Disclaimer: All Gilmore Girls content belongs to Amy Sherman-Palladino.
Chapter Twenty-Three: The Steinbeck Agreement
*Warning: This chapter contains discussions of physical/emotional abuse. Please proceed with caution.*
The afternoon light streamed golden through the diner windows as Liz and Luke came in, Ella leaning on the counter with her sketchbook in front of her. Too enveloped in the drawing of a field of murderous daisies, Ella didn't even register what they were talking about until she heard them mention her name.
"...maybe Ella could do it," Liz said, tilting her head at the young woman with dark eye makeup and EAT ME printed across her shirt.
"Hm?" Ella asked, looking up from her sketch with furrowed brows.
Luke rolled his eyes at her distracted nature. Ever since she'd moved out of her childhood home, she'd been in a worse mood, focused almost solely on her terrifying drawings. He'd had to tell her a couple times to make sure to keep the sketchbook off the counter when there were children present.
"Be a flower girl," Liz said, a big, dreamy smile on her face. She was dressed in a long, floral red dress. "Most of the Renaissance fair crowd doesn't have small children. But if we're gonna have a wedding, we're gonna have a real wedding. Can't be a wedding without a flower girl."
"Sorry, whose wedding?" Ella asked, straightening up and raising an eyebrow.
"Mine, sweetie." Liz had a high, wispy voice that reminded Ella of the fairies she used to imagine playing in her mother's garden. "We're having it right out in the square next week. It's gonna be beautiful, all our Renaissance fair friends will be there, and it'll have this great medieval theme! And you could be the flower girl!"
"Oh, I don't…" Ella began with a shy smile, but Liz only waved a dismissive hand at her, continuing.
"I can loan you one of my fair dresses," she said excitedly, not picking up on Ella's doubtful expression.
"Yeah, Ella. You can finally perfect your whole Bride of Frankenstein look," Luke teased. His expression was far more pleasant than Ella could have predicted. Happy. Happy, in its simplest form, looked so strange on Luke. The past few months had seen the true finalization of his divorce and his having to watch Lorelai date some rich snob from her father's company. But the news seemed to brighten his mood inexplicably. She was sure the laughter at her expense wasn't exactly a drag on the day either.
Rolling her eyes, Ella shot him a pointed glance. "Y'know, you would be lost without your best waitress."
"I'm quaking in my boots. Besides, I've got Lane working for me now, anyway."
Though she narrowed her eyes at him, she could think of nothing more to say. He was right. She would never quit on him. The diner was more of a home to her than anywhere else in the world. Hell, it had almost single-handedly fed her during the worst few months of her life. Along with Lorelai's frequent feasts of junk food.
"I can just see it, Ella! It'll be so much fun and you'd look so beautiful!" Liz exclaimed, grabbing one of Ella's hands in a pleading gesture.
Biting the inside of her cheek, Ella did her best to protest. She still wasn't Liz's biggest fan, despite wherever it was that she stood with Jess. The alcohol, the neglect. But Luke seemed not entirely angry about the match, especially considering his view on TJ when the two had first been introduced back in February. And Liz's smile was so large, so radiant. Her eyes were desperate and almost kind. Heaving a huge sigh, Ella nodded. Luke was much more than her boss. And he gave a smile so rare when she agreed. She would do it for Luke, she decided. In fact, it was the least she could do.
. . .
Sat on the lumpy couch in Lane's living room, Ella found herself smiling just a touch. The band, finally named Hep Alien, was getting better with every practice. Though the room was piled high with dirty clothes and video game equipment, and it remained cluttered no matter how many times Ella tried to clean it up, she was beginning to get more comfortable. Her king mattress was so old anyway, and sleeping on the plaid couch wasn't much different. As she had run from the only house she had ever known, she'd packed as much as she could into her station wagon, which had once been her aunt Julie's. It wasn't like her old room fit much anyway. Mostly, the backseat was filled with her records, books, clothes.
Loud music making her ears ring, she sketched Lane behind the drums, living the way she had always wanted. As fun as it was watching band practice nearly every night, Ella was eager for her summer classes to start. If she played her cards right, she could graduate a year early with art as a minor. Ella's mind drifted to the night she left, the day after she finally finished her first year of college. And, over a modest celebratory dinner, the conversation had drifted, as it always did, to the future.
