Tsuki's POV

It's been four weeks since Hikaru broke up with me. I was able to call for ride out of Karuizawa. I couldn't bare to go back after what happened. Everyone has been calling me non stop since I left... surprisingly even kyoya every now and then. Honey and Mori Senpai even sent me feel better baskets full of my favorite sweets, but I wasn't in the mood for pastries... I wasn't in the mood for anything. My mom and Usui grew more concerned as the days passed especially when I started skipping out on ballet practices and stopped eating all together.

I just wanted to do nothing, to feel nothing, to be nothing. Soon enough that's what I became nothing, just a lump among the sheets in my bed. I was content until I heard a knock at my door.

"Tsuki... it's me Haruhi ... I'm coming in"

"Tsuki?"

I don't notice she was here until I felt her sit on my bed searching for me in the pile of blankets. She uncovers my foot thinking she's found my head, and I quickly pull my legs to my body trying to hide from the cold world.

"Come on Tsuki... everyone is really worried about you. We just want you to be okay."

I sniffle as I try to push myself up, the pile of blankets weighing me down. Haruhi sees my struggle and attempts to unload the blankets from on top of my head. She gets to the final sheet and she slowly lifts it up to reveal my pink and swollen face hair stuck to my clammy skin in matted clumps like small birds nest. She jumps at the sight of me but quickly recovers and gives me a small sympathetic smile.

"There you are. Come on let's get you cleaned up alright." She sticks out her hand waiting for me to take it. I'm hesitant at first but she grabs my hand standing up and pulling me out of bed.

After about 3 hours of showering and combing out my hair I finally look halfway like my normal self. She picks out a simple white off the shoulder thigh length chiffon dress, with bell sleeves and embroidered lavender flowers covering the piece. She slips on simple white heels with a ribbon that delicately wraps up my leg. I smile at the girl as she struggles with the ribbon ever so grateful for her kindness and patience with me.

"Are ...are we going somewhere?" I question quietly not use to using my voice

"Yeah there's a huge expo at the mall and I think it would be good for you to get out and be around people again."

"Mmm... okay ... I'll... I'll try"

...

"Kyoya Senpai ? I didn't expect to run into you here today?" I don't know how but we manage to find Kyoya standing in the middle of the expo. I hide behind Haruhi as I look up at his tall dark figure. He spots me and looks slightly surprised.

"Well well Well... if it isn't Miss Hana San. You've been quite the one to get ahold of." I look down clutching to haruhi's shirt.

" I'm ... im sorry if I ... worried you.." I whisper into haruhi's back.

"Well I'm actually glad your here... how much money do you have on you?"

After that we spent the rest of the time walking around with kyoya all day. Even though he comes off a distant and selfish he's actually a nice guy underneath his disguise. We're currently sitting a bench back to where we started. Haruhi has walked off to find the bathroom so it's just me and kyoya.

"So ... are you feeling any better?" He questions me with a side glance.

"Yeah... I feel a lot better... I really should thank Haruhi for being such a wonderful friend to me." I smile fondly at the floor thinking of the brunettes kindness with me today

"Yes shes quite remarkable when it comes to her ability to see people for who they truly are.

So it seems things are truly dissolved between you and Hikaru?" I feel a slight sting in my chest hearing his name after so long, but it's not as bad as it once was.

"Yes ... I guess so"

"What of your plans with the Host Club then?"

"Am I kicked out!" I gasp as I look at him with pleading eyes. He starts to chuckle at my anguish

"Oh most certainly not! The rest of them would never let me live if I let you go. Plus they wouldn't be the only ones hurt to see you go" I look up at kyoya with mild shock because it almost sounded like he was admitting to me that he cared about me. I give him a warm smile as a tear rolls down my face

"Then if you'll have me I'd love to continue to be a host." Kyoya pulls back slightly as a light blush creeps across his face. He uses his hand to cover his mouth while turning to face the other way.

"Hikaru better hurry and make up his mind before someone comes along and steals you for themselves"

I give kyoya a confused look until I see Haruhi approaching from the distance. I stand to great her.

" Haruhi... I just wanted to thank you for coming to see me today and helping me get out of the house. You've made me feel so much better!" I grab Haruhi pulling her in tight.

"You don't have to thank me that's what friends are for right!" I smile up at her. I then turn to kyoya wrapping him into a reluctant embrace.

" thank you as well Kyoya... though you let on as if you don't care I know deep down you really want the best for everyone ... so thank you!"

"Yes yes I get the point now please release me!" At that moment we hear over the intercom that Tamaki has put out a lost boy announcement for kyoya!

"That idiot! I'm going to kill him!"

"So the rest of the host club is... here?" I question nervously

"It's okay Tsuki we don't have to go if your not comfortable yet." Haruhi comforts me while rubbing my back. I shake my head with determination.

"No ... it's okay... I should let them know I'm okay... I can do this" I say the final part while making a small fist.

Hikaru's POV

Today was really exhausting. Trying to get along like everything is fine when it is very much not really takes a toll on your mental state. It's been a month since me and Tsuki broke up and I haven't seen or heard from her ever since. After I called things over between us and ran back into the room me and Kaoru were staying in, I immediately felt instant regret. I did exactly what Kaoru told me not to do. I let my emotions get the best of me and acted irrational. I was inconsolable for weeks I just kept replaying everything in my mind over and over again. She didn't deserve that and I didn't deserve her.

When I finally come back to reality we're all standing at an informational desk putting a missing persons announcement for kyoya. As we sit and wait for the lord of darkness to return, my mind wonders off again to Tsuki. I wonder how she's doing... God I miss her.

"KYOYA THERE YOU ARE WE WERE SO WORRIED ABOUT YOU...Why is Haruhi with you" I turn around to see kyoya and Haruhi standing behind us. Haruhi seemed to be looking behind the wall concerned. I follow her line of sight to see a tuft of shimmering gray. I immediately stand up straight my breathing becoming slightly labored. I'd know that silvery mane anywhere. She peeks her head around the corner catching everyone's attention.

"TSUKI!" Everyone runs over to the obviously overwhelmed small girl saying that they're glad she's okay, or how much they've missed her. I hang back at the counter completely bewildered by the fact that the girl I couldn't stop thinking about, and wanted to see more than anything is standing right in front of me just two arm lengths away.

She bows deeply to the group causing everyone to stop fussing over her for a second.

"I'm sorry if I worried you guys but I can assure you now that I'm okay!" She straightens herself with a smile while the members embrace her in a hug. My heart aches with such a deep pain it feels like I have a broken rib. I want so badly to hold her, to kiss her, and to tell her how much of an idiot I am for letting her go.

"GENTLEMAN! WE MUST CELEBRATE TSUKI'S BRAVE RETURN TO US...LETS GO AND GET ALL YOU CAN EAT BBQ!"

"YAY!"

Everyone cheers as they march off leaving the person of honor behind. I take a hesitant step towards her, she turns to look at me and I stop. Her eyes filled with the same sorrow as mine but a small smile still gracing her face.

I start to speak but I don't get the chance as she turns to walk after the group.

Leaving me reaching for something that's no longer mine.