AN: So this is a double post because that last chapter is genuinely bad and I really don't like how it turned out so I'm chosing to make up for that by giving you this.

Chapter Title: Walking in a Straight line
Arc 6

"Why is that what you focused on when your arm is missing?" Tsunade said looking at me confused about my freak out.

"W-what?!" my arm was gone?!

"Right you can't see that can you..." She sounded almost like she wished she hadn't said anything. "Yes though your left eye is- I don't really know how to explain it other than busted, your left arm is completely gone as well though."

I was silent.

After all, what else could I say? Apparently my arm was gone and I couldn't see out of my left eye…

"Chains?" I asked after a long pause before lifting up my right arm and saw the shackles clamped around my wrist and ankles.

"Part of what led you to losing your left side."

"It's not like I'll get very far with no depth perception so can they come off?" I looked at the leather straps, I had said chains, but they weren't metal.

"Just precaution to keep you from hurting yourself or others." the Hokage took all of them off and dumped them on a free seat and brought out a clipboard.

"Seeing as you're awake enough for this then I suppose I'll send in your real doctor and send a message for your family." With that my third interaction with our new esteemed leader left the room.

I managed to find the adjuster on the hospital bed and moved it so that I was sitting up, now that I was able to look at myself properly I looked at the stump where my left arm used to be. It was cut off just above where my elbow had been prior, sighing I touched the spot, running my index finger over it and noticing how much it felt like it had been cauterised after being torn off or something similar… at the least it was oddly flat and straight across rather than rugged.

Guess Dad and I were starting to look more alike- I just needed a more scarred face, though losing an eye probably makes me win that competition.

My reaction probably should have been more extreme at this point, but how was I supposed to react anymore? It was subdued because I just didn't have the energy to expend on caring anymore…

She mentioned my Kekkei Genkai didn't she?

I had forgotten about it…

I had forgotten…

Fuck-

My thoughts were cut off when there was a knock on the door and it was followed by an unfamiliar doctor who seemed more than a little surprised that I was sitting up, though he looked like after a moment that he attested it to the Hokage doing it for me, which was kind of annoying that this guy just assumed I wasn't strong willed enough to do something simple- I mean sure I nearly fell right out of my bed immediately and was only stopped by the chair on the side I nearly went over on.

[Harmless Nature]

"Shit" I cursed watching the plastic cup of water spill on the table that was set up for me, I had knocked it over while going to pick it up, my throat was beyond a little parched.

I sighed leaning back and looking at the ceiling resigning myself to sitting here bored out of my mind and unable to do what I wanted. I wanted to get back to my classes, I wanted to do Kyudo, I wanted to walk around the village. I wanted a lot of things, but they just weren't going to be something I could do for a long time yet.

This was boring, and I wasn't even close enough to the window to see my reflection, so I had no clue what I looked like at the moment. I couldn't even check if my theory was correct…

It had been about two hours since my Doctor left with a Nurse, they'd gone off to- well doing something I actually wasn't really sure what they were doing. They had given me an orbital exam and said they'll be back for a physical so I had that to look forward to, I wasn't too bothered about doing tests at the least they'd give me something to do while I was in this state. It was hard to explain how I felt too, I just kept looking at my hand- opening and closing it, moving it around and just trying to well… get a feel for it again.

A sigh escaped me as I looked back at the cup I had spilt ten odd minutes ago going off what the clock in the room said.

"Ugh! Would someone just show up already!" I raised my voice, it was still coming out rough and hoarse.

It was at that moment that the door flung open so suddenly that it frightened me, after all it was on my left- so I guess you could say it blind sided me

"Ah!" I yelped out as my eye focused on who was standing in the doorway.

Her hair was a bloody like crimson streaked with highlights of unnatural silvery grey, her eyes of ocean blue and skin dark like the earth. An oddly familiar dark blue Kimono with Ivory white doves embroidered onto it embraced her form, a similarly ivory coloured Obi finishing the outfit off. Though I had missed this detail initially as she closed the distance and her arms wrapped around me tightly- her face had a light scar running up her right cheek which had been emphasised by all the tears running down them.

I would have said 'You're late' but I didn't want to make her break anymore.

"'Ake-o" through her sobs I managed to make out what sounded like my name.

It stung.

My heart felt heavy.

"I love you too." her embrace somehow managed to get tighter.

Kaede didn't let go, she held me like she was scared I'd disappear if she let go, I tried my best to reciprocate it with my stump and right arm. Though she was probably used to these sorts of hugs with Dad now that I think about it.

I wonder what my team- right… I wonder what Hinata and Sasuke will think the next time I see them, will he berate me in a show of that affection he showed whenever we got hurt? Or would she worry about how I got to this point.

"I thought I'd lost another one of my babies..." Mum's voice stopped all other thoughts in my mind yet again.

She nearly lost her second child… she nearly lost another child…

"I'm Sorry-" I let out again before I was pulled even tighter again- it was getting hard to breathe as it went on, I was crying now too, how could I not? I caused her so much pain and I wanted nothing more than to stop it.

I was always against regretting things and I wasn't entirely sure what led to this but if I could turn back time I would… I loved her more than the sunlight or the air itself. She and the rest of my family here really did mean that much to me… Sasuke and Hinata included.

It's been so long… I'm just so damn tired…

My eyes got heavy and I let out a yawn.

[Tired and Blinded]

I was woken up by my Doctor.

