I just picture Elijah kicking me over and over again and when I look down at Alyse just crying as I hear more bones breaking as I just slam my boot into her stomach again a whimper escapes my lip my head all over the place, I just slam my boot onto her ribs as she screams again and I just step back as she just sobs on the ground and I flinch but then I look at her with a cold look
This has to be done, this anger I have, I have to take it out on her it's getting to me everything is, I have lost all sense of reality I know that "All I wanted to do was see my brother again" she whimpers
"You have been brave" I say glad she didn't mention my mental break down, I am hoping she didn't notice
She just looks at me tears streaming down her face as I step over her again pressing my knees against her waist, a little shocked by how broken the bones seem as I just press against her ribs and I flinch slightly as I pull her top up seeing how bruised it is as a pang of guilt floods me, no I haven to do this for her, give Campbell a chance to come I still press my knees against her waist as I stay on top of her even if I don't really need to but I like being close and personal to my victim
It makes me feel there pain yet I don't feel anything at the moment
"I have experienced worse" she whispers wincing when I move my body weight slightly to grab a rock, my nails are already splitting and bleeding from when I used them on her back
"Let's hope your brother comes soon then, you deserve peace" I say just hardly pinching her cheek
My hands are shaking, my mind screaming at me torture her telling me I enjoy it because deep down I want to see her suffer because she has been my biggest rival in this games and beating my biggest enemies gives me power
And I have never felt power, I have never felt good about myself yet how could I, How could I feel good at the moment because the second I close my eyes I go ballistic
I just pull her top up this area is dark and she flinches when I put my hand on her bare stomach, she just yells in shock as I bring the rock hardly stomach slowly using it, to graze her skin off as she just shakes from under me and I just move my short hair over my eyes not really wanting to make direct eye contact with her because that's when I start to feel more emotions at the same time that's when I start hallucinating
And I knew coming in here my emotional and mental state could be my down fall, there is a reason why my mental stability was so low even as a kid I wasn't the most mentally stable kid that's probably why my family hated me so much
I use to hear and see stuff at home, even when I was the quiet nice kid, sometimes I found myself smiling at pain
I don't even know how I know what to do, we don't have any weapons not that I would use it on her, no one has tortured someone with a rock before, and I'm not a copy cat, that's why scared me being seen as a fake, that's why I was so hell bent on killing Cian to become the villain because he took my only anchor to humanity in Cohen
But why do I feel pride, no I just close my eyes growling almost enjoying the sight as I place my hand hardly on her chest in case she tries to use my mental debates to push me off as I just rub the rock harder, I feel secure having my victims under me knowing they won't be able to attack me
Victims?
Like I have done this before, I have never have she is my first victim and she will be my only victim, slow and painful death wise
I have beaten boys, especially after Camden died but I never did this, I just hardly bring the up and down her stomach
"Stay with me Alyse" I mumble grabbing her chin still bringing the rock up and down her stomach and rib area making sure there is no skin left as she just quietly mumbles something, she has given up, and I think the only thing keep her going is hoping Campbell will come I hope he does to because then it means I did this to her for her brother
Did I?
