This was another chapter that took me a while to revise. I hope you enjoy!
Chapter 24: The Sex Fog
"The Mud Hole? We're going to a bar called the Mud Hole?" Meredith said in shock as Mark pulled into the parking lot.
"Apparently we are." He said with a chuckle as he took a spot in the back.
"No. I'm not drinking in a place called the Mud Hole. Watering Hole, now I can see that..." She said as she shook her head.
"Well, what happens when you mix water and dirt?" Mark asked quickly.
"Mud. Oh, I get it... So, we're drinking with dirt bags?" Meredith said with a frown.
"Pretty much." He said with a laugh. "Come on... As long as the liquor isn't watered down, it'll work for me." He said with a wink.
"I guess you're right. I could just get a whole bottle of tequila and omit the dirty shot glasses..." She said with a shrug.
"Now you're talking." Mark said with a chuckle as they marched arm in arm to the hole in the wall.
Mark scanned the bar. It was actually a pretty nice place. The name may have been a total turn off, but it was definitely comparable to Joe's. There were dart boards, a few pool tables in the back and a full bar. It would work. And it was far away from Joe's. That made it all the sweeter.
"Mark!" Addison said as she walked over. She gasped when she saw Meredith on his arm. Meredith watched as she burst into tears.
"Oh my God, Addie!" Meredith said as she looked at the woman that she had been close to for all those years.
"You're- You really are-" She said as she looked into Meredith's eyes. "Oh my God... I really can't believe it." She said as she shook her head in disbelief. "You have no idea how much I have missed you..." She said with a hug.
"I missed you too." Meredith said with a nod.
"So, I'm chopped liver?" Mark asked with a smirk.
"Hey, she was dead for nine years!" Addison said as she grabbed her arm and led them to a table.
"And you didn't hear from me for nine years..." Mark said, feigning hurt.
"Jealous, much?" Meredith said with a laugh.
"Oh, shut up, you big baby." Addison said with a laugh.
"I'll get the drinks... Addie, what'll it be?" He asked.
"Oh... a comso." She said with a smile.
"Oh god..." Meredith muttered, thinking of Lexie's favorite drink.
"What?" Addison asked quickly.
"Nothing." Meredith said as she shook her head.
"Lola, what do you want?" Mark asked with a chuckle.
"Lola's not in right now. Meredith will have the usual." Meredith said with a smile.
"But vodka is so much more fun." Mark laughed as he walked away.
"Not funny!" She said as she shook her head.
"Lola, huh?" Addison said with a laugh. "To think, nine years, and I get stuck with her..."
"She's not here. Mark's just screwing around because I wanted chocolate for breakfast." Meredith said as she shook her head.
"Meredith always wants chocolate." Addison said with a smirk.
"You know it..." Meredith said with a giggle.
"So, nine years... What have you been doing?" She asked.
"The usual., Med school, internship, residency." Meredith said with a shrug.
"That's it huh?" Addison said with a smile.
"Pretty much." Meredith said simply.
"No relationships?" She asked Meredith.
"No. I couldn't-" Meredith said flatly.
"But now... You and de Gaulle!" Addison said exuberantly.
"You've heard..." Meredith replied.
"Of course, I've heard! Many have tried, all have failed, except one. You!" Addison told her. "We were seriously wondering if he was gay. I mean, the top cardiothoracic surgeon in the world, and nothing. No women. But apparently he's not..."
"No. He's definitely not. He was just... Broken." Meredith said with a frown.
"Just like you." Addison added.
"Now, how would you know that?" Meredith said as she raised her eyebrow.
"Oh, I think you know." Addison told her frankly. "So, tell me about him."
"He's a great guy. He really is. Amazing. He's talented, and sweet, and caring..." She trailed off.
"He's just not Derek." Addison said frankly.
"No. That he isn't." She said with a Mona Lisa smile. She looked up when Mark returned with the drinks.
"So, are we caught up here?" Mark said as he sat there drinks down.
"Pretty much." Meredith said with a laugh. "Except for that rock!" Meredith said as she grabbed Addison's hand.
"Yeah, I got married. Jim. He's a great guy." Addison said with a smile.
"So, how did you meet?" Meredith asked.
"Oh, it's really not that exciting. It was at a party. Mutual friends." She said with a smile. "So, you and Mark, living together... Who would have thought?"
"Grey's a pain in the ass..." Mark said with a laugh.
"Oh, and you didn't know that before you moved in?" Addison said with a laugh.
"Hey! I'm feeling under attack here!" Meredith whined.
"Then maybe you need someone in your corner..." Derek said as he snuck up from behind. Meredith gasped as she felt his hand on her shoulder.
"Derek... I didn't know you'd be here." Meredith said in a happy, yet disappointed tone. He was just too hard to resist.
