Alex goes into her speech about how Jeremiah loved Kara more in 5x16 it starts to get deeper where Alex also reveals how and why she felt Eliza always loved Kara more to. Kara apologizes for initially invalidating Alex's feelings and assures her that she is well within her right to not wanna got to the funeral and that she will support her. They have a heart to heart about how worthless Alex felt as a child once Kara came along because of how her parents began to treat her. Kara decides to stay home from the funeral with Alex

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Stories I'm already working on:

Kara almost dies (3x09)

Kalex from different points of view

Kara has flashbacks

Alex's new suit

Kara saves Alex (5x16)

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"Okay, stop telling me how I feel." It came out as more of a command than a simple ask.

"Okay, then you tell me how you feel." Kara crossed her arms. "Tell me why you're refusing to go to your father's funeral."

"Because I don't feel the need to bury a man who has been dead to me for years." Alex's words may have been harsh from an outside point of view, but the anger from years of abandonment issues made those words come out, and she meant it.

Kata couldn't believe what she was hearing. "Jeremiah was changing his ways. He was helping people, making amends."

"Well, not to me."

"He had to live in secrecy for his safety-"

Alex rolled her eyes. She didn't need this right now.

"-After leaving Cadmus, did you think he was just gonna be able to call us whenever he felt like?"

Kara thought her reasoning made sense, but Alex didn't want to reason, and she was growing increasingly angry. "I am the one who held out hope for him. I am the one that said that he was good and that Cadmus was forcing him to kill people."

"And he helped you escape," Kara conceded for the time being.

"And then he disappeared. Again! Just like that!"

"Alex, he's still your father. You should be at his burial!"

Alex's voice started cracking as her anger and frustration turned into tears. "Look, the man that I loved hasn't been a father to me in years. And... and, yes. Yes, we were so close that we could just... we could finish each other's sentences. But his obsession with keeping you safe changed all of it. Nothing else mattered to him, the least of all me."

"That is not true," Kara argued, not at first thinking it was fair for Alex to be putting the blame on her. It wasn't her fault that Jeremiah died.

"Come on, Kara. He treated you like you were some golden girl, and of course, you have love for him, and I totally respect that. But he treated me like I wasn't even worth his time." The tension between the two sisters was growing, and the atmosphere felt like a bomb was about to go off.

Kelly and J'onn looked at each other. This was getting very personal and neither felt that this was their place. "Um... You two should hash this out, J'onn, and I will leave you two alone." As a psychologist, Kelly knew that sometimes putting everything on the table and going from there was the way to go.

J'onn looked at the two sisters before her left. He could sense a longing in Alex. She wanted to be told that her emotions mattered and were relevant. But he couldn't just tell Kara that, she needed to figure that out herself. With one last glance, their friends left, leaving them to figure this out for themselves.

"Alex, I still don't understand how this is my fault-"

"I never said it was!" Alex yelled, cutting her off from the path that would make it about her again. She knew Kara wasn't doing it intentionally, but it was easy to make it about the alien who came to earth against her will. "This is about how I wasn't loved like I should've been as a teenager because my parents put more of their attention towards you! You were just a kid, and I don't blame you, but I do blame them. I wasn't even worth their time, and they made sure I knew that."

Kara didn't know what to say. It was not her place to deny those things, as she herself didn't at first pay much attention to her adoptive sister. "Alex..."

"So that's why I don't feel the need to go," Alex concluded, tears now streaming down her face. "Because no one ever made me feel proud to be a Danvers."

Kara swallowed hard. "But you made me proud to be a Danvers..."

Alex bowed her head and screwed her eyes shut. "You don't understand how hard it was to be replaced in your parent's eyes..." She looked up at her sister again, the fire behind her eyes igniting again. "And you never even tried! It was always about you, and you liked that! The way I felt didn't matter anymore, to him least of all! So no, Kara, I shouldn't have to go to his funeral. It would only be a reminder that I wasn't a good enough daughter."

Kara swiped at the tear that suddenly made its way down her cheek. "Al, I... I didn't know..."

Alex covered her mouth with her hand and shook her head. In the end, she didn't want to hurt anyone, especially Kara. But she never got to express how she really felt until now, and it felt good.

"Alex, I won't make you go."

Alex's eyes snapped up. "You... won't?"

Kara sighed, then walked toward Alex, grabbed her by the shoulders, and firmly kissed her forehead. Alex was shaking under her hands but she didn't pull away, which was a good sign. "I get it now. I'm sorry it took so long for me to understand. You have every right to say no to going, and I shouldn't have pushed you. I'm sorry."

Alex almost didn't believe her at first. That is, until Kara tugged her into a tight embrace and wouldn't let go. Alex slowly raised her arms and hugged her back, lightly a first, until the tears she was holding back came out and she couldn't help but hold onto the woman in front of her. "I'm sorry, Kara, I didn't want to hurt you it's just... Since you came to earth I felt like an outcast in my own house..."

Kara nuzzled her face into Alex's neck. "I never knew that. I was too busy focusing on me not belonging that I never noticed you felt the same. I guess we were more alike than we thought..."

A soft laugh escaped Alex's lips. "Yeah, I guess we were..."

"I'm going to make it up to you. You deserved to have your feelings validated a long time ago, but they weren't." Kara let her go and gently took her face in her hands. "I'm not going to make that mistake anymore. I'm gonna stay with you today."

"Kara, no, you should go and support mom, I'll be fi-"

"Al." Kara bumped their foreheads together for a brief moment. "I'm going to support you. We'll talk to Eliza later, but right now, this is about you. If you don't want to go, I'll stay home too."

Alex nodded slowly, still not sure about it. Despite her resistance to coming to the funeral, she really didn't want her mother to be alone.

"She won't be alone," Kara reminded as if she read her mind, "she'll have our friends, and when it's over, we'll bead able to tell her how you felt and are feeling, and she'll understand. I'll be by your side the whole time if you'd let me."

Alex finally sighed and nodded more firmly. "Okay, I'll let Kelly and J'onn know that you'll be staying here with me." Before she could text them, Kara took her hand and squeezed it. Alex tugged her closer and pressed a light kiss to her forehead. "Thanks for giving a chance..."

Kara smiled and rested her head on Alex's shoulder. "Always."