I pretty much wrote a 11,000+ word flller chapter I think but I wanted to share some of the cousin experiences and give a little more life to the family that Ana always talks about. I hope you like it.
I got some really sweet PM's asking where I disappeared too. I'm here, just dealing with my layoffs at my job. My job is in jeopardy, I'm fortuntate enough to be able to work from home but things are really tough for everyone I know. I can't even hold it against my boss. Sigh, let's see what happens.
Majoris Angus: I wanted to thank you for review and concern for Ana's character. I promise her connection to wanting to be a baby cuddler has nothing to do with her assault and possible pregnancy from that. She's never been pregnant. Not at all. Her connection and wanting to volunteer at the NICU stems from volunteering with Nita while she was in San Francisco, there's another reason too which will be explained in future chapters.
I hope you all are well and staying safe. I am trying to update as fast as I can. Thank you for sitcking with me.
Till then, Day 2 and a little bit of day 3 of the SF weekend.
Chapter 48 – Family is Family, Part II
Saturday, February 29th, 2020
APOV
I spent the early part of the morning with Mama and Nani. I've rarely ever got to spend time with just the two of them in the last 4 years. Uncle Rish and Alia Khala are still in India so the house is completely empty and quiet except the visiting skeleton staff that's cleaning up as mama has the kitchen in a buzz preparing for tomorrow's brunch.
Despite all the money, Nana and Nani always wanted a sense of normalcy inside the house. The staff is only visiting, we have a cook who will come in twice a week to help out but usually it's Nani, Nita or Alia Khala who will cook every now and then. Cooking is mostly a family affair and everyone pitches in. Nita does the groceries herself every week. It's such a stark contrast from the life I live with Christian and I realize I miss the normalcy of all this. Of living in my apartment, cooking for Kate and I. Our weekend breakfast hangouts... everything has changed so fast it's made my head spin.
"I can't believe you left Christian alone." Mama laughs
I roll my eyes. "He'll be fine Mama, he's a big boy. Plus he's working so he's in his happy place. Besides I wanted to spend time with my two favorite women."
"Don't let Rania hear that." Nani pipes up from the table as she peels an orange.
"I might just say it in front of her to watch her lose it." I giggle.
"So tell me Aana, what's next for you and Christian?" Nani inquires and I know what she's getting at.
"Well, we're still getting to know each other and..."
"How long are you going to make the poor boy wait?" Nani interrupts and I hear Nita giggle behind me.
"Are you two going to gang up on me now? I mean, you've known his French speaking ass a total of five minutes and you've turned on me." I try to hide my smile but I fail as they cackle.
"Aana, he loves you. I mean he's got it bad and he wants to marry you. Why wait?" Nita asks softly.
"Why not wait? I mean... I just met him and yes I love him and I know he's the one but... listen I just started therapy again and I want to get a little better and sort out some stuff you know." I sigh.
"What happened, Aanu?" Nita walks around to face me and tucks a strand of hair behind my ear.
I wish I could tell you Mama. I'm just so afraid. I love you so much but I am afraid.
I swallow trying to keep my tears from falling.
"It's just that... it's too many big life changes happening too fast... I haven't really had a chance to breathe you know." I give her a small smile. "I want to enjoy being just a girlfriend before being a wife... I just need a little bit of time."
"If you take too long, I'll swipe him." Nani laughs
"Yeah and then you two French speaking lovebirds can ride off into the sunset." I roll my eyes. This crazy, beautiful woman.
...
This trip is making me realize how long it's been since I've truly been away. The little rituals and traditions I had gotten accustomed to haven't been revisited in a really long time. Case in point, Benny taking me to Rania's apartment. Before I left for college, I'd have driving lessons with Benny about 2 or 3 days a week. We talk about anything and everything. He gave me pepper spray, mace and taser as a going present before I left college. I really wish I had kept the taser with me that night.
Christian was not happy when I insisted that I wanted Benny to drive me to Rania's. I told him Sawyer could drop me off at Nani's but that Benny would bring me to Rania's in the afternoon so I could get some time for girl talk with her before the dinner.
"Ana, I don't like it."
"Christian, Benny is a retired Navy Seal along with the rest of Nani and Nita's security. I mean... I think I'll be fine with him for a 20 minute drive to Rania's... plus I haven't chilled out with him in a really long time. It'll give us time to talk. Please?" I bat my eyelashes at him and pout against his lips. His jaw is tense but I start to see the formation of just a little smile. I've got him. YES! Victory is MINE.
"You don't play fair, Miss Steele." He says with a growl and squeezes my ass.
"Christian, Benny has known me for years. Nani trusts him and I will be safe with him." I caress his cheek and give him a small kiss. "I've let fear run my life for the past four years... I'm trying to slowly shed all of that because now I have you... please let me make that progress and learn to trust people again?"