Or maybe it's because at the moment I'm having a psychotic break and having her beneath me let's me know I'm not alone, because being alone scares the fuck out of me
She whimpers again when I drag the rock around her skin areas as it grazes the skin off, spending several minutes to ensure every piece of skin if off and I poked her stomach areas with my other hand almost interested by it, almost tempted to cut her stomach open but I can't, maybe it's good I don't have a knife as I keep dragging the rock wanting to make sure there is no skin from rib down
"Is he close by" she whispers as I just scrap off the last pieces of skin on her ribs and stomach using my nails to slowly trace that area as another small whimper escapes her lips
Don't feel guilt
I have to do this, I want to do this, I just growl and she jumps and I just rub her stomach letting the blood soak onto my hands, I just place my hand on her eyes as I take out my tracker biting my lip when I see the time, the last time I looked it was more then an hour ago and even if Campbell is closer he still may be a hour or two for him to come because clearly he has no idea where we are
I just shake my head "Please" she whispers
"You don't want to die" I just say moving my head looking at her and she just mumbles looking away
I can't do this for hours I will run out of idea I have ideas still but I will run out, I just hardly bring my nails down her left side as she just quietly whimpers again, they say the smallest cuts are the worse as I look at the rock flinching when fresh blood drips off
This doesn't feel right yet it doesn't feel wrong, I have this thirst of blood I almost can't describe the feeling and I have never felt this way
Yes I have, when I beat Elijah I enjoyed it to the point I was laughing at his pain, that happened when I beat that boy to death I enjoyed it and that scares me, that is why I tried so hard to be this nice and quiet kid, it kept the monster inside me from breaking free
I slowly drag my nails up and down her side as tears fill her eyes one of them red from when I poked it like, how my eye keeps watering even after the medicine
Even though she is a little girl, she gave me the best fight I have experienced but when your beat arch enemy they need to be at your mercy and here is no different, I just keep dragging my nails down her right side just gripping onto the rock with my other hand
I just lean and look flinching slightly as I do have her clothes covering them, yet she isn't screaming or crying
And I appreciate it because my mind is a mess right now, she tries to mover her head up whimpering again, I let her because I know she can't push me off not that she can move waist down and I did a pretty good job with her ribs to the point I can barely feel some of the bones I felt bad for doing that but I had to do this to someone it's nothing personal and I know if Campbell does come and I run he will either have to kill her and watch her die, I know I'm messing with the wrong twin, but I want to live and I know I can't just be this angry boy they messed with my head the game makers made me feel like a villain
I just scrap my finger down wincing as another nail cracks as I bring my hand up and down not feeling any skin as I bring my rock to her left side flinching when I hear it against some of her bones, broken bones, I just spend several minutes making sure there is no skin left on her right side just making sure her clothing covers the wounds as the blood soaks through her clothes as I look at the blood coating my hands
I get a new rock a sharper one "I didn't think a rock could graze skin off" I say softly
"You are really unarmed aren't you" she says quietly as I roll up her right sleeve, and she just yells in shock when I hardly bring the rock down from her shoulder all the way to her wrist watching as the skin grazes off and I flinch but I just hide the-
Empty feeling inside me
I still don't feel guilt?
And that is scaring me why don't I feel guilt, I am torturing a young girl and even if I feel a little confused I don't feel guilt
"Should of probably given you more knives" I say smirking, as I just slowly watch her skin graze off as my rock drags hardly up and down her skin, like I'm painting a picture I did use to paint and draw but after Camden died I burnt all of them she just rests her head on the grass as I grab her chin it make sure she is still awake as I look at her watch but she isn't close to being dead, I guess her blood is all clogged yet I love the feeling of it and that scares me
I just keep skinning her arm with my rock just bringing my finger up and down and doing it to her next arm, as she just whimpers when she sees her arm and I quickly roll her sleeve down her blood soaks my clothes as I pushing my self against her stomach, and hands but I ignore the screaming in my own head as I finish her left arm and she quietly sobs
"Why don't I feel guilt" I ask, her head slumps and I grab her chin
"With some people when you are doing something bad your mind is in that moment, it could come after my cannon could come a few hours later or you may feel nothing" she says softly
She screams when I just twist her arm hearing the snap of bone, I almost respect, commend her strength some would scream and cry and even if she did at the start, she probably wants to see her brother again yet when I look around he still isn't here I don't even here him screaming in the distance, I grab her left asm
"Please no" she says but I just snap it back hearing another scream as her arm goes completely limp and her lips shudder against each other
I just grab her hand as she just shakes her head
"I'm sorry" I say yet it didn't sound genuine I just use my strength to snap her wrist back as she moves slightly under me but I just press my knees harder against her waist getting another cry
I just snap her wrist back she screams again and I use my left hand to cover her mouth again as I slowly snap each other fingers back as she screams into my hand, hearing the cracking of bones mixed with her crying
