A/N: I think I cursed myself in the last chapter because when I shuffled this morning I ended up with another song that had been on the show. But, it's okay this is one of my favorites.
Song: Somewhere Only We Know: Keane (As sung by Darren Criss and the cast of the Warblers)
Lyrics: "This could be the end of everything. So, why don't we go…somewhere only we know."
Summary: On Kurt's last day at Dalton, Blaine takes him to their favorite spot on campus. This is actually inspired by a past chapter of this fic: Chapter 14- 'We're Looking for Something Dumb to Do'. Felt like I wanted to expand on the one little part I wrote in that chapter, so now it gets its own one-shot!
Rating: K+: Just fluff with a little bit of angst thrown in.
Blaine looked out onto the setting sun and sighed contently, adjusting himself so he could cuddle closer to the boy beneath him. His head hit the other's chest and he breathed deeply, trying to ensure the scent would stick to his nostrils well after it had faded from his reality. This was Kurt's last day as a Dalton boy. This meant that stolen moments like what he was experiencing right now would become nearly impossible to come by.
At Dalton, Blaine and Kurt were able to do… pretty much anything they wanted. As a boarding school, the boys were away from the prying eyes of parents, and as long as there were no bullying or illegal activities, the faculty didn't really care what each boy got up to in their personal time. Since Kurt had become his boyfriend Blaine realized how dependent he had become on the other boy. They spent most of their waking hours together in class and then Warbler's practice. Neither of them had slept in their own beds alone in months, always more content to cuddle up together under the Dalton comforters. The closeness of the person they loved was what lulled them to sleep every night. It also kept the nightmares at bay, the demons that each boy kept only an arm's length.
So, this is why Blaine worried and cuddled so close to Kurt that he could feel his heartbeat as if it were inside of his own. Because Blaine was terrified of Kurt going back to McKinley… and it wasn't because of safety. No, the reason was far more selfish. Blaine knew that when Kurt returned there would no more stolen kisses between classes, no sitting out in the gardens until the sunset, and no dinners together in the dining hall. Instead, Blaine would have to fall back with old friends, fall asleep in a cold bed, and drive nearly 2 hours just to spend the afternoon with Kurt. Plus, with Burt, Carol, and Finn around, Blaine knew private moments between the two of them would be few and far between. The quiet kisses and whispered names they had become so familiar with would be forgotten, pushed into their subconscious as only distant memories.
"You're thinking out loud again." Kurt smiled down at his boyfriend as he massaged his fingers through gelled-down curls. His hands were sticky with raspberry gel as he worked each curl-free of its prison, giving Kurt the view of the free unmanaged hair, he loved so dearly.
"I just—" Blaine stopped for a moment. Was it really fair that he impart all of his worries onto Kurt? He was so excited to go back to his old school and reunite with his friends. At Dalton he truly was like a caged bird, unable to spread his wings and fly. Blaine was happy in his cage, but he knew his boyfriend wasn't. Kurt was an individual and Dalton wasn't the place he needed to be. It served him well as a home to rehabilitate in, but now he was ready to soar again. Was it fair to Blaine to potentially ground him? "I'm really going to miss you." He tried to make his voice as soft as possible, hoping that fear wouldn't leach into his tone.
"I know. I'm going to miss you too."
"What am I going to do without you?"
Kurt smiled, "honestly, B, I don't know what I'm going to do without you either. I'll have all my old friends back… but now that I have you… I don't exactly want to go back to my old life."
Blaine's heart leapt at the confession. Maybe Kurt was thinking of staying. But, then it fell again. No, that wasn't what he was saying at all. "Do you have to go?" The question passed his lips and tumbled toward Kurt before he could stop it.
"I do." There was a beat of silence before, "But I want you to know just how much I care about you. Because without you I'm not sure I would still be here." Blaine watched tears welled up in those blue eyes. "I'm not going to let you go. A little distance isn't going to keep up from being us, I promise. I'll even come out here and visit you if I have to."
"It's just not going to be the same, Kurt, and I'm so scared."
"I'm not leaving you; I promise." Blaine turned his face inwards; his nose pressed against Kurt's blazer and unleashed the flurry of tears that had been building up inside him over the last week. This was the last time the two of them were going to sit in the west garden and watch the sunset, this was the last night they would share a bed for a long time, this was the last time they were going to be… them. Blaine cried because he knew from that moment on the place they sat was the only place that would know the true them, because they would have to stamp it down everywhere else they went. Blaine knew that Dalton wasn't real Ohio life, and he wasn't ready to let go of its safety in their relationship yet.
Kurt leaned down and pulled his boyfriends face out of his uniform, before kissing his tears away. "This isn't' going to break us." He whispered as he pushed their lips together softly "We're not going to let this be our end."
They laid in the grass watching as the sun dipped below the horizon, knowing the by Monday everything would change.
A/N: Well… there you have it. I really like this one. Might be in my top 3 for this series.
