Chapter 27: Three Confusing Words
She pulled him in the door, slamming it with her foot. She quickly locked the door. She knew it was wrong, but she couldn't stop. He swiftly walked up to her and covered her mouth with his. She moaned as their lips collided. She needed it. She needed him. With his body against hers, his erection pressing against her leg. She heard him let out a moan as she ran her leg up against his hard, jean-clad cock.
"Shit, Mer..." He moaned as he pulled away. "I need you." He said, feeling the insistence from his hard member.
"Crap..." She said with a guilty half frown, half smile.
Derek smiled when she looked over at the kitchen table in the middle of the room. Derek quickly grabbed her and gently placed her on a counter top. She smiled as she looked into his needy eyes. He climbed up onto the table and began pecking kisses on her neck.
"Condom." She said as she reached in his wallet. She knew just where it was in the fold. She pulled it out and handed it to him. He smiled.
"Just do it, Der..." She moaned, feeling her heat rising. Derek quickly undid her tight jeans and tossed them. He looked at her lack of panties.
"I was in a hurry." She giggled as she looked at him.
"That is incredibly fucking hot!" He said as he slowly thrusted two fingers into her. "Shit Mer..."
"I was ready. I've been ready. Since the restaurant..." She moaned. "Oh god...thank you..." She moaned as she felt his fingers teasing her most sensitive areas. Her moist folds tingling at his touch. "Shit...Der...Stop!" She muttered as she felt herself teetering on the edge. The fog rolled in. It was over.
"Der! Oh...God...I...Ohhhh..." She moaned as she felt herself free falling. His mouth quickly found its way down, sucking her hot juices. "Oh...god..." She muttered as she felt another wave coming. Her hands grasped the side of the table as his tongue swirled round and round. Her feet curled. Her body clenched. She felt herself release, once again.
"You taste so good..." He muttered as his mouth went to work.
"Derek. I need you inside of me. Now. I need you... Not your tongue. Now!" She demanded.
"Oh, my four-inch cock?" He said sarcastically.
"Damn-it! I said it was the fantastic four!" She shouted with a smile. "Please..." She moaned.
He nodded, feeling himself preparing. His body knowing what was coming. He unzipped and dropped, quickly rolling the condom on. As quickly as he could, he jumped on the table, hovering over her.
"Oh..." She yelped loudly at the force that had just hit her. His full-length deep inside of her. He slowly pulled in and out, being consumed by the feeling of her wrapped around him.
"Harder! Fuck Derek! Harder. I need it harder. I need you to pound me!" She shouted.
"Fuck, Mer." He shouted as he threw his body as hard as he could. The table began jumping, it's four legs moving off of the floor. Hitting with a thump, thump, thump,
"Derek, harder. Now! Harder. Deeper." She said, unable to get enough of his cock inside of her.
"Oh God!" Derek said loudly, as their bodies continued to yearn. He pounded harder. He looked into her deep green eyes, which quickly turned to fear as the table got shaky. Very shaky. They both gasped as it fell hard onto the floor, all four legs splayed out beneath.
"Shit!" He said in shock as he looked around.
"Don't stop now!" She shouted as her body began to tighten. Derek looked at her like she was crazy but kept thrusting. He felt her fingernails dig into him, forming crescents on his back.
"Oh my god!" He shouted as she tightened around him and she released her warm fluid.
"Oh..." She moaned with a smile as he continued to thrust.
"Oh God...I'm... Shit..." He moaned as he released, feeling her body tensing and releasing around him. Meredith laid back with a moan. Derek pulled out and rolled over, standing up. She laid there on the table, eyes closed.
"I think we broke the table..." He said breathlessly.
"Really?" She said sarcastically as she looked up at him. She put her hand up and he pulled her to her feet. "Now how am I going to explain this?" She asked as she stood there and looked down. Derek didn't answer, so she looked up. "Derek!" She said as she noticed him looking at her ass.
"Sorry... I was a little... Distracted." He said with a shrug.
"Mark. I will blame it on Mark... Or I could go get a new one now." She said as she thought. "I'll be right back..." She said as she swiped her jeans off the floor and walked to her room. She smiled as he watched her walk into the bedroom. She came back several minutes later.
"Okay, let's go." She said as she grabbed the table legs.
"What are we doing?" Derek said as he stood there.
"Buying a new table. Adrien is in surgery, and I don't have a truck. We'll need to put it in your Denali." Meredith said as she walked towards the door.
