Disclaimer:
As usual, please do not take any medical advice from this, ever. (Not that you would, but still...)
I googled "recovery from getting your appendix out" and read like, 3 lines from WebM.D. for this.
Not something you want to learn from after your own or your pal's operation. TY for reading!
bobbiejelly
Second Person, Thirty-Two
You don't know where you're going. All you know is that you're with her; you're with Meredith Grey for at least the whole entire day. And you're on a first date with her... And you're driving somewhere far away on the freeway. You know that this is the occasion she was saving your first kiss together for… And you don't know where you're going, because it's a surprise…! :D.
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It's been a month since her surgery, and since then you have not left her side in the slightest.
Over the past several weeks...
You stayed over in bed with her in her room every night. They brought you a cot to sleep on, but you never used it for sleeping, because you want to sleep spooned in with Meredith. It's useful still for you, though only to hang out and sit on sometimes as you write in your diary, still.
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Sometime during the first days after Meredith's surgery...
You're surprised that when you finally do 'come out' to Derek Shepherd that he's not as surprised as you might have expected.
He said he's lived with you for over a decade, and he's noticed you looking over his shoulder at women even before Meredith, he's just never mentioned it to you before now.
You ask if he hates you for it. He says he doesn't at all, and he's still getting over the cheating thing with Mark, and the whole 'baby-no-baby-lying' thing, and the whole 'my girlfriend/ex-mistress left me for my ex-wife,' thing...
But that someday he might be willing to be just friends with you and Meredith sometime once he's healed in the future.
You wish him good luck with the dating thing.
He wishes you and Meredith the very same.
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When you come out to the rest of the hospital staff, the Interns make you a rainbow out of gummy bears, and the Attendings get you a mug that says... 'Hey, I'm totally Gay!" for your coffee and tea.
You're really glad that they're supportive about this, and they just say that it's long past the era that that's something to judge you for.
All the interns made a giant card out of a Bristol board at some point. Apparently it was Izzie Stevens' idea because she really likes glitter glue.
Cristina Yang kept Meredith informed of every single surgery everyone was performing, and this kept Bailey happy because she quizzed Meredith to keep her up on her residency, and she aced it every time (you promised Bailey you wouldn't ever help her cheat - only learn from you!).
Alex Karev and George O'Malley frequently brought in buffalo wings or mini pizza pops, and you all would sit around and eat them together. Callie Torres is still dating George and you're pretty sure Alex is dating Izzie but they're too proud to admit that to anyone, just yet.
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Preston Burke is being a bit of a jerk to Cristina Yang, so you stick up for her because Meredith wants you to, and he listens to you, mostly, because you are a fellow attending. They're still 'going steady'.
After Meredith's pregnancy scare you insert an IUD for Cristina so she has an extremely low risk of pregnancy.
At one point all the doctors had to get tested for STD's, and Burke didn't want the shame of doing that originally, but you insisted tested her and Cristina anyway, because you knew it was the right thing to do, and you encouraged Cristina to insist on using condoms with her boyfriend even if he didn't always want to.
Luckily, it seems to be working because she never got accidentally pregnant from him, ever again, at least not until now, thank goodness.
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Richard Webber comes in from time to time to give her updates on her mother, Ellis Grey. He goes to visit her because Meredith can't, and she's glad because she knows her mother still loves him, even though he still has a wife, Adele Webber.
You wonder how Adele feels about all this, but you don't ever ask her, even the time she comes in to check on Meredith, herself, because she found out about her operation through the grapevine or something like that.
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The only people you don't see so often are Mark Sloan and Derek Shepherd. Not that that's really surprising given you both each just left them both… For good… (In no particular order…)
You both see Mark more than Derek because he promised you both that he'd still be your friend even if he is Derek's person.
Every time Mark walks in he says "how are my ex-favorite dirty mistresses doing?" and you both say "better than you because we both have each other as girlfriends!" And he jokes about 'having a threesome' and you shoot him down because you are only a lesbian, now.
