Chapter 26:Let's kill this love

Sabrina absently moved the straw of the milkshake she had barely touched. In front of her, Theo and Harvey were laughing about something they had seen on television the night before, she was not paying much attention to the conversation of her friends. The fact that she had seen Nick two days ago had shaken her to the core and she had been unable to act as if nothing had happened because every time she closed her eyes he saw him, she heard his pleading voice echoing in her memory.

She didn't want to see him again. And yet, a part of her, the one who was still madly in love with him, wanted to be with him again. Be close to him.

She had been a fool to give her heart to a player and now was paying the consequences. A sigh left her lips.

"'Brina?" Roz took her arm gently "are you okay?"

When Sabrina looked up, she realized that Harvey and Theo were no longer laughing but looking at her with concern. She felt bad for worrying her friends.

"Ah? Sorry guys, I'm a little distracted"

Theo and Harvey nodded, but Roz continued to look at her with concern in her eyes. She suspected something more had happened to her best friend.

Sabrina tried to pay more attention to the conversation and even participated a couple of times with a comment or two, and although she was glad to be with her friends after so many months apart, she still couldn't feel true happiness.

Not after everything that had happened with Nick.

She thought breaking up with Harvey had been hard but breaking up with Nick was proving to be the most difficult thing she had ever done. And the more painful too.

After finishing their milkshakes, the friends said goodbye to each other at the door of Cerberus Books, Theo and Harvey went in the same direction but Roz stayed saying them she had something else to do around the main street of the town. Sabrina looked at her curiously when instead she started walking next to her. She didn't know why she had lied to their friends.

"Roz?"

"I'll walk with you"

"Eh… thank you, but it's not necessary. I can go on my own"

Roz shook her head.

"Something happens to you" she didn't ask, she knew.

Sabrina sighed. She had been waiting for this moment, to be able to speak to Roz and even so, now that she had the chance, she didn't feel like with the strength to do so.

She closed her eyes for a second. This was Roz after all, she was her best friend in the world and surely she was going to understand.

"Nick and I broke up" Sabrina told her friend with a small voice.

"What? How?"

"Would you come to my house?" Roz nodded, she stroked Sabrina's arm "I can't speak about it here"

"Sure, 'Brina"

"Thank you" said again.

Roz and her walked in silence towards Sabrina's house, when they arrived they went directly to her room. Sabrina sat at the head of her bed while Roz sat at the foot.

She waited patiently for Sabrina to decide to speak.

"He cheated on me, Roz"

"Oh, 'Brina. I'm so sorry."

"It's so painful, Roz… I love him, I love him so much and it hurts a lot" Sabrina could feel the tears starting to pool in her eyes, she took a deep breath trying not to cry. She didn't want to.

Roz stroked Sabrina's arm in a soothing gesture.

"I gave him everything and still… it wasn't enough"

"Don't say that…" she took her friends hands in hers.

"Maybe I should never have given him a chance, but he promised me… He promised me it was over"

Roz approached Sabrina and wrapped her in his arms, she could see her friend needed a hug.

"Shh... I'm sorry, 'Brina, I'm really sorry"

"Do you think the pain ever goes away?" Sabrina asked moments later.

"I don't know" Roz hugged her tighter when she finally started crying.

Roz stroked her hair and let her cry until she calmed down.

Nick drank the entire content of the glass. The bourbon burned like fire down his throat.

He poured himself another glass and drank it as fast as the first.

He hoped he could drink until he forgot. Until he forgot her. But he knew it would be impossible.

Sabrina Spellman had left a trace of fire in his broken heart.

And now she didn't want to know anything about him.

All because of Amalia and her twisted schemes.

Nick shook his head. No, he couldn't blame her for everything, he had dug his own grave by not telling Sabrina the truth from the very beginning. Now he had to act like a man and face the consequences.

But not that night.

He poured himself another drink. That night he only wanted to forget.

Forgetting his useless trip to Greendale and his foolish hope that she would listen to him. He knew since the beginning she won't listen but he had tried anyway.

Nick knew Sabrina was stubborn, he loved and hated that characteristic of her in equal measure but he couldn't blame her for not wanting nothing with him. She had accused him of breaking her heart but she had not noticed that he had broken his own too.

He half listened his phone ringing. Nick didn't need to see the number to know who was calling him.

Amalia.

She hadn't stopped calling him since Sabrina broke-up with him but he had ignored her every time she called, but with his senses somewhat dulled by the alcohol he had been drinking, he decided to listen to what the woman had to say.

"Amalia" he said as a way of greeting once he accepted the call.

"How did you know it was me, Nicky darling?" she asked pleased, he grimaced in disgust.

"It was obvious, what do you want?" he blurted "You already got what you wanted, Sabrina and I broke-up, you can leave me alone now"

"Everything ended like this because you wanted it to be this way, Nicky. I told you we could share"

"You are crazy if you think I would ever go back to you"

"Come back to me, Nick" she insisted in a seductive tone that he found repulsive "You know you'll be back"

"I won't"

"The Spellman girl doesn't want to see you anymore, and you know you need me. You know that your life could be so much easier if you just come back to me"

"Is that all you have to say?" he asked irritated. It had been a mistake to answer her call.