"And I didn't know you would be... Apparently we have sneaky friends." Derek said as he sat down next to her.
"Where's Lexie?" She asked softly.
"I need a scotch." Derek said as he jumped up from the table.
"You bastard." Meredith said as she glared at Mark.
"You know you're not disappointed..." He said with a smirk.
"It's not your decision. I was sabotaged." She said with a frown. "I- I can't." She said as she started to stand.
"Grey, if you stand, I swear I will get up and hold you down." Mark warned. She looked at him and reluctantly sat back down. "That's what I thought..."
"So, what are we talking about?" Derek said as he sat back down.
"Nothing." Meredith said quickly.
"Oh." Derek replied.
"So, Lexie?" Meredith asked again.
"I assume she's at home." Derek said frankly. "Hell, if I know." he said in a drop the subject tone.
"Oh." Meredith said, wondering why he was being so cold about it. "I think I'm going to need another shot..." Meredith said as she threw the second that Mark had gotten her back.
"I'll get that." Mark said, giving Addison the signal wink.
"Thanks." Meredith muttered as she played with a piece of paper on the table, folding and unfolding.
"I'll be right back." Addison said as she walked away. Mark threw Meredith's shot down and also walked away.
Derek and Meredith sat in an uncomfortable silence. It was awkward. She couldn't lie, she wanted to jump him. She wanted to drag him to her bed and never let him leave. She wanted to lock him in her closet, hog-tied, while she was at work, only to come home and have her way with him again. It was passion. But it was tainted. It was forbidden. She couldn't do it.
"How did we get here?" Derek said sadly.
"I don't know, Derek. I don't know..." She said as she shook her head. "But this is where we are. I guess now, we have to pick up the pieces, and move on. I- I don't know..."
"What if it hadn't happened?" Derek asked as his sad blue eyes met hers.
"What do you mean?" She asked.
"What if there wasn't an accident?" He asked. "What if everything had gone the way it was supposed to go... Where would we be?" He questioned as he looked at her.
"I don't even know where we'd be. I don't want to know where we'd be... Because that's not what happened. We didn't make a life. We didn't move on. There was an accident. And I did- There was an accident, Derek. There's no way of knowing what we would have had." She said as she looked off into the distance.
"We would have had it, Meredith. We would have gotten married. We would have had kids. The house. The dog. You'd still be a doctor. I'd still be a doctor. But we'd be together. I'd come home to you at night after a long case...and all I'd want to is to have you in my arms. And even now, after a hard day, all I want is you in my arms..." She said as she looked into her green eyes.
"Derek, don't do this...please don't." She cried. "It's hard enough as it is. You think I don't want to be in your arms every night? You think I don't think about you every waking minute of my life? Every sleeping minute? It doesn't matter, I can't. She's my friend, Derek. I don't want to lose her, she's too nice of a person." Meredith explained.
"Well, what's more important? Your happiness or hers? My happiness or hers?" He spat.
"Derek, it's not like that and you know it! You're not even trying..." She said quickly.
"I am trying. Do you know how hard it is to try? Do you know how hard it is to lay next to somebody that you don't really love? Sure, I love her...I love her like a friend. I care for her... But I don't love her. I'm not in love with her! There is only one woman I am in love with, and she is sitting right across from me, right now. So yeah, I can try until I'm blue in the face. But at the end of the day, it's going to be you. It's always going to be you." He said frankly.
"Derek! Don't do this. Adrien, he's- He's a good guy. He's broken like I am. And it took him a long time...just like it took me. And I won't- I can't do that to him. He deserves better. Maybe we'll all be okay. Maybe five years down the road, you'll have kids. We'll all be friends, and we'll have cookouts." She said with a fake smile.
"No Meredith!" he shouted. "Five years down the road we're not going to be friends. We're not going to have cookouts, because I'm not going to be able to be in the same room with you and not want to fuck your brains out. And not want to take you home and hold you close. And not want to take you away, and hideaway from all this bullshit life that I've created for myself. Because I don't want to be here anymore. I want a life with you. Damn-it, Meredith! I want you!" He said loudly.
"I can't, Derek. I- I can't...sorry." She said as she dropped her head.
"No! No..." He said as he tilted her chin up.
"Derek..." She moaned as she looked into his eyes.
"Meredith. I need you. When you died. When I thought you died... I died. Everything in my world ended. I felt dead inside. I couldn't breathe. I shut down. I couldn't go to the funeral. I couldn't take it. I couldn't stand the thought of you being placed in the ground forever. Every day I felt sick thinking about it. About how I just left. I couldn't take it. I couldn't. I thought I was going crazy. I saw you everywhere. Everywhere. I smelled you. You were in the clouds. In my coffee. In the water. I always saw you. It was the need. The need to believe that you were alive. That day. The day that I saw you in the house... It was like that breath of air you take when you have been underwater too long. It brought life back into me. I had been dead, and you saved me..." He said as he tipped his head. "Don't let me die, Meredith. I'm here, and you can save me. Please don't let me die..." He said in almost a whisper. He watched as she took a deep breath and closed her eyes.