"Ana..." He breathes my name and grabs the nape of my neck and angles my face to look up to him. His steel grey eyes boring into mine, searching for something... and then suddenly his lips crash into mine and he kisses me aggressively. I hear a low groan from his throat as I try my best not to lose myself in the kiss but it's not use. He takes everything from me. These are his 'I need you and you're mine' kisses. They are urgent, hard and I love getting lost them.
I'm barely coherent when I realize he's released me. I open my eyes to look at him and remind myself to breathe.
"You're mine Anastasia. Remember that." He says in that low Dom baritone voice laced with slight aggression as his thumb plays with my bottom lip.
"Yours, forever." I breathe and he gives me that 1000 mega watt smile that sends me into another orbit.
I say my goodbyes to Nani and Mama and meet Benny outside the house. He's as tall as the empire state building. He prefers the words Black, Bold and Beautiful though, or Lousiana's Idris Elba. The man has got the ego the size of China and Russia combined.
"Hey Benz." I giggle as I get in.
"You know, you're the only one I let get away with this absurd nicknames." He growls as we drive out.
"Oh come on, Benny ... did you really expect me to call you Mr. Benoit when I first met you. I mean, I wanted to like you, not be scared of you."
"Honestly, at this point, I'd rather you fear me." I laugh. I love that he's a grump but I know how to cut through all that.
"So tell me, what do you think of my man?" He looks at me through the rearview mirror and I wiggle my eyebrows.
"The jury's still out on him." He says a little gruffly.
"You don't like him?" No, Benny no, don't hate on Christian.
He shrugs. "He's a white boy with a lot of money. I know he made it all himself... but your grandmother trusts him and I trust her decisions. Let's say, I'm cautiously optimistic. Ray was a fellow serviceman and a dear friend and I see you as a daughter. I guess I'm never gonna easily accept any man that comes into your life. I gotta let him sweat it out a bit." He smirks.
"I understand that but if there's something that seems off, you can tell me."
"Haven't found anything off yet which is why the jury is still out."
"He's a good guy Benny, I promise. He loves me and wants to protect me. Heck even getting him to let me ride with you right now was a huge feat."
"Well, just so you know, his boy Sawyer is tailing us so I guess I'll give him points for that."
"WHAT?" That freaking control freak.
I look back, thanking god for tinted windows and I see that freaking black Audi 4 cars behind us. I take a deep breath and try to center myself. I giggle erupts out of me and both Benny and I start to laugh.
"Want me to lose him?" Benny tries to come down from our laughing fit.
"Can we, please? It's been a while since we did something fun."
"Say no more Miss Steele."
I've missed this and Christian is going to kill me... but I'll live.
...
"Please tell me that is not what you are wearing to the dinner tonight?" Rania asks me as I help her prepare dinner. I'm in a jeans and white tee, though I don't think it would be such a bad idea if I did stay in this.
"No Mother, I brought a change of clothes and some makeup."
"Okay good, I mean this dinner is not black tie affair but I'd like for us to look civilized at least."
"Yes, Mother."
"So tell me, what's up? What's new? I want to know exciting things."
"Well, I got hit on by a girl at the Secret Garden." I laugh.
"OH DO TELL!"
"This stays between us of course."
She snorts. "You know me. I Attorney-Client privilege everything."
I giggle. "Just checking... okay so yeah, I was in line to go to the bathroom and this kylie jenner clone thought that I was in a relationship with my friend Val..."
"I saw her picture on the Nooz, that black girl who looks like a supermodel?"
"YEAH! Her, so I told this chick no, she's just a friend. But I didn't really trust this chick so Sapphire from London made an appearance, we talked for like a minute and she wanted to take me out to dinner but I shut her down."
"GIRL... can we please go party sometime. Ruby from France wants a night on the town."
"I miss Ruby... though if we go out together, Topaz might have a meltdown." I laugh.
Rania groans. "Kiran and Topaz can suck my left tit... I want to go out and party not pick her face up from the floor cause she couldn't handle her fucking liquor."
"Thank God Aria is napping right now." I laugh.
"At this point Ruby from France only makes appearances in my bedroom." Rania cackles.
"Can you PLEASE not talk about your sex life?" I roll my eyes.
"No listen, I have to tell you this. I mean... you're young and just starting out in your sexual journey but sometimes you can hit a plateau and Raees and I were looking for something more... so we got introduced to this sex therapist lady and holy hell did she help us put some spice back in the curry." Rania wiggles her eyebrows and I lose it.
"SPICE IN THE CURRY? ARE YOU SHITTING ME?" Where the fuck does she come up with this stuff. I am dead.
