Chapter 30

Anne POV

(The Day Before)

I lay on the bed pretending to be asleep. It was Wednesday. I knew my dad was sitting in an armchair near my bed. He had left for a while earlier, but made Poppy watch me. I tried to ignore them both to the best of my ability. I ignored everyone.

Both Albus and Remus had terrified me when they came to visit, I screamed at them to get out. I felt rather awful after, but safer as well. Minerva came to visit and I allowed her in, but made her sit across the makeshift room.

I waited for everyone to leave, I knew what I had to do. It wasn't till the next day when I was given that opportunity. I was pretending to sleep when I heard dad slip out of my cubicle. When the curtain swished shut, I looked up immediately.

I slid out of the uncomfortable bed and wandered out of my room. Once I discovered the coast was clear, I sprinted from the room to my wanted destination. I needed to go somewhere to clear my head and the Astronomy Tower always accomplished that.

I ran through the dimly lit halls. It was night already. I climbed the towers' many stairs, which led to the top. I sat with my feet dangling over the edge, resting my arms gently on the railing.

Why did this happen to me? I was finally happy here. Harry and I both. I had distanced myself from him, hoping to earn some individuality. I tried making friends with some of the ghosts. I loved Harry, but being with him constantly was hard.

Dad told me I could be my own person now and that Harry would have him. But I didn't deserve to be happy.

I looked into the brightly lit sky. The stars twinkled in their beauty, mocking me. I didn't deserve to be in a world so beautiful, I was dirty. What if I wasn't in it? I repeated this compelling thought.

I was lost in a world of what ifs. But Harry and dad would both be better off. They wouldn't dirty themselves with my presence, would they? I saw how miserable dad looked. He didn't deserve to worry himself over me.

I peered over the edge of the railing. It was far down, but there was no one to stop me. I peered down carefully analyzing. I wondered if I did it, would it work, was it far enough.

I nodded to myself, telling myself it would work. It had to. I couldn't live like this anymore, constantly remembering. Maybe . . . maybe I could finally be with my mum, maybe she would understand. Hopefully in time she would.

I picked myself up off the ledge. Stepping away from it. I closed my eyes and took a deep breath. I strode towards the edge, lifting my legs over the railing, sitting on it carefully. I sighed once more, taking a deep breath of the mountain air, for I hoped the last time.

Pushing back on the railing slightly, I began falling towards the ground.