Erin's POV; it's been a Couple weeks since me and Jay went on a double date with Kevin and Vanessa. Ever since then me and Vanessa i've been talking almost every other day. I am so glad Kevin found a nice girl and I get along with her. Right now I am 33 weeks pregnant with baby girl I am at home trying to put Camryn's room together well Jay is hanging out at Molly's with the guys from work. Once I am done what I can with her room tonight I go into the living room find me a snack and laid down on the couch watching the notebook. I soon drip off to sleep ( in dream land )

J= hey babe wake up
E= uh wait what time is it
J= it's 7:00 am
E= well I must have been tired I fell asleep and stayed asleep all night
J= wow and little girl didn't wake you up at all during the night
E= that is very shocking
J= maybe she knew you needed the sleep
E= yeah maybe but hey let's go get ready for work before we left
J= that's a good idea before hank yells at me again
E= oh yeah also what time did you get in last night
J= I got in about 1 AM and I saw you laying so peacefully on the couch so I let you sleep
E= oh how thoughtful you are and that's why I married you
J= is that the only reason
E= Not at all let's get to work
J= all right let's go

We go to work and it's pretty boring day it was an easy case we had to solved within a couple of hours we got the paperwork done pretty fast so we got out of the bullpen on the way home we picked up some pizza when we got home we ate our food and as I am throwing away the trash Jay is going through the mail we have collected over the last couple days

E= is there anything important in there beside bills and more bills
J= no not really just a postcard from mouse and ... ( Jay see something and has a strange look on his face)
E= jay what is it
J= hold on is second let me read it
E= okay but you are worrying me just by your face ( five minutes later) So what did
J= how about we go sit down
E= why you are scaring me
J= i'm sorry but I will feel better if we sit down on the couch okay ( they sit down on the couch) so first of all I didn't mean for this to happen
E= what do you mean
J= well when I got out of the army and join the police academy I still was signed up to be called back for the next 10 years and this letter for telling me I have to come back and this is my only time I have
E= wait are you kidding me why now
J= I wish I was in maybe since they haven't called me yet before the 10 years is up
E= this isn't happening right now ( starts to panic )
J= Erin you need to breathe and calm down
E= how am I supposed to when you tell me this news
J= i'm sorry wrong choice of words let me go get your drink of water ( he does) here you go
E= thanks ( takes a sip of water) so when do they want you to leave
J= This letter said next Saturday
E= that's a little over a week
J= yeah that gives me time to get my stuff together
E= well I don't know what I want to do when you're gone. Does it say how long you'll be gone for
J= no it does it mean hopefully it's only two months max
E= yeah hopefully wait we got tell hank what time is it
J= I think it's 7pm
E= okay that's good he is still up we should call him to get him over and tell him the news
J= wait a minute don't you want to wait until tomorrow to tell him
E= i'd rather do it tonight and also in private so nobody sees me looking like a mess
J= All right you call him I will go get a shower
E= all right ( calls hank)
HV= hey Erin what's up
E= um are you busy right now
HV= no I'm not why is something wrong with you or the baby
E= no nothing is wrong with me or the both of us but we need to talk to you
HV= okay I will be over shortly
E= all right see you soon
J= so he is on his way over
E= yes he is ( starts to cry)
J= come here Erin ( jay hugs her ) it will be okay everything will be fine ( kiss her forehead) nothing will happen
E= I hope not I can't lose you
J= you won't lose me I promise I will come back
E= you promise
J= I promise I swear to God I will make sure I will keep my promise
E= you better get a shirt on before hank gets here while I go Splash water on my face
J= all right good idea ( Erin starts to walk away ) hey babe I love you
E= I love you too ( they kiss) now go before hank gets here
J= I will

( 5 minutes later knocking on the door)