"I love you..." She said softly as she opened her eyes and looked into his.
Derek's eyes got wide. She said it. All that time, she hadn't said it. He told her several times and nothing. No response. She just told him she loved him. It was a big step. A leap even. He didn't know what to say. He didn't know what to do. She closed her eyes and leaned it. Their lips met in a moment of perfection. In a moment where they were transported. Away from boyfriends. Away from wives. Away from gossip. Away from scrutiny. It was that perfect place. Their place.
"I need a drink." She said breathlessly as she pulled away.
"And I can get you one." Derek said with a smirk.
"Wow... That was some kiss." Addison said with a big grin as she returned to the table.
"It was a mistake." Meredith said with a frown.
"It didn't look like a mistake..." Addison said as she sipped her drink.
"I- I-" Meredith stammered.
"You're Meredith and Derek. Meredith and Derek." Addison said quickly. "It's just... You're Meredith and Derek! It's just the way it is." Addison said warmly.
"And he's married. And I'm- And he's married." Meredith muttered as she looked at him at the bar. He flashed her a warm smile.
"Not because he wants to be. Meredith, I saw him. He- When we went to New Hampshire..." Addison said as she looked up at him.
"You went to New Hampshire?" Meredith said in shock.
"Uh huh. A couple of weeks ago. My idea. He was a mess, Mer. I mean it. Suicidal. He couldn't let go. So, I told him we'd go to New Hampshire. We went to every cemetery in the area. We found a Meredith Grey..." Addison trailed off.
"My dad's mom..." Meredith said softly.
"He thought it was you. He collapsed. Mer, it killed him. He needs you like he needs oxygen. He needs you to breathe." Addison explained. "Lexie was a mistake. She was, don't think otherwise. Every night he laid in bed with her, he felt like he was cheating on you. You two were met to be. Just admit it."
"I hate you." Meredith said with a frown.
"You love me." Addison giggled. "Because I can make you see..."
"Here you go..." Derek said as he sat the drink down in front of Meredith.
"Thank you..." Meredith said with a smile.
"So, what are we talking about?" Derek asked as he sat down.
"Oh, nothing." Addison said with a wink. "Actually, I need to be getting home...I promised Jim I would be home before he went to bed." She said as she started to stand up.
"Already?" Meredith said with disappointment.
"Yep. Don't worry, we'll do this again." She said as she hugged Meredith softly. "I'm glad you're alive..." Addison whispered in her ear.
"Me too." Meredith agreed.
"Don't do anything I wouldn't do." She said with a wink as she walked off.
"And then there were three." Derek said as he looked up at her.
"More like two." Meredith said with a shrug.
"Where'd Mark go?" Derek said as he looked around.
"Off being a man-whore, I suppose." She said with a shrug. "Shit head was my ride home, too... Oh well, that's what a cab's for, I guess. How about another round?" She asked as she raised her eyebrows. Derek nodded as he walked to the bar and back with their drinks. He sat down with a smile.
"You look great. Nine years, and you still look great." Derek said as he looked at her face.
"I wish I could say the same about you, old man." She said with a refreshing giggle.
"Old man? Old man! I'll show you old man..." He said with raised brows.
"Will you now?" She laughed. "Your old balls..."
"I don't have old balls!" He whined.
"Did you take your E.D. meds?" She asked with a laugh. "I had to laugh when Lexie said you had E.D..." Meredith laughed.
"I had to tell her that... The thought of- Let's not talk about her." He said with a nod.
"You look good, Derek. Even if you hair is thinning." She said quickly.
"My hair is not thinning! That's worse than old balls..." He joked as he looked down.
"Well, I have to say, I missed the hair." She said as she looked at it.
"My hair is wonderful. But your boobs, now they are looking a little saggy." He said with a smirk.
"Ass!" She spat.
"That too..." He said as he looked down.
"Not nice, Derek Michael!" She said as she shook her head.
"You're as perky as an eighteen-year-old. Untouched by time..." He said with a smile.
"Thank you." She said with a nod as she stared into his eyes.
"You're welcome." He said as he looked back into hers.
"I think I need to call a cab..." Meredith muttered as she took out her phone.
"Me too...let's share." Derek said quickly.
"You do live close." Meredith said with a nod.
"Actually, I'm staying at the Archfield." He said frankly.
"Oh..." She said with a nod. "We can still share a cab..." She said as she called. "Shouldn't be long." She said as she flipped her phone shut. Their eyes locked once again. "Not long at all..."