"You will come back to me" she insisted "it's just matter of time"

Nick didn't bother answering her and simply hung up the phone, he rubbed a hand across his face before affirming his elbow on the table.

A small, vulnerable, part of him knew that Amalia was right. His life could be so much easier if he just come back to be her… Nick shook his head. He couldn't let her lure him again to. He wasn't the boy he was before and he wasn't going to fall into her nets again.

He let out a sigh. Sabrina might not want him anymore but that didn't mean he would go back to Amalia as she wished. It was over.

That part of his life was over.

If he only had talked to Sabrina earlier…

If he had been brave enough to fully open his heart to her, to trust her as she did with him, right now he would be with her wrapped in his arms and not sitting in his kitchen, alone, drinking until he almost lost consciousness.

He deserved what was happening to him. With a whimper he rested his forehead on the cold surface of the kitchen table. Nick knew there was no way to get over Sabrina.

She had his heart wrapped in one of her petite hands. And now she was squeezing it.

And he deserved it.

He raised his head and poured himself another drink.

Sabrina tried to go through her classes as if nothing happened. As if her heart had not been broken and trampled on the ground. It was difficult but she was a Spellman and the Spellmans were not so easily defeated.

She was going to overcome this. She had to.

Outside her dorm she could pretend that nothing was happening to her, but when she crossed the threshold of the room she shared with Prudence things changed. In the solitude of her room, or all the loneliness she could had with a companion like Prudence, she let herself be carried away by the sadness she felt.

"Ok Sabrina, I think it's enough," Prudence said one Friday night two weeks after the end of the spring break. She crossed her arms in front of her chest and looked at her with a defiant attitude.

"Leave me alone, Prudence. I'm not in the mood for one of your talks right now," she said, she was about to turn to face the wall again, but her roommate stopped her. Sabrina looked at her expecting Prudence said whatever she was going to say and leave her alone for once.

"Who said I wanted to speak?" she refuted "We are going out. Tonight. And I don't want to hear any lame excuses, you are going and it's the end of the discussion"

"Prudence..." Sabrina almost begged her but her roommate only gave her a look that clearly said she wasn't joking.

"Without excuses, Sabrina" she repeated it again "You need a good drink and a few hours on the dance floor"

"I don't think that's the solution" Sabrina said reluctantly getting up from the bed.

"Of course it's not the solution, silly. But at least you're going to stop thinking about Nick for a few hours"

She did not like the stitch she felt in her heart when she heard his name.

"Now, we better get ready to leave, Agatha and Dorcas are waiting for us in their room"

Sabrina let out a sigh, she knew Prudence won't leave her in peace if she didn't accept.

"Fine" she said begrudgingly.

A few hours later she regretted her decision. She wasn't enjoying being in the crowded club.

People were dancing to the rhythm of the music. In other times she would also be dancing... with him. She shook her head trying not to think about Nick but it was hard for her not to do so. She drank all the content of her glass, the alcohol leaving a burning sensation down her throat.

She needed another drink. Maybe something even stronger, she thought. Maybe getting drunk tonight would help her forget.

Sabrina got up from the table to go towards the bar, she looked around trying to find Prudence, Agatha or Dorcas in the crowd but she didn't see them, the devil knew what was the trio doing. Certainly nothing good.

"Thanks, Prudence" she muttered sarcastically as she walked through the busiest part of the bar. She didn't know why her roommate insisted so much for her to accompany them if she disappeared the moment they crossed the threshold of the club.

She froze at a few steps away from the bar. She would recognize that dark hair anywhere… What was Nick doing in there the same night she had decided to go out? Did Prudence know about it?

"I'm going to kill her" she exclaimed under her breath.

She took a deep breath and told herself that she could do it, that she could pass by him and simply ignore him. He didn't mean anything to her anymore. Or that she thought.

Because after taking a few steps she realized he wasn't alone.

A woman she didn't know was almost hanging on his arm and although apparently Nick didn't recognize her obvious flirting attempts, he didn't do anything to reject her either. Sabrina wanted to say something to him but realized she no longer had the right to feel jealous, they weren't together anymore.

She continued walking with her eyes fixed on them but when the woman brought her face dangerously close to his she couldn't bear it anymore. Without really thinking she throw the glass to the floor. The sound attracted the attention of those around her. Nick among them.

She thought he saw his lips move forming her name.

It was then when she decided to run away. She had had enough, she would leave there and then, Sabrina would send Prudence a message letting her know she was gone. She couldn't stay longer.

Sabrina walked quickly trying to avoid the pieces of glass scattered on the floor and went to the nearest exit door she could find which was the one that led to a small alley at one side of Dorian's. On more than one occasion she and Nick had hidden there to kiss, away from the sight and jokes of the others.

Coming to Dorian's had been a terrible idea. There were so many memories there.