"I never joke about spice in the curry" She looks at me seriously and the bursts out laughing. "Seriously though, she told us to try our hand at creative role playing and let's just say... Ruby from France is a frequent flyer now. "
I bring my hands to my face trying to hide my first and second hand embarrassment. This is like if Nita tried to talk to me about her sex life with Ray. JUST NO.
"So tell me... how are things with Mr. One Hunnid."
"They're really good." I say trying not to giggle but fuck, I can't stop smiling.
"OH SHIT, your face is red is like a red hot chili pepper. DEFINITELY A LOT OF SPICE IN YOUR CURRY."
"RANIA." God this woman will kill me one day.
"WHAT? This is good. Girl, marry that boy. Do not share that curry recipe with ANYONE."
"I will, soon. This is my first relationship Raniapa, I just want to take it a little slow. Too many life changes one after the other... just a little breather would be nice."
"I know baby, I know. I'm only joking. In the end it should be your decision and no pressure okay. You know me, I have to make a joke about everything."
"I know, mama."
We fall into a rhythm again and I start to tell her about Jose and Val and how she needs to visit Seattle now and meet them and spend time with us. She hates Seattle but has agreed to come to see me and brave the cold and rain.
"So tell me, what else is on your mind? You mentioned you wanted to talk about some stuff when you came to visit."
Fuck me. This is going to be hard.
"I need you to promise me you will not talk to anyone else in the family about this." I look at her. Don't cry Ana. Don't cry.
She whips her face to me and fuck, there's that concerned look. "What happened baby? Are you okay, is it about Christian?"
"No, nothing about him, he's wonderful. I promise. It's about me but I'm fine I promise it's just something that I've been meaning to tell you for a while but... with everything and my being in Portland I just never found the right time."
Her face tenses but she urges me to continue with a slight nod.
I take a deep breath. You can do this Ana. "It's about Vishaal." I say and I feel my voice waver.
"Okay..." she looks at me with expectant eyes.
I can't do this. I can't.
"He...He's..." I feel my throat close up and the room start to spin... I can't do this. I take a deep breath. "He's been wanting the nature of our relationship to change... he wants to marry me." I choke on the words and tears start to fall uncontrollably.
"WHAT. THE. FUCK?" She looks at me with murder in her eyes. "When did this happen?"
"B-before I went to P-portland..." I can barely speak.
"Is he out of his fucking mind? You're his sister. I mean... I know not by blood but what the fuck. You are his little sister... what the fuck was he thinking saying that shit to you?"
"I don't know... it's been really difficult these past 4 years... and..."
"Is that why you don't hang out with him anymore?"
"Yeah. I'm not comfortable around him and he's made it perfectly clear he doesn't like Christian."
"He needs to be put in his place."
"No it's fine. I just..." I take a deep breath. This is not the whole story. Fuck.
"Have you told Nita and Nani?" She asks. I can't tell her that Nani knows because she'll lose it again and I know Rania she is the kind of person who wants to get to the bottom of shit and this will blow up the family.
"No. Nita loves him like a son. I don't want to stir any shit Rania. I just... I needed to tell someone. I can't talk to Kiran about this. I've really tried to maintain a relationship with her these past four years but I know she tells Vishaal every fucking thing, so I've had to be very careful with what I tell her about myself even. I've barely had conversations about Christian with her because I can't trust where that information will go."
She takes a deep breath. "This is fucked up and such a shit thing for him to do. I'm going to murder his ass."
Imagine if I had told you he brutally raped me. "No Apa, please don't say anything. This stays between you and me."Tears continue to fall from my eyes.
"Okay, I won't but listen to me baby, this is not on you. You keep on living your life. Don't worry about what he thinks or what he wants. You have always treated with him respect and love that one has for a brother but you don't owe him anything beyond that but after this, he doesn't deserve that even. This is his problem. Not yours."
"I know and I don't but it's hard to avoid him and the way he looks at me... I'm really uncomfortable when he's around. The shit he says... these past four years have been tough. I've been avoiding him and..."
"Does Christian know?"
"He has an idea that things are tense between us but I've chalked it up to that we're just different people but he's not blind. He doesn't like Vishaal either."
"Yeah don't tell him, he's an intense guy and we don't want Mr. One Hunnid behind bars. Conjugal visits will kill the spice in the curry." She giggles making me laugh.
"Can you help run interference during the brunch just in case? When he came to Seattle with Kiran the night Nana passed away... it was awkward as fuck."
She nods. "Don't worry, I got you baby. I'll stick to him like glue."
"I hope this won't affect your personal and working relationship too much. I know he's CEO and everything but... I've been going to therapy and I've been avoiding a lot of this shit and if I'm going to marry Christian, I need to really rid myself of this shit and slowly start facing all my demons."
