Fourteenth part : Truth
Jim Welshy Army – Sanctuary
When she left the bedroom, I was both empty and angry. How did she dare talk to me like that? If someone has suffered during the last months, it had to be me! I was the one who suffered when she had gone away after we had kissed. I was the one she dumped in the break room saying the kiss was not mutual. I was the one she didn't talk to for months, the one she refused to look. And now she accused me of not listening and not talking to her?
I decided to focus on something else to calm down. But I couldn't. Chris was all over my mind. I saw her crying and he broke my heart. Relationships shouldn't be like that. For months, we tore each other apart. We yelled. We cried. We ignored each other. We were angry. We lost our friendship. However, we had everything to be happy. We were best friends. We understood each other like anybody else. We were anything for each other.
And that kiss changed, broke everything. Because it broke to real life things we were hiding for years now. I was sure I was feeling something for Chris. But now I was sure she was feeling the same or at least, she was feeling something for me.
I stayed sitting in Chris' bed for a long time. My eyes stared into space. I didn't know what to do, what to say. My reason was telling me to go. My heart was telling me to go to her and kiss her. So I got up and got to the kitchen where she was closing the window. When she turned back, I was there. And I had no idea what to do. I was crying. I could feel tears running out my eyes. She was too.
I couldn't say why but I felt a rush through my body, an urge to go near Chris, to hug her, to kiss her. I had already felt this way but not so deeply. All my body rushed me to join Chris at the other side of the kitchen. So did I. I put my arms around her and pushed her against the sink. And I kissed her, so deeply, so passionately. I didn't know you could feel this way when you kiss someone…
She kissed me back. I was not dreaming, Chris was kissing me back! Our faces were so close I could feel her warm tears against my cheeks. I couldn't stop kissing her. It was like I couldn't let my face go from hers. All my body was burning so I pushed her harder against the sink. I felt her tiny body against mine. It felt so good, I had the impression to be right where I was supposed to be.
At one moment, we stopped kissing. Our faces moved away from each other. We both knew this time, this kiss was mutual. I could tell it by the way Chris was looking at me. I wanted to kiss her again. But instead I felt her hand taking mine. Her gaze didn't leave mine and she led me to her bedroom. I didn't make a move. I just followed her. I was like hypnotized.
She kissed me slowly. I answered his kiss. Her hands hugged my body and I felt so weak. She was all I had ever wanted and she was finally answered me. After all the fights, the silences, the uneasiness, I felt relieved we were finally on the same line. I touched her body. I could feel she was shivering under my fingers. I kissed her neck, her shoulders, her arms. I just couldn't stop.
I finally led her to the bed. She let me do it. I kept kissing her while I was taking off her pajamas. For the first time, I was really touching her skin, her breast, her belly. She was so beautiful. Our bodies meet skin to skin for the first time. And it felt like they always had been connected. She followed my moves and kissed me all along. We were on the same line, connected as ever. She let out a moan and then she looked at me in the eyes. Our gazes were locked as if nothing else existed. I looked for her hands and reached them. Our fingers intertwined. Our hands clutched.
We made love for hours. I couldn't fill up with her skin, her smell, her perfume. I was right where I wanted. Right where we were supposed to be. Our bodies talked to each other so easily. She knew exactly what I was doing and she led me to places I had never been. I reached a level of pleasure I had never experienced. It was so intense, so deep, so strong, so powerful… I didn't even find the words to describe what I was living. How the earth did it so much time to arrive to this moment of bliss? Why did we have to fight, to yell, to sulk to finally admit how we both felt?
Eventually, Chris took me in her arms and held me tight. She kissed my cheek, smiled and lay down next to me. I was happy and I knew she was too. She fell asleep on my chest right after. One of her hands was on my torso. I stayed awake for a while. I couldn't believe I was in the same bed as her. I couldn't believe she was touching me, that our bare skin finally met. She was there breathing near me. She seemed so peaceful. And I was the luckiest guy in the world…