"That's good..." He said as he looked at her. "Long is good... But right now-" He muttered as he stared.
"I-" She said as she continued to stare. "Shit!" She said quickly as she looked away.
"What?" He asked as he tipped his head to the side.
"Stop! You can't..." She muttered.
"Can't what?" Derek asked with a smirk.
"That. You know what." She grumbled. "Cab..." She said as she looked up. Derek threw down several bills and followed her.
"Cab's not here." He said when they walked out.
"I needed air." She said as she stood on the sidewalk. "I want to." She said as she looked up.
"You want to what?" Derek asked with confusion.
"At least I didn't drink vodka. But- Maybe I should of... At least I would have a good reason..." She said as she walked up and pressed her lips against him.
She moaned as his tongue slid into her mouth. Her fingers ran through his curly locks. She felt his hand grip her head. She ran her hand down his back and onto his ass. She rounded the curve of his body and rubbed his crotch.
"Damn..." He moaned as he felt her touch. "I need you..." They both looked up when they saw the cab pull up.
"The Archfield." Derek muttered to the driver, who nodded.
Derek looked over at Meredith. Her eyes were dark and sultry. She needed him. She wanted him. It was the sex cloud. But tonight, it wasn't a sex cloud. It was a sex fog. She leaned over and tugged on his ear with her teeth and sucked the lobe.
"I want to fuck you..." She moaned into his ear.
She placed her lips on his and began kissing him deeply as she unbuttoned her jeans. She pulled away softly as she slid them down. She watched as Derek's eye got wide, but he remained silent. She ran her hand up and down, stroking his penis through his jeans. She smiled as she felt him grow hard, begging for relief from its confinement.
"I want to fuck you, and I will..." She said in his ear.
Meredith unbuttoned and unzipped his jeans, pulling his hard member through his boxers. She stuck her hand in his pocket, fishing a condom out of his wallet. He smiled as he watched her roll it on. Her soft, petite hands grazing him gently. She slid her finger inside of her own panties and began stroking herself. Derek smiled when she pulled her glistening fingers out. He grabbed her hand and sucked her warm fluid off of her fingers. She moved her panties to the side and lowered herself onto his waiting cock.
"Oh..." He moaned as he felt her moist heat envelope him.
Meredith smiled as she stared into his dark eyes. She pumped her hips as the cab bounced along down the road. She moaned softly as she felt his long thick cock sliding in and out of her, rubbing against her clit.
"Shit...Oh God..." He whispered as he began to pulsate inside of her.
"Fuck..." She moaned as she picked up her pace pumping harder, grinding him.
"Oh...god..." He moaned as he felt her walls tighten around him.
"Shit...Oh..." She moaned as she released with a rush of warm fluid.
Derek's threw his head back as he felt her warm heat combine with the pulsating of her walls. He moaned as he released, He could feel her body quiver as she closed her eyes and paused. She looked over, realizing they were close. She quickly climbed off of him and began pulling her jeans up. Derek zipped his jeans and looked over at her with a smile on his face.
"Here we go." The cab driver said as he pulled up in front of the hotel. Meredith smiled when she saw the grin on his face, and the major boner he had.
"I think we'll be staying here tonight." She said as Derek handed him a large wad of cash.
"Thanks!" He said as he looked at the bills.
"That was-" Derek said as they walked to the entrance,
"Amazing..." Meredith said quickly.
"I was going to say crazy. But amazing works too." He said as they rushed to the elevator.
"Open..." She moaned as she waited. She smiled when she looked over at him.
"I think you're ready for round two." She giggled.
"I think I am." He said as the doors opened revealing and empty elevator.
Derek grabbed her hand and dragged her inside. She quickly spun him around and threw him against the wall as she pressed her lips against hers. She moaned as she felt his tongue slide in and began dancing erotically with hers. He pushed her against the opposite wall as she ran her fingers through his hair. He felt her knee rub against him, causing him to gasp loudly.
They both looked up with wide eyes as the doors opened and an older couple walked on. The couple walked on slowly with faint smirks creeping up. They walked to the back and remained silent.
"He's my male escort..." Meredith said with a wink before the door opened for their floor.
"Mer!" Derek said in shock as he followed her off the elevator.
"Fine, don't be my escort..." She said, feigning hurt.
"561... " He said as he saw her walking aimlessly. She smiled as she stopped in front of the door. He pulled out his key card and slid it in.
"I need you..." She moaned as the door unlocked.
"Not as bad as I need you." He moaned as he opened the door.
"Nice room." She said as she looked around, sliding her shoes and socks off. He turned to face her, and she quickly jumped on him, wrapping her legs around his waist.
"Oh god..." She moaned as she felt his hard cock pressing against his jeans and her. It sent shivers up her spine. He quickly walked to the bed and laid her down on her back.