"I get it baby, you do you and as far as my working and personal relationship are concerned, I barely hang out with him outside of work even though we live in the same apartment building and work is work. I can separate that shit. My focus is AHAK and I work for Abdul Karim's vision of AHAK not him."
CPOV
Rania and Raees live about a 5 minute drive away from the hotel in one AHAK's new developments that overlook Bay Bridge. Apparently Vishaal lives in that building too. Hopefully I don't run into the fucker because I will knock him out.
Once I reach their floor, I'm greeted by Raees who's waiting in the foyer.
"Come on in brother. Welcome to our home." He says with a big smile. We shake and I give him the present I brought for Aria, more like Ana bought it and put my name on it and told me to bring it with me along bottle of wine I had Sawyer pick up.
As we walk through the apartment and get to the kitchen, Aria clocks me and runs over to me.
"Hi Chwischin."
"Hi Aria" I give her a smile. I feel like a mountain towering over her.
She immediately runs off yelling... "AANA KHALAAAA CHWISCHIN IS HEREEEEE." Her announcement and enthusiasm makes me laugh.
"Hey Christian, happy you made it." Rania smiles and comes in for a hug.
"Thanks for inviting me. Your home is beautiful and this view certainly helps."
"Thank you, yeah the view is definitely the highlight."
"Babe, he brought the good stuff." Raees laughs as he takes out the wine and goes to open it.
"I expect nothing less from Mr. One Hunnid." She winks at me and goes back to prepping the food.
A few minutes later Ana joins us carrying Aria. She's looks fucking perfect as always..., her hair, her lips... Focus, Grey, focus.
"Hi Chwischin." She says giggling. "Aria here was freaking out and literally pulling my dress to get me out here to see you."
I smirk. "She's a smart kid."
Aria wiggles out of her embrace the minute Raees tells her I got her a present. She rips it open and looks at it with wonder.
"BOOKS!" she says excitedly.
"Aria, say thank you Christian." Rania tells her.
Aria looks towards me and slowly walks over and gives me a big smile. "Thank you, Chwischin."
"You're welcome, Aria." I give her a smile and she walks away asking her dad to start reading to her.
"She's gonna crush on you so hard." Ana giggles and tiptoes to give me a kiss on the cheek.
"I guess you better watch out, you've got competition, Miss Steele." I lean in and give her a small kiss. "You look beautiful as always." I whisper against her lips and she giggles with her rosy cheeks.
We sit down to eat and Rania does a run through of the menu.
"Okay so, I decided now to go too crazy on the spiciness. The last thing I need a billionaire white boy expiring on my dining table but let me tell you Grey... I won't always be this nice. You gotta work up your spice tolerance for the future." She sasses.
"Thanks Rania, I'll definitely get to work on my training." I laugh.
"Alright, so this rice dish is chicken biryani... I tried to keep it mild but it may still be a little spicy for you. It's basically rice mixed with a chicken curry and voila we have biryani. We have the same kind of naan from last night along with these beef kebabs. This bowl over here is chicken qorma, it's also a chicken curry but made differently and the last thing you see in this small bowl here is fried okra and ground beef, this is Aana's favorite and it's usually eaten with naan... and well, yeah that about sums it up... oh wait, this here is raita, it's basically yoghurt with some black pepper with cucumbers, tomatoes and onions mixed in. You can eat this with biryani and it can soften the spice level a bit if need be... uh yeah, so let's dig in." Rania claps her hands in delight while Raees laughs.
Ana laughs. "I hope we're not overwhelming you."
"Not at all. I'm ready to eat." God, I hope it's not too spicy and I hope I don't die.
...
"...no no, let me tell you what this witch did..." Rania all but screams.
"RANIAPA... STOP." Ana laughs out loud.
"Shut up... she calls up Raees from my phone and word for word says the following...' Raees, you need to get your ass over her and show Rania a good time cause she wound up tighter than a monk in Tibet."
"Look at me Christian... do you think I could've said something like that?" She bats her baby blue eyes at me.
"Actually, I'm positive you said that. I know how your mind works." I chuckle and we all laugh.
They continue to tell me about Ana and embarrass her thoroughly all while forgetting that they aren't supposed to curse given how Aria parrots out loud every curse word they say, making us laugh even more.
In the middle of our conversation, Raees phone rings.
"Ah, fuck."
"FUCK" Aria yells and starts to laugh while Ana facepalms.
He smirks and gets up to take the call.
"You know, you guys are going to get calls about her potty mouth everyday once you start sending her to school."
"I know... I can't wait. My little foul-mouthed ringleader is gonna blow their ears to hell." Rania wiggles her eyebrows and takes another sip of her wine.
Raees returns from his phone call. "Guys, I'm really sorry but I have to head back to the hospital. One of my patients is having complications... hopefully it's something that can be managed without surgery otherwise I'll see you crazy kids at the brunch tomorrow." He says his goodbyes and runs out the door.