E= I will get it ( opens the door) hey hank come on in
HV= hey so whats so important you couldn't wait until tomorrow to tell me
J= hey hank how are you
HV= I am fine I will better once you tell me why you guys called me over here
E= can you first sit down please
HV= yes I can so what's the news
E= I will have Jay tell you
HV= all right so what's up
J= Well you know how I was an army ranger before I became a cop but once you leave the Rangers they have you sign up for 10 years we're at any time they can call you back and I just got in the mail a letter from them saying The 10 years are up and they need me to come back in the next week and a half
HV= wow so now I know why you had me come over tonight
E= yeah so major news I didn't want to wait till tomorrow to tell you in front of everyone
HV= I understand that I'm glad you told me in private so you said you leave in about two weeks right
J= something like that
HV= so do you know how long you'll be gone
J= I should be gone around two months max
HV= That's good so first off how about I give you next week and a half off until you leave
E= I like that idea
HV= do you want to tell the team
J= yeah I do
HV= how about you come in tomorrow and tell them and then spend the rest of the time getting your things in order
J= all right that works
HV= well I won't get out of here and you guys enjoy the night
E= all right hank thanks for coming
HV= no problem (walks to the door) also Jay take care of yourself over there
J= I will do I have people To come back for
HV= All right also so you can come in whenever you want tomorrow
J= all right will do
HV= One last thing don't worry about Erin we all will take care of her while you are gone
J= I understand and thanks ( Hank leaves)
E= so that is done now what
J= how about I take you and Our little girl to bed and we will figure it out tomorrow
E= that's a good idea let's go

We had to bed it took a while but Jay fell sleep after an hour he was asleep I laid awake thanking how I will be while he's gone about an hour later I finally fall asleep

Jay's POV; everything was going with me and Erin We are getting closer to meeting on baby girl until last night when I our world clash down. When I was going through the mail I noticed let us on the Rangers call me back. I totally forgot about this program I signed up for in the Rangers almost 10 years . Besides right now is the worst time for them to call me back since we are a couple months away from having a baby. I want to be here with Erin through it all. But I got to do what I got to do. Me and Erin spend our morning at home just relaxing together. We finally decide it's time to go tell the team the news. Once I tell everybody the news they are all sad but They understand. And everybody reassured me they will be taking care of Erin why I am gone once we are done we head home and just relax until my brother and Natalie comes over so we can tell them the news . Erin decided to have a bath before they come over

E= hey babe what time is Will and Natalie coming
J= they said six so they should be here any minute also will said they will be bringing dinner
E= that's good I didn't feel like cooking anyways
J= I totally get that so how do you feel about this whole situation now
E= it is what it is so I will be fine as long as we don't talk about it too much
J= all right just wanted to make sure you were good
E= I know you are in that's why I love you and also I'm so glad I married you
J= same here ( they kiss and then there was a knock at the door) that must be Will I will get the door
E= all right
J= (opens the door) hey guys thanks for coming over
NM= no problem we picked up some pizza I hope that's okay for dinner
E= I love pizza so that's perfect
WH= you look great Erin how do you feel as you get closer to meeting her
E= well I am more tired and I feel like I am swollen all over
NM= that's normal and beside you look better that me when I was pregnant With Owen
E= thanks Natalie you look good too how far along are you again
NM= I am almost 20 weeks
J= well it seems like yesterday Erin was at 20 weeks now she is at 33 weeks along
WH= oh yeah it went by fast so how about we eat the food before it get cold
E= sounds good to me

