Cade POV

Jamie has been doing better the past week. It's hard to say if she's recovering mentally and emotionally from Buddy's passing, or this is just another good period. That's another challenge; when are the girls going to start being themselves? There will be mental wounds that'll never heal.

J.R. is still terrified and will not let Crosshairs leave her for long. She won't talk about her nightmares or thoughts at all. We were trying to prevent that. J.R. has been terrified to sleep, and Crosshairs has had to use sleep aid every night. It's getting harder to get her to eat. At this point, it's a good thing she's clingy. We don't have to worry about J.R. not wanting Crosshairs around her to make sure she's safe.

Bumblebee has been focused on Jayce the past week. She's been the same in terms of how frequent her nightmares, panic, and anxiety attacks have been. Jayce gets little sleep in between. The only good is that she hasn't had another seizure.

Now add Jamie is sick. Ok, shouldn't be a problem, but I worry with Jayce's mental state, she'll worry, though she's the one who told me Jamie would keep working while sick. This time, though, Jamie is exhausted. She's able to work for a couple of hours before going back to sleep. We all thought this would worry Drift, but he was calm and took care of her like he always does.

Drift was in the kitchen, and something was bothering him.

"Jamie was freezing last night but no fever," He tells me. That was odd but no reason to worry until he told me she's been heavy breathing. I wanted to check on her myself. We went upstairs and found Jayce at the doorway. Considering how worried she looked, we can assume she went into the room to see Jamie. Either she doesn't look good, or Jayce could hear her breathing, Where the hell is Bee or Hound?

"Jayce, she's fine," Drift assured her, which may or may not be a lie. Then I realized I needed to get some things from the medbay. It's a good thing I didn't think of it before coming upstairs. I'm sure Jamie is fine, but I didn't want to say anything, and it turns out I'm lying.

"Jayce, what are you doing?" Crosshairs asked. Oh boy, please don't panic in front of Jamie's room, Jayce, "Come on, Jamie is sleeping," Crosshairs says as he takes Jayce's hand and leads her away from the room. What bothers me is we have to lie to keep her panicking to a minimum. Once I heard the door to Jayce's room close, I went to get what I needed. Sure, just a cold, why go through all this trouble? I think it'll help Drift not worry so much, and with Jamie's illness, it's hard to know if this a sign of a flare-up starting or not.

"She fell asleep," Drift tells me as I walk into the room. I can hear her breathing, no wonder Drift was worried. He' knows if this is normal or not. This was not snoring or a runny nose either. The tricky part is I only know what Jamie's lungs sound like when she's going through a flare-up, both minor and severe, and when she's recovered from it.

"She's fine, normal body reaction to a cold virus," I assure Drift. I didn't lie to him, if I had the slightest thought something was wrong, I would tell him, "Even normal to want to sleep more."

I left the room and slowly walked by Jayce's. From the sound of things, Crosshairs may need to use the drug, crap. I need to put things back in the medbay. Better prepare a syringe just in case.

Crosshairs POV

Every passing day, Jayce gets worse. I've asked Cade if she could be in physical pain, but there are ways to know even if she's trying to hide it. I thought J.R. was the worst now since she's been clingy, but in just the five minutes I've been sitting with Jayce, I can tell how bad she is. Drift comes in and suggests we lie on the bed with her. It's something that calms both girls, and I think he wanted Jayce in a safe position. As always, Jayce falls asleep.

"Three months and they're both still thinking this way," I sighed.

"Jamie's emotional struggle and lack of talking about it doesn't help either. She's still not acting like herself. Maybe that's what Jayce and J.R. want to see to know Jamie will be ok. Then they'll start to recover. Come one, let's go see if J.R. is awake."

J.R. was awake, lying in bed, staring at the ceiling. She has been crying, shit. She must've woken up soon after I leave the room. I can't tell Drift why she's so terrified about being left alone now, but how long can I keep it secret? Drift hugged her while she cried. I know he hates how he can't help with Jayce and J.R. more, but he's helping the two of them by staying with Jamie.

