An hour later, Fitz came home with Karen sleeping on his shoulder. He was holding the stuffed animal she won with her tickets and Olivia's bag of treats. He put Karen down and hoped she would sleep at least nine hours. He needed a break. Karen had his number, and she would call him with Olivia's phone to ask for French toast when she woke up. He wanted to say goodbye to Olivia and go to his own home, but he didn't want to wake her. He looked in her room, and he was surprised to find her sitting on her window seat looking out the window.
"You're still woke."
"We need to talk."
"Okay, about what?"
"I'm thinking about moving away for a few months."
"Why?"
"Mellie called me, and she said you might not be Karen's dad. I can't deal with all of this right now."
"I am Karen's dad."
"You don't know that."
"Olivia, I've already taken a paternity test."
"What?"
"I wanted to cover all of my bases. I bought a test from Walgreens, and I swabbed Karen's cheek the second day I took her to school. The results were sent to me today."
"Why didn't you tell me this?"
"The results came to my phone a few hours ago. I was going to tell you."
"So you're not leaving Karen?"
"No, and I want more than you're offering me. I want to be on her birth certificate, or whatever paperwork I need to be on so that I can make decisions for her."
"I'll have to contact the adoption agency."
"Okay."
"I want you to stay here."
"You do?"
"I can't be your jogging buddy right now...can you be my sex buddy?"
"No."
"No?"
"I want more than that from you."
"What do you want?"
"I want you to share your life with me. I don't want you to reduce us to sex. If that's all you want from me, I won't be anything more than your jogging buddy and co-parent to Karen and our baby."
"Fitz, I've never had a serious relationship."
"I know your career is really important, and you're busy."
"I can't see myself married to anyone. I've always thrown myself into being good at my job and being a mom. I can control my career, and I can control my kid. I can't control a marriage."
"Why do you always have to be in control? It can't be because of your dad if he was nothing more than a child support check."
"Because I couldn't control anything. I couldn't say I didn't want to go to his house on his visitation days because his wife was a bitch. I tried, and the court threatened my mom with parental alienation. If I kept complaining, I would have had to live with him full time and be a verbal punching bag. The man has been dead for 15 years, and I still hate him. I hate that he used me to hurt my mom. The birthday gifts that he promised, and I never got. I wasn't in control of anything, and my mom couldn't help me until I turned 18. Whenever she tried to leave Virginia, he would fight her for his visitation. Everything was so difficult. Do you know how hard it is to be at the airport and not be able to board a flight with your mom because your deadbeat dad refused to sign a travel letter? Being dragged out of the airport by him while he laughed at my mom. That is why I don't want my kids to have a dad."
"I'm sorry your dad was a deadbeat. I'm not. I could say some of the same things about my mom and dad. At least you didn't grow up with alcoholics."
"Why didn't you tell me about your parents?"
"The same reason you never told me about your dad. I didn't want you to think I'm damaged goods. I never worried about that with Mellie. She's never been afraid to show me who she is from the beginning. A lady with a lot of problems trying to make it as a waitress."
"How did you meet?"
"I was in Virginia for a job. I met her at a restaurant."
"Are you staying with me?"
"No, but I'm not going anywhere."
"Goodnight Fitz."
"Goodnight Olivia."