. . .
two and a half weeks earlier
Tugging with one hand at the ends of her hair, Ella felt an odd mixture of distasteful nostalgia and happiness in her stomach. The lasagna tasted exactly as her mother's had, and Ella knew Fiona had followed the recipe, scribbled in the back of the ancient cookbook, exactly. But she would keep quiet. Fiona truly seemed proud of her, beaming and giving her a hug the moment she walked through the door after work. Slowly, very slowly, Ella was beginning to accept it, the motherly love. Though occasionally it still rubbed her the wrong way, it didn't send her spiralling into anger and melancholy as it once had.
And it wasn't as though Fiona was a bad person. She had a sunny disposition, glossy hair, expressive eyes. Ella could understand how her father would want to marry her. But she was just too unlike her mother. Would never understand Ella the way her mother had. It still felt like bizarro-world when Fiona tried to give her advice or compliment her on her piano skills. But she could manage dinner every once and a while, and accept pride in her academic accomplishments. She was on the Dean's List, after all.
Adam pushed his food around his plate as he spoke. From the glances they'd shared, Ella could tell he tasted the same memories from childhood she did.
"We've still got about a month, but I really think we can get first place," Adam said of his mathlete competition. His voice had gotten deeper, and he was finally growing taller. Ella could tell he would end up looking a lot like Noah.
"That's great," Jake said, nodding with a half-smile.
"Really is," Fiona echoed, grinning widely.
As silence fell on the four of them, forks scraped on the Corelle plates and throats were cleared. Awkward silences had quickly become staples of family dinners. Eventually, Jake began twisting his wedding ring and looked straight at Ella, who sat at his left side. The light in the peach kitchen was bright despite the cloudy darkness outside. The May evening was humid and buzzing with cicadas.
"And what about you, Ellie?" Jake asked.
Looking up carefully, Ella put down her fork and faced him. "What about me?"
"Do you have any prospects for the summer? Besides the diner?"
She shook her head. "No. Unless Patty needs me to fill in. Might start painting more. I'm thinking a small easel would fit pretty well near the window in my room."
Narrowing his eyes doubtfully, Jake tilted his head slightly. "I don't know. Seems like a waste of money."
"Why?" she asked instantly.
"We don't have to discuss this now," Fiona interjected patiently.
Adam looked down at his plate as he ate.
Jake breathed a frustrated sigh through his nose. "You're majoring in history. You're living with us for at least three more years. I don't think now's the time for pipe dreams."
"Hm," Ella nodded, giving a thin, vicious smile. "It's funny you say that. When mom was alive, you always thought I should put as much time into my art as she put into her music."
"You were a kid. Things change. The best you can hope for is being a history teacher at Stars Hollow High, and you have to be happy with it," Jake explained with cold logic in his voice. His eyebrows were raised in condescension.
Ella's cheeks heated up. "Oh, so all this time you've just been humoring me? Telling me I had talent?"
"Not exactly. But you're not O'Keefe, either."
"Never said I was," Ella snapped, standing up from her seat. "I can't do this right now. I'm buying my fucking paint, dad."
"Hey!" he shouted, rising from his own seat and following her as she stormed into the living room towards the hall entrance. "Don't you use that language with me, young lady!"
"Why not?! Might as well let you know how I actually talk if you're gonna let me know how you actually feel!" she yelled back, gesturing wildly with her hands.
Jake rolled his eyes at his only daughter. "Toughen up, Ellie! You've only got so much time on this earth and I'm not gonna watch you waste it on your doodles!"
"Oh, and lecturing about the revolutionary war in the town where I've always lived wouldn't be a waste?" she asked, crossing her arms over her chest.
"At least you'll make a living! You'll still be around people who love you, who take care of you. You'll always be near us," he argued.
Ella let out a bitter, humorless bark of laughter. "People who take care of me?! I've been taking care of you for almost five years! All of you! Especially you! When mom died, I was the one who fed us, I was the one who cleaned and tried to cook! And you did fuck-all except drink and lie around crying!"
Eyes darkening, Jake took a step closer to her and she immediately recoiled. "I lost my wife. You will never understand that!"
"I lost my mother!" she screamed, hands clenched at her sides, so hard her knuckles turned white. Angry tears snuck up on her eyes but she swallowed them back to the best of her ability.