Not that Meredith is interested in the threesome concept, either, because each time Mark brings it up, Meredith tucks herself into you posessively and says that she really does not like to share.
You're extremely glad.
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After the first week, Meredith is allowed to go outside in a wheelchair and you venture around the hospital pushing her as fast as Bailey and Richard would let you go with her.
She screams "wheeeeeeeeeee!" As if she is on a roller coaster and you feel like you're flying through space and time.
You still go to the gift shop for chocolate, and you're probably the biggest supporters of their business, because they've started to give you both a 'member's discount' which you're not sure is really a 'thing'.
You take it, though, and the storekeepers' orders in extra fudge-piece ice-cream-sandwiches because they know they're still your favorite.
You have these outside the hospital in the little park nearby, and Meredith says how much she likes to see the sunshine again. You say that the fresh air sure is nice without clouds over the top which is rare for Seattle... But then she says she's talking about the "sunshine you get in your eyes just for her".
You don't stop blushing for an entire hour.
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After week two she can walk a little for short distances and she can ride along in the car with you if you don't go far.
Usually you take the old trip out to the RiteAid, and the staff there wonder what's been keeping you away for so long.
You're not sure if you're flattered or embarrassed that every single store that sells some form of chocolate recognizes you both (and recognizes you now 'as an item'!) but you always leave a tip so they keep calling you by your first names because you really do both enjoy that.
You still never explicitly tell anyone about your chocolate excursion tradition, because that's part of the fun.
You do, by contrast, tell other people that you are 'seeing each other as more than just friends' and that neither of you is 'at all single to date or screw other people,' though that one makes you laugh because Meredith is hardly in a state of physical recovery to have any sex, now.
And you're not quite ready to jump that far in too fast, either, anyhow.
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You have the instinct to try not to picture sleeping with her sexually every time you go out together, but you can tell Meredith is thinking the same thing, also, especially when she whispers dirty secrets right into your ear…
However, you realize you don't have to feel guilty about having these fantasies, anymore, and she tells you as such.
Meredith starts telling you all the things that she'd like to do with your bodies together, and she teases you a bit when you're alone together, and she smirks widest when she can tell that you're stuttering because you're so flustered.
Eventually, you get up the courage to start sharing some of your own dirty thoughts about her, into her ear.
Meredith loves this, and you're always rewarded with a warm hand running up your thigh (still over your clothes!) and it feels amazing already.
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You still have not kissed yet, because you're saving that for when she's discharged from the hospital, upon her request.
Meredith says she doesn't want her first kiss with you to be in Seattle Grace where she literally practically grew up as a child.
She says she'll kiss you at work after that, just that she has this grand plan to make your first kiss with a girl magical, and so you go with it, and you stick to the teasing.
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After the third week she can drive herself for a short distance, as long as she's with someone who can take over, and most often, that's you, of course.
She drives you both to the farmer's market that you went to before with her.
This time you try as many of the things that you can that you circled after the first time you were there with her.
You take a picture of the little map you kept in your diary because you don't want the original to blow away in the wind.
You end up with an overflowing basket of whipped cream chocolate waffles, deep-fried Mars Bars (you find these too rich but Meredith likes them), and triple-chocolate cupcakes which end up being your favorite out of the bunch.
You head to the market when you're in the mood for something homemade, and eventually Izzie catches on to your penchant for baked goods and bakes you a batch of chocolate muffins "for taking such good care of her", and you are truly touched by the gesture.
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After four weeks you know it could be any day now when Meredith can go home from the hospital.
Meredith is growing more and more restless, and she pouts when Bailey says "maybe tomorrow, Grey," when her test results come back.
You comfort her the best you can with snuggles, and she nuzzles herself right into your neck.
You can tell that her sex drive is starting to ramp back up because she starts letting her hands wander higher onto your hip and her fantasy whispers are becoming more and more elaborate.