"But-" He started as he looked at her.
"Look... I just gave you amazing sex. On my kitchen table. A table I and everyone else eats off of. So, the least you can do is drive me to get another one." She said as she opened the door. "Grab the top."
"It's heavy." He moaned as he picked it up.
"Seriously. Quit whining!" She said as she shook her head.
"So, what are we doing with this?" He asked as they walked down the hall.
"Throwing it in the dumpster." She said as she opened the top and threw it in. She turned around and helped him heave it in. She walked to his car and climbed in. Derek had a huge smile on his face as he drove the short distance.
"Why are you so happy?" She asked as she looked over.
"We broke a table. We actually broke a table." Derek said in shock.
"We did." She said as she started to giggle. They both got out of the car and walked in the store.
"Can I help you?" A salesperson asked as he walked up.
"We need a new kitchen table." They said in unison.
"Right this way." He said as he walked them over. "Do you have anything in mind."
"Something strong." They both said quickly.
"Well, this is our best model." He told them as he pointed at a table.
"How much weight will it hold?" Derek asked with raised brows.
"Weight? Definitely enough for a full dinner." The man answered.
"Will it hold two people?" Derek asked. "Moving people?"
"Derek!" Meredith said as she hit him with her ineffectual fists.
"Why would you... Oh! Um... Yeah, this should be strong enough for that..." He said with a grin.
"Good." Derek said with a nod as he looked over at her.
"We'll take it." She said with a smile.
The table was loaded. Derek paid the bill, boasting that he had crushed a table. And off they drove back to the apartment. Meredith breathed a sigh of relief as they pulled into the parking lot, seeing that neither Mark nor Adrien were there. They both carried the heavy table in and sat it in the middle.
"Do you think they'll notice?" Derek asked as he looked at the table.
"Are you kidding? I live with men." She giggled.
"You have a point..." He agreed with an agreeing nod.
"So thank you... But you have to go." She said as she pushed him to the door.
"But- But I wanted to test this out." He said with a grin.
"Get out..." She said as she shoved him softly.
"Fine." He said. "But I want to do this first..." He said as he pulled her over and kissed her. She huffed loudly as he pulled away. "Goodnight, my love."
"You're a dork." She said as she shook her head.
"What?" He asked with a smirk.
"Goodnight, Derek." She said as she shut the door. She leaned against it and sighed.
Meredith took a quick shower and changed for bed. She had to wash off the sex. The dirty, bad sex. Not bad as in bad. Bad as in wrong. She looked at the fluffy comforter and smiled. She couldn't wait to climb in and go to sleep. She was just starting to fall asleep when she felt him lay down and wrap two arms around her. She closed her eyes, not saying anything. Too much physical activity had been done.
She could feel his eyes on her. He was watching her. Even in her sleep, she could sense it. She felt on the spot. She felt self-conscious. She hated when people watched her sleep. Derek did it all the time. She felt nervous and uneasy. She kept her eyes closed. She laid there in her own pool of guilt. She had sex with Derek yesterday. Hot amazing sex. And then she had Adrien holding her all night long. It was a sickening game she was playing. With them. And herself.
"Morning..." She said as she looked up at Adrien. She looked into his eyes. He was sad. Really sad. The normally light blue eyes were now dark and gray. Near tears. He was near crying. It hit her like a ton of bricks.
"Good morning." He said with a broken smile as he kissed her on the head.
"You're sad. What's wrong..." She asked with concern as she looked up at him. He took a deep breath and looked at her. He wanted to break. To spill. And she was worried. Worried about what he might say.
"My wife. Today is the day. The anniversary of her death." Adrien said sadly as he looked at the city out the window.
"Do you want to talk about it?" She said as he placed her hand on his cheek. He stared into her eyes for a few minutes and finally spoke.
"She was amazing." He said with a smile. "I met her in college..."
"In France? Was she French?" Meredith asked him.