I help Rania pick up the dishes while Ana takes Aria to give her a bath and then put her to bed. Something that she loves doing but rarely gets to do.
"By the way, I know we can seem like a lot but we're harmless. We're just really excited that Aana found someone." Rania smiles warmly at me.
"I know, to be honest I'm enjoying hearing all this about her. In Seattle it's mostly everyone trying to embarrass me, so this payback is nice."
"Oh buddy, then wait till the brunch tomorrow. She's gonna get buried. We've all been waiting for this day for YEARS." Rania cackles and I chuckle.
"Thank you for hosting us. The food was incredible."
"Anytime, you guys always have a home here so come out and hangout any time. Just give me a heads up so I can make sure I can cook. I don't get to do it often so it's nice when Aana comes by." She smiles.
Everyone in her family so far is so hospitable. It reminds me of Grace. She always welcomes people with open arms and knows how to make them feel at home. I see where Ana gets it from.
Once the table is cleared we head over the couches.
"How was Ana like as a child?"
"Oh god... she was incredible. Fucking scary though. I mean, a real fire. She was like the energizer bunny, always on and quick to shut you down, you could never get in a word in edgewise. We called her our Pillsbury doughboy cause she was fucking cute." She laughs and then her face falls. "Then after the accident... we didn't hear her voice for almost two and a half years... she barely smiled... it was really quiet for all of us... if she was a fire before... she's a glow now; soft, quiet and mesmerizing I'd say. There are still remnants of the old Ana in there somewhere and they shine through every now and then but otherwise she completely changed."
I feel the heaviness of emotion in my chest.
"Were you around when the accident happened?
She shakes her head. "I was in Pakistan attending a cousin's wedding and visiting extended family for the holidays. We weren't told for 2 weeks and then even then they kept the extent of her injuries on the DL. Once we found out, we got our tickets changed and got to Montesano and... " She takes a deep breath. "Seeing her like that it really affected us all. It was a real blow to the family. I'd never seen fear in Abdul Karim's eyes till then, fuck... seeing her like that made Benny cry and he's a fucking Navy Seal. I mean... I'm guessing she doesn't talk much about it?"
"She hasn't told me details outside the fact that she was paralyzed or that she couldn't talk. She just says her recovery was difficult as blanket statement, she hasn't really shared any details."
"Yeah... it wasn't... it was difficult to watch so I can't even imagine what she was going through every second of every day. It hit me even more after I gave birth to Aria... imagining my child ever going through something like this... it put it all in perspective for me. It's odd but Aana is the realest person amongst us cousins, which is why I always dump Aria on her not that she complains because she love it too. They're two peas in a pod and I want Aria to learn as much as she can from her." She giggles. "After Nani and Nita, it's Aana who I blindly trust my kid with. I've listed her as Aria's guardian should anything happen to Raees and myself."
Holy shit.
"I didn't realize you felt that way about her."
She shrugs. "As soon as I found out I was having a girl, I knew what I was going to name her. Raees and I talked about it. I made all the necessary arrangements, trust fund, paperwork... everything. I know Aana would teach my daughter the right values and she'd honor our traditions so it was a no brainer."
I swallow and nod my head. The significance of what she's telling me is not lost of me.
"That's... does Ana know? I mean, I didn't realize you were that close."
"She does. It was a really emotional and heavy conversation when we first had it but it brought us closer. Growing up she was always the honorary Kapadia sibling. We were all friends but in terms of being close, that didn't happen until after she left for college. She was always with Kiran and Vishaal but now she's grown out of their shadow." She gives me a small smile and I return her the same.
I need to change track but there's so much more that I want to know and understand.
"She told me Abdul Karim was distant with her."
"Yeah, he became increasingly withdrawn from her after the accident. He was... it was hard to read him. Only Aisha could tell what was going on his head. I've called him out on his shit about it but I could never get a straight answer out of him."
It doesn't make sense. How could he not want to be by her side in her time of need?
"She's devoted to you guys, she talks about you all the time."
"We feel the same way about her but I sense her hesitation sometimes, she can be taciturn at time. A lot of things changed after her accident. When she left for college, I felt like we lost her completely that first year. I chalked it up to her living her life and the quintessential college experience but there's something that's been off... I guess after the accident that light in her eyes, it was never the same but ever since Aria and now that she's been with you... I feel like she's coming back. So thank you for that." She smiles at me.
I give her a small smile. Fuck, this is all heavy. "I have to thank you for giving her the glowing recommendation that helped her land a job at GEH."
"Oh yeah... you're welcome. I'm the reason why you guys got together... feel free to buy me an expensive car or vacation, I'll let you choose. You have my number, just text me when it's done." She sasses and I laugh. "I told your HR people the truth... that they'd be crazy to not hire her. She hasn't told me much about how things are at GEH but I'm guessing she's doing okay if you all haven't fired her yet."
