(Five days later)
Cat's POV
So, he's really gone, huh? And I have to start school on the 7th. I have to post a video on The Slap to get back in. And now I have to go to school without him. Great. I'll just turn on this stupid camera and get filming. I put on the sweater that I technically stole from him in order to hide my scars.
"Hi, it's me, Cat! So today, I'll be reading tweets that students have sent me and I will answer them! Yay! Okay, here we go, first question. This one is from @oliversimmons, shoutout to him! Okay, so the question reads, 'Cat, what's wrong with you?'" Okay, Oliver's a fucking jerk.
"There's nothing wrong with me, Oliver. It's just the same old Cat. Okay, I hope I get a better question this time. This one is from @benharris. It reads, 'Cat, you and your precious nerd are gonna pay for what happened to Josh. Watch out.'" I think that this is the guy who keeps on sending death threats to my Robbie.
"Well, @benharris, he's in a different state, so ha! Anyway, I think that's gonna end the video." I turn the camera off and I throw myself on the bed and cry. Now I'm the one feeling suicidal. I lock my door and bury my head in my pillow. Does he still love me? Does he still think that I'm his everything? Does he still wanna kiss me and pick me up and whisper his secrets into my ear? I miss him so much. He's at LAX, so I'll just call him to say my goodbyes.
Ring. Ring.
"Hello?"
"I-I miss you so much, baby. I'm living a nightmare."
"I miss you too, but I'll be back in May. I'll spend my summer with you, I promise." That won't make anything better.
"B-but I need you now. I wish that you would be here, kissing me like there's no tomorrow. If I could, I would drive at full speed down to the airport so that I can get you back. Promise me that you'll stay with me forever."
"I mean...Cat, forever's a long time."
"What's that supposed to mean?!"
"Kidding. Come on, you're the only one I ever wanna be with."
"What about Stella?"
"Nah, turns out she was just using me."
"You shouldn't be treated like garbage anymore, Robbie."
"I've been treated like that my whole life, it doesn't phase me anymore."
"I'll help you out if you ever need me. Hey, did you know that you make everything hot?" And another slip for me.
"Nothing's as hot as you, Miss Valentine."
"Daddy, you're making me horny."
"Don't do it over the phone, Cat."
"Sorry. I just miss you so much."
"I'll be back for you. Only you. I just wish that we could be alone right now, hiding from everybody else."
"At least you feel the same."
"Cat, one day, we'll both be married, and living by ourselves with children. I just want to give you the whole world right now."
"Robbie, you're my world. I have everything I need already."
"I gotta board the plane now, I'll talk to you when I get back home."
"It'll feel like forever."
"I know, I know. But I'll be back. Bye."
"Bye."
And he's all gone. I'm gonna call up my mom now.
"Mom, I can't live without Robbie, I need him here!"
"What would you have me do exactly?"
"I don't know, adult something! Find a way to get his mom to understand that I need him here. Last night...I cut myself. You know that I'm always chipper and it would take a lot to get me to do that."
"Wait, you cut? Oh, my God. Yeah, I'll find some reason. My work is looking for someone to manage stuff. Maybe I can convince her that it's a better position."
"Robbie's still getting death threats, people are still trying to kill himself, and I can't handle it."
"Sweetie, I've got to get back to work. We'll talk later. Bye."
"Bye."
Robbie's gone, Mom's at work, and none of my friends even care to call me. I just feel like nobody loves me anymore. I just wanna wake up next to him. Tell him that he's loved. Nobody's ever done that for me, so I might as well do it for him. I'm broken. I'm bruised. I can't believe that he's already packed and ready to go. I had the best times of my life with him. I guess I'll just start being...different now. I'm not happy anymore. He was mine for only two months. I was the only girl who's ever loved him. My world is slowly crumbling down on me. Cutting more is my only solution right now.
I wanna die now. Well, I'm 16, I've had a good run. Wait, no. Come on, Cat! Get it together! I'm just so concerned about Robbie's feelings. If I die now, I won't be able to see him ever again. I...just don't know anymore. I can't sleep at night anymore. If only I could just go on a plane to New Jersey. Maybe I can. I'll talk about it with Mom tomorrow! Anyway, back to the most perfect guy in the world-
Buzz.
30,000 feet in the air now. I miss you.-my everything
i hope you can see me from up there lol-me
I wish that I could see your beautiful face again :'(-my everything
i wish your sexy little self would come back soon-me
Stop it-my everything
sorry-me
How are you-my everything
remember how you always used to feel suicidal?-me
Yeah, but I'm out of it now-my everything
well, now i feel that way. i need you more than anything-me
Just think happy thoughts, or read a book-my everything
you know i don't like reading :(-me
Yeah, me neither-my everything
i've started to consider producing songs that i've written in my songwriting class-me
Okay…-my everything
should i or not?-me
Just do whatever you think is the best for you-my everything
so, produce it?-me
Why not? Aren't you taking theory-my everything
only basic theory, but yes-me
Well, tell your teacher about your song, you can make chord progressions and everything-my everything
i don't know what i would do without you. xoxo-me
It's what I do ;)-my everything
stop being so cute all the time-me
I can't help it-my everything
getting flirty now, shapiro?-me
Maybe-my everything
you're the best boyfriend ever-me
I'm feeling kinda tired, I barely got any sleep last night, I'll text you in the morning-my everything
alright. :( i'll miss you-me
Night, Cat- my everything
night, babe. i love u. xoxo-me
Love you too-my everything
Maybe this long distance thing isn't so bad after all. We still love each other, and that's the only thing that matters.
Author's note: too fluffy?