She stopped momentarily when she felt the cold night air against the bare skin of her arms, she had forgotten her jacket inside and the blouse she was wearing had short sleeves, she hugged herself and started walking, at least she had her wallet and her phone with her, she tipped a quick message to Prudence to let her know she had left. She would walk towards the street and ask for a cab.

But then she heard him calling her.

"Sabrina!"

The sound of his voice made her hurry up more, she couldn't believe Nick had followed her outside the bar but he had. He called out her name again before reaching her side. She hated herself for stopping when he held her by one of her arms. Sabrina felt his warm hand against the bare skin of her forearms. She trembled, but not from cold this time.

"Sabrina," he said her name one more time with a pleading tone "please…"

"What do you want, Nick?" she asked him, she turned around to look him in the eye, his hand fell from her arm. Sabrina was mad at Nick but she couldn't deny that she still felt something for him, that she still wanted him and that night she had already drunk more than she should have. Looking at his eyes was a risky move.

"Can we talk?"

"Aren't we doing it already?"

She heard him sigh. She couldn't help noticed that his eyes looked darker with the dim light of the alley. She gulped when her gaze fell directly on his lips. She really needed to leave.

"I really need to talk to you, explain you what happened" he said, he searched for her eyes but now she was avoiding his sight "Can you at least look at me?"

It was Sabrina's turn to sigh.

"Why don't you go back to Dorian's? I'm sure your friend is looking for you" even she could notice the jealousy in her voice.

He allowed himself to feel hope at hearing her voice but she still didn't look at him and that was annoying, he extended one of his hand and took her chin between his fingers to make her look at him.

"Better" he said, he didn't release her, his thumb caressed her chin out of instinct. She didn't pull away "Can we go somewhere quieter and talk? We really need to"

"No, we don't need to" she said stubbornly, her brown eyes glaring at him "There is nothing I need to hear from you"

Nick groaned frustrated by her obstinate attitude.

"You're driving me crazy" he said under his breath but she heard him anyway.

She remembered when he told her the same words some time ago, under different circumstances. She nibbled her lower lip.

"Look Nick, I'd better go. We don't need to continue doing this"

Neither he nor she had been aware of how close they were to each other. Of how tense the air between them had become. Sabrina knew she should go before she did something she would regret later but she didn't, something kept her anchored there, at his side.

It was his magnetic presence, the weight of his gaze over her.

She looked from his dark enigmatic eyes to his parted lips, suddenly a single thought flooded her mind.

"Nick…" she said with a sigh before pressing her lips against his.

It didn't take long for him to answer her. It wasn't a tender kiss. It was a rough kiss, a sad kiss, a furious kiss. Sabrina brought one of her hands to his nape and pulled him closer to her until their bodies collided.

His hand on her hips burned the skin under her skirt.

"Nick…" she sighed again and he understood all the words she wanted to said and felt unable to say at the same time.

She didn't stop. He didn't stop.

Neither of them was truly aware of how they got to his apartment without ripping their clothes off on the way. She had never felt such urgency before. It was so basic… so primitive. The door had barely closed when Nick pressed her against it, she moaned before claiming his lips again and opened her legs to let him be even closer to her. Sabrina took the jacket off his shoulders and he took off her blouse in a swift move, when his hands traveled up her thighs she shivered, he followed the length of her garters she was wearing until he reached her panties, she gasped when he touched her there.

She had missed this. The way he touched her… loved her.

"Nick..." she said between gasps as he kissed the skin of her neck and his hand continued working wonders in her body "bed, now"

He lifted her up and she wrapped her legs around his hips to let him carry her to the bedroom.

Neither of them was thinking. Neither of them wanted to think about the consequences.

They just wanted to feel.

She couldn't get enough of him. She had always known.

She always wanted more. So much more.

They fell into bed and she started to unbutton his shirt as fast as she could, when she finished, her hands went to the waistband of his pants, she tried to unfasten his belt however this proved to be a more complicated action than she had thought because her lips brushing his abdomen made it difficult for him to stay still.

She took off his pants before stepping at one side of the bed to take off the rest of her clothes. She didn't take her eyes off him, that night she felt bolder than she ever had.

The certainty that she was capable of disarming that man was intoxicating.

Sabrina kissed him before sitting up straddling his hips. And she continued kissing him while she descended over him. They gasped when she had him completely inside her.

At first her movements were slow and even a little insecure as she adapted again to the feeling of being so intimately united to him.

She began to move a little faster and the grip of his hands on her hips increased to the point where she knew there would be marks the next day. But she didn't care. Sabrina could feel how that well-known sensation began to spread from the lower part of her belly to the rest of her body.

Nick opened his mouth to say something to her but she silenced him by bringing one of her fingers to his lips. He groaned.

"Shh… don't talk" she said before kissing him.

He spun them around and pinned her hands over her head. She felt momentary breathless.

There was nothing sweet about the way they made love. His thrusts got faster and furious and she wrapped her legs around his hips, urging him to go even faster, without much thought.

She wanted everything from him that night.

Maybe because she knew it was the last.

Things got a little more complicated, but who doesn't love some drama?