CassieRaven: thankyou I'm glad your enjoying it a I am writing it. other than the brief mentions of the outers they wont be making an appearance and unless I can (or if you the audience can) figure out a way to make a storyline sequel to this for the S season where their going into they won't be. sorry.
LoveInTheBattleField: thank you.
SerenityxEndymion: yeah that was entertaining to write especially considering the amount of times we see her in the anime threatening to wack someone with a kitchen items and yes the conversation was needed for some time now, I just needed a place to put it that fit in with the tone and the mood of both characters. Especially with what was going on. and yes her mother does see things that she herself cant see and while Luna did have a point it doesn't mean that the advice wasn't worthwhile. Plus there will be more understanding from mamoru to come and more talking to come from between them to. as for Luna's reaction, yes she was a tad angered but mostly shocked since its never happened in the royal family so she didn't really know how to handle such shocking news. Others would find it wonderful but considering she's so unfamiliar with the moon royalty having more than one per generation its shocking for her to know there's going to be twins. She's internally thinking 'after Chibi usa who will take the silver crystal or will either twins have powers, or will both fight over the crystal for its powers?' she has to many questions going on all at once so it was overwhelming for her to say the least.
Joanne Frances Tiano Cajilig: exactly. And yes she will have to learn that and it will be interesting. And there's been many instances where that's (been jealous of a baby sibling) happened and gone oh so wrong so in this case Chibi Usa is going to learn early on to prevent the actions from getting worse as they've already made the binding happen. that and she already had emotional issues that's being tampered down. and while I'd love to agree that parents love all their kids unconditionally, I've actually known for some parents to admit to their own kids, as adults on their death bed who the favorite was, so that's not always the case.
Princesakarlita411: yeah they needed to talk and yes he is.
Jovemako: yeah Luna kind of over reacted but she had her reasons, not good ones really but she had her reasons.
kera69love: yup there will be more coming up on their date night. and they will progress forward, they still have much more talking to do. as any couple would.
karseneau1: thank you and there's more where that came from to.
phillynz: technically your right…I guess it's a fine line.
Rjzero00: no problem, I prefer to take a long post with constructive criticism that can be beneficial to a negative one or none at all. I know in the beginning he starts out kind of like that but he does improve throughout. Its just a process for his character just like it was in the beginning for Usagi. And yes after Usagi talked with her mother it did give a new different insight on his actions. Its why I made sure to put Ikuko in at the right time so that Usagi could go into the dates without thinking only on the past and look forward towards the future. The artemis not telling luna will be answered, just not in this chapter. The annoying Luna was never going to leave, just improve and be more respectful, she just had a spaz attack I guess would be the right term. As fir the theories, such as more gods playing parts, I wished that to. I think they added more in the manga of the gods being involved, like talking about Minako being ascended from Aphrodite the goddess of love and the original history of Usagi's Serenity as she was more powerful that originally described. Or even how all the senshi had their own kingdom's, there was a ton of history not put in from the manga that could have given the series a much richer over all flow that could have garnered a lot more viewing audiences. I wondered about Crystal Tokyo being an alternative time line until Chibi Usa got sent back in the anime again to train there. Why train there or get sent there at all if it was an alternative time line? Why not their own past time line? Just curious. But your remaining theory on what happened in that time line was definitely interesting and makes sense to, it would have been interesting to see how they could have spun THAT into either the S or Supers season. It would have been interesting to see it in the Stars to when Seiya came in. showing an actual jealous Mamoru as Seiya was definitely a cocky guy who was confident and didn't mind going after what he wanted. We might have finally seen the demise of 'robotic Mamoru' as he proves himself to Usagi showing her that he to has feelings beyond what he's previously shown her and she sees that they are advancing in to the next step of their relationship. as for the dreams, are you meaning that they were initially meant for her cause he received them for months before she received the first one. I did enjoy reading your theory, there's a lot that could be worked with on it. it ALMOST gives me an idea to.
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Breaking point ch.25
Mamoru POV
After I had time to reflect a little bit last night on things, before my princely self freaked me out a little bit in the mirror by talking verbally back to me as if he were possessing my mirror and was another entity, but his words also hit home for me. It made me realize that we had more steps to hit before we, Usagi and I, were ready for a weekend together. So, I had to admit I was glad that Usagi was taking today, Sunday for her family now.
At first, way back when she told me it would only be Saturday, and remained firm on that decision, I was saddened and disappointed that she wasn't going to be here with me as I wanted for the weekend. I had thought of so many things we could do beforehand and get out there so that we could speed up the process along to get back to where we were before things went sideways as they did. At that time, I had honestly felt that since we had a lot to talk about that taking the weekend to get everything out would be perfect for us.