"If I'd have known how much you'd bitch about helping out, doing what a daughter should, I never would've let you take that job at Luke's!"
"Doing what a daughter should?" she asked immediately, eyebrows shooting up. Her jaw was set firm with tension.
Fiona appeared from the kitchen behind her husband, putting a hand to his shoulder. "Baby, let's just all take a minute to cool down."
"You brother and I needed you and all you could do was complain!" he roared.
Ella scoffed. "You needed me? You needed me to keep you alive long enough for you to find a new wife to coddle you and baby you and cry with you when you told her about your tragic high school sweetheart! Why do you think she hates you, huh?"
Her stomach did a flip when she saw the hurt on Fiona's face from the corner of her eye, but a fire burned so hot inside her, and she couldn't keep her words contained any longer. She'd tried to play the dutiful woman of the house long enough.
"Do not talk about my marriage!" Jake warned. "It's none of your business!"
"Of course it's my business! It'll be my business when I have to pick up the pieces once she leaves you!"
"You have always been such a little brat! You were a nightmare to raise for me and for Sophia!" A vein had popped out in his forehead, and he shrugged Fiona's touch from his shoulder.
"Fuck you!"
Crack! Ella seemed to hear it before she felt it: a sharp, searing pain as his open palm struck her cheek. It was a feeling she hadn't experienced in so long, not since she was ten and had mouthed off at the dinner table. A sinking feeling struck her stomach as silence filled the room. Because she suddenly discovered she had always been expecting it. Always knew it would happen again, someday, somehow. And she'd been almost surprised he hadn't smacked her in the months following her mother's death. But, the levee had to break. It always did.
She brought a hand to her stinging flesh, and her father stopped in his tracks. Remorse washed over his features and he went to reach out for her. Flinching away from him, Ella felt her fingers grip at her necklace.
"Ellie, I'm so sorry, baby. I told you not to use that language with me. And you know how my old man was about-"
"No," she said softly, shaking her head. "No."
. . .
The final, strong bass note of the White Stripes song Hep Alien played broke her from her memories. She could see the dull sky as she packed up her car the best she could, the night crossing over into morning as she offered Adam a quick goodbye. He'd been upset, but also somewhat calm. And when he'd come to visit her a week later during one of her shifts at the diner, he told her he had always known Ella would leave. From the first night after their mother had died, he'd known. Though he knew it was fruitless to try and convince her not to feel guilty, Adam had told her not to worry. He could handle home on his own, he was confident. He'd never been slapped. And they were both smart enough to understand why.
And when she'd come to Lane in the early hours of the morning, still painfully holding back her tears with the entire contents of her life parked out on the street in the station wagon, she knew everything would change. Lane had welcomed her with open arms, of course. Had seen Ella cry for only the third time in all their years knowing each other. There was something so sweet about her new freedom, but a heaviness still sat in Ella's heart. Constant guilt and fear for Adam, heartache over her mother, who she still missed everyday. And she felt so lost, it was all-consuming. She didn't know what the next step was. Would she still be able to pay for college? Would she ever speak to her stepmother again? Would she even stay a history major, if she was lucky enough to continue her education? She had never been more glad for Luke's, and for her friends. There were few comforts in her life, continued existence as a waitress, or knowing Adam was only a few blocks away in case something ever happened. She clung to the only constants left for dear life. She'd been dreaming of leaving the house for so long, but it managed to be even harder than she thought it would be. A gloomy cloud had been hanging over her for a few weeks, as she walked through her existence with an aimlessness she had never known before.
Clapping some, Ella offered a big smile and watched as Zach, Gil, and Bryan began to talk amongst themselves about the new tattoo Gil had shown up to practice with. Lane excused herself from the conversation only because of the temptation. She wanted a tattoo, really did, but didn't want to increase the chances of her mother disowning her any more than she already had. Instead, she came to join Ella on the couch, plopping down and putting an arm around her friend. Ella kept her smile and rested her head against Lane's shoulder. Since moving in, Ella was reminded every day of what a wonderful person Lane was. They came from such different worlds, but never judged each other, always took care of each other, helped each other with their respective escapes. Working together at Luke's had been even more fun than Ella could have ever imagined. It was a welcome end to the long, lonely year after Jess's departure, just she and Luke sulking around together. There was a place for sulking, but the time for it seemed to be coming to an end.
