Bellamy's P.O.V
I can not believe that I kissed Clarke after what she told me happened with her and spacewalker, she kissed me back but she stopped because she knew it was wrong. I love her so much and only if I listened to my mother then I wouldn't be forced to stop with Clarke because of my girlfriend whom I wish was Clarke.
When we got back to Clarke's apartment everyone was there Murphy, O, Lincoln, and my mom. They all looked at us and Clarke smiled at me and went straight to her room...what am I going to do. Murphy and Lincoln go after her and my mom and O sit on the couch waiting for me to tell them what happened.
"What?" I asked them like I don't know what they want.
"You idiot what happened?" O asks.
"Like you don't know you snooper"
"You saw me?"
"Yes, me and Clarke both did"
"Is that why you kissed her, because you knew I was watching?"
"You kissed her?!" my mom asks.
"Yes I kissed her and no, it was in the heat of the moment, I couldn't stop myself"
"Because you're still in love with her," O says.
"Yeah, I am, I love her so much"
"Bell, you will have her with you soon, it will just take time"
"I know, but she said she had feelings for me, she never said that she loved me back, what if she doesn't?" I ask.
"Trust me Bell she does, very much" Octavia says while hugging me.
Clarke's P.O.V
After I went to my room, Murphy and Lincoln followed me and then closed the door behind them, they just looked at me for a minute and I know they are waiting for me to tell them what happened tonight. "What?" I asked both of them.
"You know what" Murphy says.
"Nothing happened, and if you wanted to know you could've came"
"I don't want you with him at all"
"I'm not going to be with him, so calm down"
"You say that but you don't know that for a fact"
"Murphy calm down, if she ends up with him then so what, you can't stop her or him, they are human they have feelings leave them alone" Lincoln says then he looks at me. "What happened tonight, when you walked in you looked upset"
"He asked me the whole story of what happened between me and Finn," I said to him.
"I don't even know the whole story," Murphy says.
"I know but I told him and I broke down, he held me and then he kissed me"
"He did what"
"Murphy calm down, I didn't do anything to stop it but eventually I pulled away and explained why I did" I tell both of them.
"Why did you?" Lincoln says.
"Because he has a girlfriend and the way it happened was not the way I wanted it to, yeah I wanted to kiss him since I saw him on my doorstep but he's in a relationship and I just got out of one so…"
"You love him"
"Of course she doesn't," Murphy says.
"Clarke, do you love Bellamy?"
"Of course I do, but he doesn't love me"
"Wanna bet"
"No, because I know he doesn't"
"Clarke if you saw the way he looks at you, you would see that he is so deeply in love with you" Lincoln says to me.
I can't believe that Lincoln thinks that Bellamy fucking Blake still in love with me, I don't know why I can't believe it but I just can't. Yeah he might have feelings for me but in love I don't think so...how can that be true, how can he be in love with me, I know he did love me in high school but that was 5 years ago.
The boys leave and I am alone in my room thinking what Lincoln said to me, he can't...can he?
Later...I was sitting on my bed when I heard a knock on my door, I got up and I saw Bellamy standing outside of my bedroom door. "Hey, come on in," I tell him.
"We need to talk...my sister and mother would like me to believe that you're in love with me, it's crazy right?" he says.
"Lincoln would like me to believe that you were in love with me...I believe that you might have feelings but you're not in love with me are you?"
"umm...I'm going to be truthful with you, yes I am in love with you and I know I shouldn't be because I'm in a relationship but when I saw you 2 weeks ago I knew I was still in love with you"
"You love me?"
"Yes isn't that what I just said"
"Why?"
"I don't need a reason to love you," he says.
"Do you think it's crazy that your mom and sister think that I'm in love with you too?" I ask him, scared to know the truth.
"To be honest I don't know, I couldn't think that a perfect girl like you could ever love someone like me...but do you love me?"
"Of course I love you, I have always loved you and you now know why I wasn't ready to be with anyone after what happened between me and Finn...I fell in love with you within a week of knowing you"
"You love me?"