You're not sure how you're going to be able to withstand Meredith's full-on libido after this is all over, because already you find yourself sticky from arousal after Meredith describes her latest sex dreams.
(You have a few of those about her, yourself, but you're still too shy to describe lesbian sex in that vivid detail, to anyone, even with Meredith.)
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Today is different though, you feel it, you know it.
You and Meredith can pretty much tell that this is the day that she's going home because it's not only Bailey who is here for rounds, but the entire surgical staff of Seattle Grace Hospital.
It's the Chief, Richard Webber, who finally says it.
He says to Meredith "you're ready, now, Meredith. Congratulations, dear," and you have to hold her in your arms tighter because she starts to literally jump for joy in the bed and she still has to take it easy with the acrobatics for a little while.
You help her pack out, including all of the books that go back to the Nicu, the cot that goes back into storage, and the plants that are donated to the oncology garden (as it turns out, there is a hospital garden, and you learn this when you ask the chief where to put the extra petunias.)
You drive her to her house, and she proudly shows it all off to you.
You see her room for the first time, and you look at all the pictures on the wall.
You like that she's happy in them, and you say this and she promises she can't wait to pin up lots and lots of photos of just the two of you on her bulletin board.
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You don't know whether to go or stay right away, and you realize you don't have the perfect reason to a sleepover with her every evening anymore.
Meredith can tell you look crestfallen about this, and asks you to keep staying with her anyway, and she promises that "my bed is even and better and plusher than the one in the hospital".
You're far from being officially 'moved in, together, as a couple', but you certainly do spend a lot of time at the Grey-Everyone household.
You've become an accepted member of the "interns plus Callie crew" who all move in and out of this full house seemingly day to day and at will.
It helps that you can actually cook, and you often take over dinner duty along with Callie (because Meredith is not allowed to lift heavy objects, still), and she teaches you her heirloom recipe for chicken piccata.
Meredith still hangs out with you in the kitchen, though, until Callie sends her off for a shower while you're doing the chopping part because she's scared that her constant touching you on your shoulders and arms is going to result in a knife slipping.
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You see her packing the car one day once she's cleared to move more than 20 pounds at a time, and you ask her if she wants a hand but she says she wants to do this herself so she can build up her strength again.
So you stay in close vicinity and pick out music for a new shared playlist/mixtape. This is one of many because you're always making these twenty-song lists together where you each add ten songs at a time.
As it turns out she has a collection of Dr. Seuss books in hardcover, or rather, Richard Webber does and he gives them to you one day in a box, saying that they used to be for when he read bedtimes stories to Meredith when Thatcher Grey was out of town and Ellis Grey invited him over to spend the nights there.
You don't ask more questions about that arrangement, you just say "thank-you" and you read them with Meredith every night after that.
She always likes it when you do the voices for "The Cat In The Hat" the most.
You put "One Fish, Two Fish, Red Fish, Blue Fish" at the end of the pile because you're still a bit embarrassed about how you and Derek read that to Meredith together, and you don't want to explain to her, yet, about how Derek once called her "the fish with the tiny car" in case she gets offended at that part.
So anyway, she's packing the car as if for a longer excursion, and you ask what she has in mind, and all she says is that she asked another favor from Richard Webber to give you the whole day off tomorrow and that you should dress in layers just in case…
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When the morning comes and you're frying up eggs for Meredith (and everyone who currently lives with you, which is most of the interns at any given time, plus probably Callie), you're reaching for the milk to make omelets when you see Meredith sneak out to the car to pack more things into it.
You want to follow her, but you don't want breakfast to burn, and you also hypothesize she might be planning something for you she doesn't want you to know about, quite yet, until later.
Everyone eats the eggs with their own preferred toppings, and apparently omelets are a big hit.
Cristina likes green onion, Izzie likes tomatoes. George likes ham, Alex likes extra bacon. Callie eats hers with taco spice and you make Meredith's with a bit of everything in it. You like your omelet classic with just the cheese on top.