"You guys were fucking great," Ella said, then gestured down to the picture she had just drawn. "You're a regular Meg White up there. Really."
"Flattery will get you everywhere," Lane chirped, beaming with pride.
Snorting a laugh, Ella put the sketchbook aside and bit back a yawn. "Don't I know it."
"Hey, are you okay?" Lane asked, brows furrowing.
It almost made her want to laugh. Over the past two weeks, Lane had asked her that question more than had once seemed humanly possible. "Yeah, Lane. I'm fine. Just a long day. Got roped into being a flower girl."
"What?"
"Yeah, Luke's sister. Liz. Have you met her before? You weren't working at the diner yet the last time she was in town," she said tiredly.
"No, I haven't," Lane replied. "Jess's mom, right?"
"She is indeed."
"And why exactly are you filling what is traditionally a role for a girl in pigtails and Mary Janes?"
Blowing out a sigh, Ella shook her head slightly. "I don't even know. She just sort of told me...didn't exactly ask. It's next week in town square, so there's not enough time. And Luke really seemed like he wanted me to and I just...I don't know. Maybe she's a witch."
"Always a possibility," Lane nodded, going along with the bit as she always did. "And have you heard from Jess lately?"
Again, Ella shook her head. "He still doesn't have an actual phone number, and now I don't either. Not optimum communication conditions."
"Yeah, that's not ideal," Lane said, commiserating.
"I wish it had crossed my mind, but I moved out in about forty-five minutes," Ella said, fiddling with her necklace.
A guilty look painted her features. But she'd only been out of the house a little while, maybe he hadn't called.
"Do you think he'll come for the wedding?"
Ella scoffed. "Not a chance in hell."
. . .
"Are you sure I can't help with anything else?" Ella asked, arms crossed over her chest.
Her chewed pencil sat behind her ear, and her hair fell in a loose, hasty braid over her shoulder. One of her booted feet tapped constantly against the tiled floor, and she smoothed over her blue skirt every few minutes. And she only looked half as stressed as Luke. The wedding was in two days, and nearly everything had been dumped on him. As a consequence, Ella had been dealing with the diner business while Luke argued on the phone with vendors who could give him the proper medieval food and decor.
The midday lull had finally come, and Lorelai stopping in was sure to bring a little sunshine. Though she had been pretty overwhelmed herself, lately. The new Dragonfly Inn opening was only weeks away.
Luke shook his head at Ella when he'd finished giving Lorelai the rundown of the week's events. "Not right now, kid. That was the last call I had to make. At least for the time being."
"Just say the word," Ella shrugged, finally letting herself relax a touch, leaning her forearms onto the counter.
"I'll keep that in mind."
"So, am I caught up on everything, then?" Lorelai chimed in, brows raised and eyes expectant.
"Yeah, I'd say so…" Luke began, but the bell over the door jingled.
A familiar scowl appeared in the diner's entrance, and Jess trudged up to the counter with a finger pointed at Luke. "I'm not paying for a motel, so I'm stayin' with you!"
Lorelai gasped dramatically and narrowed her eyes at Luke. "Liar!"
As he passed on his way to the stairs, Jess gave Ella a curt nod. She reciprocated, but felt unnerved by his demeanor. Was it shy? Was it angry? It certainly didn't seem pleasant. They hadn't spoken in nearly three weeks, the longest time since he had first run away to California.
"I didn't think he was coming," Luke muttered, watching Jess disappear up the stairs. A wistful, fond smile crossed Luke's lips. "I went to see him in New York."
"You did?" Ella asked, brows furrowed.
"Yeah. It was a total pig sty and he may or may not be a drug dealer. But, hey, at least he came," Luke said, shaking his head in a mixture of amusement and wonder.
Sighing through her nose, Ella looked down at her feet and bit at the inside of her cheek. Her gaze focused on nothing in particular, thoughts swimming around and colliding with each other inside her already crowded mind. "Yeah. At least. I'm gonna take my ten minutes. That alright?"
Luke was busy, back to his banter with Lorelai, and only gave a half nod her way. She snickered at how enveloped in each other the two of them were. Without much effort, she slipped behind the curtain and climbed up the stairs unnoticed. Nerves coursed through her, and her heart sped up in her chest. She gave two short, harsh knocks on the window of the shabby apartment door.
