"For fucks sake, you can't be serious right now.", Sasuke groaned and turned around.

"If you don't hurry up now I'll go nuts on you, Sakura.", he grabbed the counter and looked out of the window. Naruto's body was still radiating heat off, telling me that he was more than just angry. The other three boys did not say a thing they just stared.

"He is the reason I moved back to Konoha. I met him right after I finished school and he was so nice to me and we got together very quick and he made me move in. He soon showed his true face but the first time when he hit me he apologized and told me it would never happen again and I believed him.", I looked up and saw Kibas mouth opened slightly while Shikamaru and Neji still just stared at me. Naruto's eyes widened and looked at me in disbelief.

"Every time I asked you how you were you told me you were fine.", he gritted through his teeth."Why didn't you just leave him!".

"Because I was in love.", I whispered. "He was treating me so well and suddenly he just went crazy and I thought maybe he would change if he saw that I would not leave him even if he had some problems."

"You call him beating you up 'problems'? What's wrong with you?", Sasuke growled but still did not turn around. His knuckled turned white and it looked as if the counter would break any second.

"Honestly, I could have lived with that. I was so in love with the man I thought he would be. I guess I was just as sick as he was.", my voice had no emotion by now. It was very clear to me how crazy I sounded but it was the truth.

"This can't be everything then. What else did he do? If you were okay with getting beat up then why did you come back?". I knew Naruto was not always the slow kid, he always saw when I was in trouble.

"He forbid to meet up with other people. First I was not allowed to talk to any other men and I thought god how sweet, he is just jealous. Then he even forbid to meet my girlfriends and I always had to decline their offers to go out or anything. Once he beat me because he read my text when I said no to partying because my friend asked if it had something to do with him that I would never go out with them anymore. He thought that I might told them something but I didn't. I always thought he forbid things because he was worried and I know this sounds dumb, but I thought that he really loved me.". I paused. It seemed that the boys had so much input they couldn't get a thought together.

"I haven't felt love for a while since I moved from Konoha and he easily tricked me. He is an actor, I guess a pretty good one."

Naruto was still standing still watching me intently. Sasuke was still on the same place.

"I only understood that he was violent when he choked me the first time. There was such much darkness in his blue eyes.", I felt the goosebumps rise on my arms and back. I could still feel the danger in the air as if he was in this room.

"But I forgave him again and again and again. He made me learn rules which I had to repeat often and everytime I broke them he punished me. I decided to leave him when he pointed a gun at me.", I whispered and felt fear crawling up my legs. I saw Sasuke turn slowly around with a look on his face I have never seen before.

"Are you joking? A gun!", he whispered back and I nodded.

"He even shot at me, but there were no bullets in it. I can still hear the clicking though. He said next time there will be bullets if I won't listen to him. Then he beat me up when I slapped his hand away. I finally realised that what he did was not caring, it was anything but that. When he told me that he'd be away for a few weeks I decided to plan my escape. I automatized mails and took different pictures so that everytime he would receive a mail he'd thougt I was still home. That's why he had those pictures. He was the one that drugged me on that roof.", a single tear fell down my face as I watched the boys being gobsmacked.

"I am sorry that I kept this a secret. I should have moved out the moment I received the first message.".

"What the fuck?!", Naruto growled and Sasuke now fully turned around. "First message! When did you receive it!", Sasuke pointed now with his finger at me.

"When I was still working at the diner."

"You're damn right, that you should have moved out!", he yelled and his black eyes turned into slits again. "You put us all in danger! Not only us but also the girls!", he opened a cabinet just to slam it close again.

"Sasuke.", Naruto tried to calm him down but it did not work.

"No, Naruto! Your lovely cousin just cares about herself! She moved in here even though she kept all this a secret and even when she received messages from him again she still did not care about telling you!", he turned back to me. "You did not even care about me! If you really cared you would have told me! I can't believe it, you lied and kept secrets all the time! I don't know who you are, you are not the person you said you are!", he still yelled at me at the top of his lungs, his pale face reddening.

I tried to say sorry but it just wouldn't come out. I haven't seen him like that before and it frightend me.

"Don't you dare to say you're sorry! You knew very well what he is able to do but still you did not care about telling me or anyone here!", Sasuke threw plates off the counter and they shattered on the floor making me flinch. No one said a thing.

"You were in hospital for two days because of him!", he looked angrily at me.

"I thought that he would have gone away since he saw you. I thougth he was scared of you.", my voice was pleading for forgiveness. I didn't do all that purposely.

"You thought? You thought?! What the hell? You seriously think that some fucker that does all of this is scared of me?", Sasuke's voice was loud and full of anger.

"I am sorry.", I whimpered and tears started to form. Sasuke took out his anger on the glasses which also were on the counter and they shattered into a million pieces. They even cut me a little on my leg but I did not feel the pain.

"Calm down, Sasuke. We are all angry right now but we need to find a solution to this here now.", he pointed at the pictures that were still on the floor.

"I really don't know what to say.", Shikamaru got up and walked out the door and the other two boys did the same. "You guys get back here, right now!", Naruto yelled and all three came back.

