Third-person

The past five days, Jamie, Jayce, and J.R. were depressed and just wanted to stay in their rooms. Crosshairs stayed with J.R. and Bumblebee with Jayce. Keeping everyone's mental health in check wasa challenge. Even when Cade or Hound would stay with J.R., Crosshairs spent his time with Jamie. Both to get Drift to destress, knowing how much of a toll this situation is taking on him, and because he wanted to spend time with Jamie. Even Drift did not like how Crosshairs wouldn't destress. The two of them had their owndea of destressing by sitting in the hallway once the three girls fell asleep so they'd hear if one of them woke up in the middle of the night. They're able to sit quietly for three to four hours before one of the girls wake up. Whether it's Jamie, Jayce, or J.R., they want both Crosshairs and Drift. The two mechs aren't sure what to think in terms of Jayce. She went from panicking if she saw both of them while going through a panic attack to wanting both of them.

The Autobots and Cade wanted to do something with the girls on New Year's Eve, but the three girls weren't in the mood to go out, nordid they see the big deal with New Year's Eve. Cade and the Autobots didn't know if this was the depression, or the three girls didn't think New Year's Eve was a big deal.

To the Autobots and Cade, the girls were doing better today. The girls still wanted to stay in their rooms, but they wanted to play computer games. It was an improvement to the others. They also planned on watching part of a twenty-four-hour live stream later in the afternoon, though they weren't sure if the girls would watch all of it.

Cade POV

More of our fears came true in the past five days. Though we expected the three girls not to want to do anything, we were hoping Jayce and J.R. wouldn't end up like Jamie and not eat much all day. We have to bring food to them, or they won't eat. It's hard to know if it's the depression or trying to starve themselves. IThe three girls stayed in their rooms until three-thirty. Jamie's the one who had this plan though we weren't sure if it would fall apart. Jayce and J.R. leaned on Crosshairs while Drift held Jamie on his lap. It was apparent the three girls were trying to enjoy what we were watching. How long before one of them would go back to their room. Bee and I went to get the girls some dinner at five. We returned an hour later, but they wouldn't eat. Come on, girls, we don't want to have to put this plan into action.

"How long are we waiting until we put the plan in place?" Hound asked.

"Once they get difficult and refuse to eat no matter what we do," I tell him, "which I fear might be soon."

"Unbelievable, I wouldn't be surprised if-," Bee started.

"No, Bee, don't think like that."

The rate things have been going downhill; I get why he thinks Jamie will soon be critically ill. That's all we need to add to everyone's stress. We go back to watching the live stream with the others. By nine, the three girls went to their rooms.

Drift POV

"Go on; I'll be right there," I tell Jamie. She didn't ask why I wasn't coming, which is a good thing right now.

"Lucky, she's not questioning why you're not coming," Crosshairs comments.

"I don't think she would, regardless of the situation."

"They did better today. Considering the rapid decline, this was a very good day," Hound comments.

"You know how terrible nights have been," Crosshairs emphasized.

"At least Jayce doesn't need to be drugged, but I still can't believe how violent she got," Cade reminded us before going upstairs. There wasn't much to talk about. Bee, Crosshairs, Hound, and I sleep in the hallway. Jayce and J.R. aren't difficult that two of us need to calm them, but Bee and Hound don't want to be far from the girls now.

We go upstairs and look in Jayce and J.R.'s rooms. Depression and panic attacks make them exhausted, but they still fight sleep. Crosshairs and I have to lie with them so they'll fall asleep. Glad Jamie is distracted, but I still worry Jamie will get upset the longer I'm not with her. Sure, Jayce and J.R. will let Bee and Hound comfort them, but Crosshairs and I aren't sure if they'd fall asleep with Bee or Hound.

Both Jayce and J.R. took a while to fall asleep though they areexhausted. With Jamie still distracted, Crosshairs insisted I sit with him, Bee and Hound. I can't leave the door to Jamie's room open.

"She should be ok for a while," Crosshairs assured, "she's distracted watching that live stream."

Bumblebee goes in her room abywsy.I soon think Crosshairs didn't just want me out here to destress. However, the conversation is short-lived. The hallway becomes silent for an hour until J.R. comes running out of her room and towards Crosshairs.

Crosshairs POV

This isvery unusual for J.R. She's knows I've been sleeping in the hallway but never ran out of her room and she's already had intense nightmares. She's hugging me tight, and it's hard to get her to sit on my lap. J.R. is trembling, and I know she's trying not to cry. Hound got up and headed downstairs. No way he's going to his quarters after watching J.R. I will not ask her what is terrifying her. The fact she's trembling this early in a panic attack tells me this one is the worst nightmare so far. Assuring her Jamie and Jayce are ok caused her to start bawling.

"I'm terrified they'll send up dead," J.R. sobbed. She's even more terrified than Jayce now. I fear her nightmare was one of two Jayce has; either she watches Jamie, Jayce, or both kill themselves or find them dead.

Hound comes back five minutes later with a couple of tablets and water.

"Here, this will help you sleep," I say, trying to get her to take the pills

Once she took the them, I picked her up, brought her to her room, laid her in bed, and covered her with the blanket.