We eat our pizza and make small talk like watching the hockey game

J= Great choice of dinner tonight Will
WH= thanks pizza is always a good choice
E= yes it is especially when you have to feed two pregnant ladies
NM= good point there Erin
J= so there is a reason we called you guys over here for dinner
WH= I knew it didn't I tell you this babe
NM= you didn't I guess you know your brother pretty well
E= I guess you did
J= so the reason we called you over was because we have news to share with you guys
WH= don't tell me you guys are having twins and you just found out
NM= Will that's mean to say
E= oh God no it's more of sad news to share
NM= is everything okay with you and your baby girl
J= no nothing like that they are both still good but the news has more to do with me than them
WH= really what is if
J= well the Rangers wrote me and said they need me to come back and fight the war
WH= wait what do you mean you have been out of the Rangers for almost 10 years
J= well when I left they can call us back at any time over the next 10 years and I guess it's time for me now
NM= wow that's some news
E= yes it is
WH= so how long till you leave
J= I leave in a little over a week
NM= wow that's soon
J= yeah
WH= so do you know how long you will be gone
E= yes he does
J= I should only be gone for two months
NM= that's not that long he will be back before you know it
E= yeah I know
J= so while I am gone can you guys check in on Erin and maybe invite her over a lot for dinner or just hanging out
WH= sure thing she is family

They stay for about an hour and we soon head to bed . Over the next week and a half me and Erin spend as much time with each other. We talk to Natalie and giving us another ultrasound before I leave. The night before I leave the guys tell me a surprise going away party at Molly's which was super nice of them. Me and Erin left the party early so that we can try to get some sleep. Sleep didn't come easy to me the next morning I get up first to finish up packing before I have to get Erin up

J= hey babe it's time to wake today is the day
E= I don't want to because if I wake up it will make it real
J= I know you don't but maybe we can take one more shower together how does that sound
E= I guess that sounds good go get some water on while I use the restroom
J= all right better hurry

I get the water started it took about five minutes and then Erin joins me as we share our most personal shower we will have any long time. After we get dressed it was time to leave for the airport.

E= here you go babe you can drive one last time for a while
J= why thanks babe
E= yeah well Think of it as you're going away present
J= you are the best you know that
E= yes I do now let's go
We head to the airport I get myself checked in and we head to my gate and then we wait until it's time to board the plane
J= so how are you doing today with this situation
E= i was fine all morning but now It's hitting me and I just want to crawl in bed and cry all day
J= it will be okay I will be back before you know
E= I know but I just hope you'll be back in time for this baby girl to be born
J= I promise I will be back before she is born and you know I never break my promises
E= I know I am just worried I will be doing this alone
J= don't think like that you have everyone at the 21st and you also have Natalie and Will to help you so don't worry
E= I guess you're right I will try my best not to worry please come back to me
J= I promise I will ( kiss her head)
En= gate number 44 will start boarding
E= is that you
J= yes that is me
E= no I'm not ready
J= come here Erin ( they hug) everything will be fine all right
E= yeah I am just scared
J= yeah, how about we write each other every day to keep up-to-date on everything
E= I like that maybe it will keep me from losing my mind without you here
J= see I can have great ideas sometimes
E= yeah you do
J= ( bends down to talk to Erin's belly) you baby girl please be nice to your mama and try and wait to come out when I come back
E= don't make me crythat was so sweet
J= yeah well I better go before the plane takes off without me
E= Yeah you better I love you
J= I love you too I will be back before you know it
E= god I hope so ( they kiss) please come back to me in one piece
J= I will bye babe
E= bye babe ( jay leaves)

Erin's POV: as the time The closer for Jayda leave I started to get worried for many reasons like I hope he doesn't die over there. And I hope he gets back here before Camryn is born. I am watching jaywalk on the plane I feel my heart is breaking in 1 million pieces so once he is out of sight I head to my car and head straight home to just lay around for the rest the day. A Couple weeks later each day I miss him more and more I've been writing letters to him almost every day. Everyone has been checking in on me which is so nice of them. I have been at Will's and Natalie a few times since jay has been gone. Right now I am at home eating lunch when I heard someone knocking on my door I bet it's Hank's, Will or Natalie to check on me ( opens the door)