I finish with her right thumb just slamming her hand on the ground as she whines placing it under my knee as I grab her right arm, snapping her wrist back and placing her hand in the ground as I bring my rock to it over and over again blood soaking the ground as she just mumbles for me to stop and I look at her feeling a ping of something
Regret, confusion
I grab her by the end of her top pull her up and as I move slightly down her body but still keeping me knees either side of her as she just slumps against my chest in pain as I grab her shoulder "You play good villain" she whispers I look at her smiling sadly
"You are a good hero but they want this don't they" I say
She looks at me nodding and I close my eyes twist her shoulder she yells and her arm slumps to the side "Why isn't he here yet" she whispers
This has been going on for long, had to be over 2 hours now I'm trying to go as slow as I can deep down I want her to see her brother again because that's the best thing I can do, I'm the anti hero maybe I'm not the villain yet I still enjoy the feeling of her blood on my hands I just let her rest her head on my chest her breathing getting shallow as I look at her watch 40%
She isn't dead yet maybe not close, I just twist her shoulder as I see the bone when I pull her top down slightly as I just bring my fist to it knocking it back in as she screams again and I twist it again and I just move my hands as she slumps back on the ground quiet sobs coming from her mouth "This is a big arena" I whisper
"Please" she whispers her head slumping to the ground again as almost everyone bone waist up neck down is broken and I just bring arm to her collar bone knowing I need to her end her soon
Because every time, I close my eyes the images and different screaming noises cloud me and it's making me freak out and the last thing I want is for Campbell to stab me in my back but I know if Campbell sees me on top of his sister he would scream and panic, I slam my arm on her collar bone again grabbing her chin as she just cries out I just bite lip
"Open your mouth" I say
She obeys me but shakes her head trying to chose I when pick the rock back up I just close my eyes hearing her scream as my rock smashes into her teeth, once, twice as she keeps screaming and I look at her, some of her teeth knocked out and chip as blood cascades down her mouth as I throw the rock away
I just spit some of my saliva in her mouth pulling her head up and helping her cough her blood and smashed teeth out as her head drops back as I place my hand down her and throat as she tried to move but she can't pretty much every bone is broken as I slowly bring my nails up and down her throat and she just sobs more trying to bite my hand but she barely has any full teeth if not any as I stop and I look at the tracker as it turns off
"FUCK" I say just throwing it as she just whimpers from under me and I look at her
What have I done?
I just look at the blood soaked on me, as her breathing hitches
I'm sorry" I whisper I look at her as he hands shake and tear flood on eyes and I'm starting to feel guilt
I just crawl up her body my knees either side of her shoulders, I can't keep doing this, I have ran out of ideas, and she has been through enough "Please, I have to see him please" she whispers
I bite my lip "I'm sorry Alyse you have suffered enough I have to put you down now" I say and I flinch at at my harsh words as that guilt goes again and she shakes from under me, as I push my knees harder against her shoulders, I have to end her because this doesn't feel right and I hate myself for it but deep down I enjoyed it, deep down I wish I made it more painful
"Xander please, I can't die like this please" she yells as she moves her head trying to push me off but she can't even move her hands
"I'm sorry" I whisper
"Please, you promised I can see him again, that is why I agreed to this" she whimpers
She didn't have a choice either way but I don't tell her that
"I will tell him, your sorry I promise, I will tell him you forgiven him and you did this for him, I promise" I whisper in her ear she looks at me trying for to move as I bring my fist to her jaw as she just keeps screaming at me but I close my eyes as I bring my fist to her jaw over and over again hearing it unhinged as I hardly punch her throat that terrifying rage coming back to hit me fall force
"I have to, I have to I want to live" I yell bringing my fist to her nose as she keeps trying to move but I hardly punch her jaw
I hardly punch her open mouth again as a strangled cry escapes both of our mouths as but all I see is red and this anger comes back, my fist move to her nose again as a choke escapes her lip when blood sweeps int her mouth and some of her blood splatters on my fist but I keep punching
My fist goes to her eye as she just screams at me to stop, as she just starts screaming for her brother and I just close my eyes as guilt fully hits me and I just cry this isn't right, this isn't right, I just keep crying as my fist keeps hitting her face over and over again as blood splatters onto my face
"Xander stop, please stop PLEASE" she yells
"I'm sorry, I'm sorry I'm sorry" I just repeat
"CAMPBELL, CAMPBELL" she screeches as I just punch her mouth again as she just chokes on more of her blood as I just bring my knee hardly onto her chest pushing my whole weight against it as my fist almost breaks as I punch her hardly in her head again another escaping her lip
As she moves trying to push me and I see the pure terror in her eyes as she screams again for her brother and I hardly bring my fist into her head
Once twice, until she stops moving under me
I just press my knees hardly in her chest still punching over and over again as my knuckles feels as if they are broken "I'm sorry, I'm sorry" I choke
'BOOM'
I just scream when I look down her head almost caved in and I just choke all that hurt, all that fear coming back
"No, no I'm sorry, I didn't mean it I didn't, come back" I say shaking her but she is gone, her head slumps to the side as blood still comes from her mouth her nose, her face badly beaten, this doesn't feel right
