Cat's POV
Robbie's been texting me about suicide all last night, and it's bugging me so much. I don't want him to leave this planet, really. I'm at a home therapy session with a guy that Mom hired. I don't even know his name, but here I am.
"Robbie is so distant and constantly thinking about suicide, sometimes I feel like I'm not enough for him." Distant is an exaggeration.
"But you can't force him to change, Caterina." He's right.
"I don't want him to change, but one second we're kissing, then the next he tells me that he's been feeling suicidal. I just can't get him to see that I love him and that he makes me so happy. I just feel that him liking me isn't enough to help him feel better."
"You think it's all your fault?" Duh!
"Isn't it though? Had I just stayed with Josh, none of this would be happening." Okay, shouldn't've said that.
"Josh would have killed you, Caterina." I know that.
"I don't care, I had to start an online school because I can't face my fellow students because Josh leaked my nudes to make me feel like crap. Robbie makes me feel like I'm on a cloud, but when he talks about suicide, it makes me feel like I might as well be dead. He's always tugging at my heart strings." I hate it when he's always talking bad about himself. He's the most perfect human being in the world. God, I can't even talk to the boy without having the urge to kiss him.
"Ah, I've had sessions like this before. Just try to talk to him, and show him more affection."
"Alright, I'll try. Thank you." He walks out of the house and I run back up to my room. Mom's back at work, and it's almost the end of January, which means that Valentine's day is next month, but Robbie's gonna be leaving on the 4th. I don't want Valentine's day to be over my phone. I want him to take me to a romantic dinner or something like that. I guess that I'm gonna have to savor each and every day that he's here. Might as well call him to come over.
"Hey, babe. Can you come over today?" I ask eagerly.
"Yeah, I'm gonna be on my way now. I can't spend a single night without thinking about you." I feel blush creeping up on my cheeks.
"Same for me. See you. Love you."
"Love you too. Bye." Click.
Well, we're gonna go on a date today and it should be fun. And since I'm lazy as fuck, I'm just gonna put on a t-shirt and short shorts. And I have to go back to school next week. It's gonna suck that the locker next to mines isn't occupied anymore.
Ding dong. Ooh! He's here! Alright, this is your first date in a while. Get it together, Cat. Get it together!
"Hey, Cat. You ready?" There's sweat dripping down my back right now, I'm so nervous.
"Robbie, I just wanna stay home today." I lay down on one of my sofas.
"But your mom's at work, you'll be alone." Alright, I gotta think. It's never good when I think.
"You can stay here with me if you want to. I wanna cuddle with you today." I make some room for him, and I go underneath his chin.
"I love you." I kiss the side of his neck.
"I love you too. You're the only thing in this world that makes me happy. Without you in my life, I wouldn't even be here. I would be dead without you." Oh, here we go.
"Robbie, I want you to be happy with me and without me. I know that it's hard for you, but just try. Do it for me. I don't care if we're only 16, you're my everything. And I don't wanna see you like this." I play with the zipper at the end of his sweater.
"Do you know how hard it is, Cat? Waking up in the morning and realizing that the love of your life isn't next to you? Getting texts from Josh's buddies telling me to kill myself? Sometimes...it's the only option I have left. But seeing you every day just gets me in such a happy mood. When I leave, I feel like I'm dead inside. Every night, I always think about you and how perfect you are. I wanna marry you. I wanna have kids with you. I want us to grow old together. But...everyone keeps on making fun of me, and I don't want you to be emotionally damaged because of me, and-" I kiss him deeply and run my fingers through his curls.
"Let me love you, Robbie. Please stop talking bad about yourself like this. Nothing is your fault. You're perfect in every way, and if you're gone, then what would be my purpose of living? I don't wanna wake up and realize that you're not here with me anymore. I'm here for you. Don't go like this." I hold his hand and look him in the eyes.
"I just wish that I could go back to Hollywood Arts. You're my L.A. baby." His L.A. baby. I love that nickname.
"Aww. Come here, you." We start to kiss again. His hand travels down to my butt, and I start to unbutton his shirt.
"Thank God you're doing this today, because I'm gonna be on my period tomorrow. Hehe. Ready for round two?" I bite my lip and take off his shirt and sweater.
Another great day with Robbie.
Author's note: cat's a wild little girl.