We could do a lot of talking then go out on a date and start to rekindle our relationship back to where we were at before things went sideways as they did. That had been the game plan I thought of at first and it was pretty detailed out. My logical side had concocted so much to do yet my emotional side had thought of none of the necessary things that would be discussed that would render us both not really in any mood for that…despite my attempts.
I thought if we dedicated five to six hours for talking we could start to move forward but I was wrong and in the process when she explained to me why and I realized I was still doing what she knew I had been doing since things had changed. Just in a different way. I was still trying to exert some form of control over our relationship and she put a stop on it before I could think otherwise. I sighed.
It was the form of control that I'd had since I was a kid growing up in the orphanage that I never really got over or let go of when I became an adult. I thought I had but she pointed out to me in several ways how I hadn't and how it affected our relationship. She admitted to her own faults which I knew was big of her considering the bit during that time was to talk about the faults with our relationship and me, but she laid her faults on the line to.
It really showed me that she had grown up instead of trying to sweep something under the rug in favor of trying to smooth it out. However, because of actions done there was a rift that existed between us now. one that I wanted to get rid of and work on as soon as we could. Thinking back on it I couldn't believe I thought if I could just listen to her for a little while, get everything talked out that I could start romancing her and show her that things had changed and that we could be back to new again.
I felt that I could push that ass Tyler from her mindset even as a friend and make her forget about him. I didn't like nor trust him, and I was trying to hard to avoid seeming like a jealous dick regarding him when I couldn't help but be jealous of their meager friendship by this point. I never got jealous over Umino there, but then again, I knew Usagi didn't see Umino that way, she had kissed Tyler but never Umino.
He was more like the dorky friend you love to be annoyed by who slowly becomes your younger brother and that's what happened with Umino. He and Naru got together and formed a great team together. Not to mention with Diamond it had been easier, yes there was still a fragment of jealousy on IF he could get into her mind, but she wasn't a friend to him. Yeah, he saved her life in the end but that was it, his life was done with.
Not to mention after what I had witnessed from that event she couldn't wait to be out of his reach. She had a different relationship, if you could call it that with Tyler. They were actually friends that actually hung out on occasion. She and Diamond had what you'd call a…you know what I don't know the right psychological term for 'an enemy being obsessed with his enemy and wanting to make her his Queen' type of relationship.
Even my princely self didn't know that one and he had dealt with Beryl having one on him for the longest time. Instead my inner prince stated…There's really no room to compare Diamond to Tyler, they're not even in near the same category. You're just trying to justify something internally regarding Tyler cause we don't like him, understandably so, though he's done a good job of being the type of guy she needs versus you…I groaned at my inner thoughts as they seemed to gang up on me just a bit.
Now if you want to make a difference to get her back and to do it right then try an approach that doesn't have people or mostly her questioning if it's really a gesture that says 'I want you back' versus one that says 'I'm desperately trying but I don't know if it'll work so I'm hoping for the best', like with the roses…I sighed at the words that ran through my head and how accurate they were despite the factor that they didn't feel like they were helping much.
I'm not here to make you feel better I'm here to be honest and for you to be honest with yourself on the actions taken…we maybe one in the same as I am a part of you but that doesn't mean we think the exact same or feel the same on actions taken. I know your darkest feelings and your deepest regrets cause their mine to…sometimes having mental talks with myself makes me wonder if she had similar discussions with her previous self in her.
I felt my prince self-ignore that as his response instead was…you messed up with the roses because you were obviously able to create them by the dozens. She saw right through it and called you out on it. Make the gestures something more from the heart and NOT an obvious cheap ass excuse to get back in. MY princess and I may have lost our chance, but you haven't lost yours with Usagi. Make what you do going forward count…and I knew I was right, he, I it was all the same at this point and I breathed in deeply.
Thinking on it from when she was here, I replayed so much in my mind, went over everything in detail. I saw how she resisted and now after the conversation that we had I understood now why it was a better idea to not do this as a weekend ordeal. I hadn't liked it, but I understood it. When she left later on after we spoke, I had to admit that I felt emotionally and mentally drained as I was sure she did to.
She appeared drained from it all as I definitely wasn't feeling much in the mood to try and romance her. Yeah, she could have stayed in my room and me on the couch if she wanted to and that would have worked but I understood another possible reasoning that I was feeling deep down from her. It was the very reason that I waited so long to wash my sheets. My scent was all over them.
It would have been torturous to sleep in them for her especially in the room where we had the first major argument that spawned the rest. And I wouldn't have let her sleep outside on the couch, she deserved better and frankly I'd feel like a total ass if she slept on it compared to a bed, especially if I'm in that bed. It just didn't feel right. Plus, when she left, I really felt like having a double shot.