"We all know that we have to do something right now. Sakura will not move out of here, she'll stay here until I know that she's not in danger anymore. We have to think of something."

"I'll teach you some selfdefense.", Nejis white eyes were sincere and Kiba nodded. "And I'll let Akamaru sleep outside from now on. He'll bark as soon as he sees strangers."

"That won't be enough.", Shikamaru sat back on a chair, the glass under his shoes crackling.

"Easy, we'll put up the security cameras just like Naruto has already said a few weeks ago.", Sasuke said now, his voice calm but there was dissapointment in his eyes. "Everywhere except the bedrooms and bathrooms. Outside, the garage, the garden, the hallways, everywhere. I don't want to live with the thought in my head that there could be someone lurking around.", his black hair hung loosely on his forehead and he looked so tired.

How could I even do this to them? Those guys did everything for me so that I didn't have to worry about anything at all. They treat me so well and I would even call them friends but now I don't know if they would think the same of me.

We should have moved out as soon as possible. We shouldn't have stayed here just because we liked it here. Now they are all dissapointed at us and won't even look at us anymore. We should have acted the second we received the first message. We totally fucked up here.

My inner was not really helping here.

"I'll call someone now to install those cameras.", Sasuke said and Kiba interrupted him. "It's sunday, no one will come today."

"I don't fucking care if it's sunday or christmas or the day of the apocolypse, I'll make them come here.", with a growl the black haired got up and walked into the living room, the glas still making noise under his shoes.

"I don't want that.", it took all my guts to say that and Sasuke popped his head back into the kitchen.

"Excuse me?!"

"You heard me. I don't want to be a burden here anymore and I don't want you to give up on the only place you have privacy. I have saved enough money to live in a hotel nearby while looking for an apartment.", I said with a serious tone.

"Oh my god, this again!", Naruto sighed. "Are you dumb? I told you you will stay here and no buts and no's! Goddammit Sakura!", he placed his hands on his blond hair and seemed to rip it.

"It's okay for us, Sakura. Well, you should have told us way earlier about your Ex but I guess it's to late now to discuss about it anymore.", Shikamaru said and the other two guys only nodded.

"You're my friend, how could I let you move out now that I know that there is some psycho after you?", the triangles on Kibas face moved as he smiled lightly.

"I honestly want to say I'm sorry. I didn't know that he would track me down. I changed the phone two days after I got here. I don't know just how all this happened and I really want to make it up to you and the only way how I could do it is to move out. I don't know if he is still around but if he is then I will make him go away by my own. I don't need anyone to help me, I have survived all the time and I would say I have grown these past few months that I am already here. I am not scared of him anymore.", what a big fat lie. "But I don't want you guys to worry about it. That's the best for all of us."

Sasukes dark voice boomed like lightning. "It's too late now anyway, Sakura. We are now all on the same boat. You won't move anywhere and you'll be honest with us from now on. I don't want to hear any of this I'll-move-out shit anymore.", with that he slammed the door close and left me with the boys.

"Please believe me. I didn't want to put you in any danger."

Days passed after I received Deans letter.

No one came on sunday to install the cameras and Sasuke was going insane about this. He made the people come on monday morning and even paid them twice as much because they actually had to cancel other appointments. But eventhough we had them installed he would never let me go somewhere alone and always texted me. How are you, where are you, is everything okay, who is with you, why is no one with you and many other things.

Dean did not write or text anymore and I was sure that he only did that to me because he wanted to let me know that he knows where I live.

He probably only wants to scare you but is scared of the other guys around. He knows he would not stand a change against them.

I was not allowed to drive alone anymore, Sasuke always drove me to work and picked me up afterwards. If he had no time then one of the others would do so. It was exhausting being watched all the time, I don't even want to imagine how the guys felt with all those fans lurking around.

It was a thursday when Sasuke told me that they had to do the radio tour soon. "We'll drive on saturday morning. Are you sure you don't want to come with us?".

"Sasuke, you'll be away for at least two weeks, maybe even three. I can't take that time off. Kakashi and I got loads of work to do."

"So? Let him do it alone? He didnt have a coworker before, he'll surely be able to work alone again."

"Kakashi is my friend and I won't let him hang with it alone and also it is way too soon to ask for holidays that long. I'm a big girl, I think I can watch myself.", I gave him a quick peck on his cheek and wanted to get out of his car when he took my hand and made me look at him again.

"I can make sure you'll get that holiday.", his black eyes seemed to ask me for approval.

"Hell no, nothing will happen. You need to stop worrying, because I did. Dean is just a psychopath, he wanted me to drive myself insane being scared that he could be anywhere. He probably did not even take the pictures himself but made someone take them.".

You know you promised him not to lie anymore, right? There you go again, the same old road.

"Don't worry, Sasuke. I promise you nothing will happen.", I smiled reassuringly knowing I was shitting myself at the thought of Dean but I did not want Sasuke to know that.

"Bye, babe.", again I pecked him this time on his lips.

"Why are you in such a hurry?", he asked and crinkled his brows making me laugh. "Because I need to go to work?".