"Yes very much, but your with someone and I might hate her but I know how it feels to be cheated on and it's not a good feeling, I want to be with you but I can't be the other woman"
He nods and we decide to watch a movie and I pick 'The Notebook' and he holds me and eventually we both fall asleep, when I wake up it's 3am and my head is on his chest and he has both arms around me, this feeling that I am feeling right now is something I never want to end. His touch and smell is overwhelming and I love it, I want to be with him and him telling me that he was in love with me last night has always been my dream since we stopped talking but one part that is wrong is that he is with that bitch.
I wish that we had never stopped talking because maybe just maybe I would have been engaged to him instead of Joe and I would have meant to say yes and I would mean mostly everything I say to him, but sadly it didn't happen that way and I have to deal with these feelings that I have for him and having to deal with the fact that the man I love is with someone I hate and that hates me. He said that he loves me but he never said he was going to leave Echo for me and I don't want him to, I want him to leave her for himself and I really hope he does.
"What are you thinking about?" he asks me when he sees me awake.
"Everything" I tell him.
"What are you doing up, it's 3am"
"I just woke up"
"What do you mean about you're thinking of everything?"
"I'm just thinking about like what if we never stopped talking and we told each other how we felt sooner what would have happened, I was also thinking about what I wish we could have been if nothing happened between me and Finn and if we kept talking...because after the hospital visit with your mom that's pretty much when we stopped"
"Why did you leave that day...after my mom talked to you alone"
"I left because of what me and her talked about was too much for me at the time"
"What did you guys talk about"
I don't know what to tell him, I don't know how he's going to react to what she told me. What if he doesn't understand that even back then his mother wanted us to be together.
Flashback
"Bell, I'm tired...I can't fight anymore, I want to come home and be your mom for as long as I can," Aurora says to Bell.
"No mom, please fight you can beat this, they're trying a new drug that has had success on you next week, so please just keep fighting a little longer" he says trying not to break down.
"Okay, I will for you and O...anyway Clarke are you finally dating my son"
"Um...no we're just friends, but someday he will find someone who will be the luckiest gal in the world" I say trying not to blush.
"You're right or maybe he has found her," my mom says.
"What are you talking about mom?" Bellamy asks her.
"Nothing, can I talk to Clarke alone please"
"Umm, sure I guess" he says and leaves.
"Why are you and my son not dating, because the last time I saw you, you never met him but knew you would hate him...now that you met him you two are very nice to each other what happened"
"Well I dated this guy who hurt me and Murphy kicked his ass, and Bellamy found me on a curb crying, and he made up this nickname for me in the process. Anyway he bought me dinner and we talked, he also got out of a relationship and we became friends and we talked a lot about a lot of different things" I explained to her.
"Wow, but I can tell you have feelings for him"
"How did you-"
"It's the way you look at him, the same way I looked at Bellamy's dad before he left"
"Oh, but I'm not ready to be with anyone right now"
"And that's okay, have you guys ever-"
"Oh god no, we kissed a couple times but twice I pulled away and once he did"
"You didn't let me finish, I was going to only ask if you guys ever kissed but now I know"
"Aurora, what should I do...every time I see him I want to be with him but I can't be with him and it kills me but every time I get close I get scared" I asked her.
"You just need some time, keep talking to him and being friends with him and if you're both single when you are ready then try to make something happen with him" she says giving me a smile. "We should get Bell back in here before he thinks we are talking about him"
"Knowing him, he already thinks that, but yes we should"
"Can you go get him"
"Yeah"
End of flashback
"...then I ran into you and you kissed me" I told him.
"My mom knew the whole time, I can't believe it," he says.
"I should have listened to her when she told me to keep talking to you but I got scared, your mom said she knew I had feelings for you by the way I looked at you"
"She told me the same thing just about me"
"Bellamy I do love you but..."
"I'm leaving Echo"
"Please don't say you're doing it for me"
"No, being with someone you don't love is a horrible thing to do, I thought I could learn to love her but the truth is that you can't learn to love someone, and I can't be with someone I don't love...and I love you so I'm hoping you will give me a chance when I end it with her"
"We'll see"
"You're not going to tell me are you?"
"Nope, and I love you too"
He starts to lean down to kiss me but I move my head to the side and he kisses my cheek instead. "Really?" he asks.
"Not until you end it with her...if you do" I say, I say the last part under my breath (kinda).
"I will but you won't kiss me until then, you are a mean person"
"And you love me for it"
"That I do"