I almost did just to do something to reflect my mood but once I poured it that night, I sat it back down. I hadn't been in the mood after all. I had fallen out of every mood I thought we'd be in that night. She obviously wasn't in the mood to be romanced and I lost my want for it to. I really had wanted to at least kiss her, hold her close to me, but I could feel that as much as she wanted that she wasn't ready for it yet.
It was also reminding me of the first time we slept together. She had wanted to be with me so much for a while, had these romantic visuals of us together, yet she was super shy at first and it wasn't within her comfort zone since I had been her first and ONLY ever. That thought made me feel possessive knowing I was the first and only. I planned to keep it that way going on forward for the rest of our lives.
Either way my point is when she became ready, we both felt it at the time. That's how close we were. We were in sync and nothing stopped us from becoming one. It been an incredible night that I would treasure for the rest of my life. This however I could tell that while she wanted things to happen, we had to build us back up. Plus, especially after everything we discussed and nearly argued over it was just bad timing.
One would think talking about kids would get the hormones revved up but talking about how bratty our future child had become wasn't exactly something to get the hormones going for either of us. My expectations had been subdued but it was with good reason it was just also reason enough as to why I let her go instead of insisting on her staying with me. I needed to process everything, and I wouldn't be able to do that with her here. I had a hard time thinking on all of it while she was here.
I was honestly feeling exhausted and depleted of energy in nearly all forms. I felt like not only having a shot of bourbon but to sit on the couch for a while and decompress as I was sure she did on her bed once she got back home…minus the bourbon. Deciding on it how I grabbed the liquid and pour two fingers full not wanting to get drunk or buzzed but just wanting my body to relax a little bit. We had gone over so much, and truth be told I was still upset.
Not with her mind you but with myself. She had articulated so many points that it told me just how long she had been thinking about all of this and no matter how much I wanted to dispute it as I had done so that night and on other occasions I realized I had no room, no step to stand on to make my case. I never did. I had been talking out of my ass and had to face facts on how correct she had been on everything that had gone down.
The more I thought on it the more I realized how little I had deserved her in my life. I closed my eyes as I reflected back, recalling how I dismissed her too often, and yet she still came back to me. In this case she was giving me one last chance. Just like with the girls I was given a chance to fix things. However, just like with the girls if I messed this up there was no more chances. I felt the tears fall from my eyes at the thought of permanently losing her.
Or worse yet losing her to HIM. whether she liked or not today or several months or a year form not that wasn't the problem, HE would still like her and still try to be with her. He'd work his way further into her life and gain that much more of her trust and her guard would come down around him eventually. Especially if we AREN'T together. I pushed the liquid in the glass aside for but a moment before I grabbed it up again and took the last swig of it. Then I pushed the glass now empty away from me. I didn't want to tempt it more.
This chance though, it gave me hope and that was enough for now for us to get through till we went out on a proper date so I could show her things had changed…that I had changed back in to the guy I was BEFORE our future daughter dropped from the sky and changed our lives yet again. I had to admit Usagi had been right on so many things I was just stunned at everything that had been affected by it.
Chibi Usa coming here slowed down our relationship by a great deal and I hadn't noticed or seen it the way she had, because for me I knew I felt a connection with the child. Not like it was with Usagi, far from it. I didn't feel when Chibi Usa was in trouble like with Usagi, it was more of a parental thing Usagi and I both had towards her. No, the connection at that point was in seeing visions whenever I briefly touched her arm during a moment when she was feeling sad or vulnerable regarding the future and I wanted to see what it meant.
The first time I received a vision from it I had been shocked. I had never had one happen from contact before so considering the dreams, or nightmares I had been sent I thought the two were connected. Honestly when Usagi brought up the stuff about the nightmares I had I remembered thinking that if I could figure it out through spending time with Chibi Usa I could have more visions that could tell me how to save her.
I kept thinking if I figured it all out without telling her I'd be keeping her out of harm's way again and protecting what I cherished. However, it was just repeated things I saw, and it didn't help me out in any way. It only put more distance between Usagi and I and once more trying to do things my way, trying to be in control and protecting her without telling her why put distance between us.
I had no clue it would lead either of us to discover that Chibi Usa was ours. Then I remembered thinking once the Doom Phantom was defeated that I had a guarantee that my life was going to have a happy ending. Especially when Usagi and I were happy again. I remembered feeling joy in my life that we were finally getting our ending. We were just two people yes with both past and current memories but now we were just two people who were finally getting a chance to have a chance at happiness.
