He follows closely behind me. Once we're both in the bedroom, I start talking. "We have 8 kids together, Gideon, so I'm giving you a chance to explain yourself."

He sits on the bed and I sit as well with some distance between us. "Eva and I had an intense relationship. It was primarily sexual. We have some kind of animal magnetism. We would fight over stupid stuff but then we would fuck to get past whatever the problem was. It worked for us. I admit that when you and I first got together, before I moved to Seattle, I was still seeing her. We got into a fight because she was mad that she couldn't get pregnant.

She lost her apartment about a year ago so I let her stay here. When we moved back, I moved her into the condo downstairs until we moved out of the penthouse and then she moved back in. I can't resist her sexual voodoo, Ana. I've tried to, for us and for the kids, but she kept sucking me back in. She told me last week that she was pregnant so I told her I'd stay back and help her figure out what to do about the pregnancy. We started fighting because I wouldn't leave you so she sucked me in again and again.

I'm so sorry, Ana. I can't lose you."

"This truly makes me sick. You were fucking her and coming home and fucking me."

I run to the bathroom and I vomit. I feel him rubbing my back and holding onto my hair and I start sobbing. "Are you going to leave me, Ana?"

I think about it. "I need time, Gideon. In the meantime, we are moving back to Seattle. You have a choice to make. Me or her? I will give you time to think that over."

"I don't need time, Ana. I choose you, but now she is pregnant with my child so I can't avoid her completely. Can I come back to Seattle with you?"

"No. If you can stay here and stay away from her, then I will let you come home. "

"I can do that, Ana. Please forgive me."

"I need time, Gideon. You have a lot of work to do, proving yourself. I can't be in a marriage with someone who is in love with someone else."

"I'm not in love with her, Ana."

"Prove it. We are going back over there in the morning and you will tell her what you just promised me. That would be a good start. Otherwise, I won't trust you at all."

He sighs and looks down.

"Go stay in our guest room tonight."

He nods dejected.

He gives me a sweet kiss and stands up. "I will do anything for you Anastasia. I love you!"

"I love you too, Gideon. Good night."

He leaves the room and I grab a pillow after changing into my silk nightgown and cry myself to sleep.

I wake up in the morning with purpose. I'm going back to Seattle.

I get up and shower and change and go downstairs where my errant husband is eating with the kids. I grab a plate out of the warmer and I sit down across from my husband who is clearly feeling ashamed of himself.

He keeps looking at me. I just ignore him and finish eating. "Let's go, Gideon."

He gets up and we hug and kiss all of our children and head out the door. He reaches for my hand but I pull away from him and look out the window of the SUV.

When we arrive at the penthouse, it is a mess. I look at him and clear my throat, signaling for him to find her. "Eva!!" I walk with him to find her and she is in bed getting fucked by another man. This is shocking. "Eva!? What the fuck, we had a deal. You can't fuck anyone else."

I gasp. He is in love with her.

She gets up off the bed and gets in his face. "if you can fuck someone else, so can I. I've been seeing Thomas for 2 months. He fucks me like you do."

"Eva, you can't do this! I love you."

Mother fucker. "I'm out! You just made your choice. I hope you're happy with this nasty whore." I slap him hard and turn and leave the room and go straight back to the elevator. Luckily it is still here so I get on pretty quickly and I hear Gideon screaming for me as the doors close.

As soon as the doors close, I fall to my knees and sob. When I get to the garage, somehow, Sawyer is already there waiting on me.

He lets me into the SUV. "We're going to get the staff and kids and we're going back to Seattle permanently."

"Okay, Ana. I will prepare the jet."

We get to the house and he makes a phone call as I ready my kids and staff to head to the jet.

Once we arrive in Seattle, we take everyone to the house and get them settled in and then I have Sawyer take me to Escala. Christian should be home now. I know what I need.

When we arrive, I get onto the elevator, I put in his code and go straight up to the penthouse. When I arrive, he is standing in the foyer in his dress pants and his button up shirt with the top buttons undone. Fuck, he is so sexy. I run into his arms and wrap my arms around his neck and stand on my tip toes and kiss him feverishly.