I snort. "Rania, she's doing more than okay. She has the whole fucking building wrapped around her finger thanks to her chocolate chip cookies and not to mention she single handedly saved us almost $90 Mililon in less than 6 months and I didn't even find this out till my COO told me after I met Ana at the wedding. I didn't know her before at all."
"That's my girl. Just know that I taught her all she knows." She throws her hair over her shoulder and laughs. "No... but she has killer instincts, that shit can't be taught, you just have it. I'm not going to lie, we'd love her to be with AHAK again but I know she's meant for bigger things. As much as she loves the comfort of a simple life and routine but thrives in discomfort it's not something she actively seeks but I swear... we had this one deal in New York and we were losing a shit ton of money and she fucking stepped up and got us out of it. She was fucking scared but she did it anyway."
"Rothstein?" I ask.
Her eyes go wide. "She told you about it?"
"Yeah a little. His name came up on the GEH radar and she told me about him bribing the commissioner and to be weary of him."
She swallows. "Yeah... we've had security on her ever since that happened. She doesn't know it but we've had it as a precaution. Rothstein is a fucking snake and I don't trust him as I can throw him. While she was in SF it was fine because she was with family but when she went to WSU we resumed it... but then..." She looks at me and gives me a knowing smile..."We randomly caught a certain gentleman watching over our girl right after the wedding when she was in SF." She wiggles her eyebrows at me and I try to suppress a smile.
"Yeah, it was one of the first things I did when we got together. I didn't know if you guys had security on her or not, I didn't want to take any chances."
"Yeah, Benny clocked him from a mile away and almost ended him but then when the background check came back we were pleasantly surprised. I think Sawyer was his name?"
I laugh. "Yeah, Luke Sawyer. He's Ana's main CPO."
"Yeah, well... the gesture didn't go unnoticed. I knew you were in it for the long haul when I saw that. Then you sent the jet for her, not that she told us anything... I swear she always leaves out the good stuff... anyway, I was like... DAYUM. So then we had Benny call off the covert we had on her. I guess Mr. One Hunnid doesn't half ass anything." She laughs.
"Yeah well, I take care of what's mine." I smirk.
"As you should... but seriously thank you. In addition to being happy, we trust that she's safe with you. That's all we ever want for her." She smiles genuinely at me and I give her a nod.
They really are good people.
"You mind if I ask who's in charge of your security."
"Nani, Nita and Aana's security is private and separate from AHAK. Since the company went through quite a few security changes over the years, Benny is in charge of personal security where as the rest of us are provided security through AHAK. Nani has issues with trusting new people and Benny has been around since... well since we met Aana actually. Benny's brother served in the military with Ray's unit and Ray suggested Benny for the job, which he got. It took Nani a long time to warm up to him but yeah... now he's not going anywhere. Vishaal usually takes care of security as of late. Now we're working with some ex-Mossad people." She shrugs.
"Thanks for telling me, when I asked Ana if she had security and she said she didn't need it, I thought it was weird but what you're telling me now makes sense."
"Yeah we didn't want to worry her. She's been through enough shit in life."
We talk a little more then we hear Ana and Aria walk back to us.
"Mama, we're all bathed and in our jammies, ready for bed." Ana laughs.
Aria climbs onto Rania and gives her hugs and kisses. Once she's done she comes up to me and holds her hands up. Oh fuck. I look up at Ana in a slight panic. She gives a smile and nods. I swallow and gently pick her up. She barely weighs anything. Her hands are tiny and soft and she smells like lavender. Aria gives me a hug. She's so tiny and... I don't feel any sense of panic. I feel... safe.
"Goodnight Chwischin." She says in a small voice and smiles at me, then wriggles out of my embrace and walks to Ana asking her to pick her up.
"Okay everyone, Shabakhair." Ana waves at us.
"Shabakhair." Aria says and they walk back.
"My kid likes you which means... she's definitely bringing a white boy home. I gotta discuss this with Raees and mentally prepare him." We both laugh.
"What did they say just now?" I ask.
"Shabakhair means goodnight or may there be peace throughout night, in Farsi and Urdu." She smiles at me.
A little while we hear Ana singing on the baby monitor. Rania takes a quick call and I walk to Aria's room and see Ana holding her as she walks around swaying and singing to her.