You serve everyone's plates and call them all to dinner, and when Meredith spies your plate she says it's perfect for you because she is 'cheesy for her'.
You smile at her and snuggle up at the table and everyone mock rolls their eyes up in protest and says "oh my god how are you two not banging yet!"
You laugh and you explain that you're "taking it slowly" and they say that you're worse than a rom-com, but in real life, and the gay version.
Everyone heads to work after that and Meredith says that you love that you're so mushy with her with all your coupley-things, even if you're both still technically celibate-yet-together.
You take it all as a major compliment, because you're happy together with Meredith, after all.
%%%
You're alone in the house now, and you're extremely excited.
Meredith checks to see if you have everything that you need for your 'mini-vacation'.
You do, apparently, so you pack yourselves into the car and she drives you out of Seattle.
You say you can drive any time that she needs you to, and she offers for you to drive home or if she gets tired, but that she wants to drive now because she loves the way you lick your lips looking at her with her eyes on the road that she sees when she looks over at you at the red lights.
You don't know where you're going. All you know is that you're with her; you're with Meredith Grey for at least the whole entire day. And you're on a first date with her... And you're driving somewhere far away on the freeway. You know that this is the occasion she was saving your first kiss together for… And you don't know where you're going, because it's a surprise…! :D.
You're far out from Seattle, you know that for sure. You took an exit somewhere but you can't remember if it was north, south, east, or west.
You don't care at all, you have the music from your playlist on, and the air conditioning up on 'blast'.
You're jamming out to your favorite songs and singing together at the top of your lungs.
You stop a few times for a break from the driving, and every time you snuggle up in the backseat for a little while before you get back in the passenger's seat and she gets back in the driver's seat.
You can tell she wants to cuddle into you, even while driving, but you take her hand off of your hip and/or shoulder, saying that as much as you love the contact, you don't want to get in an accident on your first date together, ever, and Meredith reluctantly agrees because she knows you are right, after all.
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You realize you're going to be boarding a boat (a ferry-boat, as Derek might have said had he been here, you both think simultaneously and then you laugh about this), as you realize more about where you are going.
You're in the lineup for Whidbey Island, now, and you and Meredith are parked in your space until they call all the cars to drive onto the boat.
You're more tempted than ever to start kissing or something, but you both agreed to save that for the end of the date, so instead, you're spooning each other in the backseat of Meredith's car without touching your lips together.
This time you're the little spoon, and Meredith is running her fingers down your arm and shoulder and it's sending shivers right down your spine.
You can feel her whole front pressed into your back, and your imagination is spinning out of control, and you know Meredith's is, too, because she's whispering sweet nothings into your ear again and you're trying not to moan obscenely at the extremely X-Rated things she is saying to you.
It's getting impossibly steamy in the car, now, even just from the 'mostly platonic' snuggling going on, and all this dirty talk, so you crack open the windows and feel the salt breeze coming through.
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You luckily do not fall asleep in her arms, because Meredith has fallen asleep nuzzling behind you, and you have just enough time to wake her up and sit her up next to you before the ferry attendant comes by to inspect your vehicle before you board the ferry.
She looks at you sheepishly, and you say it's great that she's resting because she's recovering, but you didn't want to give the transport staff the idea they were walking in on her fucking you from behind.
Of course, that only provokes her to raise her eyebrows at you, asking if you would like that, and she takes your incoherent stammering at her question as a 'hell yes, for sure, sometime!'.
Pretty soon you've buckled in again and she's turning the ignition key. You park in the underbelly of the ferry in your assigned spot, and you pick up your return ticket from the attendant.
There's no fuss about payment because there are two trips; two ways to treat each other, for this part, at least.
You lock up the car and close the windows again, and you hold hands as you venture up to the top deck to feel the wind off your face.
