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Beatrice Prior, Saturday, 26th December, Tobias' apartment, 8:32 am.
"Tris," Tobias' deep voice gently coo's, when I don't respond he tries again, "Tr-is" He sings, breaking my name in two.
I groan as my eyes gently open, I drink in the sight of Tobias in a sleep shirt and sweatpants holding a plate of what smells like Belgium waffles out for me. Smiling, I stretch and sit up in bed.
"Eat up, I hear you and Christina are going to go boxing day shopping, or is she dragging you with her?" He asks in an amused tone.
"I believe it was the later one," I inform his as I take the plate of waffles from him. I take a bite of one and hum in appreciation at the wonderful taste, I can't remember the last time I had waffles or breakfast in bed.
"Thank you, Tobias, this is wonderful, you're spoiling me," I mumble as I cup his face in my hand softly and bring him towards me for a chaste kiss.
"I'm not spoiling you," He defends, "You deserve this, and you need the energy, Christina will be here any minute."
"Oh god."
Beatrice Prior, The same day, Christina's car, 8:45 am.
"You know he's good for you, I approve," Christina tells me as Will and Al nod, agreeing with her.
I smile at my best friend's comment, to others, approval from your best friends might lack importants, but, it means a lot to me. Christina has always been extremely candor, even when you wish she wasn't, so if she thinks he's good, I have complete faith in mine and Tobias' relationship.
"You guys moved in together earlier than I thought," Will comments, I feel myself tense up, "but I can see why he definitely loves you, Tris."
Love. That word confuses me, what is love, is it when one person cares for another or when two people get married. I think love has a different meaning for everyone, for instance, I can tell Will and Christina love each other but there love is different from the one David had fro my mother.
I think David was in love with the idea of my mother, he wanted her to act a certain way, he wanted to control her every action, he was in love with a perfect version of her. Whereas, Will loves Christina no matter what, he was in love with her mind, body and soul.
I don't know what my version of love is, but I know whatever it is, it will be with Tobias. My body buzzes to life whenever I see him, and it's like there's a magnetic force drawing me closer to him.
I give Will a small smile, acknowledging his statement. Ten minutes later, we park in a spot outside the large shopping centre. People cram through the doorway, eager to buy discounted items, I'm prepared to say boxing day might be as bad as black Friday.
"C'mon Tris, let's get you an alarm clock, maybe that'll help you wake up on time so we don't have to wait for you." Christina declares sarcastically, electing a laugh out of both Al and Will.
We squish through the doors of the first clothing shop and exit with a few bags of discounted garments. By the end of our shopping trip, I am both satisfied with the number of clothes I bought and physically as well as mentally exhausted.
Tobias has assured me that there's no need to pay rent to him or give him any form of payment for our living arrangement despite my protests. After much thought, I decided I wouldn't increase the amount of money I give mum, meaning I'll have the money I usually use for rent and food as savings, I just want to be prepared in case Tobias changes his mind.
Chris drops me off at Tobias' and I wave goodbye to her, Will and Al. I enter the apartment with bags hanging off my arms. Tobias who was sitting on the desk raises an eyebrow, he smirks as he walks over to me and takes the bags off me.
"How was your day?" He asks me, as he sets my bags in the guest room that's now my room.
"It was good," I reply, "I got some new clothes and some other stuff," I reply vaguely. I pull a few garments out of the bag and place them on the bed in a neat pile. I pass him a bag of his favourite coffee capsules that I decided to purchase.
He gives me a goofy smile, "You know, I've had a few girlfriends, but no one has ever got me coffee," He tells me in an amused tone.
"I guess I'll have to certify myself as the best girlfriend of the year," I deadpan, we both chuckle as he brushes a strand of hair out of my face and tucks it behind my ear.
" I guess you'll have to."
Beatrice Prior, Sunday, 27th December, Navy pier, 5:26 pm.
"Can I open my eyes?"