"Fuck me, Christian. I need you." I whisper against his lips.

"Ana…"

I cut him off with another kiss. "Don't overthink it. I need you."

He nods and scoops me up and he carries me to bed. He slams the door shut behind us and he sets me down and quickly strips me and then he undresses himself. "Hands and knees, baby."

I smile and crawl up the bed on my hands and knees and he approaches me from behind. "Are you sure about this, Ana?"

"I'm sure. Fuck me."

He swiftly penetrates me and pounds into me like his life depends on it. "cum for me, Ana."

I combust spectacularly and then he pulls out and flips me over and dives right back in and he fucks me hard again, looking into my eyes. "I want to see you cum, baby."

I climax hard and he grunts as he, too, finds his release. "Fuck! I missed you, Ana."

"I missed you too, Christian."

I start to cry silently. He kisses me softly and pulls out and lays beside me. "what's wrong, Ana?"

"My husband has been cheating on me for at least 90% of our relationship and he admitted this morning that he loves her."

"OH Ana." He pulls my head to his chest. "I'm so sorry that he did that to you."

"You have nothing to be sorry for. I was a fool to think I was enough for him. At least when you did it to me, you had no memory of me. That's a valid reason. He has been seeing this woman long before I met him. I know he loves me, but I think he has a deeper connection to her. 'animal magnetism' as he so eloquently put it."

"what does this mean, Ana? Are we together now or am I your revenge fuck?"

I sit up and sit astride him. "You're not a revenge fuck. I never had a chance to get over you. I'm still in love with you, Christian. I just couldn't admit that to you because I was in love with my husband, too, but it turns out that he was in love with someone else too." I sigh. "I can't be in a relationship with you yet, but I want to. Can we keep this between us for now and maybe after I'm divorced a while we can let other people know?"

He smiles at me. "Of course, baby. Anything for you, Ana."

"I have 8 kids, Christian. If you can't accept them, too, then we need to call this off before it gets any deeper."

"I accept them, baby. I love you so damn much."

"I love you too." I kiss him feverishly and lift up and slide onto his erection, surprising him, and fuck him until we both climax simultaneously.

"I have to go home to my kids. I will come by your work and see you for lunch tomorrow if that's okay with you?" I wink at him.

"I would love that, Ana."

I slide off of him and kiss him sweetly and I give him a sweet kiss and get up and get dressed.

He follows behind me and gets dressed as well. He kisses me as I board the elevator and I go home and take a bath and get into bed and I fall asleep dreaming about my first husband and how our life would be if he hadn't lost his memory for so long.

I wake up in the morning and shower and get dressed and have breakfast with my children.

Piper and Penny are now 1 year old. Ivy is 3 and Alex, Tyler and Kyle are now 4. Nevaeh is 9 and Christy is 10. They are all amazing children. I love them so much.

After we all eat, I go into my office for a few hours and then I go to Grey House to have lunch and dessert with my ex-husband.

We have an immensely pleasurable dessert. Afterwards, I head back to work to finish out my day and then I go home and spend the rest of the day with my children.

After the kids are in bed, I check my phone for the first time since I arrived back in Seattle and I have numerous missed calls and texts from my philandering husband.

I see there's nothing urgent, but since I have the kids with me, I send him a text.

We are all in Seattle and the kids are great. I don't want you to come here. I am going to file for divorce tomorrow. We're done, Gideon. -A

After I send it, I put my phone on the charger and I cuddle up to his pillow and go to sleep.

The next day, I get up and go to Carrick Grey and ask him to represent me in the divorce. He agrees to help me.

I ask for everything here in Seattle and full custody of the kids and he only gets supervised visits with the kids.

When I am done, I head to Escala, hoping that Christian can help me to feel better.

When I arrive, I find him at the piano playing a happy song for the first time that I can remember. I walk in and he finally spots me and smiles, but doesn't stop playing I sit down next to him and kiss him sweetly. "I love you, Christian."

"I love you too, Ana."