After a half an hour where they let me eat something before I had to do the Physical exam, Mum was still in the room when they did it. She was sitting in one of the visitor chairs waiting quietly for everything to be over, when the Doctor was done he said that I was fine all things considered- he didn't expand on what were the things to be considered, but I suppose I was just glad that I was going to continue living at this point.

Now that they were gone though I was sitting up in my bed drinking from a plastic cup that had water in it while Mum seemed to have fallen asleep in the chair she had sat in, I wasn't sure how long I was out for, nor what happened but it's obviously been a rough ride for her. Her hair was getting greyer after all… not natural grey either, this was the silver colour we all had.

During the Examinations I did get to see my reflection finally and while I didn't have any new scars, the area around my left eye was lighter- the skin tone that is not to mention the eye itself had become a milky silver colour and there was basically no pupil or iris any more with it all being that colour now.

Actually it kind of reminded me of a Hyuuga's natural eye when their Byakugan wasn't activated.

Even now I traced my fingers around the blinded eye of mine, it was something I don't think I'll ever get used to with how everything is.

It wasn't long after I finished the water I had been left with that I decided to go back to sleep.

When I had finally woken up again I was being roused from my sleep by Mum as she loomed over me with a smile that told me more than any words could've, she was glad that it wasn't all a dream and that I really had woken up. She sat down at the end of the bed and waited for me, I assume was ready to answer any questions.

"So what happened?" I asked her simply.

"First… Takezou have you been using chakra as much as you can to properly expend it?" she asked back, so it was going to be like this?

I thought about it, I really did and when I came to my answer it made me want to smack my skull against a wall.

"No… no I haven't I've barely used it over the last few months let alone the last year." it was the truth, I had started to forget about using it, I no longer used it to regulate my body I no longer used it to enhance anything I did in my daily lif-

Crack

The resounding crack noise that my neck made when her hand connected in a slap actually frightened me more than what I remember of meeting Orochimaru.

"Don't you dare ever do that again..." she was mad but there were still light tears rolling down her face. "I will not lose more of my family to this gods forsaken bloodline."

"..."

"Now… to answer your question you had a nightmare- I think it was triggered by the Kekkei Genkai… with it though that thing I told would happen, happened… and your Tenketsu were surged with chakra until your entire left arm was blown off." she stopped and I realized that Mum was biting her lip.

"Is… is there anything else?"

"Y- your f-f… your father d..." she trailed off as grief washed over her again.

"He… he is… dead?" I asked her as her composure broke and I was dragged into a hug yet again… "How? Mum."

There was a good twenty minute pause before she continued."He got- caught in the explosion… it destroyed part of the house too..."

It was all too much…

So much was gone…

Why?

Did I ask too much of the world?

Was I reborn just to suffer?!

I have so much good only to have it all fucking RUINED!

[The Butterfly Was A Fleeting Dream]

Do you think Coma's were going to start becoming a recurring theme? Because I think I've managed to end up in two of them now, not to mention they keep happening right as the world is beginning to make sense.

Right as I'm about to find it.

At the least the Doctors didn't seem to think I would be in here for long.

Other than that though I had managed to- after a while get mum to explain some more about everything to me, apparently now that people have been able to look at it our Kekkei Genkai is effectively creating its own kind of chakra that's a lot rawer then what you'd normally use and because of the density of the purity of it, the chakra is actually toxic or poisonous so to speak. Which is why our hair has the silvery grey, because it's literally had the age accelerated by the stress of it or whatever and the same goes for my eye, apparently the constant use of chakra was accelerating its degradation making it so my Eye lost its ability to see colour and then sight all together.

She's not entirely sure how it works in full either though, the Hokage had taken interest in the properties it had and how it acted up after what happened and so she and Mum had been working to understand it better. They had used samples of charka from me and Mum, it wasn't really like my sister was using chakra yet after all, plus my sisters ever so slight graying as like a few small strands of hair and not like the blotches of mine and mums though mine had surpassed even hers making a split down the center of my hair where the silver side met my natural hair colour.

Apparently one conclusion that they came to led them to believe when I kept blacking out that it was out Kekkei Genkai's fault because it was trying to force chakra or something like that and it had nowhere to go and just ended up in my head causing me to black out until my natural chakra that wasn't created by it pushed it out. It was kinda like a disease more than something useful, not to mention that it just seems to want to kill us. If mine was as bad as this now though imagine how much worse it would have been if I continued to be a shinobi? Apparently Mum's was more low impact because she hardly used chakra and the extreme amount I was using it was screwing my body up in more than a few different ways.

Which means…

That I have to use chakra regularly at a reasonable pace and keep myself from- from wall dying… not that its comfortable for me to know that If I had even wanted to go back to being a Ninja again that it would kill me, still this whole venture really does just keep getting worse.

I want to say is my life in some kind of sick joke or tragedy… but its been too damn fucking good so far to be either of those- I mean Hell I got reincarnated- or what ever the Fuck! This is… how could I possibly hate it…

Seriously… it really is amazing to be given an amazing family like this… from Mum and Akatsuki to my Aunts and Uncles or my grandparents… it was awesome right? I mean like… I don't remember any of my old life anymore but I know enough to know that this isn't my first rodeo at the least.

But… I suppose everything has had a cost so far… I- Dad… he's… I still can't wrap my head around that… I'm sure my grandparents have had a horrible run seeing as they've managed to out live their youngest daughter and now their oldest son.

AN: The story from this point on really is a lot of watching how his spiral downwards pushes whats left of Takezou around.