"What have I done" I whispered, why did I do that torture her beat her like that when all she wanted was her brother
"What have I done" I repeat as she is just limp under me and tears flood down my fave as all the guilt hits me fall force, that boy I killed, Kieran, that guilt comes
I jump when a parachute lands next to me, as I slowly open it hoping for a gun I can shoot in my skin but instead I see medicine, a sword and a few knives but nothing to wash this blood drenching me as I put my hand through my short hair struggling to get my hand out due to the blood and knots
I read the note 'Run, give your self a few minutes I will help you get through this-M'
"ALYSE"
Campbell
I just grab the gift feeling bad about just leaving her body there as I just take off running choking on my own tears as I just shake bit even if I feel like just giving up and crawling in a hole
I have to try and live otherwise I just did that to a poor girl for nothing and I am nothing why did I do that, because I was off my head and now that I realised what I have done it doesn't feel right, but I just close my eyes, I have to live now for the girl I brutally tortured, for the 4 now 3 (Fuck Cian) tributes I killed, for Camden and Cohen, I have to live
As much as I want to kill myself right now
I just keep sprinting as I fall over and I scream angrily smashing my already broken fist in the ground as I look at my fist, the fist soaked in Alyse's blood the fist broken after beating her over and over
I just take the medicine as I just hug my leg this feeling of disgust filling me I hate myself, I hate what I did because deep down I don't know what I did, deep down I enjoyed it and that scares me
"I'm sorry Alyse" I say even if she won't be able to hear it, I just stand up my hands shaking as I scratch my face wanting to get the blood off but when I hear a scream in the distance I take off running more please don't tell me him across her body, of course did because I'm sick a monster that tortured and left her like that
I just scream in anger throwing my hammer as it l clings onto a factory door and I just stumble my lip quivering my head is all over the place my mind is all over the place, I don't
I don't know what to do I just fall to the ground in the factory just hugging my legs and sobbing, why did I do that
Why did I torture a 16 year old girl to death
Campbell Balson 16, District 2 Male
This doesn't feel right, my chest hurts, fear and terror floods me, she is trouble I can feel I have the second we split, it I look at the tracker I finally found running as fast as can, I need to find my baby sister, I need to see her again, she needs to win this, I need to say sorry
I keep running ignore them emotions inside, I need to save her form the boy from 9 I know she is trouble that's why I have the tracker, that's why I feel as if a part of me is getting ripped away, she can't die, she can't
"CAMPBELL" Alyse screeches I look around hoping I can see her but they are still far away
"ALYSE" I scream I will not loose her I can't loose her, I have to see her, I have to let her know how much I love her, how thankful I am too her, I cannot not loose her not when I said those nasty things got her, I can't live or die knowing she thinks I hates her, I will never hate her
I keep running panic spreading in me
No maybe she is just screaming so I would kill him, she wouldn't get beaten by some hopeless boys from 9, she will be okay, she can beat him, she will be okay, I just ignore the man in black "What" I growl at him, my tracker turns off, the fuck as my heart sinks
BOOM
Something in me feels like it's been ripped out as I fall to my knees, no she can't be dead, it's just Xander, yeah the cannon is just Xander, it has to be Xander, maybe she screamed because he was about to kill her but she was able to beat him, she can't die, she wouldn't die, yet I feel like a part of me has been ripped apart
I just scream as Tears fill my eyes
"ALYSE" I scream
I keep running as I trip over again tears filling my eyes "ALYSE" I scream if she was alive, she would scream back why isn't she screaming back, maybe she fell asleep yeah, I will find her asleep I wake up tell how much I love her then we can
We can what?
No I want to do die, she deserves the world, she deserves to go back home, find a boy that loves her in that icky romantic way and they can raise a family and she can be happy, she can live knowing she won't have her stupid twin brother pulling her down, putting her in danger, she will be okay, I keep running, until I walk into a darkened forest area with snow slowly fallen but it's really dark
"ALYSE" I scream, dread fills me but I swallow it she will be okay she has to be okay she will be okay I know it
I know it, I keep walking screaming when I trip over something or some one, as I look at my hands that all wet and all of a sudden the lights turn on and I look at the body a strangled cry coming from my throat as my whole world crashes to a million pieces
No no no, she can't be she can't be dead
"ALYSE" I scream, as tears fall down my face and I look at the pool off blood around her, soaking my knees as I look at her face, blood splatters on her face as I can barely recognise the side of her face that is carved in but I know it's her, I just look at her long blonde blood matted hair and I know it's her, I scream again no no
She can't be dead "Alyse" I cry as I pull her up and her head just slumps again as I start crying, and I just stroke her hair yet, she looks so peaceful, she had to be asleep she has to, death isn't peaceful it is evil and twisted
Yet when I look at the side of her temple her lips practically blue I just scream again hugging onto her hoping she will wake, she has to wake
I put my hands on her pulse nothing, I look at her hands as I gently place her down again more lights turning on as her nose looks almost crushed, her jaw unhinged, she must just be unconscious
Then where is Xander?