"Hurry..." She moaned as she watched him fumble with the button and zipper on her jeans. She lifted her hips as he slid them off and let them fall to the floor. He smiled when he saw the tiny black thong she had on. He hooked his index fingers around the tiny panties and slid them down, tossing them to the side. He softly kissed the tops of her feet, moving his way up her smooth legs, stopping at her inner thigh. She moaned as he pecked tiny kisses on each thigh, working his way up. She moaned as he spread her legs gently and exhaled his hot breath, just grazing her delicate flesh.
"Derek..." She moaned as she looked down. His eyes were dark as he looked up at her and smiled. She felt his tongue plunge inside of her, tasting her warm flesh, feeling the heat of her moist folds. She lifted her hips as he gently flicked her clit.
"Oh god..." She moaned at his touch. It had been so long since that part of her was awake like this. She was nearly over the edge and he had barely begun. She felt his tongue stroke her with long, even strokes. She moaned as she felt him begin doing figure of eights.
"Shit...I'm...I'm..." She moaned as she began gasping for air.
"Cum for me, babe...cum for me..." He moaned as he quickened his pace. She began thrusting her hips wildly.
"I'm...Oh god, Derek!" She shouted as her body tensed up causing a wave of heat to rush over her. She grasped the sheets and panted. Derek smiled as he began lapping up her hot, sweet fluid. Derek climbed up the bed and hovered over her body. He began kissing her neck softly and sucking on her collarbone. She rolled him over and straddled his jean clad penis. He watched as she peeled off her shirt, revealing her lacy bra. She unhooked it and tossed it aside as he pulled her down, nestling his face between her perfect breasts.
"Take off your pants..." She said softly as she rolled off of him and pulled him to his feet. He looked down as she fumbled with his jeans and he undid his shirt. Hist pants dropped to the floor along with his boxers. She quickly took his large cock in her soft hand and began pumping furiously.
"Fuck, Mer..." He moaned at her touch. She smiled as she dropped to her knees and looked at his gigantic penis right in her face. She wrapped her hand around him and continued pumping as she flicked it's head with her tongue, she gently licked off the droplets of pre-cum and began tracing his large vein with her tongue. He moaned as he felt her warm mouth surround him. She began sucking hard as she ran her lips up and down him.
"Oh god..." He moaned as he felt himself begin to pulsate. "Fuck...Oh..." He moaned as he felt himself hit the back of her throat. He held her head with his hand as he began thrusting in and out of her tiny mouth, his cock stretching her lips to the maximum. "Oh..." He moaned as the heat began to build. "I'm... I'm going to..." He said as he looked at her approving eyes. She began to suck harder as she felt him near the edge. He released with a grunt into her tiny mouth. He stood there, his cock pulsating in her. He pulled out and she wiped the ample cum that was running out of her mouth.
"Holy fucking shit..." He moaned as he looked down at her. She smiled as she rose to her feet and placed her mouth in his.
"I need to be inside of you..." He moaned as she kissed his neck.
"I need you inside of me..." She said with a sultry look in her eyes. He spun her around and laid her back on the bed. "Condom..." She moaned softly.
"Shit." He said as he looked up.
"What?" She asked.
"That was the only one I had." He said with a frown.
"Then I suggest you get your ass in gear before I change my mind." She said firmly.
"Yes, ma'am." He said as he jumped up, threw on a pair of jeans and ran out the door. She laid her head back and sighed. It was wrong. But it felt so good.
What the hell are you doing? You're playing with fire. Sure, it's fun, but eventually you'll get burned. You'll get burned and then you'll run off like your ass is on fire... And it will be. You'll be lucky if you get out of this without a knife in your back... He loves me. I love him. For once, I just need to be selfish. I need to... Just stop thinking. Thinking sucks. Acting...so much better.
Meredith laid there in the clean white sheets. At least it wasn't some seedy motel. It was the Archfield. At least I'm a whore with class... She closed her eyes and felt the cold white sheets press against her naked flesh. She opened her eyes when she heard Derek open the door and run in with a handful of condoms like a horny teenager.
"Do you think we'll need all those?" She said with a giggle as he threw them down on the table.
"I was hoping so." Derek said with a smirk as he looked at her perfect body.
"You have very wishful thinking..." She said as she sat up and unbuttoned his jeans.
"And that's a bad thing?" He asked as she slid the zipper down.
"I never said that..." She answered as she slid his boxers down to the floor. "Step out." She said as she watched him kick them to the side.
She stood up and placed her hands on his strong chest. She laid her head on his chest, her arms reaching around his back. Derek felt her warm breasts pushed against his chest. He hands slid down his back and ran down his ass.
"I do..." She muttered. "I do love you..." She whispered into his chest.