That the once orphaned boy who had no memory of his life and who gained it back when the princess was awakened now had a place and purpose in life. He had a loving family and a wonderful wife in the future with a child. However, I let that high get the better of me and felt that I could do what I did, and things would still be okay. I didn't take her feelings into consideration at all. I neglected her and she was still trying to make this work. To me that was huge of her.
I didn't deserve to have her. I know guys at college now who had done worse, like purposely cheat either to see if they can get away with it or do it cause they have commitment issues, or in some cases do it cause they see women as an 'all you can eat buffet' so why have only one and only apologized when they got caught and on the off chance that the girl did keep them they'd just keep doing it cause they figured if she accepts it once she'll accept it over and over again and I didn't like nor agree with it.
However, there were the smart ones who kicked their man out and moved on to something better for them. A man who would treat them right, a man they deserved. Those guys would either not care and move on to the next piece of willing leg to spread or others would actually have the nerve to get pissed off and act like an ass cause their gravy train had ended and their play boy ways had been discovered.
Sad part was those guys were still good friends with friends of my actual good friends, several of them were at the party that night. Two of whom chatted Usagi up and even though I KNEW I could trust her, at the same time I let my fears take over and didn't trust her. Yet I didn't act out in full view of them. Perhaps that would have been a better option. Perhaps I should have kissed her in front of all of my friends to get the point across rather pointedly.
Instead I acted like an idiot and wound up making myself appear single. So much could have been done that night to have prevented the last three months from happening and it was all of what I could have done differently. I sighed as I reflected internally. I was just glad that she was at home with her parents, brother and Chibi Usa and not out with that guy, Tyler. He made my blood boil for many reasons.
He was cocky in his own way; I could see it in his eyes when he spoke to me last. He knew what buttons to push to upset me already and I was usually reserved enough in my emotions to NOT let that shit happen. Yet when it came to Usagi I couldn't hold back as easily as I wished. Plus, it didn't help that even though I did have that Saori incident Usagi had also kissed him to. It was still painful to recall seeing.
It had only lasted for a few seconds, but it was a few seconds to long. I did feel a bit upset with her, but I couldn't truly be mad as it wouldn't have happened had I not treated her as I did. She never would have given him a second glance like that had I been a better boyfriend. That lead to us being on this 'break' and has now led to this. She was the one always putting in the effort and I coasted by till this point.
I shouldn't have gotten lazy, so to speak, I should have kept up with our relationship as she had, but I let her take the brunt of it and even after she fired off her warning shot in the form of trying to talk to me that night Saori kissed me. I didn't take the hint and instead of waiving my white flag and telling her she was right I defended everything and denied her at every turn. It's another reason why I didn't like this guy.
He was giving her the appearance of great boyfriend material and while he may be that way truly, she wasn't his to snag. I still firmly believed and want her as my everything. I would show her that I was the boyfriend worth being with. That there was a reason we fought to be with each other time and time again. And it didn't matter about our pasts, at least not JUST about our pasts but what WE wanted to. So yeah, I definitely didn't like him and while I understood the allure he had to her I was going to win her back.
I meant what I said to Usagi, our past lives be damned I love her very much and I wanted to be with her for us. Not for anyone else or anything else. I knew this might be our biggest hurdle yet and it would be our toughest seeing as this wasn't enemy related. This wasn't something that could magically be fixed. I had wanted to tell her at one point how Motoki helped me to see the errors in my ways, but I didn't want to drag him into this.
Instead I spent Sunday going over everything that we had talked over. Then I used it to focus on our bond to strengthen it up as much as I could on my own. I texted her off and on, a little bit on what we had talked about but really it was just too see how she was doing. How she was feeling since we talked. It was small steps, but it was better than nothing right now. She did respond and we had small conversations throughout the day.
Neither of us wanted to talk about anything to heavy though. We were still drained mentally from that. I knew I could still feel her a little bit though. It took me less time to find her with it as I focused on her feelings when we weren't conversing. She had a multitude of them, but their range was pretty determinable. From slight happiness to shock, and finally irritation. I wasn't sure what it was on our link couldn't give me that much, but this was good for now AND the lack of perspiration on my forehead told me I used less focus on it than before.
Also, a good thing. It gave me hope. A lot of things gave me hope. The knowledge of the twins gave a hope I hadn't expected. I had always wanted a big family, something I had honestly thought wouldn't happen early on when I was in the orphanage…then I met Usagi and allowed myself to think on the possibilities of maybe us having kids some day in the distant future. Not now as we were obviously not ready to be taking care of a baby.