After waiting a moment and receiving no response, she rolled her eyes to herself. Who was she to be nervous? He was pretty much her best friend, besides Lane. And she hadn't done anything wrong. With a new, determined quality to her steps, she walked through the front door and found him just where she expected, on his old bed, nose already buried in a book.
Crossing her arms over her chest, she plastered on a confident smirk and sat down on the end of the bed. She recognized the book instantly, her own copy buried in the pile of belongings in her car: Sweet Thursday by John Steinbeck.
"The only author we could ever agree on," she said, eyeing the book though Jess still hadn't lifted his head.
"Pretty much," he replied flatly, biting at his bottom lip as he focused on the words in front of him.
Sighing shortly through her nose, Ella turned to face him fully, sitting criss-cross applesauce on the familiar brown afghan. Jess unconsciously brought his feet in closer to make room for her, his knees up in the air, blocking her view of his face slightly. But she could see his hair, longer still and without any gel.
"See you've completely ditched the pompadour look," she muttered. "Couldn't handle being mistaken for an Elvis impersonator any longer, huh?"
"My God, you should do stand-up," Jess said dryly, eyes widening in feigned amazement as he kept reading.
Shaking her head slightly, Ella let a harsh chuckle escape her lips and furrowed her brows at him. "Out with it, jackass."
"Hm?" he asked dismissively, taking a pencil from his pocket to underline a phrase.
Ella pursed her lips in frustration. "Well, it's obvious you're pissed. I say we skip the passive-aggressive theatrics and you just spill it. But, hey, this is a democracy. You also get a vote."
Rolling his eyes, Jess finally shot a glance over his knees. Heaving a sigh, he shut his book and tossed it into the open duffel bag on the floor next to the bed. In one swift movement, he mirrored her sitting position and tilted his head at her in askance.
"Have you been doing a lot of hard partying lately? Really taking advantage of this college thing? Or have you been avoiding my calls?" he asked, though he wasn't angry, despite the sarcasm. There was a defeated tone in his voice which surprised her; almost disappointed.
Biting the inside of her cheek, she gave another small shake of her head, and she spoke firmly. "Well, first of all, I'm not required to take your calls. I asked you to call me because you fucked off to California without telling me and I wanted to make sure you hadn't been serial-killed."
Jess gave a begrudging nod, almost preparing for a dressing down.
"But, no, I haven't been avoiding your calls, alright? Paranoid much?"
He scoffed, but she cut him off before he could retort.
"I moved out."
Immediately, his eyebrows shot up in surprise. "You did?"
She nodded. "Yeah. About two weeks ago. Wasn't exactly seamless, and I bet my dad will disconnect my old line at some point. I've been staying at Lane's with her and the band. They don't have a phone yet. And you change your number pretty much every week, so it's not like I could let you know."
A smile crossed his features. "I'm...that's great, Eleanor."
She snorted a laugh of disbelief. "Yeah, it's so great living out of my car and sleeping on Lane's forty-year-old couch."
Jess shrugged. "Gotta start somewhere."
"I guess."
He looked flabbergasted. "I'm so proud of you."
A blush heated her cheeks and she chuckled breathily in confusion. "What?"
"For moving out. I mean, I can't imagine it was a quiet affair," he said, face falling slightly.
Again, she shook her head, glancing down at the space between them on the comforter and clutching her necklace. "No. It wasn't."
"What happened?" he ventured without hesitation, searching her face and exposed arms for any yellowed bruises or healing cuts. Sometimes, he could give even Ella a run for her money when assuming the worst.
Ella shrugged noncommittally, throwing a glance down at her watch, then facing him again with a small smile. "Long story. I've only got a couple minutes left on break. You gonna be in town for a little while?"
"Until the minute the wedding ends."
"Okay, we'll find some time to catch up," she said, smirking. "Luke tells me you're a drug dealer now. You've gotta let me in on all your behind-the-scenes Scarface facts."
Jess rolled his eyes. "God, Luke is such a drama queen. I'm a messenger."
"Nice cover. Very convincing."
"Don't you have coffee to pour?" he shot back, defensive.