"I love you too." He said as he kissed her head. He gasped when he felt her hand graze his erect penis. She leaned over to the bedside table and ripped open one of the packages, rolling it on. Derek looked into her eyes and softly laid her back on the bed. She moaned as he hovered her and placed his mouth on hers, kissing her deeply. She felt the head of his penis, graze her, nearly sending her over the edge.
"Come on, Der..." She moaned as she felt his head begin to penetrate. "Do it..."
"Do what?" He asked with a smile.
"Come on..." She moaned as she thrust her hips upward at him.
"Impatient..." He said with a chuckle.
"Now." She said firmly.
"Demanding..." He said with a smirk as he rubbed against her.
"Please?" She whispered.
"As you wish..." He said as he spread her legs and thrust upward into her.
"Oh God..." She moaned as she felt his thick cock in her tight space.
"Damn you're tight." He moaned as he paused. Their eyes connected as he pulled in and out. Thrust in and out.
"Harder." She said as she wrapped her leg around his body. She pumped, reflecting his quickening rhythm. She spread her legs as far as she could as he pushed harder inside with a moan.
"Oh god..." He moaned as he looked at her closed eyes. The look on her face, made everything feel right. Perfect.
"Oh god...Derek...oh..." She moaned as she felt his hard member begin to pulsate inside her warm walls.
"Shit...Oh, God, Mer..." He grunted as he pumped into her again, feeling her heated core. Feeling her walls clamp tight. Their flesh pressing against each other.
"I'm...shit...Oh god..." She moaned as her warm fluid rushed around his cock.
"Fuck...Oh..." He moaned as he released his hot fluid, feeling her heat around him
He collapsed onto her chest and laid his head down. He listened to her rapidly beating heart. He grinned at the sight of her relaxed, content face. He slowly pulled out, holding the condom, and rolled onto his back. She rolled over and laid her chin on his chest and stared into his eyes. He looked down at her. He couldn't lie anymore.
"I missed you." She said as she looked up into his eyes. She breathed in his scent. It was the perfect mix of man. What a man should smell like. Not some cheap aftershave or cologne.
"Missing you...that's an understatement." He said with a smile as he rubbed her soft back.
"I thought about you every day." She said sadly. "Even when I didn't want to. I hated you. But I thought about you." She said as she rubbed his chest. "I thought about what you were doing. Whether you were married. Had kids. I hoped you were happy. Not really. On the bad days, I hope you hated yourself and hated life... But I missed you even then."
"I'm sorry. I'm sorry you were hurting, I'm sorry you hated me..." He said with a frown.
You have to tell her. You have to tell her about the divorce. You can't lie. So much time had been wasted. You can't waste anymore. Things have to move forward. or backward. But they have to move. You can't lie to her. She needs to know you aren't using her. That she isn't a whore you're going to throw away.
"I love you." She said again softly.
"I love you too." Derek agreed as he rubbed her arm. He laid there in a guilty silence. "Mer?" He said softly as they looked at each other.
"Hmm?" She asked softly.
"I asked Lexie for a divorce. Lexie and I... We're getting a divorce." He told her.
"What?" She said as she sat up, wrapping the sheet around her. "You promised!" She said as she stood up.
"I promised I'd try. I did." He told her frankly as he watched her rush around the room.
"And you didn't." She said as she grabbed her panties. "You didn't try!"
"What are you doing?" Derek asked as he watched her.
"Leaving. I'm leaving." She said in a panic.
"No!" He shouted as he jumped up and stood in front of her. "You can leave. But not until you listen." He said as he grabbed her shoulders. She took a deep breath.
"I'm listening." She muttered as she looked at the floor. He tipped her chin up.
"I am done trying-" He started.
"You promised you'd try. What the hell am I doing? I ruined your marriage. I ruin everything..." She said as the tears began to fall.
"No, Mer. This doesn't get to be on you. You don't get this. My marriage... It's over because of me. Because I married someone I didn't love. I love you, yes. And I would do anything for you... But to say I am ending my marriage solely because of you is insane. It was over before it began. Lexie, she's a fixer. You know that. That's the only reason she was with me. Because she thought she could fix me. But she can't. She can't because I am now. Because of you. My marriage has to end. For me and you, it has to end. But for her. It needs to end for her more. She doesn't know it yet, but she could be happy. She has been so worried about fixing, she's never experienced love. Not like we have. I am pushing her away. She needs to be happy. She deserves it. So no, Mer, this isn't on you. I am doing this for everyone." He said as he wiped her tears.
"So, you can be mad at me, but this is the way it is." He told her. "And no matter how mad you are... I love you. I will. And I hope you get over it." He said as he cocked his head. She let out a deep breath.
"Okay..." She said softly.
"Okay?" He asked again.
