Hound POV

"What an idiot, what the hell was he thinking?" Hound raged, trying not to yell. He looked at Jamie, "Does he even realize what he did?"

"I'm the idiot, Hound. I should have known it would set him off."

"What did you do?"

"Something that should have been nothing more than a little fun, but it was a terrible idea in his mental state. All I said was Drift should kiss Jamie at midnight. He thought she'd be mad but did it anyway. She wasn't mad; I think he can't stop thinking what if she kills herself. Might be the only reason he kissed her, thinking it would be his only chance," I explained, "seeing Jayce and J.R. struggle isn't helping, but he wants to help them."

I left the room, but before I went to J.R.'s room, I went down to the garage. Just as I thought, Drift left. I don't like he left to deal with this alone. I can't watch Jamie and J.R. The drug Crosshairs used on Jamie isn't a sleep aid, I doubt she'll sleep all night. As I leave the garage, Crosshairs walks in, carrying Jamie, wrapped in her red blanket.

"You sure that's a good idea?" I asked, know he was taking Jamie with him to find Drift.

"I don't think I can calm her when she wakes up. No way she will not have a frightful dream about what just happened," He says.

Crosshairs POV

I can't believe what an attempt at some fun did. I don't think I killed their relationship, but I hurt Jamie. I figured Drift still wouldn't go far from Jamie.

"You brought her?" He asked, worried as he watched me carry her to his alt mode. He took her from my arms, and I sat next to him.

"I'm sorry," He whispered, though he knew Jamie couldn't hear him.

"No, I'm sorry. I shouldn't have told you to kiss her. It was just fun, but I should have known the idea would upset you considering how we've been thinking lately."

"Now I scared her. I heard her yell my name, but if I went back-."

"I know, It'll be easier to deal with this than if you went back to her."

"Take her back; it's too cold tonight."

"She will wake up, and I doubt I can calm her down. You come back to the base then." I knew from the look on his face he wasn't ready. Jayce and J.R. are not in a suitable position to have both of us gone tonight, and Drift will make me take Jamie if I leave. It's hard to say if he's selfish or not. If Jamie sees him upset, she'll be distraught, but I know she'll dream about what happened and wae up. It would be better for him to be with her. I waited fifteen minutes, hoping he'd change his mind, before taking Jamie back to the base,

"I'm sorry, I love you," he said and kissed Jamie before handing her to me.

You better come back before she wakes up, Drift, though I don't know if the drug will keep her asleep until morning.

I put Jamie to bed and turned off her computer before laying on the other side of the bed. Though Jamie's bed isn't a king-size or even queen size, the way she sleeps, there's room to keep a space between us. I couldn't sleep though, I know Jamie will be upset, but I didn't know when. I know it will be at least three hours but still couldn't fall asleep.

I had fallen asleep, crap. I looked over at Jamie. The clock on the nightstand read four in the morning. Drift still wasn't back. It's quiet but…damn it. Jamie had her head buried under pillows. I don't know if she saw me or not. She was fighting me as I tried to hold her. I don't know if she thought I was Drift and was mad or wanted to be left alone.

"It's ok; he'll be back," I tell her as I rubbed her back for a few minutes before Jamie moved to my lap and hugged me. She was trying not to cry but failed.

This is why I wanted you to come back, Drift.

I would let her stop crying on her own, but after seeing Jayce deal with seizure, I worried, even with Jamie's ongoing emotional struggle, this would be too much for her that she'd have a seizure.

"Is this what she's been doing at night?" Hound asked, standing at the front of the bed.

"No," I tell him.

"You want me to get more of the drug?"

"No, too soon."

Even if it weren't, I'd still tell him no. Hound leaves the room, and Jamie starts coughing. I get her to drink some water. Jamie's been crying for five minutes. I try to get her to lie down, the only way that works is if she's lying on me. Now I can feel she's been shaking. I know Hound contacted Drift, I hope he gets here soon. Rather Jamie falls asleep on him. That didn't happen, Jamie fell asleep five minutes later. I laid her on the bed and covered her with the blankets. Hound was in the hallway, waiting.

"I sent him a text," Hound tells me, "I said nothing nasty."

Fifteen minutes later

Drift POV

I stood in the hallway, listening to what Crosshairs was telling Hound. I can't believe I upset Jamie that much. Hearing she's asleep, I went down to my quarters. It's been a long time since I recharged in here. I couldn't slip into recharge, Jamie's scream kept playing in my mind. I don't know when I finally slipped into recharge.

