A/N: Hi everyone! School's almost out, so hopefully I'll be writing more afterward! I apologize for the month of disappearing off the face of the earth, but here's the next chapter. Hope you enjoy it. :)
This chapter is mostly just Magnus' concert—I don't know how many of you really wanted to read this, but it's not just cliche fluff! You heard me right: I COMBINED FLUFF AND PLOT. And no, I'm not sure how I did it. *giggles awkwardly*
Disclaimers: The usual I-don't-own-Cassandra-Clare's-stuff-but-I-do-own-Alec's-book-characters-and-Magnus'-songs warning you're probably getting tired of reading
The next week and a half passed rather quickly, and nobody found out anything else about any kind of coverup. Simon wanted to forget about it for the night, and Alec was happy to oblige, but Izzy and Camille had their scheming faces on, making him worry about what they might do as soon as they got their hands on a clue.
Tonight was Magnus' concert, and they were crowded together in front of the stage, waiting for him to appear and sing.
Alec watched, apprehensively, as Magnus just stood there in front of the mic. The lights reflected off all the glitter on his body, but Alec couldn't help but feel as though it was reflecting off the singer as well. Whether that was due to him shining or him shutting everything out, he couldn't say. The only thing he knew for sure was that Magnus was nervous.
"I suppose this is the part where I make an impressive speech," he said slowly. "Where I thank you all for coming here tonight, where I flirt with each and every one of you at the same time. Where I put on a show, an act, that says I don't need anyone and that I am perfect." He smirked at that, causing the audience to laugh, but Magnus' eyes were not laughing. "I owe everyone an apology," he continued. "You've always said my songs were so full of emotion. I always thought they were, too. But I fell in love." He smiled then, a true smile, a smile that outshone the blinding lights above. "And that showed me that what I thought I'd been feeling was nothing compared to what I could feel. I fell in love, and I wondered how I've been alive so long without noticing that I hadn't been living at all."
He took a deep breath. "I fell in love, and I will never be able to fake any feelings ever again. So I am sorry, because everything is real now. All the emotions in my songs. When I take a picture of me that says I'm the luckiest man alive… it's because I am. But not because of my career or my fashion sense or anything I could ever own. And being in love is the best thing that could possibly happen to me."
The stage blurred. Everything blurred. Alec wondered if the lights were getting to his head, but then a tear slid off his chin, more flooded down his face, and he smiled up at Magnus, crying his eyes—and all of his worries—out.
"I wrote this song for my wonderful boyfriend," Magnus said. "It's called Need Someone. This one's for you, my love." And then Magnus began to sing.
"Oxygen and boxed-in problems
Can't get enough of one
And I'm overflowing with the other
Wish I could put my feelings in a box as well
And turn it around so the label's facing in
Nobody wins
Trying to cut the losses, too many unlabeled boxes
Of too many unsolvable problems
I'm overwhelmed
I think this attic is haunted, don't wanna be up here alone
Don't let me be alone
I know I'll lose my mind, so I'm afraid to let it roam
Don't let me be alone"
Alec looked around at everybody dancing. Magnus' voice was enchanting, magnetic, just like him. He wouldn't be surprised if, by the end of the night, everyone had fallen in love with Magnus Bane the way they did every time he breathed. It had certainly been like that with Alec, but he wouldn't have it any other way.
"You knocked on my door
Blue scarf and cheeky smile
Dear god, I love your smile
You offered your help and I didn't know how to take it
My arms were already so full
And I'm scared I'm gonna break it
You walked up to the attic and I was scared I wouldn't make it
Almost collapsed on the way up
But then your arms wrapped around me
You said 'it's okay to need me'
It's okay to need me
And now you're making coffee
You like it black, you're smiling simply
Like I'm not a problem you can put in a box and put away
At the end of the day, I think I love you
May I please love you?
Help me, help me
All I need is someone to love me."
Alec, buried under the weight of references to him, found himself suddenly unable to breathe. He realized Magnus had taken Jace's advice and written a song about needing someone to love him. Alec didn't realize how much he'd impacted Magnus until that moment. He had never truly grasped how broken the two of them were, but now, looking at them together, it was insane that they were broken in just the right places to fit so seamlessly together.
"Electricity and city lights left on too late
Both can burn or blind me
Both can be turned off
Wish I could stick a lightswitch to my feelings as well
And turn them off, and leave them in the dark
Vulnerable hearts
Are the easiest to shatter, wish I could believe I matter
No matter how many times you tell me
I think this world is haunted, don't wanna be here alone
Don't let me be alone
I know I'll be kicked out, so I'm afraid to go home
Don't let me be alone."
"You knocked on my door
Blue scarf and cheeky smile
Dear god, I love your smile
You offered your heart and I didn't know how to take it
My arms are already so full
And I'm scared I'm gonna break it
You walked into the music and I was scared I wouldn't make it
I collapsed on the downbeat
But then your arms wrapped around me
You said 'it's okay to need me'
It's okay to need me
And now you're singing softly
Don't know the words, you're smiling simply
Like I'm the opposite of a problem you should want to shove away
You should want to shove me away
So why don't you?
I think I love you
May I please love you?
Help me, help me
All I need is someone to love me
But then your arms wrapped around me
You said it's okay to need me
It's okay to need me
And now we're dancing slowly
Laughing and smiling simply
You're the best thing that ever happened to me
How did I get so lucky
You wrapped your blue scarf around my neck
And then you kissed me
And then you said you need me
You said I make you feel like you are flying
I think that's where I broke down crying."
Alec began to laugh. He remembered that happening with perfect clarity, using the scarf Magnus had given him to pull his boyfriend into a kiss. Magnus had burst into tears that day, too. Alec tightened the scarf around his neck, smiling. He noticed some people looking at him, the tears and smile on his face, the blue scarf. He saw them seeing him, and he found he didn't mind. Nobody whispered, but he felt the questions, and they didn't crush him anymore. They uplifted him. He turned his attention back to Magnus.
"It hurts to say these words more than anything I've done
It hurts to have feelings where there used to be none
I'm so vulnerable without the walls you knocked down
But I'm glad you knocked them down
Because if it hadn't been for you I would still be
Stuck up in my attic, trying to find me
In the boxes of lies that say all I need is glitter
I need you to love me
Can you please tell me you love me?
And can you tell me again, and again, and again
Until I fall asleep
Hold me, hold me
I think I've finally found someone who loves me
I've finally found someone who loves me
All I need is someone to love me."
And the audience exploded into shrieks and cheers, and Magnus was crying as his eyes searched the crowd for Alec, who was standing as tall as he possibly could, his hands cupped around his mouth, screaming across the sea of people to Magnus, telling him he loved him. I've finally found someone who loves me, he thought again, smiling as his eyes met Magnus' across the vast expanse of silhouettes. They held each other's gazes, and it suddenly felt to Alec that there was no distance between them at all.
A/N: Yay! Done with that chapter! I probably won't post the next one until after school ends. I've written the last chapter, but not the chapters between this one and that one. UGH. I need to think ahead. Until then, I'll be doing homework, reading, writing when I can, and listening to way too much Fall Out Boy. Hope everyone's having a good day!