"Okay." She agreed as she led him to the bed. "I just want you to hold me." She said as she pulled him close. "Sex later. Hold now." She muttered as she pulled his naked body against hers.
"Okay." He agreed as he wrapped his arms around her.
"Hey, man..." Mark slurred slightly as he walked up to Meredith's apartment.
"Mark..." Adrien said as he looked at him. "I haven't got a key. She's not home. Have you seen her?" He said as he pointed to the door.
"Oh, Meredith... She's not here?" He asked with a scrunched face. She should be home by now. She went with Derek. Holy shit...he actually lured her in.
"I think she went home with some random guy..." Mark said quickly. He watched Adrien get a look of shock on his face.
"What?" Adrien replied. His stomach began to flop. Surely his intestines were at risk of becoming necrotic.
"I'm kidding!" Mark said as he slapped him on the back. "We all went out for a drink. I left her with a mutual friend. She and Addie have known each other forever. She probably just crashed at her house." Or she could have went home with a guy... Just not a random one...
"Oh. I tried to call. She didn't answer." Adrien said as he looked down at his cellphone. He passed the bag of her favorite takeout from one arm to the other.
"She probably passed out." Mark said with a snort. "Are you staying here tonight?" He asked as they walked in the kitchen.
"I suppose I will." He said with a shrug as he pulled the food out of the bag and placed it on the counter. "Help yourself." He said as he pointed to the food.
"May help soak up the scotch..." Mark said as he grabbed a plate. They both filled their plates and sat down at the kitchen table. Mark watched Adrien eat slowly. He had a concerned look on his face.
"I'm sure she's fine." Mark said as he took a bite of steak.
"She's not answering. She always answers." Adrien said as he sat his phone down on the table.
"Addison is like her big sister. She won't let anything happen to her." Mark said with a nod. "She's probably sleeping." Or having a major orgasm.
"I'm sure you're right." Adrien said as he continued to eat. "She would call... Addison, she would call you if something was wrong?" He asked.
"Dude! She's fine." Mark spat curtly, getting annoyed by his unnecessary worry.
"I'm going to take a quick shower. I'm quite tired." Adrien said as he dumped his full plate in the trash and walked away. Mark watched him with a sad face. He actually felt sorry for him. Meredith was out having a good time, no doubt. And this guy was worried that she was lying dead in an alley. This was going to be harder than he thought.
Adrien threw on his pajama pants and laid down in Meredith's bed. He pulled her pillow over and took a deep breath. Her lavender perfume enveloped his senses as he closed his eyes. He couldn't help but worry. She hadn't even told him she was going on. She hadn't talked to him since the hospital. He looked over at his phone one last time. No message. And no sleep tonight.
Meredith opened her eyes, looking into the dark room. It was unfamiliar. But the arms that were wrapped around her, they were very familiar. She remembered that she wasn't at home. She was at the Archfield. She was with Derek. It felt so perfect and comfortable in his arms. She looked over at him as he slept peacefully. She looked over at the bedside table.
Meredith ran her hands over his warm, solid chest. She watched as he stirred gently. He opened his eyes when he felt her lips pecking tiny kisses on him.
"Mmm..." He moaned as he looked down at her.
"Are you rested up?" She asked as she kissed his hip.
"I am. And you?" He asked as he looked down.
"I am." She said with a nod.
She ran the tip of her finger down his thick shaft, watching it react to her touch. She ran her tongue along him and flicked it's head gently. She smiled as she sat up and grabbed a condom off of the table. Ripping it open, she rolled it on, and looked into his eyes. Her lips crashed with his. He felt her warm body and tender breasts lay on his chest. In one quickly motion, he rolled her over onto her back.
Derek hovered over her and took her nipple into his mouth, teasing the soft flesh into a hardened peak. Swirling around the soft tissue, his tongue traveled across her crease, not forgetting her other perfect breast. He ran his mouth down her abdomen and gently mouthed her navel, she sucked her stomach in at the sensation. His hand feathered over her soft feminine mound, before he began kissing her inner thighs. She raised herself off the bed as she felt his hot breath on her. Derek looked up at her and smiled as he ran his tongue along her hip. His tongue travelled back up her abdomen and between her breasts.
"Mer..." He moaned as he came up and kissed her softly. She smiled as she ran her hand down his back
"I need you..." She muttered softly. "Please." She moaned as she spread her legs and wrapped them around him.
Derek could feel her heat building. He could almost feel the desire. He pressed his body against her. She looked into his eyes, begging him to thrust himself into her. He couldn't take it. He had to. He needed her.
"Please..." She moaned as she ran her hand down and feathered herself.
He gently pulled her hand away as he thrust himself into her hard. She cried out as his long, thick cock penetrated deep inside, filling her tight space. He paused as he looked into her eyes. A soft smile played upon her lips as she felt them mesh as one.