"No, keep your eyes closed, you're going to ruin my whole romantic vibe, you know I had to ask Zeke for advice on where to go, I won't let you ruin this by peeking." Tobias teases.
I sigh dramatically as I keep my eyes shut. Tobias leads me as I cling to his arm, making sure he doesn't decide to let me walk into a pole. We stop,Tobias is quiet for a moment but then speaks.
"Okay, you can open your eyes"
I grin as my eyes take in the sight. I've always wanted to go to the Navy Pier. Mum bought me here when I was younger but other than that, I've never been. I turn to Tobias who is already watching me.
"What do you think?" He questions, I can't help but smile, although his question is an ordinary one, I can hear the anxiety in his voice, as if he's worried this date isn't absolutely perfect.
"It's amazing, come on," I urge him as I take his hand and both walk towards the first carnival game tent that happens to be a knife throwing game. I smirk as I turn to Tobias," What teddy bear do you want me to win for you, " I tease.
He raises a brow, silently challenging me, he then turns and observes all the prises and then points to a large stuffed lizard toy, "Let's see if you can get it for me, blondie."
Smiling, I turn to the man who is supervising the tent, "What do I need to get that?" I Inquire, pointing to the stuffed toy Tobias wants. The man looks at me and then turns to Tobias as he answers his question.
"Winning your girl a prize eh? All you need to do is to hit the middle of each of the three targets, most people usually fail, but I think you have a shot, kid," He tells Tobias.
"Actually, she's winning me a prize," Tobias corrects as he places down a note, the man looks at me once again, with his judgemental eyes lingering but takes the money and places the three knives on the counter.
I pick up the three knives. Throwing knives have always been a strong point for me, Lynn and I even frequently have friendly competitions seeing as we are evenly matched at that skill.
I look at the first target. It's shaped like a person and has an 'x' mark in the middle. It's similar to the ones we have at the CPD, so this shouldn't be too hard. I stand in an even stance as I line myself up with the target.
I exhale as I throw the knife. It sticks in the centre of the x with a satisfying thud, the supervisor looks at me bewildered but dismisses my throw for beginners luck. Tobias flashes me a proud smile as I move to stand parallel to the next target.
Like the previous throw, the knife lands in the middle, a small crowd has gathered as they watch me throw my final knife. I line myself up, exhale and throw, my knife hits the x.
"It wasn't in the middle, it doesn't count," the supervisor tells me as he removes the knives.
I watch Tobias' jaw clench, it was definitely close enough, but it seems that the supervisor has some bias towards woman who can throw knives. Before Tobias can beat him to pulp, I place down a note for another try.
The man scoffs but takes the money, the knives get tossed on the counter carelessly. I pick them up and try once again. The crowed returns with more people. The first two knives hit the middle like they did last time.
I line myself up with the middle of the third targe, I exhale as I picture the knife hitting the middle of the board. With a sufficient force, I throw the final knife into the board. A smile makes it's way into my face as it hits dead centre.
The supervisor scowls as he places the stuffed lizard on the counter. I pick it up and hand it, Tobias, he chuckles as he presses a small kiss to my forehead. He holds the stuffed toy in one hand as he takes my hand in the other.
"That was intense, Blondie, you're amazing" Tobias assures me.
We find ourselves at another carnival game, ring toss, that Tobias plays this time. Tobias takes the small circle-shaped hoops and manages to throw them all onto a few bottles. We exit that booth with a stuffed monkey that Tobias won for me.
My eyes widen as I stare at the Ferris wheel. I tug on Tobias' hand gently causing him to look. I feel him stiffen slightly but then relaxes again. I look at him silently asking if we can go. He hesitates for a minute but then nods.
We get into the line that's fortunately quite short, in no time, we're getting into a capsule. I take the window side as Tobias cautiously sits next to me. It's only when we start to move upwards that I realize how stiff Tobias is.