I just hardly put my hand on her chest remembering what we were taught in the academy I can revive her. it's okay I can revive her, but when I push my hand on her chest it just collapses more like her into rib cage is crushed to peaceful
"NO ALYSE WAKE UP PLEASE WAKE UP" I yell when a hear a bone snap, why is her chest like that, I just open her mouth breathing into it trying to give her, trying to wake her up nothing
That's when my whole world collapses and I pull her back into me holding her broken hand, what happened too her, I just notice a grazing by her wrist as I pull her sleeve up almost vomiting when I see there is no skin left on her arms, I just hold onto her as anger fills me
"XANDER, XANDER" I scream
He did this to her
He killed her
No he tortured her
My little sister one of the most harmless and nicest people you would meet and he did this to her, he killed her, he took her away form me, she died thinking I hated her
"No you can't, I need you, please come back to me you deserve to win, you deserve to win" I repeat
Why did he do this to her?
She wasn't like me, she wasn't evil, she did everything for us to survive, there was no callous in it
I just pull her top up again no skin, as her rips seem broken, he skinned her then beat her to death, He tortured her, and she was harmless yes she killed people, yes she was a strong girl but she never did anything bad, I just look at her wish she would open her eyes and say I'm here, and say she forgives me and we could back home she is my world, I can't live without her, I can't
I'm nothing without her, I just look at her watch fear flooding me as I just hold her broken hand, hold her broken body and my heart sinks when I see her watching knowing it's true, knowing that she is dead, that's why I feel so empty, feel as if a part of me has be ripped out
She is dead
Deceased
Placed 3rd
Killed By Xander Clark
Cause of death Blood loss/Head Trauma/Collapsed lung
No "NO" I scream as I just hold onto her
He killed her and this rage that fills me is as strong as anything , what he did to her, she just didn't die to a stab in the chest, she didn't get a peaceful death not that she deserved to die, she didn't deserved this
"Alyse I'm sorry for what I said, I didn't mean it" I whisper holding her hand but I know, I know she can't hear me, she died thinking I hated her, I just look at her neck panicking when I don't see the twin charm thinking the boy who took my sister away from me, stole it then I look through her pockets taking out the the black string with the small pink teddy bear
She took it off because she thought I hated her, I feel more tears flood my eyes as I just hold onto it "I will never hated you, I'm sorry I knew you did it for me, I hope you will know it, I will kill him for you, I will make him suffer so much pain that he would never know, I promise you" I say quietly in her ear
I hate a lot of people if anything I don't really like anyone beside my sister and my mates well only really Owen and our mentors I like them Tylah said in the note they were trying to send me something to find her but they couldn't, fuck the capitol when I get out of here I'm going to burn this city to the ground I hate all of them they are the reason, the only person I love is gone
No the capitol didn't do this, Xander did
He killed her
And now he is going to suffer, he is going to suffer so bad, that he will regret being born but I don't know I don't know how I can survive without her, she is my life, I can't live without her, I couldn't even tie my own laces or zip my jacket up, she looked after me and I look out for her, I was her rock that helped her hide her emotions but I couldn't save her, I let Xander torture her and I couldn't save her in time, if I didn't blow up she wouldn't be dead, it's my fault, I look at the knife in my hand wanting so bad to push it in my chest but looking at Alyse, looking at the blood soaked around her the wounds he gave her, I can't let him get away with it, he has to suffer, he has to suffer so much and then I will kill my self
Fuck the capitol, fuck the game makers, they won't be getting a victor of the 202nd hunger games, I put her token back onto her neck flinching when I see more blood as I put it under her clothes even her back is bleeding, I gently rest her on the ground not wanting to leave her body out of the open like this but that a monster has to die, I just growl as I look at her one more time, the last time we were together I told her I never wanted to see her again and now I haven't
I just rub the tears from my eyes, as I see footprints and droplets of blood, the coward just killed her and left her like that I hate him so much but I do that too, I leave people I kill but they deserve it, Alyse didn't
"XANDER COME OUT HERE AND FACE ME YOU BASTARD" I yell my mind is all over the place but what I do know all I want is that boy to suffer, I want him to feel so much pain