Snickering, Ella rose from the bed, smoothing down her skirt and apron. "Whatever keeps the guilt at bay, tough guy."
"G'bye," he muttered, grumpy, as he settled back against the wall and picked up his book again. But, just before Ella reached the door: "What time are you off, Eleanor?"
"Six-thirty. Luke's closing up early to play wedding planner," she said, hand poised over the doorknob.
Jess chuckled. "Pizza at Antonioli's tonight?"
"Sure. I even promise not to wear a wire."
The pillow Jess had thrown barely missed her as she exited the apartment, laughing under her breath.
. . .
Sighing softly, Ella ran the key along the chain of her necklace and looked down at the half-eaten pizza crusts on her paper plate. The old wooden table in the pizza place was slightly sticky, and carved with the names of various people and couples who had shared a pie there before. But, they could watch the Stars Hollow evening turn from golden to blue as the sun went down, sitting by the front window. Jess had to leave by eight, and it was half past seven by the time the stars came out. Summer had almost come, and the days were long and bright with sunshine. Chilly breezes swept past at night, but it was getting warmer still.
"So...yeah. It only took me about forty-five minutes to pack everything up. Didn't realize how little stuff I had until I could fit almost everything in my trunk and back seat," she said, a small, humorless smile on her face.
Jess nodded, rolling a balled-up napkin absently in his hand as he listened, his face stony. "Was it just yelling? Or did he hit you?"
Breathing another long sigh through her nose, Ella bit the inside of her cheek. "Just once. He just slapped me once. He told me not to swear at him, but I-"
"Eleanor," he interjected, voice firm but gentle. "Once is way too much. Even a slap. It's way, way too many times."
She only shrugged. "I know. I mean, of course I know that. It's just…"
Again, he nodded wordlessly. Jess knew what it was like to have a parent, or a step-parent, who used hurt as a tool. And he knew the confusion. Sometimes monsters wore masks. She didn't have to say anything more.
"I'm sorry," he said quietly.
Ella shook her head. "It's not your fault. And I'm moved out now, Jess."
"Right...and I meant what I said. I'm so proud of you, Stevens." Jess reached hesitantly across the table, and took her free hand in his. Gave it one squeeze.
She flashed him a tiny smile, squeezed it back. Then she disentangled their fingers and tucked her hair behind her ears, clearing her throat and straightening her back. The severity left her features, a new, mischievous twinkle lighting up her hazel eyes. Her chest was less heavy, and she was glad he knew. Glad he could understand with so few words.
"Proud of you too, Mariano. This time, I didn't have to watch you step out of a sheriff's car when you got to town," she smirked, picking up one of the crusts and taking another bite out of it.
He frowned. "Ugh, please don't mention Andy Griffith. That car is my property. The only reason I even called Luke after I got to Venice was to ask about the car and he-"
Still chuckling, Ella raised her hands in surrender, cutting him off. "White flag."
Jess offered a sardonic, lop-sided smirk. "And, believe or not, Luke will be the sanest person at the bachelor party tonight."
"Why are you even going?" she asked, brows furrowed as she took a sip of her water, ice melty from time and the May heat seeping through the splintered wood of the front door.
Shaking his head, Jess glanced down at his watch and noticed he had only ten minutes before he and Luke would have to hop in Luke's ancient green truck. "I don't know. Luke mentioned me not wanting to go to Liz, and then she spent thirty minutes babbling until she finally wore me down."
Pursing her lips, Ella nodded. "Yeah, she's very persuasive."
"What do you mean?"
"You're looking at the flower girl," she admitted, gesturing to herself.
He laughed breathily. "No way."
"Yep. I'll be there in the renaissance dress and all. Though, Lorelai said she would make some alterations for me. I'm going over to her house in a little while to sort out the whole corset situation."
Jess snorted another chuckle. "Good luck."
"Right back at ya, Mariano," she teased. "Where on earth would TJ want to go for his bachelor party?"
"It's a cliché I'm sure you'll be able to guess on the first try," Jess said with a dejected frown.
After only a moment with brows furrowed, realization flashed across Ella's eyes and her expression turned to one of disgust. "Ugh, Jesus. A strip club?"
"I know," he grumbled. "Believe me, I'll be there in silent protest."
"Mouth off to one of the owners if you get the chance, would you? For me?" she asked.
"Will do."