AC= are you Erin Lindsay halstead
E= yes I am may I help you
AC= yes so we are sad to report but your husband has passed away
E= wait what are you saying that Jay has died
AC= yes we are ma'am we are so sorry for your loss
E= no this can't be happening he is supposed to come back to me ( she falls to her knees and cries)
AC= mama we are so sorry ( hank comes over)
HV= Erin what's going on who are you guys
AC= hello we are from the Army chaplain and we just told Miss Lindsay Halstead that her husband Jay has died
HV= wow I will take over from here
AC= all right again sorry for your loss
HV= thanks now go ( they leave) come on Erin let's get you over to the couch and get you settle down ( at the couch)
E= I can't believe this he said he would come
Back to us
HV= it will be okay
E= no it won't I have or raise this little girl on my own now. Why did everyone I care about either die or leave me
HV= for one you won't raise your little girl alone you will have all of us at the 21st and for two not everyone has left you I am still here and I will always be here no matter what
E= this isn't fair he should never have gone back he needs to be here
HV= I know it will be fine ( he hugs her)

after a while I calm down enough I took a nap to see if that will help a couple later when I wake up hank is still there

E= hey hank what time is it
HV= it's about 5 pm you only sleep for a couple hours
E= okay please tell me it was a nightmare that someone jay has died
HV= I'm sorry kid but it's true
E= no it can't be true
HV= come here kid ( they hug) everything will be all right
E= I don't know how I am supposed to go on with life without him
HV= you will figure it out so I have to get back to work unless you need me to stay
E= I think I want to be alone right now
HV= all right call me if you need anything all right
E= all right also can you tell the others the news because I don't think I can
HV= Will do kid everything will be okay and I am only one call away
E= all right bye hank
HV= bye Erin I will call you tomorrow
E= all right ( hank leaves)

Once hank leaves I made me a sandwich and watch some tv. Over the next week everyone stops by and checks on me and gives me some food so I don't have to cook. We give jay a proper military funeral and it was amazing. And once the funeral was over with I start to move on without jay. First thing I do is get Camryn room together. I had to have the guys help me build her furniture. Once her room was done I get the apartment ready for her arrival. Two weeks later as I am on the couch watching tv I feel this hush of water which means my water broke and it's time for her to be here so I call hank to get over here

HV= hey Erin what's up
E= hank I think it's time
HV= time for what Erin
E= I think it's time for her to either this world
HV= oh really all right I will be right there
E= all right
( with hank)
HV= hey guys I got to leave Antonio you are in charge
AD= all right but what's going on
HV= well Erin is in labor
AD= oh wow that's exciting go tell her good luck
HV= thanks I will let her know and I will let you guys know when She is here so don't wait by the phone all day
AR= got it boss
( 5 minutes later at Erin)
HV= hey Erin it's me open up
E= it's open come in
HV= all right so what's going on
E= my water broke 20 minutes ago and I been having pain all day I think she wants to come out
HV= wow do you got all your stuff for the hospital
E= yes I do it's over by the door
HV= all right I will grab that can you walk on your own or do I need to carry you
E= I think I can walk
HV= all right let's go

We head to the car and head toward med. once we get there hank helps me out of the car and we walk in and see Natalie

NM= hank, Erin what are you guys doing here
E= well I Been having pain all day and my broke about a half an hour ago
NM= all right let's get a room for you Maggie what room is open
MM= exam room 4 is open
NM= all right Erin right this way

We head into the exam room and Natalie starts to examine me

HV= so Natalie is she in labor
NM= yes she is Erin your water dud break and you are about 3cm along
E= no I am not ready for this baby I can't have her without jay here ( Begins to cry)
HV= Erin you will be fine
E= no I won't I can't do this alone I want jay here
NM= hey Erin look at me I know what you are feeling I went through the same thing but everything will be fine jay is watching over so how about we show jay how badass you can you do that
E= yes I can thanks Natalie
NM= no problem Erin so would you like the epidural
E= yes please
NM= all right I will put in the order
E= thanks and Natalie can you be in the here with me the whole time
NM= yes I can I will be right back
HV= you will be great Erin
E= thanks hank so would you like to know your granddaughter's name before she is born
HV= sure I would love it
E= all right so your granddaughter's name is Camryn Nicole halstead
HV= that's a beautiful name
E= yeah jay came up with it and the name is based off of Camilla and Nadia
HV= well you did a good job Camilla would be so proud of you
E= thank you hank
HV= you're welcome kid
E= so I hate to ask this but when it gets closer to having Her would you mind leaving The room
HV= of course I wouldn't mind and it's fine that you ask me that
E= thanks for understanding
HV= you're welcome
NM= so they will be in shortly to do the epidural
E= great thanks Natalie
HV= I am going to go and check in with work I will be right back