It would be when we were in our early twenties if we were both ready at the same time. I had even fantasized a few times of waking up next to her with her scent on my pillow. Of course, I didn't want to get her pregnant so early on. That was just too much, and we were both still young when we first met. Even now were still young, teenagers are really still too young to be ready to handle having children.
Yes some do make it work and are very happy for it but others cant handle the pressures of parenthood so early on cause they themselves are still growing and developing. Believe me my younger teen years were nothing to write home about. Being a growing hormonal teen isn't easy no matter how hard to try at it so I can only imagine how it must be like for a set of teens to have a child so early on.
You can want to have a family all day every day, it doesn't mean you can handle what comes with it. I know right now were not ready yet and how Chibi Usa has been acting to the leniency we've made her accustom to, despite Usagi trying to discipline her, were obviously NOT ready just yet…BUT to know that in the future we were getting children had been, yes embarrassing, just a bit but also something that touched home for me on a level that I couldn't help but look towards Usagi with fondness on.
Having grown up in the orphanage it's hard to allow yourself to think you'd ever be worthy enough to have a family of your own especially if you never get picked into a family. You're either told to be more outgoing or told you're too old to be adopted that only little kids and babies are wanted for a family. You get told so often that you yourself ARENT what their looking for that you begin to doubt your own skills as being a parent or holding down a solid relationship in life.
I managed to hold down the relationships in my life. First with my best friend Motoki, with the few friends I had in general but what I really strove for was the fascination that was Usagi. She was this hurricane, as Rei put it, but I like to think of her hurricane as spirit and energy. She was beauty, grace, charm, purity, street smarts, and bad-assery on a level I hadn't known existed before her. I first believed in falling in love when I met her.
I hadn't wanted to admit it even to myself, choosing instead to hang out as friends even with her friends but eventually we started to get closer. Then as we unknowingly fought together as superhero's I fought against my desires to be with her since I felt a similar desire for my Moon senshi. I finally realized I wanted my Usagi more than the senshi so just when I finally had the courage to ask her out our identities as superhero's were revealed.
If anything, it only strengthened our bond and our connection. I felt relieved that I hadn't been between two women, that I had been in love with the same. I had known from the start when I met Usagi when we talked that she would be someone that would be in my life for the rest of my life and I had only hoped at the time that it was in the role I secretly as that time dreamed her into, the one where she was my wife and mother to my kids.
Definitely not in the arms of someone else. No. Just thinking about that prospect made me remember that kiss between them. It hurt me. Just like it did for her whenever she'd look at the space where Saori kissed me. I saw the pain reflecting in her eyes. I put that there and tried to make it seem like nothing when it was most definitely something to both of them. It didn't matter that I felt it was nothing, my being dismissive of her feelings prevented us from having a possible reconciliation that night. I instead threw it away.
What a fine king I must make in the future. Or…and this made me think on it, what if it was the actions, I took next that make me the king I'll be in the future? Or how about instead of focusing on how you'll be a king in the future focus on how you can be a better boyfriend to Usagi and be an actual father figure to Chibi Usa instead of catering to her every whim. That I knew was my inner prince talking…and he was right. Damn right I'm right, and furthermore you could also beat yourself up on NOT telling Usagi about the ongoing issue.
Damn! I knew the truth of that one to. During the whole time she was over here not ONCE did I mention Chibi Usa's problem. Though it didn't seem like it was a problem as the moment since the power I put in there seemed to be holding for now. However, it didn't take away from the fact that we were still lying to Usagi. Keeping information from her. The very thing that was also an issue in our relationship.
My lack of trust in her ability to handle what was wrong, but in this case, things were way different. If she found out not about the problem she really might only get back together with me just to sustain her life and while I wanted us to be together I didn't want it to be based on the life of our child. I loved our daughter; she was both of us put together. Usagi would carry her in her womb for nine months.
She's ours…we made her. However, I will never stop being in love with Usagi. Even just thinking about her calms me down. There's no future that I'd want without her. I didn't care if I was king or not, a pauper or a doctor, I didn't care. I just wanted to be with her…and yet you manage to nearly mess everything up…my inner prince nagged. "Not helpful." I reprimanded myself as I frowned.
What may end up messing this up worse however is when and how she finds out about what we've been keeping from her. This affects us all and I'm not sure I can keep it to myself much longer. I feel like I'm deceiving her by NOT telling her. I should have said something during our talk and yet Minako's words nagged at me. I grab my phone and hit the contacts page before hitting her name to call.
"Pick up…" I mutter. The line picked up with the words, "This better be global." I grimaced. She did say that there would be no more help from them on the issue, but I needed to talk to her about this not telling Usagi thing. I needed to explain to her the negative effects of it. "Possibly not sure yet." I tell her, "What is it?" she nearly demands as I hear water in the back-round. "Where are you?" I asked without thinking.