"No. She was American. She was going to school there. She spoke French fairly well. Really well, actually. But more book than anything. She learned more the longer she was there. The minute I saw her, I was entranced. She was... Amazing. She was so bright. So happy. Nothing ever brought her down. Ever. And her laugh. She had this laugh that was- Not like yours. Not a soft petite giggle. Not light and airy. She laughed. Loud and hard. She didn't hold it back for anyone. The minute I saw her I knew she was the one. I followed her. I begged. Finally, she caved. We got married. We stayed in France for a while. Then we came here, to Seattle. Every day was perfect with her. Until it wasn't. I found it. I found the lump. It was big. I asked her about it. She knew. She had put it off. By them time we found out it was malignant, it had already gotten worse. She smiled. They told her she was dying, and she smiled. She said let's do this right. It was almost a year. I loved to work. But once I realized she was sick; it didn't matter anymore. I took the year off of work and we did everything she wanted to do. We travelled. We went to the amusement park. We went back to our college campus. Went to the zoo. Then she got so sick. We went home and I took care of her. She died in my arms. Right in my arms. But she loved me, and I know she knew I loved her. And that was the only thing that got me through. At least I was there. With her to the end." He said as a stray tear fell. He looked up at her, seeing the many tearstains on her cheeks.
"Oh..." She said as she began to sob. Not only for the strange woman that meant so much to him, but for Derek. For herself. "I'm so sorry..."
"It's okay. Because I know she's okay..." He said as he wiped her tears. He pulled her close to his chest. "And I'm okay, because I have you... I love you." He said as he kissed her head.
"I love you too." She whispered softly.
"Carter, Sloan. Mather, Shepherd. Pierce, Daniels. Weathers, you're with Jackson. And Eastman, you're with me on an aortic repair." Meredith said as she turned and walked away.
"You look good today, Dr. Grey." Dina said as she walked along with her resident.
"Oh?" Meredith asked as she glanced over.
"I mean not sad. You look happier. Are you feeling better?" Eastman asked happily.
"I am. I really am." Meredith said with an agreeing nod. "Not perfect, but better."
"That's great." Dina agreed as they walked into the room.
"Mr. Campbell... How are you today?" Meredith asked as she walked in.
"I'll be better when this is over." He said with a chuckle.
"I bet you will be." Meredith said with a smirk. "Any questions?"
"Nope." He said with a smile. "I think you've explained everything."
"Good. Dr. Eastman is going to prep you, and I will see you when we're done." Meredith said as she handed over the chart and walked out.
"Where the hell have you been?" Meredith asked as she walked up behind Mark.
"Me? You!" He said as he looked up.
"I have been in the usual places. Home. The hospital." Meredith said with a nod.
"I've been here." He said with a frown. "But I've been thinking..." He started as he looked into her eyes.
"What?" She asked with a smile.
"I think we have an oversupply of men here." He said with a smirk.
"In general?" Meredith giggled. "Never too many."
"No. In your apartment. I was actually thinking that I should find somewhere else to live." He said as he glanced over.
"What? No!" She said quickly. "You can't leave! You- Please." She said with a frown. "Don't. I want you to stay." She said with a look of panic.
"You're sure?" He asked. "I don't want to be in the way."
"Mark, it's your place too. And it wouldn't be the same without you..." She said quickly. "Please don't leave me..."
Mark looked into her eyes. He didn't want to leave. But between Derek and Adrien, he didn't want to make a mess of the equation. She was near tears. He couldn't believe it. She obviously had major abandonment issues. He knew she did, but he didn't think it was that bad. Derek had done a number on her. Not that it was intentional. It definitely wasn't. But her issues were deep rooted, and they weren't leaving anytime soon.
"I won't. But if you ever want me to..." He trailed off as he rubbed her shoulder.
"You'll know it!" She said as she shoved him and walked off. He stood there laughing. His smile soon left his face when he looked down the hallway.
"You look happy." Derek said as he looked up at Adrien who had a huge smile plastered across his face,
"I am. I wasn't. But I am now." Adrien said happily.
"Oh yeah?" Derek answered with confusion.
"Meredith told me she loved me this morning. She actually said it..." Adrien boasted. "I have to go... Have a good day!" He said as he nearly skipped off.
Derek stood there dumbfounded. Sick. That word didn't begin to describe how he felt. He felt like the rug he was standing on had been ripped out from under him. He felt betrayed. He felt angry. He felt like he could snap at any moment. Everything had had believed. The happiness he felt. It was gone for the moment. He felt like he lost it all. He walked numbly down the hallway.
"Hey man. What's wrong?" Mark asked as he looked up. Derek kept walking. "Shepherd?" Derek glanced up. "What's going on?"
"Meredith told de Gaulle she loved him." He said as he kept walking.
"What?" Mark said as he stood there in shock.