Four hours later

J.R. POV

These nightmares are getting more terrifying.

"Hey, it's ok," I hear Bumblebee say as he hugged me. I don't know if he's been in the room or just walked in and I didn't hear the door. I know Bumblebee is here to comfort me, but I feel like I need Crosshairs. I couldn't say anything, but I think Bee figured it out. He left the room, and Crosshairs came in soon afterward. The Autobots must be so tired of saying the same things over.

"…it's ok. Bee is with Jamie, and Hound is with Jayce."

Strange Drift isn't with Jamie, but I know he doesn't like to stay away from her for long. What if watching Jayce and I go through this shit terrifies him? Thinking Jamie will go through the same? I started bawling, thinking about it.

"What was the dream about?" Crosshairs asked.

I couldn't say anything.

Crosshairs POV

What concerns me is Bee said she just woke up and is already panicking. I don't think the sleep aide prevented her from waking up from a nightmare. The nightmare last night terrified her more than the other nightmares she's been having. J.R. let me lie with her, but she couldn't stop crying. She won't tell me what's wrong, either. It's easy to guess it's about Jayce's suicidal thoughts. Still, I want her to tell me specifically why she's panicking this early in the morning. I don't know how if Bee can calm Jamie or even if she'll let him. Damn it, now's not a good time for you to be somewhere else, Drift. Your girl will need you.

"Hey, what's going on?" I barely hear with J.R.'s crying. I tried to sit up to see who walked in, but J.R. stopped me, that's not a good thing.

"I'm not going anywhere," I assure her as I moved her onto my lap.

"What's wrong, J.R.?" Drift asked as he crouches down.

"She won't tell me, but she woke up like this. Bee had to get me. I think she just needs a good cry and wanted me to comfort her." With that, Drift left the room. Good, there's not much you can do here, and you need to be with Jamie. I don't know how other femmes would have reacted to the way Drift left or how they'd react seeing their partner who did that come back. It's hard to say how Jamie would have reacted in she wasn't in a poor mental state. Not as bad as Jayce and J.R., but she's slowly getting there.

Drift POV

"I had to, Hound, she'd be more upset if I stayed."

Bad idea checking on Jayce, who was still asleep.

"Whatever, Jayce is fine, now go."

I could tell Hound wanted to yell at me but didn't want to wake Jayce.

"Stop!" I hear Bee yell, crap. I run to Jamie's room and see her fighting Bee's hug. Did I upset her that much? "Ok, fine," he says and sits at the desk. I watched Jamie lay on her stomach and cover her head with pillows.

"She's in a mood, and I can't figure out why," Bee says as I walk to the side of the bed. Jamie didn't hear Bee was talking to someone. I sat on the bed, put her on my lap, and hugged her.

"I'm sorry, you know I love you." I hated looking at her sad expression. The door opened and closed, Bumblebee had left. I laid down with Jamie on me. She still had tears rolling down her face. I can't tell her why I had to leave for the night. I don't think she's mad to the point there's a relationship to repair, but I don't know what I'm going to. It's getting harder to hide my fear there might not be a relationship soon.

Crosshairs POV

There's no way J.R. will tell me what's causing her to panic this early in the morning. I worry this is Something new she'll be dealing with until this shit is over. She was quiet but didn't fall asleep. While still holding her, I stood up and walked out of the room.

"Awful night?' Cade asks as he leaves his room.

"Bee was with her. He told me she woke up like this."

We went downstairs and tried to get J.R. to sit on the couch, but she wouldn't let go of me. Cade appeared shocked at this behavior. I didn't want to upset her more this early in the morning, or at all, but I'm getting worried about what she's thinking that's her terrified even to let go of me. Without asking him to, Cade made a little oatmeal for J.R. At least she ate, but Cade didn't make a lot, and J.R. didn't want any more.

Cade POV

While eating very little is normal for someone with depression, clinging to someone isn't. J.R. had to have had a terrifying dream. There's not much of a list to go down to figure out what could terrify her.

"Let go, I'm not going far," I hear Crosshairs say, which was upsetting J.R. This is worse than I thought.

"It's fine, Crosshairs." I told him before going upstairs. This isn't a good sign. I don't know if Bee or Hound is watching Jayce, but I should tell them what's going in with J.R.

"That bad? That explains a lot," Hound sighed. We looked at Jayce, worried she'd be the same as J.R., and there's nothing we can do to help them.