We all wrangle with religion
We all talk, but we don't listen
We're all starving for attention then we'll run
We're all paper, we're all scissors
We're all fightin' with our mirrors
Scared we'll never find somebody to love
We're all good, but we ain't angels
We all sin, but we ain't devils
We're all pots and we're all kettles
But we can't see it in ourselves
We're all livin' 'til we're dying
We ain't cool, but man, we're trying
Thinking we'll be fixed by someone else
Just tryin' to hold it all together
We all wish our best was better
Just hopin' that forever's really real
We'll miss a dime to grab a nickel
Overcomplicate the simple
We're all little kids just looking for love
Yeah, don't we all just want somebody to love?
Once she's done, I see her gently lay Aria down in bed, tucking her in and kissing her forehead. She walks out and is surprised to see me.
"Hey, everything okay?" she whispers.
"Everything's perfect. I just missed you." I kiss her.
"Well I'm here now. Let's get out of here before the gremlin wakes up." She giggles and we walk back to the living area.
"Guys, really though, can you get married and please have a baby." Rania says in all seriousness.
"Rania, for fucks sake." Ana chides.
"What? Come on... I'm serious. I'm bored and Rania needs a playmate." Rania groans and I try to suppress a laugh.
"You want us to get married and have a child to cure you boredom?"
"Listen to me, this is every married couple's MO. It's a disease and we want everyone to have it."
"Whenever we do get married and have kids, they will be in Seattle... which is far from San Francisco. Not exactly conducive to play dates."
Rania takes a sip of her wine and deadpans. "I don't see the problem here, we have a jet and you have a jet?"
Ana facepalms herself and I laugh. "You have lost your damn mind, Rania."
"Mr. One Hunnid, please shut her up and knock her up."
"Yes ma'am. Working on it." I salute Rania and Ana gives me the death glare but falls into a fit of giggles when I kiss her cheek.
...
"Baby?" I call her, kissing her shoulder.
"Hmm?"
"How was your talk with Rania?"
I feel her tense.
"Look at me baby."
She slowly turns around but doesn't look me in the eye. "I... it didn't go well. I got scared at the last minute. I saw her face and the concern on it... I just... " She goes silent and takes deep breaths.
"You know she loves you and trusts you right?"
"I know." Her voice breaks. "It's just that... Jose and I talked about this, he understands my reticence to telling the family... it's not just the pain of reliving everything while telling her but also, to see her heart break and the guilt she'll live with once I do. That will be even more heartbreaking for me... she's a protector and I know how she'll react."
I pull her in for a hug and hold her tight, after a while she pulls away wiping her tears.
"I will tell her, I promise, I just need to ease her into it... or myself into it. So far I told her that Vishaal wants the nature of our relationship to change and that he wants to marry me, which is true. He's said that shit to me every now and then since..."
Must. Remain. Calm. "What did Rania say to that?"
"She was disgusted and pissed that he did that. It made sense to her why I recoiled from him and don't hang out with him and now Kiran so much anymore."
I lean in to kiss her. "I like Rania and Raees. They really love you."
"Yeah, they're silly but such great people. No hidden agendas and always real. I've not hung out with them like this... at all actually. I'm glad that it was with you and you could meet them. Thank you for being here with me." She says softly.
"No place I'd rather be baby." I stroke her cheek.
"It was really sweet how you picked up Aria today. You're a natural."
"It was... well, I was apprehensive but I didn't feel the sense of panic I thought I would."
She runs her hand through my hair and smiles. "Babies are harmless, I know you don't like to be touched and it will take time but I think little moments like tonight can help you get to a place where you feel safe again."
I pull her hand to put it over my heart. She tries t pull away. "Ana, I want you to touch me. I know you try your best not to but I want you and need your touch."
"I don't want to hurt you." She says with tears falling from her eyes.
"You could never hurt me. I want you to touch me, Ana. I want you to love me." I say with a strained voice.
She tentatively puts her other hand on chest and leans in to kiss me. I wait for the burning feeling to come up, the bile to rise up and the smell of smoke but it doesn't. I feel my chest constrict a little but I breathe through it, focusing on the love she's giving me. We're now sitting up and she straddles me and her hands travel to the back of my neck, one hand pulling on my hair while the other gently travels down my back. Exploring, caressing and healing me with her soft hands and gentle strokes on my skin. We get lost in each other and she pulls away and looks into my eyes and wipes the tears from them. I didn't even feel the dampness on my cheeks.
"I love you, I will always love you. I'm yours." She breathes with a wavering voice with tears in her eyes. I feel her body start to tremble and her tighten her hold on me as she comes.
"Mine."
Sunday, March 1st, 2020
CPOV
I feel Ana stir and hear her whisper. I pull her tighter and nuzzle her neck, letting my hand roam her body. Why is she up so early?
"Hi mama... no, I was a awake... just thinking and being lazy..." she speaks softly and giggles throughout. "Hmm... yeah sure.. okay... need me to bring anything...oh he's picking her up? Well I'm nearby so I'll ride with them... are you sure you don't need anything... okay mama... I see you in a bit." She hangs up and I see her start to text someone. I open my eye and try to focus on her screen.