"Derek..." She muttered as she ran her hands along his back. "Oh god...Derek." A smile formed as he thrust into her. Pleasure and desire took over, leaving all rational thought behind. He pulled out and then pounded back in, watching her close her eyes in pleasure.
"Harder...Derek." She demanded. He moaned as she felt him pull and push. His cock starting to pulsate inside of her. Everything they ever felt was building. Growing. Getting stronger.
"Oh god...Mer...oh god..." He moaned as he felt her begin to tighten around her. They meshed so perfectly. It felt so right.
"Harder...deeper..." She moaned as he thrust harder and harder.
"Oh...God...I'm..." He moaned as he felt his orgasm taking over, feeling her tighten her muscles around him, clamping down. He felt himself release in pure pleasure.
"Derek...I...oh...wow..." She moaned as her eyes fluttered as spasms took over her body.
Meredith felt herself release as she laid back, letting everything wash over her. She closed her eyes and took a deep breath. Laying there for several minutes, she finally opened them and look over. Derek had tears in his eyes as he looked at her.
"What?" She asked with a concerned face.
"I'm so sorry..." He said as he looked at her.
"For what, Der?" She said as she started to panic.
"This..." He said as he ran his finger across the scar on her chest, and then the one on her abdomen, the ones on her legs and the one on her head.
"Derek..." She said as she ran her hand across his face.
"I hurt you." He said softly.
"No, you didn't. You. Did not. The truck did." She said as she looked into his eyes.
"You hurt every day." He said simply. "You feel pain everyday..."
"I do." She agreed. "But you make me better. You make me feel better."
"I do?" He asked.
"You do. You keep my mind off the pain." She said with a sigh. "All of the pain..."
"I like waking up in your arms." Meredith said as she rolled onto Derek's warm body.
"As do I..." He said as he kissed her chin. "Are you hungry?" He asked softly.
"Are you kidding?" She said with a giggle. "I think I worked up quite an appetite."
"Yes, I think you probably did." He said as she rolled back off of him. "French toast? I hear it is amazing."
"Mmm, and waffles. Belgian waffles with strawberries..." She said with a smile. "And ham, or bacon. Or both." She said with a giggle.
"You are hungry..." He said with a smirk.
"And yuck. I need to take a shower." Meredith moaned as she felt the dried sweat on her skin.
"You take a shower, and I will order breakfast." He said with a grin.
"Sounds like a plan." She told him as she stood. "Don't you have to be at the hospital?" She asked as she looked up at the clock.
"Nope." He said as he sat up and grabbed the phone. "I postponed my surgery."
"You postponed? Why the hell would you do that?" She said as she put her hands on her bare hips. That was not something she did. Around everyone else she would cover herself. But in front of him, she felt completely comfortable.
"This is more important." He told her frankly.
"Oh yes. More important than saving a life?" She asked with a huff.
"It could wait. I rescheduled it for tomorrow morning..." He told her as he dialed.
"Okay..." She muttered as she walked into the bathroom and shut the door.
Derek ordered the food and then stared at the bathroom door with and dirty grin on his face. He quickly sprung out of the bed and opened the door. He smiled as he saw the steam filled room, and her naked silhouette in the shower. He opened the door and stepped in.
"Hey..." She said with a smiled as she looked at him.
"Hey..." He managed to spit out as he watched the water trickle down her body.
"Shouldn't you be waiting for our breakfast?" She asked with raised eyebrows.
"This is so much more fun..." He said as he ran his hands down her wet body.
"Maybe...but if they leave with our food...I will hurt you." She warned with an evil grin.
"Don't worry about that." He said as he kissed her shoulder. "Besides, I like the hurting." He said as he ran his hands down her back and on her firm ass.
"It won't be that kind of hurting." She said as she squeezed his ass firmly.
"No?" Derek asked as he pushed her against the wall.
"No." She said as she wrapped her leg around him, pulling him close. She moaned as his cock touched her.
"Hmm. Well, then. I guess I should go." He said as he pulled away.
"Get over here!" She said as she pulled him back over and spun him around.
"Why?" He asked as he tipped his head.
"So, I can do this..." She said as she rubbed her leg against him, watching him react.
"Oh... That's good. That's a good thing..." He moaned as she wrapped her legs around him. She felt his awaiting cock press against her.
"So, is this better than surgery?" She asked with a giggle.
"Definitely." He said with a nod. They both looked up when they heard a loud knock on the door.
"Shit! That was fast." Derek moaned.
"Go...I'm hungry. We can do this later..." She said with a smile.
"I will hold you to that." He said as he jumped out of the shower and put a robe on. He quickly rushed to the door, heading Meredith's warning. His mouth dropped as he looked up.