"It's going to be ok," I assure her while stroking her forehead. Tears rolled down her face, "you just want me to lie with you," I joke before lying on the bed with her. She rolled over to face me. It wasn't long before she had a hard time keeping her eyes open. Once she fell asleep, I left the room, closing the door behind me.

"I didn't think she'd be the one needing drugs," Hound comments.

"I fear Jayce will need drugs soon. Their nightmares are getting more intense, and they hate what the nightmares are about," I point out, "I was hoping two weeks ago would be the only time we'd have to use drugs."

Drift gets up and goes to Jamie's room. Bee walks out of the room two minutes later.

"I missed something," Bee comments, concerned. I didn't want to tell him, but he wanted to know no matter how bad what happened was. He said nothing before going to Jayce's room.

"The door's locked!" He exclaimed.

"Fuck!" I get up and go to the door. Hound runs downstairs to get lock picking tools, "go see if any drugs or weapons are missing, now!" I demanded. Bee runs downstairs while I keep trying to open the door, hoping it's just jammed.

Even though she's been fine being alone at night, I should have known she'd find a way to sneak something she could use to kill herself with.

"Move!" Hound demands as he runs towards me. He works as fast as he can to pick the lock. We walked into the room quietly but terrified at what we'd find. Jayce was sleeping, and I didn't find any wounds.

"She took nothing from the medbay," Bumblebee whispers, "I locked the door." While risky to do if Jamie has a severe flare-up and has a hard time breathing, add it's unpredictable when Jamie will suffer any level of flare-up, this is something we have to do to keep Jayce from killing herself. Then it hit me, oh fuck. I looked around the room, Bee, and Hound watching, concerned.

"Let's go," I whisper when I didn't find what I was looking for.

"What were you looking for?" Hound asked as I closed the door, leaving it open a little. I didn't want to tell them, but they'll demand I tell them.

"Rope," I said. As I expected, they couldn't believe what I just said, "I didn't find any."

"Why'd she lock the door?" Bumblebee asked.

"So we don't hear her go through a nocturnal panic attack and possibly an anxiety attack in the morning," I tell them. Aside from dying alone from a drug overdose or hanging herself, this was the only other reason Jayce would lock the door.

"I'll stay with her for a while," Bee says and goes in Jayce's room before I could say anything.

"You going to tell Cade and Drift?" Hound asked.

"Not Drift, and there's no need for Cade to know," I replied before going to Jamie's room.

Drift POV

It's eleven-thirty, Jamie is still watching the live stream.Crosshairs comes in and sits on the edge of the bed with me. It's funny watching the live stream, but not hearing what's going on, and hearing Jamie laugh. Crosshairs jokes about how humans kiss their partner at midnight. I think he's enjoying joking about this. He knows Jamie is slower than most femme, but he says she won't get mad. I don't know, Jamie is a complicated femme. It seems something bothers Crosshairs and he's hoping for a good laugh. I'll ask him tomorrow or later tonight if Jamie falls asleep. Fifteen minutes until midnight, and my mind is thinking terrible thoughts. Not about how mad Jamie could be, but what if this is the only chance I get?

"You ok?" Crosshairs asked, whispering. I didn't answer him. I knew I'd start crying. I'm not embarrassed he'd see me cry, but if Jamie hears me, then sees me crying. I left the room and stood by the doorway. Hound is watching me but doesn't get up. Crosshairs didn't follow either. I tried to calm myself but kept thinking, what if I'm right? I have the same nightmare almost every night, and the way Jayce and J.R. are going downhill, how can I not think Jamie will be the same way soon? This got me thinking about her illness and watching her go through a severe flare-up. I'm now shaking with fear. I have ten minutes to stop.

Walking into the room and standing by Jamie, waiting for midnight. Crosshairs already has a smile on his face.

If she ends up mad, Crosshairs, I'm blaming you.

Right at midnight, I kissed her cheek. I'm not even going to try on the lips like humans do.

"What the…Drift," Jamie exclaimed, looking at me. She took her headphones off and stood up, still smiling. Crosshairs started laughing, and I couldn't help but smile. I picked her up and sat on the bed next to Crosshairs. Most femme would kiss their mech back, but I'm not bothered Jamie didn't.

"That was fun," Crosshairs says before leaving.

If you have any dirty ideas, Crosshairs, you can forget them.

I lay back on the bed, seeing Jamie smile. Nope, guess it wasn't Crosshairs being in the room that prevented her from kissing me.

Any other night, I could stare at her blue eyes all night, but now I'm haunted by these thoughts. I need to get out of here without upsetting her. I moved her off me and left, but she followed.

'Where are you going?" She asked calmly. I didn't answer her, knowing I'd sound upset.

"Drift?" She asked, now worried.

Jamie POV

I don't understand why he had to leave the room. I want to run after him but can't move.

"DRIFT!!" I yelled before feeling something poke me and started falling to the floor.

Crosshairs POV

What the hell, Drift?

"When did you get one of those syringes?" Hound asked.

"While the girls were watching T.V., I thought I'd have to use it on Jayce."

"I'm going after him!" Hound fumed.

"No, Don't, leave him. You need to watch J.R.," I instruct before carrying Jamie to her room.

I sat on the bed, holding her, realizing what i have done.