. . .
"I don't hate my mother," Jess grumbled to Luke, rolling his eyes slightly.
He ran a hand through his messy hair, crossing his leather-clad arms. Maybe he should've known he would get into a fight with TJ at some point, considering his history with Liz's past boyfriends and husbands. All it had taken was TJ hitting the Austen novel out of his hands, as he read begrudgingly in the low-lit strip club. And they'd come to blows. And Luke was pissed. They were sat down at a table in Luke's, the diner completely dark glowing only from the streetlamps and twinkle lights in the square. All the chairs, save for the two they sat in, were stacked up on the red tables. Luke was interrogating Jess about why he'd come for the wedding anyway, if he was so mad about it. As if he hadn't stormed into Jess's apartment trying to convince him to come only a few days earlier.
"You don't?" Luke asked, eyebrows raised in expectation. "Then why did you come, anyway, if you're so against your mother finding happiness? And it's pretty clear you hate me."
Jess sighed heavily at Luke's dramatics. "I don't hate you. I came here because of you."
"Stop that," Luke scolded in disbelief.
"You said it was important to you. Remember?" Jess asked, voice tight with annoyance.
"I didn't think you were listening."
"Oh, I was listening."
Luke stared at his nephew for a long moment, leaning back in his chair. "So, you don't hate your mom. You don't hate me. But, really, all it took was me coming to New York to yell at you?"
Sighing, Jess said nothing. His lips were set in a thin line, and he averted his gaze from his uncle. He ran a hand over his mouth.
Eyes widening, Luke cracked a knowing grin. "You came because of Ella? But, you haven't been together in...what? A year?"
Jess gave a sheepish nod. "Yeah, but, we still talk every couple weeks. She didn't tell you?"
Luke snorted. "Well, I remember her chewing you out that first time you called. Telling you to let her know you were alive. But I didn't know you were really talking."
Running a hand over his mouth again, Jess gave another nod.
"So?" Luke asked, prodding. "Why'd you need to come here...if you call so often anyway?"
Jess bit at his bottom lip, squirming under the questions. "Since she moved out, she hasn't been picking up. I didn't know what happened. I wanted to...make sure. Because…"
"What?"
"I think...I mean...I'm in love with her, alright?" Jess spit out, an anxious bite in his voice.
Luke's eyebrows shot up, and a flabbergasted look formed on his face. "Wow!...You think you're in love with her?"
Jess shrugged. "Pretty sure. But, I've been thinking that since I was seventeen. And she doesn't believe in love, anyway."
Scoffing, Luke shook his head. "I know she says that, but it's crap. What do you love about her, Jess?"
"Excuse me?" Jess asked, brows furrowing.
Luke rolled his eyes in exasperation. "Jess, I think it's great that you know how you feel. And like I said earlier, I'm not gonna keep trying to change you. You are who you are. And Ella is who she is. If you're gonna tell her how you feel, you have to do it carefully. And you have to be sure. So, tell me what you love about her."
Scowling, Jess looked long and hard at his uncle. "What, do you wanna hold hands and skip afterwards?"
"Do you want to do this right or not?"
Finally, Jess relented. "Okay. Fine. I love that she...she's so passionate. About everything. And she talks with her hands. And she eats peanut butter right out of the jar when she's sick. And she hums while she works, without even realizing it. She..she cares so much about her friends and her brothers and her aunt and...I don't know. She does everything for other people. She doesn't think she's a people person. But she really is. Even the way she talks to customers...you can really see it.
"And she's such an amazing artist. She can feel art. And music. I've never met anyone else like that before. I can talk to her for hours...or not say anything at all. I miss her when she's gone. Everything is...just better when I'm with her."
When Jess looked up again, he found his uncle with a smug smirk. As Jess was speaking, his eyes had taken on a far-off quality. And though he didn't want to be talking, his lips had started to curl upward at the corners anyway. Just from thinking of her. Luke recognized everything in Jess's expression.
Jess shook his head slightly, jaw tense, embarrassment swirling in his stomach. "What?"
"Nothing," Luke said lightly, almost mocking. "I've just...never seen that look on your face before."
Rolling his eyes again, Jess scoffed angrily.
"Alright, alright," Luke said, fighting off good-natured laughter. "Open two-way communication is the foundation of love…"
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