You love the ocean, she loves the ocean, you stare into the view and she leans her head on your shoulder and you pull her in close and plant a kiss on the top of her head as she smiles up at you.
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You tell her that if you hadn't gifted her your old wedding ring from Derek that you probably would have thrown it into the ocean out of spite or something.
Meredith tells you she's glad that you didn't, because she now loves wearing your ring, and she doesn't think about what it used to mean about Derek at all, because it became a symbol of your friendship, and now she likes to pretend she's already engaged to you.
You're so flustered at this that you don't know what to say at all.
She promises you she's not planning to propose anytime soon, nor hoping that you will in real life, she just wanted to tell you that that's what this ring means to her now.
You tell Meredith that her pink pen means the same thing to you, and always has, and she smiles and promises she'll buy you a new salmon-colored-pen from her secret mystery location the minute yours runs out of pink ink.
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She asks you if you remember the conversation where she said she used to think about throwing herself in the ocean sometimes in the bathtub, and you get very sad when you say that you do.
Meredith then reassures you that she thinks about that less and less every day and that it's not just because she 'needs you' in her life; it's because in leaving her old life with Derek behind, she's come to better respect herself and her self-worth enough to feel like she doesn't think about those dark thoughts very often at all.
You cry as she says this, and you say that you realize you've started to forgive yourself from your own past mistakes and that you wake up with a spring in your step instead of dread, now that you're out of your marriage you tried in, and now that you're out, and now that you're seriously trying to date someone you love back in the way that you truly are.
You realize that you don't hate Derek at all, on the contrary; both of your time with him has taught you a lot about life, and that's just a part of it, and you wish him and Mark the best with the rest of their lives, and you've said as much before to each of them, many times.
Meredith asks you offhand if you think Mark and Derek could ever be actually 'into each other someday', and you realize you'd never actually given it any serious thought before.
You say you have no idea, but that going on a double-date with them if they, hypothetically, started dating each other, would be the most hysterically awkward yet funny and actually maybe good outcome that you could ever ask for…
(You wonder a bit about your ex-boys being gay, but you decide that either way, you're happy for them if they are both happy if they end up together as more than friends just as you and Meredith did, well, that's just par for the course…)
And then you stop thinking and talking about boys because you remind Meredith you want to spend your time talking about "ONE SPECIAL GIRL IN SPECIFIC, MEREDITH GREY!" and she says that she wants to "LEARN ALL ABOUT ADDISON MONTGOMERY!"
And you're yelling because the warm wind nips at your face, with just the slightest refreshing coolness in the breeze, as you look over the land creeping closer toward you as you get closer to your next destination.
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Driving on the island is much less busy than in town, and you enjoy the scenery as you doze off a little, now that Meredith has already rested and she's over easy terrain anyway.
You wake up when she starts rubbing your back to "wake up, sleepyhead," as she places a light kiss on your forehead and tells you that you have arrived.
You didn't know what to expect at all, from today, and you're far beyond pleased with just the ferry boat ride.
As soon as you take ten steps outside the parking lot though, you realize why you've come here, and you pull Meredith into a beautiful hug.
%%%
The sign reads "Whidby Island Chocolate Factory & Artisanal Shop," and Meredith pulls out two tickets from her purse for two tours of the factory in approximately fifty minutes from now.
You use the extra time to freshen up and get a quick bite to eat at a local diner, before presenting yourselves for your factory guides.
As it turns out, there are only two of you for your tour section (it wasn't booked that way, but the other participants apparently had a time conflict and rescheduled for later), so you got to go at your own pace and ask all the questions you wanted.
The beginning is a museum, and the ending is a glimpse into the live refinery. The whole chocolate process is explained, from the cultivation of the cocoa beans to the refining process, to the conversion into the raw ingredients for chocolate.
Next are the blending and the cooking and the melting of chocolate with any desired additions. The ways that chocolate can be 'milk' or 'dark' or 'semisweet' are all explained clearly.
