She's in full rant mode, me thinks ;)
"No, it's more than that, Bella. You are living; even if it's not the life you want or need, you're still living. Give me more," Edward pushed.
"I don't know!" Bella shouted and threw him a little glare. Edward grinned. He was getting to her.
"Yes, you do, Bella. You've sat in your room each night and daydreamed about what you want. It's just us here, so tell me. What do you need, what do you crave? Vent if you have to, shout, scream, but give me what you want. Full of passion, show me," Edward goaded.
Edward knew full well that he'd pushed the right buttons, said the right thing. Bella glared at him, but not in anger, but strength and defiance. She was going to explode.
"I'm sick to death of the so-called adults around here telling me what I should be doing with my life. That college is the only way to go. I'm sick to death of the little boys perving over me like they actually have a clue about what to do with their dicks. I just want to be me! I don't need a piece of paper from a college to say I'm qualified to do what I want to do. I want to get on with my life the way I want to. I want some thrill, I want some excitement, but not from the people around here. I want to be artistic in my own way. I want to grow up my own way. I respect the fact that I'm a child to most people here, but I can still have my own thoughts and dreams, right?" Bella continued to rant, and Edward found it hard to hide his growing erection in his jeans.
He couldn't help it. She just brought something out in him. He'd been open and honest with Charlie about his feelings.
His thoughts started last year, and he wasn't shy of explaining his feelings to Charlie.
Charlie, in turn, asked Edward to wait until she was eighteen. Charlie hadn't been worried about the age difference or whether Edward would hold her back or not. Charlie just wanted his daughter happy.
"I want to find someone that I can love with everything I have and who will accept me for who I am. I want a family. I want kids and I'll be bloody good at being a mom. All I have to do is everything my mother didn't do. I can be what my mother wasn't. I want my kids to understand unconditional love from both parents. I never want them to think that they weren't enough. They will be enough, and they will feel loved. I want them to have everything I didn't have in a mother," Bella had tears streaming down her face.
"Yep, as I said. You're simply glorious."
A couple more chapters to go and then she'll be done :)