"None of your business, now get to the point." She snips. Not having time for whatever she's doing on the other end and not really wanting to know I tell her, "Usagi has to know sooner rather than later about Chibi Usa. I know you and the girls agreed to keep it a secret from her TILL the issue is resolved and threatened to essentially make me wish I'd never been reborn, but she needs to know." I wait for her reaction.
"You breathe a word of it before its time and I'll personally make sure that the only way Usagi and you will have kids is through either adoption or a donation." While the adoption brings up memories for me knowing she was essentially threatening castration I gulped and refocused, "I only say this cause think about it. When she finds out she'll be pissed at ALL of us for NOT telling her from the moment it happened. It might send us all back to square one with her." I plead my case.
She sighs as if she's exasperated, "Listen you have the same concerns the rest of the girls and I have, trust me you're not alone in that regard." I do feel a smidgen of relief that I wasn't being ganged up on for that. "Then what? Do we keep this pertinent piece of information from her or tell her before she gets more upset with us than she already will be?" I ask her. I hope she's going to give me something useful to help me out on my end over here.
"Mamoru – san, Usagi is a smart and understanding woman. She's already done so much for all of us." Agreed. "I've already had to have a talk with the girls to convince them to give it just a little bit longer. However, the length of time we are waiting on is ultimately depending on you at this point." Now I was shocked, "Wait on JUST ME?" I asked. "Well duh!" she nearly bellowed; I pinch the bridge of my nose as I pulled the phone temporarily away from my ear at the volume of her voice.
"Mamoru – san let me connect the dots for you, in case you didn't get it the first time - " I cut her off, "I don't need a recap of why we're not telling but a reason to keep the woman we all love in the dark that her and mine's future daughter might possibly not exist anymore and that her energy here in this world is being held together by the energy glue that is currently in her. And yes, I'm aware of how that sounded but you get the point." Now it felt like the drink tied with arguing with Minako was giving me a headache.
Minako seemed to pause herself before saying, "The 'glue' as you so eloquently put it is still working so don't flake out on me now or flake out on yourself rather." I could sense the goddess of love was beginning to talk to me now and not just Minako, "Trust in her, trust in your relationship with her. Prove that to her and let her see who you really are. Cause if these past few months is who you really are, you might as well sign off now." I pinched the bridge of my nose again in slight aggravation.
"It's NOT who I am…" I tell her, "Good, now stop crying about it and act like the man you claim to be and not as you have been acting you dolt!" she hung up on me before I could respond. I looked at my phone with irritation and realized, "She never did answer my question." I wondered if calling her back would be worthwhile and debated on it till, I gave up knowing she wouldn't be of further help.
She was making that clear as she hung up on me. This was something I had to do and HOPED to hell it worked. I had to plan this all out strategically as possible, not to be a control freak about it but to make sure that we didn't get interrupted and I could not only romance her but show her that I was better for her. That we weren't just meant for each other but that we fell in love and work hard to be in a strong relationship together.
Usagi and I would never stop being in love with each other, but we had to rebuild our relationship and therefore the trust in it. So, my new mission became clear, operation: win Usagi back was in effect and wouldn't stop. I would treasure her and hold onto every moment we got to have with each other. Feeling a renewed sense of energy, I began to plan everything out and knew that this was for all the marbles.
Usagi POV
I was eating dinner with my family, Chibi Usa included who was being shockingly nice to me though that could have more to do with my parents being there to. we were having stuffed with stuffing pork chops. A new recipe my mother was trying out. It was delicious as we all ate it heartily. Dad had even had two servings of it as Shingo and I were getting full. Chibi Usa was slowly at eating her potatoes on the side since she was getting full.
"Alright Chibi Usa if your done you can put your plate away, just get to your homework." She nodded to mother as she went to put her dish away. I had just had my fill of dinner as Shingo did and we were both putting our dishes away when I got a text. I waited till I was back upstairs in my room before looking at it and saw that it was from Mamoru. Hey, I'd like to ask you out to dinner this coming Wednesday…our first date in this renewed relationship. I cracked a smile at this…then I will accept…I tell him.
He then tells me he has reservations at this really posh restaurant that I know for certain is incredibly hard to get into. Father took mother there for their ten year anniversary and from what I heard the reservations were placed there three months in advance due to how busy it gets there, I tell you mother was never more happy to go out to a fancy chic place ever. It was also that night that Shingo and I found out the hard way that its always best on their date night or any anniversary night to wear headphones.