And at the very end, there are even free samples of many varieties. Since there are only two of you, you get to share one of each kind, and you take turns taking the first bite or the second bite.
When they ask if you mind sharing, you say it's perfectly fine, and they seem to understand when they see you holding hands.
They give you your privacy, and you savor every bite. Neither of you says it, but you figure from the darkening look in Meredith's eyes that she's thinking something close to what you are thinking.
That is, that sharing chocolate is no big risk for you both because you are planning to kiss the hell out of each other, later, anyway, (and you just cannot wait!)
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When the tour is completely over (after you've given back the empty plate of chocolate samples and they smile at your enthusiastic comparison of all the kinds…), you browse the gift shop together.
You want to pick out a few that are the most different from the ones you might find in town, so you end up with chili-flavored chocolate, chocolate-covered sweet potato chips, and fair-trade-and-organic hot chocolate mix.
You also pick out a few gifts for your friends and family.
Meredith picks out a box of chocolates for her mother, and one 'extra for family', though she doesn't anticipate her father Thatcher Grey materializing anytime soon, she says she wants to be prepared 'just in case'.
You pick out some to send to your mother Bizzy Forbes and 'The Captain' Montgomery and Archer Montgomery, your brother, as well as Susan Grant, your childhood nanny. You also pick out some for Naomi Bennett, your best friend who still lives in LA, and her husband Sam Bennett.
You pick out a bar of chocolate, each, for Derek (you want to play nice so you get him milk chocolate), Mark, Burke, Bailey, Richard Webber, Cristina, Izzie, Alex, George and Callie. You decided you'll give this all to them at the hospital tomorrow, to thank them all for giving you extra time off.
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With all of your new stock in hand, you head on to a nearby cafe for supper. You eat outside because the weather is lovely and you each share half an entree because you both cannot decide between two options.
You order a chocolate cheesecake to share as if you haven't already been eating chocolate all day.
You can hear Meredith moaning out at the taste of it, and you nearly drop your fork three times on the floor from her playing footsie with you under the table. You escape from this tempting situation as soon as the bill comes and drive off again.
You head off to the coastline to see the shore as you wait for the ferryboat to pick you up again. You have another hour to kill before you have to line your vehicle up, so you head right down to the beach.
You take off your shoes and put them in the car before you head on barefoot right near the ocean and feel the crisp grains massaging your toes.
You dip your feet in the ocean, Meredith squeals a bit in the cold. You hold her closer and she clings onto you until she starts shivering too much from the exposure.
You back up a bit from the waves and you take selfies facing the ocean view. You tried to take some on the ferry, earlier, but they were all blurry because you were moving too fast.
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You both feel like you are testing each other, or, testing yourselves, rather, to see who will cave first.
You're pretty sure it's going to be you to insist on talking about kissing first because the way Meredith's hands are caressing the back of your neck as you wait for the ferry in the returning line, this time, is making you weak at the knees.
You feel fluttery and light, and you feel almost invincible.
You've never had a better day than today so far, and you've never wanted to spend so much time with someone like this, ever before.
Meredith eventually brings the subject up first, though. She says very bluntly to you, "Can we please talk about kissing, as long as you want to talk about it still, now?"
You smile and your eyes brighten up, and so do hers, astoundingly.
You feel hot and flustered again, and this time you can see so is she, and she's not hiding it from you at all.
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"I really do want to kiss you, this time, if you're ready for that," Meredith offers.
"As long as you don't have a secret relationship I don't know about, I would be delighted to kiss you tonight," you offer back to her.
"Hey, I'm not the one who had a secret husband," Meredith teases.
"Well, I'm not the one who subsequently dated said secret husband," you quip back.
You laugh, this is now enough in your past that you can joke about it with each other.
You start to talk seriously, though, because you want this to happen the right way, this time.
"The last time I almost kissed you," Meredith begins, "I'm really glad that we didn't, now, because I already had started to have feelings for you, and it wouldn't have been right to use the moment as an experiment, to see who I really wanted," Meredith offers.