Another hour later after I got my epidural my Labor soon picked up so I started progressing along faster three hours later I was getting ready to meet my baby Girl

DK= so it looks like we are ready to meet this baby
E= yer we are
DK= all right let's get started put your chin into your chest and count to 100 ( she does)
NM= good job Erin keep doing that
DK= you are doing great Erin just keep doing that and your baby girl will come soon
E= okay
About 30 minutes later I finally got to meet my baby girl

DK= and here she is
NM= she is so beautiful erin
E= welcome to the world Camryn Nicole halstead
DK= you did a very good job Erin
E= thank you doctor ( five minutes later)
DK= your welcome you are all clean up now do you need anything before I leave alone with your baby
E= um can you send in hank voight
DK= yes I can congrats again
( 5 minutes later )
HV= so I heard we have a new family member
E= yes we do here you go grandpa here is your Granddaughter ( hands her over)
NM= she did so well she was a champ the whole time
HV= I have no doubt Camryn is so pretty just like her mother
E= why thanks
NM= I will leave you guys alone to spend some family time
HV= all right see you Natalie

Hank stays for about an hour then he left so he can go everyone at the news. Not it's just me and my baby girl

E= hey baby girl I'm your mommy I already love you so much ( kiss her head) I bet you wonder where your daddy is we he went up to heaven I sure miss him he was the best thing that happened to me well now it's you. He will be watching over us for now on. He would be the best father to you. He would spoil you but I guess I will have to hold up to that. We will be we look out for each other us against the world I love you so much baby girl

After about 30 minutes I fell sleep with Camryn in my arms ( out of dreamland)

J= hey Erin wake up
E= um what
J= Erin it's time to get up
E= ( Erin opens up her eyes all the way) wait are you real
J= yes I am real now get up
E= this can't be happening I must be dreaming
J= Erin what is wrong
E= I thought you were dead you went back to rangers to fight in the war and you died and I had to have her by myself wait where is she
J= she is still in your belly here put your hands right here ( she does)
E= oh my god that must have been a dream
J= or more like a nightmare
E= it felt so real
J= i bet it did come here ( she sits closer to him)
E= I am so glad that was a dream or nightmare
J= tell me about it
E= well for some reason you got called back to the Rangers and you have no choice but to go
J= I would never leave you no matter what especially now with you getting closer to giving birth
E= yeah and within a few weeks of you being gone you died and then in the next couple weeks I gave birth with Natalie by my side. I was scared to but Natalie told me everything would be just fine
J= I am so sorry about the nightmare you had
E= it's okay I am glad it was just a nightmare and it's over
J= so tell me about her daughter like what did she look like in your dream
E= well she look just like you with some big blue eyes and she had some brown curly hair she was so beautiful
J= so you are saying she was a mini me but as beautiful as her mother
E= yes she was
J= I can't wait to meet her and see if she's just like you describe her in your dream
E= same here hopefully soon I love you
J= I love you too

Jay decide to call hank and tell him that we needed a day off. So we spend the rest of the day being grateful that it was all a nightmare and it wasn't reality.

Authors note: sport to do this too you but I read a story that did something similar so I though I should try it out. I hope you liked it please give me your feedback on how well I am doing. Also plus make suggestions on what else I can write thanks again for reading my story