That still gave me shivers in revulsion on recall hearing that, anyways onto other more pleasant things to think about. To go to that restaurant would be amazing, plus mother did always gush about the dishes there. Feeling a smidgen of happiness, I accepted the date and got the details on when to get ready. I went to my closet to see what I had to wear for that night. I wanted something that screamed classy and sophisticated yet not to sexy yet still sexy enough to enhance without busting out at the seams.
Fortunately thanks to the several shopping trips Minako took me on when I got back in with her then Makoto, I happened to have one dress that spoke of such beauty. "Great…" that's when I got a call from Naru. Smiling I answered, "Hey how is everything?" her response was, "You sound happy. Is everything back with you and Mamoru?" I smiled. Not completely just yet but were working on it." I put the dress back in the closet and give her a small update as I sit on my bed, "Wow we sure missed a lot." She tells me.
"Yeah that's my fault, I should have talked to you on it, but I was getting caught up in trying to work through things." I admit, "You its fine, you honestly sound better than you did when we last spoke about him. you actually sound hopeful and you deserve that." I smiled at her words, "So tell me, does this mean that Tyler is really just a friend now?" my smile drops a bit but not all the way.
"Yeah Tyler is a good friend though. We still talk but since Mamoru and I got to talking more so than before I haven't been thinking about him as much. I mean I still do on occasion but not like I initially had that evening." I admit. "It's good though." She tells me, "Really?" I ask a little stunned. I thought she was on the Tyler bandwagon for a moment there. "Yeah I know it may have seemed like I was for Tyler for you but in the end I don't café who you're with as long as your happy." I smiled.
"Oh, you're so sweet…and I'm glad you found Umino. You two really do complement each other." I assure her as she giggled, "Yeah I'm so lucky to have landed him. He makes my heart soar." I was really happy that Naru and Umino made each other so happy. I was right they really did complement each-other and I was really happy for them to. Since they had been together, I hadn't seen her so happy before.
Not even when she had that brief loving crush bit on Nephrite. I know she felt that she was in love with him, and I knew he had strong feelings for her to, he actually did protect her from death when he could have saved himself. I hadn't recognized it back then but I do believe that was the good in him reaching out to do the right thing for someone that loved and cared enough for him to show him that he was worth loving.
I just wished he hadn't perished that night. we might have been able to turn him good, and in turn make a different difference within Mamoru's former guards. Who knew what we could have accomplished or done with their help. Mamoru and I might have been able to be closer for longer and have developed a deeper bond caused he'd have the friendship and advice from those he knew the longest of out anyone.
They had a rich bond from his youth that I respected and appreciated for him. he deserved to have their friendship and it was a sad shame that Beryl took that from them twice over. While I was thankful that her greed and jealousy eventually imprisoned her in death it still took the lives of far too many people that were near and dear to us and even far more lives of innocents that didn't deserve it before that happened.
Either way Nephrite was an asset, a brother and a good friend to a lot of people. I think that's something that struck out to Naru when she fell for him. Cause despite all he did to her she still maintained that faith in him that he wouldn't hurt her and no matter the opportunities that were present to him. Which were several. So yeah, I was glad that she found a love within Umino and that they made each other happy.
They both earned it after the things that happened between them and before they became a couple, "I know, I've never before you heard him say he wanted a tattoo." I joked as we both laughed about it. "Yeah that was hysterical…until I realized he was serious then it was a matter of talking him out of it." she giggled further before saying, "Yeah I would love to do it but were definitely NOT there yet."
I nodded even though she couldn't see me, "No I get it, Mamoru wanted me to stay over for the weekend, but I declined. We just weren't ready for that yet." I tell her, "Oh I agree. You need time to process all that's happened. Plus, for me it'd be super awkward to sleep over. If that had been Umino and I, I couldn't have slept over either. It's too much too soon and with everything that was discussed you needed to think over the conversation you did have cause your having another one, right?" she confirmed.
"Yeah we are. I'm going to talk to him about the kiss that he had with Saori and the one I had with Tyler. I know he more than likely won't want to deal with it, but we have to get this out and in the open. We would have yesterday, but it was just so much and even though I wanted to tell him more things I was literally getting so exhausted that my jaw was beginning to hurt." I told her in recollection.
I thought of another time my jaw got sore from constant movement with Mamoru, but I definitely wasn't talking, and my mouth was definitely very stuffed. I couldn't help but blush in memory of that. Mamoru had one good thing to him that wouldn't be going anytime soon, the man could take forever to cum. It's one of the reasons why when we had certain dates set up we made sure to tell my parents that I'd be out with the girls on a sleep over cause we'd be at it all night long, and that was the case till Chibi Usa came along.