"The last time I almost kissed you," you begin to say in return, "I'm really glad that we didn't know, because I had feelings for you but I wasn't out about who I was, and I didn't want to make you into a cheater with me," you offer to Meredith.
"Also I don't have any secret partners, now, Addie" Meredith promises.
"Good, neither do I, Mer," you promise back.
You start to lean into each other, but you're interrupted again, and this time by the ferry attendant who is telling you to board onto the boat again.
You nod at the worker, and the moment they walk away, you lean into Meredith's ear and husk "to be continued…" Seductively, and this time it's Meredith's turn to blush widely.
%%%
You hold hands walking onto the ferryboat again, and this time you don't let go of each other, at all.
You head to the back corner, admiring the view of Whitby island disappearing from your view as you head back towards Seattle.
"This was a beautiful first date idea, Meredith," you share because you realize you have not said that out loud, yet, to her.
"Oh, thanks, I've been secretly planning it for a month," Meredith gushes, and you melt at how long Meredith has wanted to treat you like this.
"Thank you," you say to her.
"Thank you, for being here," Meredith says to you back.
You watch the waves, you watch the people go by.
You watch as people mostly just nod at you and smile as you hold hands.
You realize that no one seems to make a big deal about you being gay, after all, and Meredith being bisexual.
She asks you at some point if you mind that she is bi and not 'fully gay', and you say that it's not really different to you, that as long as you're faithful to her, and that she is in return, that as long as she's 'gay for you', you don't care what she defines herself as.
Meredith says that that's a very accepting thing for you to say. You say she's a very easy person to be accepting, with, because she is so accepting.
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At a certain point you notice that there's hardly anyone around because there must be a whale or something to see at the front of the boat.
You ask Meredith if you want to go see whatever it is, and you say, finally, "how about we just enjoy this moment, just us, alone together," and she wholeheartedly agrees.
You watch as Whitby island turns into a smaller and smaller dot in the distance. You watch the crests of waves over the ocean. You watch the sun fade from blue into sunset.
And then you watch each other, and then you stare into each other's eyes. And there's a moment again, just like the last two times you nearly kissed each other.
But this time, unlike the last times, you're almost 100% sure that this time is for real.
"I really want to kiss you right now, Meredith Grey," you say to her, now.
"I really want to kiss you right now, Addison Montgomery," she mirrors back to you.
She's nodding at you, so you lean in closer and closer…
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This time there are no interruptions.
There are no kids, no workers, no one around to be seen.
You place your hands on Meredith's waist and she places her hands around your neck.
You feel down to rest your palms on her hips and she brushes a hair off of your face.
"Are you ready?" You ask her, first.
"Absolutely, if you're ready, I certainly am," Meredith smiles up at you.
You press your foreheads together.
You can hear the waves soothing around you.
You can sense the salt air and you can see the colors in the sky all around you.
If you could paint a picture and recreate this moment you might be tempted to;
But you know you won't. Because the moment you look into her eyes for the last time you close them…
The moment you look into her big baby blues, you realize that this is the moment you want only you and Meredith to be able to replay in your memories over and over and over...
%%%
You lean in more, she leans in more.
Eventually she whispers, "whenever you're ready, press your lips, onto mine…"
You do, right away, you press your lips to Meredith Greys.
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It's all that you've been dreaming of but so, so, so, much more.
You're kissing a girl, but it's not only a girl.
You're kissing your friend, but it's not just any very, very, very, close friend.
You're kissing Meredith, but she's not only your friend anymore, but you also are more to each other, and you're finally dating each other.
When you kiss her you're sealing your first official outing together, a road trip, to a chocolate factory.
As you kiss her you feel her sigh contentedly, and you sigh contentedly, and you enjoy being so close to each other, much more than ever before.
The moment is life-changing; but at the same time it isn't; because it feels like you've been practicing doing this all alone, except without the kissing.