Five hours later

Jayce POV

"What are we going to do?" J.R. asked me. We were sitting on the couch. The Autobots and Cade left us alone, but we know they're around and locked the medbay. I can't find the key to the weapons room, either. Jamie has been sleeping all afternoon.

"I don't know, it's been three months, but we know how Jamie is."

"I thought with how you have nightmares and anxiety attacks; how you'd have to stop going on adventures with Jamie and me, but..maybe we should leave her anyway."

I couldn't believe J.R. said that but I've been thinking the same way.

"I can't help her, anyway. The last month, I've been having nightmares about Jadin coming back and trying to kill Jamie again, but this time, the Autobots weren't around…" I couldn't finish before crying. I think J.R. understood enough because she was also crying. Next thing I know, Drift is hugging me. I see Crosshairs hugging J.R.

"Why didn't you tell us?" Drift asks once I stopped crying, "Don't tell me it's because you didn't want us to worry more? What do you think, not telling us anything does?" This was turning out to be like a therapy session. Autobot psychiatrists, yeah, I think I like that better than human psychiatrists.

"I've been dealing with Jamie's emotional struggle for twelve years, and the others been dealing with it for seven years. Don't think we don't want to help you two with yours," Bumblebee lectured.

"There's nothing you can do," I mumbled.

"I know it feels that way. It will take time," Drift says.

Six hours later

Cade POV

"Well, this was good. I don't like how they have to think we're not listening for them to talk about what's been going on with their nightmares," I start.

Jayce and J.R. are in their rooms, Jamie is asleep, and we have a lot to talk about tonight.

"I can't believe they're thinking of leaving Jamie, after I promised her we wouldn't leave her," Crosshairs says, frustrated. I'm not even going to ask what happened that he had to promise that.

"We know a little more about what's been bothering them. We have to make sure they keep talking." I tell them.

"But still not much else we can do?" Hound more says thanks asks.

"I'm sorry, but no, not unless you want to use drugs or often than to get them to sleep."

"They're not even talking about their nightmares anymore. We can't leave them alone and hope they'll talk about it while we're nearby," Drift points out.

We tried to figure out what we can do to deal with this challenge and talk about Jamie's mental state, but I didn't ask Crosshairs why he had to promise her that we wouldn't leave her. Crosshairs went to prepare a couple of syringes and grabbed sleep aide tablets for Jayce and J.R.

He gave one of each to Drift. Neither Bee nor Hound asked questions. I suspect. Crosshairs and Drift think the two girls will be a challenge to get to sleep.

"Looks like we've been booted from helping, Bee," Hound joked.

"What? No, I-," Crosshairs started.

"Relax, I know what you're thinking."

Hound POV

I know Crosshairs thinks the two girls will refuse to go to sleep no matter how exhausted they are. Don't know if he's thinking the girls know talking about how they're feeling triggers new intense nightmares. We go upstairs, and Cade goes to his room. Crosshairs and Drift go to Jayce's room first. Bee and I stand on either side of the doorway do we're not seen but can hear how things go.

Crosshairs POV

Jayce has a hard time keeping her eyes open, but she told is she will not sleep. Did she have the same nightmare about Jamie dying and watching us disappear? What sucks is Jayce and J.R. know one of us is with them all night when they wake up and most of the day.

"What has you scared?" Drift asked, but instead of answering, Jayce started tearing up, "ok, you want to try sleep aide?" He shows her the pills. Jayce agrees and takes the pills. Drift and I lie with her until she falls asleep twenty minutes later.

"You better stay with her, Drift, since Crosshairs has been staying with J.R.," Hound suggested, "how much trouble can Jamie be while sick?"

This was true, Jamie slept most of the day. He knows whoever is with her would get him if he was needed. He came with me to J.R.'s room. J.R. was the same as she's been the last week. I was hoping she'd be doing better, so I didn't have to use sleep aide. She'd cry herself to sleep but end up waking up in a few hours. Drift stayed with Jayce, Bee stayed with Jamie, and I stayed with J.R. We told Hound to go recharge in his quarters, but he wanted to stay upstairs.