Time Period: A Flashback
Situation: Faith's stillbirth (a homebirth)
Ivy's p.o.v
"My back and legs are hurting. Giving birth in this squatting position is not working" I complain. "You should give birth in the bathtub. A nice warm bath will ease your pain" Laurie recommends. Upon request, Laurie runs me a nice warm bath. I feel comfortable and at peace here in the bathtub. Occasionally, Laurie will touch my stomach hoping to feel our baby move or the intensity of my contractions. My constant moans and groans sound like music to Laurie's ears. When the moment is right, he assists me in delivering our baby. We hear silence instead of our newborn daughter's first cries. Dr. Hobbs confirms our worst fear in which is our precious daughter Faith has died. Laurie and I didn't plan for Faith, but we loved and mourned her anyway. "I am so sorry for your loss" are Dr. Hobbs' final departing words.
Time Period: The Present Reality
Event: Faith's funeral
Ivy's p.o.v
My bottomless ocean of grief
A dark period of infant loss and sorrow
Drowning in white noise
Echoes of a dying pipe dream
A premature sunrise
Realizing and remembering what could've or should've been
A dark period of infant loss and sorrow
These inescapable baby blues
Heaven's unexplainable signs and wonders