I just scream when I feel someone touch me as I swing my sword but no one is there "Xander" I scream maybe he is dead, maybe this is a bad dream and I will wake up back home with Alyse next to me but I know this is real, even if I don't believe much is real, I steady my breathing
As I keep following the droplets of blood until I make it into some large factory as I see a shadow in the distance and I slowly walk over "FUCK THIS" Xander yells as he pulls off the handle as I just scream at him lunging when see the boy that murdered my sister
The boy that tortured her and all I feel is this anger ripping inside me, he dodges out of the way as he looks at me and I flinch, his clothing looks black but I know he had dark grey, his hands are soaked and blood his splattered all over his face
"YOU KILLED MY SISTER" I yell lunging at him, I never felt this much range towards someone but all I want to do is fall down and cry I don't want to live anymore but look at Xander who just steps out the way lip quivering
"I'm sorry" he mumbles
"You are sorry, you are fucking sorry is that all you have to fucking say to me" I growl lunging at him with my sword but my head is all over the place and I yell when his hammer hits my head and I stumble back growling at him
"What am I meant to say" he yells
I lunge at him again and he swings his hammer at my chest "YOU TORTURED HER" I yell
"I did it so I could give you time to come but you didn't" he growls
His voice is shaking and I see guilt on his face but I just lunge at him again screaming as he ducks out of the way and I fall on the ground crying "You killed her" I say softly
"I had to, I want to live Campbell she was in my way" he says
He killed her
"YOU KILLED HER" I yell screaming at him again as my sword enters into his stomach and he stumbles back and all I feel is anger and rage at this boy that stole my sister away from me, he seems a little confused my my erratic emotions but I just ignore him
"I'm sorry" he whispers as I lunge again but he just side steps almost like he doesn't want to kill me, he deserves to die he murdered my little sister, he killed her, he stole her away from me and I will never forgive him
"I HATE YOU" I yell swinging my sword at his him him but he blocks it with his hammer
"I SAID IM FUCKING SORRY" he yells slamming his head into me rage on his face I swing again and he stumbles back as I just kick him in the chin
"You stole my sister away from me" I cry, he flinches
"She wanted to see you again, she said she forgives you, she wanted me to torture her because she thought you hated her" he says I feel tears flooding my eyes as I lunge at him and he blocks it
"I didn't hate her, I could never hate her" I whimper, thinking she died thinking I hate her breaks me apart, I hate myself but I hate this boy much more, all I see is the murderer of my sister, the boy whole my sister my sister from me but my head isn't in it when I look at him I see the most who took her away, who tortured her and I couldn't save her
I barely dodge his hammer "IM GOING TO TEAR YOU APART" I scream but when my sword is about to enter his neck it just disappears as does his hammer and he grumbles
"I don't have anything to live for" I say falling on my knees as he looks at me biting his lip "She didn't deserve to die like that, what you did to her your a monster" I growl standing
Anger floods his face "I DID IT FOR YOU" he screams but I see the manic look in his eye, I got that look it scares me when I see my evil twin in the mirror the. Alyse told me I don't have another twin because if did we would be triplets and it's only me and her but now it's just me
Because he killed, I can't even say his name without growling
"NO YOU DIDN'T YOU DID IT BECAUSE YOU ARE A MONSTER, YOU KILLED HER, YOU KILLED HER" I yell lunging at him as he just grunts slamming into me
"Shut the fuck up, I had to" he growls
But when I close my eyes I see he body again now he skinned her, how he broke her bones and I throw myself at her as we go rolling to the ground and I just slamming my fist into his throat as he winces "She is all I have and you stole her from me" I growl as I land on top of me but he easily pushes me off
"You think I don't hate myself for it for once in my fucking life I feel guilt, but I had to I wanted to see blood, I wanted to see someone in pain" he yells
I just flinch bit I don't feel pity for this boy "Why didn't you target me" I yell lunging at him as he just grabs me by the shoulders slamming me to the ground as he holds my shoulders
"I couldn't find you, look I'm sorry I hate myself for it but I want to live" he says brining a knife out but I'm too angry and I easily throw him off as he swings at me but I just grab his hand sinking my teeth in it as he yells in just and I yell when his knife enters my leg