All the excursions and outings and escapes. All the silent words passed to each other over shoulders. All the chocolate bars and ice creams and even puddings have been all about this, they've all been about the two of you as if they were all leading up until now.
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Meredith tastes like chocolate, and so do you.
It makes you giggle a bit and Meredith giggles back at you.
"You know, it's funny, of course, we taste like cheesecake," Meredith laughs.
You can still feel the dessert on each other's lips.
And more and more, as you kiss her, you can taste just her.
And it is just as sweet and delightful (she says you taste sweet and delightful, also, later).
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You kiss each other slowly and softly as you watch the sun tucked under the earth.
Your view changes from blue sky to sunset to the stars of the world.
You think you see a shooting star, and you pull away just for a second to ask Meredith if she'd seen it.
She says that she hadn't, Meredith says that she was only focused on you.
As you melt even more at this, you both look up and see another shooting star.
You both wish upon it, and despite the 'bad juju' you hope it never causes, you both, Meredith Grey and Addison Forbes Montgomery, share with each other that you realize that you had both wished for the very same thing-
You wished that you could make moments like this with each other last, make this last for as long as you both possibly can- as if you could make this first kiss with each other go on forever, and you hope that you never, ever, ever, have to stop (loving each other, with all of your hearts).
-Addison Montgomery
In her personal diary. Along with Meredith Grey, who is illustrating all the words in the margins. It's becoming a sort of cartoon, or manga, or comic book? Either way, it has the words written by Addison and the pictures drawn by Meredith, as you both write down your happy memories together. And you're still holding hands. And you're still falling in love with each other. And you're still kissing with each other, every spare moment, with every chance that possibly can.
***** END OF CHAPTER THIRTY-TWO
Author's Note:
So I wanted to write another fluff-fest for them.
Yes, they had their first kiss!
Yes, they went to a chocolate factory.
Yes, they went on a road trip.
This could be the end, or there could be more, have not decided for sure...
(Let me know in the comments if you want another chapter, I'm on the fence about it...
But I'm half-tempted to write one or maybe two more...
Especially if you have any requests!)
See you round in the reviews,
Have an exceptional day!
Yours, truly,
bobbiejelly
And of course, onto the dedications:
Ao3:
Thanks, LordOfLezzies you are the MVP for commenting on EVERY CHAPTER! (also, because you're super).
Thanks, AddisonAddek for wanting more and commenting (a heck-ton) today, and also on every chapter so far...
Thanks to Arahneia for the lovely words, and Dragoncatcher123 for commenting on Chapter 31, and Hotgitay who commented on Chapter 1.
Thanks to ChrissyBrown1127 and KarasCupOfTea for the bookmarks!Thanks to Zele, ChrissyBrown1127, Arahneia, AddisonAddek, Dragoncatcher123, LordofLezzies, and Hotgitay as well as 1 guest left kudos on this work!
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Wattpad:
Some people, like addiesrep and new_being, mostly for now... Read this all in one go and left me a note on almost every chapter and that makes me overjoyed!
Comments and suggestions from Eleven_256, and naylorholby always make my day.
Thanks for the most WONDERFUL shout-out comment from JordynMarie05 and more comments!
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And probably some others who don't show up on my phone, voted on this, thanks.
And to those who added this to your reading lists!
586 Reads. 91 comments. 215 Stars.
Also THANKS to everyone else who reads this someday, and to a friend in 'real-life' who beta'ed this for me. Much love.
Ps. Three new MerAdd fics are up, recently:
Delicious A Better Speech - A Better Lover Meredith gets her Mojo Back - And so does Addison!... And there will eventually, soon be new Chapters of these ones up:
Falling Apart, Barely Breathing Soothe A Seattle Grace Mercy West Swingers Party - Post Plane Crash Edition Out Of The DarkFeel free to check them out, hopefully after you leave a note, and have a great day!
bobbiejelly