"Tobias? Are you okay?" I query, as I take one of his hand in my own and rub it gently, he faces me as he robotically moves his head to nod. I frown as I carcase his cheek with my other hand, "What is it?"
"I...I just don't like heights," He explains. Guilt fills me up, I forced him to come on this ride with me.
"Just focus on me okay?" I coax, he nods as I lean my forehead against his. The scent of him floods my nostrils as my lips meet his.
His lips are just like I remembered, soft and warm, I melt against him as our lips move in sync. My knees felt weak as my stomach churned but in a good way. I held his face gently as our lips continued the slow torture.
Too soon the ride is over and we exit the capsule, Tobias grins as he moves close to my ear, "Can we go again?"
Beatrice Prior, The same day, Tobias' apartment, 7:23 pm.
I place the last shirt on a hanger. After our date at the Pire, Tobias and I came home, he made wraps that we both devoured. Max called Tobias and I took that s my cue to retreat back to my room.
With nothing better to do, I put away all the clothes that I bought today. I ended up buying a few pillows, a soft blanket, not that I need it and a string of fairy lights that Christina practically begged me to get.
I glance over at the digital alarm clock on the bedside table and decide to take a shower. Retrieving the new pyjamas Susan bought me and a towel, I go to the bathroom at the end of the hallway.
The hot water eases me immediately.I lather the body wash over myself as I wash away the sweat and dirt from today. My mind wanders like it usually does. And I can't help but ponder on my relationship with Tobias.
Everything I do with him almost makes me feel alive in a way. I never thought I would find someone like him. A few months ago, I was convinced nothing good would ever happen to me, but now, I know I was mistaken.
Tobias has managed to change my perspective, I used to think fairytales were for naive people who still believed the world was pure, as if there wasn't a price for everything.
But he's made me rethink that, and it scares me, but more than I am frightened, I am excited. Maybe fairytales are real, maybe we will live happily ever after. Maybe fairytales are more than true; not because they tell us that dragons exist, but because they tell us that dragons can be beaten.
I don't want to get my hopes up to high, I know if anything happens I'll be crushed, but I don't know who I'm fooling, I already know he holds my heart in his hands, and the worst part is, I'm okay with that.
My skin turns red under the heated water. I turn off the shower and step out. I slip the silk pyjamas on. They cool my skin as I shut the light and walk out of the bathroom. I place my clothes in the laundry hamper and walk to Tobias' room.
He's typing on his computer when I walk in. I realize this is the first time I've seen his room and let my eyes linger, picking up every detail. The words 'Fear God Alone' is painted on the wall.
Tobias' bed is against the wall and his desk is tucked into the corner. A modest-sized window lets the moonlight into the room. He looks up at me and gestures for me to come over to him.
I move towards him as he tilts his screen towards me. I skim through the words on the screen as he explains, "Max has signed me up for this military style training camp, it's either in late January next year or early March, the date isn't fixed yet, is that okay with you?"
I'm momentarially taken back,"Tobias, you don't need to ask me, it's up to you, I'd never stop you from doing something you like." I tell him as I voice my opinion, and it's true, I'd never stop him from doing something unless there was something wrong with it.
He gives me a tired smile, "Thank you, Tris, I really appreciate that. You have no idea how much that means to me," he mumbles as he stands up and wraps his arms around me.
"I have something I need to tell you," he says. I run my fingers along the tendons in his hands and look back at him, "I might be in love with you." He smiles a little. "I'm waiting until I'm sure to tell you, though."
"That's sensible of you," I say, smiling too. "We should find some paper so you can make a list or a chart or something." I feel his laughter against my side, his nose sliding along my jaw, his lips pressing my ear.
"Maybe I'm already sure," he says, "and I just don't want to frighten you."
I laugh a little. "Then you should know better."
"Fine," he says, "Then I love you."
"I love you too," I tell him honestly.
"I love you three," He counters.
"I love you four."
"I know."
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