However, I wasn't about to go into that type of detail with Naru. While she knew Mamoru and I had been intimate, she wasn't as familiar with those types of details form me. Only Minako and Makoto were since they had been in similar relationships. With them I could be expressive and NOT get blasphemous shock waves directed back at me for being physically intimate with the man I love. Naru and Umino weren't, as far as I knew, intimate as Mamoru and I had been, but, even if they had she would feel too embarrassed to tell me.
While we used to tell each other everything, as we grew these last couple of years, she still had an innocence to her that was lost to me. "Yeah I've been there. Talking can definitely take it out of you. I'm shocked your voice didn't go hoarse." She told me, "You know it was getting there." I admit recalling I did have to get tea way later on that night, a noncaffeinated tea at that. I didn't want to be up all night.
Now that made more sense, "Yeah come to think of it my throat even got a little soar. Usually that only happened after sex." I slapped a hand over my mouth, but it was too late. "Usagi!" Naru said a little shocked, "Such a vixen you are now." I giggled, "What can I say, it's true. Mamoru always did have a way to get me to scream his name till I was out of breath…or vocal cords." I mutter as I couldn't help but smile.
"Sounds like things were really great in the sac." I go to say something when she tells me something that shocks me to my core, "Umino is pretty quiet during that. He tries so hard to stay that way, so he doesn't wake my mother arrives back home late from the jewelry shop." I had to admit I was ready to laugh my ass off. I hit the mute button as I lost it as I continued to listen to her. I couldn't believe that she was describing her sexual encounter with Umino with me, but I was happy that she felt free and trusting enough to do so.
Once I got myself back under control, stunned that she was having active sex I told her, once I hit the unmute button on the phone, "Sounds like he knows all the right buttons to hit." I hit the mute button again as I laughed out loud. I woke up Luna on that note and waved at her to go back to sleep which she did. I hated to say it because it shouldn't be funny but hearing her talk about sex like it was nothing now was funny as hell.
It was like hearing Ami talk about sex in a nonclinical manner. They were both young women who grew up in conservative households, so it wasn't broached upon much. So yes, this was a bit hilarious. It shouldn't be but it was, "Oh you have no idea. What's so great is since we were friends first for a while it as like second nature to be with him. We dated and it was so easy, it was like 'why didn't we do this before?', you know?" I nodded then verbally agreed since she couldn't exactly see me.
It made me wonder about Mamoru. We were friends at first for a small while before we got together. I wondered if that was one of the reasons why we were so good together when we were together. I could feel my inner princess agreeing with me as I smiled, "Sounds wonderful. It also sounds like the friendship was the perfect way to begin the foundation of your relationship with each other." I mull over verbally.
"Oh, I firmly believe so. We didn't friendzone each other because we never talked about it. It just happened one day. He asked me out and we got together. I didn't think anything would happen with it and yet when it did, I was never happier." I smiled glad that Umino made her so happy. I knew they were unique, and they found each other in this crazy world. "Sounds like a beautiful love story Naru." I tell her, expressing how happy I was for her.
"Like yours with Mamoru isn't." she scoffs, "Everyone has their own love story." I amend, "No Usagi you two have a rich history in your love story with him." if she only knew the half of it, "I mean think about it. You two were friends like Umino and I, then you had this rough patch and when you both weathered through it you encountered this new rough patch that lasted way longer than the other one…" I grimaced at how long it was taking as that in and of itself was a huge thing to point out.
"And while you were, for lack of a better metaphor, were in the desert, proving to him and others that you can survive and NOT give in and go back to him when it was expected of you to do so by many others, you not only survive through it you thrived in it and showed them YOU were the force to be reckoned with. You were the one to say 'hey, this is how things are going to be and if you can't take it tough'." I really loved Naru for this.
She had no idea how much hearing this meant to me, I was actually starting to tear up from her insightful words, "I guess I never thought of it that way." I admit, "I'm serious Usagi. This rough patch you are in with him is nearly over with. I can feel it. I know I don't know everything going on and I know that you'll tell me when you're ready to but do know this, you and Mamoru aren't just meant for each other, you have a love that stronger than I've ever seen." I couldn't help but shed a tear.
"You two work hard at it together and granted for a while it was just you working at it, but he's working to make up for that. This is just that a really, REALLY rough patch." I chuckled and couldn't stop the tears of joy from falling down my cheeks. "You're a really great friend." I tell her as we continue to talk for a little bit longer. Perhaps she has a point and while I wanted to question what she meant on the 'knowing she didn't know everything' bit I know one thing for certain, I'm lucky to have her as one of my best friends.