But all I see is red, all I want to do is make this boy suffer make him suffer so bad, I just throw myself at him as even he feels a little shocked and he I grab him by the neck "I hate you" I growl as I sing my fist to his jaw and he flinches
"What you beat her to death didn't you what the fuck did you do to her" I say when I swing my fist at his nose again
"I had to" he whispers like he can't even move like he feels guilt and he should he would be buried and remember what he did over and over again
"NO YOU DIDN'T NOT THE WAY YOU DID, I stumbled across her body you know how that feels" I cry
"I Uh-" I just cut him off but slamming my knife in his leg as he just winces
"no you don't, I am going to make you suffer, I'm going to make you feel every single bit of pain" I growl as he just to push me off but I have him pinned as tears fill my eyes
"I didn't on know what. I was hoping you would come, but I want to live you don't get it" he mumbles
I just growl at him twisting my knife into his shoulder, but his right I don't but he killed her I can't ignore now and seeing her blood on him makes me even angrier "You did because you wanted too, Don't lie" I scream
He just looks at me and my breathing gets heavier, and I look at my knife as he just looks at me almost like his willing to let me kill him
"You killed Alyse" I whisper looking at my knife
I don't know if I could live without her, she is all I have she is the reason why I stay in control the reason why I try to wake up every morning why I believe there is light in the end of the tunnel I feel alone, and scared she was the only one that killed me
"I can't do this" I cry he just pushes me off him as I just fall to the floor and I just kneel down
"You took her away from me" I shout all I felt was anger but now I can't even pick my self up
"I had to" he says bluntly but his hands are shaking
"I can't live without her" I cry he steps forward as he slowly walks over to me and I just fall in the quietly sobbing, I feel empty, I fell lost like I have no reason to live, I need her, I want her with me saying it's okay, I want her to know how much I loved her in a sibling way the other way is icky, I feel a hand grab my short blonde hair as I meet eyes with Xander who just looks at me with a cold look in my eyes as I stay on my knees
"I'm sorry" he just repeats like he doesn't know what to say
"She thinks I hate her" I whisper when he steps closer pulling my short hair tighter as my head moves up
My hands shake as I want to feel angry with him and I do but I don't even know if I have the heart to stand up I just want to see her again "She wasn't sure that's sure she wanted to see you again, she loved you, she was sorry" he says
I just look at him tears filling my eyes "I want my sister" I say as he steps closer but I stay on my knees as he pulls my head up tighter
"YOU KILLED HER" I scream just biting his hand again as he helps and I throw myself at him but he ducks out of the way as the anger comes back
"YOU DESERVE TO DIE" I yell just lunging for him but he steps out of the way as I just cry again
"I want my sister" I whisper
"I can take her to you" he says stepping close but I just growl at him lunging at him again as we roll into a bunch of boxes and I just bring another knife out trying to stab him in the face hardly gripping his chin and he kicks up but all I feel is pure rage, looking at him I see the boy who killed my sister
"I'm going to kill you" I yell trying to stab him in the face but he just growls gripping my wrist
"She is in a better place, this world is cruel for a girl like her" he says
I just choke but I still feel pure anger as my knife try's to stab his face but he hardly grips my hand trying to push my knife away as I push my body weight on him "No she deserved to live" I cry
"I'm sorry" he says
"STOP SAYING THAT" I yell as I feel the knife closer to his face he just grips my wrist harder but I don't even see his thumb coming to towards my eye as I scream when he harder pushes down and he rolls over me, as he keeps pushing down on my eye as I feel like I can barely see through it as he easily pins me done pushing his weight against me as he snatches my knife from my hand as I look at whimpering
"Be with your sister Campbell" he says as I hardly feel him slit my throat and I just grab my neck
"You promise I will see her" I say quietly as I just rest my head on the ground as he gets off me nodding
All I want is to be with my sister again
I just close my eyes my body shaking as I feel the life slowly drain from me
''Congratulations to our victor of the 202nd Hunger games, Xander Clark of district nine'
I just look up again as I see Xander just scream hardly bring the knife across his wrist as I just smile there may not be a victor after all
BOOM
Deaths
3rd: Alyse Balson, District 2 Female- Killed By Xander Clark, District 9 Male
2nd: Campbell Balson, District 2 Male- Killed By Xander Clark, District 9 Male
Victor: Xander Clark, District 9 Male