"Are you sure it's not because of Kakashi?", he pouted. I don't know why he always thinks that I'd run off with him.

"Stop worrying already!", I laughed and got out the car.

I decided to tell Kakashi about Dean.

He too was worried but I told him that it was all okay because he probably just wanted to scare me. I wanted to be honest with everyone I cared about. It was so much easier for me to talk to him about this because the other guys and even the girls went crazy after hearing this.

"Oh, Sakura. I am very sorry all this happened to you.", his eyes comforted me. Ever since he showed me his red eye he didn't wear the headband as soon as we were alone.

"Oh, no need to be sorry about it. I was just blind to all the bad things that he did to me. It took me a lot to realize that this was definately not love.".

"How are the guys dealing with this?", he opened the piano lid and played some slow chords while I laid on the piano top and sighed.

"I can't find the right words to explain it. It kind of seemed that they blamed me for him coming here and it hurt me. I know I am kind of the reason why he is here but I did not ask him to, you know? He wants to make my life a living hell while all I wanted was to get away from him.", my voice crackled a little and I felt hot tears falling down my cheek.

"Hey,", I turned my head to look into Kakashis beautiful eyes. "They probably did not know how to deal with that situation and tried to find someone to blame. I know Naruto loves you and he is trying to protect you. Even though Sasuke is a little harder to read it is also clear that he wants so save you from anything. It's just guys are a lot more younger than their age says and they often have to grow on these kind of situation. Believe me, I'm a guy myself.", he laughed. "I also had many moments where I learned that I had to mature. When that", he showed his red eye "happened, I was angry at everyone and isolated myself because I thought no one would understand me. I often made the wrong decisions by blaming everyone but myself. Give them some time, Sakura-chan.", he reached his hand to my face and wiped away the tears which were now in pools on the piano.

We used my unstable emotions for more songwriting and it was already again late at night but I only realized that when the door openend and a moody looking Sasuke walked in. "Hi. Again extra hours, I see." and I smiled at him.

"Sasuke is right, we should stop now.", Kakashi smiled and I saw Sasuke looking at the headband he wore again. I told him about it and he seemed to be curious to see that eye again. Kakashi always takes it off as soon as we're alone, but the eye starts to hurt when he's concentrating hard on something or if it's too light in the room, then he puts it on again.

"It's just that we have so much fun working here that we don't even realize how the time flies.", I packed my little bag and threw the coffee cups away.

After we said our goodbyes and drove our way home Sasuke started to talk. "I don't like the thought of you being alone in the house.", the grip on his wheel tightened. "I thought maybe... if you want... you could ask Kakashi to stay with you. Just so that there is one more person in that house, he could stay in a guestroom.". I raised my brows at him.

"You can't be serious? I am 28 years old, Sasuke. I don't need a babysitter."

"Then I'll ask Jiraya and will offer him a backstage day on a concert so that he can ogle the girls.", he said without saying anything to my question.

"What? You won't!", after my birthday party Jiraya and Naruto often met up to chat and it seemed that they both really liked each other.

"I won't let you be alone. You don't want to come with me, you don't want someone to be there, what do you want?", he barked.

"I want you to trust in me!", I yelled back angrily pointing at myself.

"It's hard to trust you on that!"

I pressed my lips together. I hated hearing this but I understand why he's like that.

"I promise you, Sasuke. Nothing will happen. There are security cameras everywhere, they are live connected with someone who's watching them. It's his job. If he'll see something strange or someone hiding he'll call the cops immediately.", I patted his hand and tried to calm us both down.

Sasuke was so desperate that he even would rather let Kakashi sleep over than leaving me alone. He sighed and grimaced.

"I just... the thought of someone coming after you drives me insane. I don't know how to handle the thought of you getting hurt or worse.", he whispered and looked straight forward.

"I love you, Sakura.", he said in a low voice and looked at me straight in the eyes while waiting for the traffic light to change. My heart fluttered and there was a butterfly war in my belly, I wanted to say I love you too but something inside of me made me not do it.

What the hell is wrong with you? Say it! Say it! God Sakura! He is not like him! This is what love feels like!

"I know maybe it is too soon for you to say it back, but I need you to how I feel. I love you and it would tear me apart if something bad would happen to you. I can't imagine living without you anymore.", a light rose touch began to rise from his neck to his cheeks and I heard myself stutter.

"Don't say it if you don't mean it. Maybe you'll learn what real love is and if you're ready to say it then let me know.", he smiled a little at me while his black eyes twinkled in the dark.

We are getting very close to the end of the story. What do you guys think? Is Dean gone for good? Or is he still around waiting for Sakura to be unprepared for him?

Finally we reached the I-love-you-stage of Sasusaku's relationship and I am glad that he said it first. It was time that Sakura's secret was revealed.

Were you satisfied with the guys reactions? Do you think it was okay for Naruto to slap her or would you have done something differently to a person that put you in a dangerous situation without you knowing?

I am very proud of this story and hope that eventhough my motherlanguage is not english that you guys understand what I mean, haha.

What do you guys think will happen next? I'm so excited for the next chapter...

love you's!

Jana