AS: Morning Benz! Can you pick me up from the Fairmont after picking up Rania? Pretty please?
AFBenny: Do I have to?
AS: Do you want brownies?
AFBenny: I'll be there in an hour. Do not be late. And tell pretty boy not to tail us.
AS: Pretty boy takes orders from my man... not much I can do there.
"Texting other men while you're in bed with me? Miss Steele, I'm a very jealous man." I growl.
She giggles. "Don't worry you're my only man... all these other boys are a means to an end."
"I still don't like the sound of that." I bite her neck.
"Stop, you savage. I need to get ready. Benny is picking up Rania and I'm hitching a ride with them to the house."
"Do you have to go?" I realize I sound like a whiny child.
"I want to help out with setting everything up. I don't want Mama and Nani doing it by themselves so Rania and I are going to help. Plus I have to make brownies for everyone."
"Stay in bed with me." I grumble.
"Learn to share Mr. Grey. I'll be back in bed with you tonight... besides if you're a good boy, maybe I'll let you fool around with me in the entertainment room in the basement." I interrupt her giggling by slipping to fingers into her and making her moan.
"I'll take what I can right now and then later on too. I'm a greedy man, Miss Steele." I curl my hand under her neck and pull her face to me to take whatever I want from her. I know how much she loves it when I hold her this way. She's completely mine.
"Christian... ahhh...I have to get ready." She says out of breath.
"Not until I have my way with you." I lift her leg and slide into her making her gasp. She doesn't protest any further but loses herself in our rhythm. "You're always so tight and wet baby." I roll my hips into her and she throws her head back unable to speak. She's almost there... just a few more thrusts till she's mine. "Give yourself to me Ana... let go."
"Christian..." her voice is barely a whisper as she lets go. Her body shaking as her pussy clenches down on my cock and I feel the pressure build up as I empty myself into her. I hold on to her as tight as I can as I ride out the wave of my own orgasm and catch my breath.
I look down on her face and her eyes are still closed but her lips are swollen, her lips turn are most magnificent color even more so after we kiss or have sex. Her cheeks are flushed, burning bright with color. She slowly opens her eyes and looks at me, my two glimmering sapphires, darkened with lust and love.
"Good morning, Miss Steele." I smirk.
She giggles. "Good morning, Mr. Greedy Grey."
"Not going to deny that. I'm always greedy when comes to you."
"May I go and get dressed, Sir?" She raises an eyebrow and laughs. I'm still inside her and I feel my cock twitch... only she can do this to me and get me ready to go again.
"You're doing this on purpose."
"Serves you right for being Greedy. Now I barely have any time to get ready."
"Tonight, I'm going to punish you for this." I growl.
"Promises, promises." She winks at me and pulls me down to give me deep kiss.
...
I get into the SUV and we make the drive out to the AHAK family house from downtown SF.
"hey sleepyhead, I'm leaving but I ordered you a little something to snack on. There's coffee too, didn't want you to be hangry when you meet the rest of my family... you're going to need your strength to endure the initial greetings." She giggles.
"You're so thoughtful baby."
"Only because I love you. You're expected between 11 to 11:30am."
I sleepily nod. "Yes ma'am. What time is it now?"
"It's 8am but you should go back to sleep. I'll give you wakeup call at 10am." She leans in and gives me a kiss.
"I prefer the earlier kind of wakeup call we had."
"Me too but I have to go now... Benny will yell at me. I love you Mr. Grey."
"I love you baby."
I'm not nervous to meet the rest of her family but I'm apprehensive for Ana if that fucker shows up. While these reunions usually only happen during the holidays or around a wedding, Ana told me that when someone gets engaged the family usually hosts either a dinner or a brunch to help with introductions except this is a rather unusual but special occasion. Even though Ana and I are not officially engaged, Nani still wanted to do this to make me feel welcome into the family. It feels... well it makes me feel cherished. The dinner last night with Rania and Raees was eye opening too. All of this comes naturally to them, they know how to make people feel at ease and make them feel cherished and at home. It doesn't feel like an act at all, it's genuine. I feel no ill will from them... except for one person.
If someone had told me years ago that this would be my life and that I would so willingly accept this I would have laughed in their face and had them kicked out of Washington state. In the span of just a couple of hours Ana changed my life that weekend. I have now lived so much life since then and continue to do so.
CG: Hey baby, we're about 10 minutes away.
AS: Perfect. Everyone is here and excited to meet you.
CG: I'm looking forward to meeting them too.
AS: This is going to be a disaster. Everyone is already teasing me. Haha.
Sawyer turns into Presidio Terrace and we pull up in front of the house. I see Ana walking down the steps to meet me.
She tiptoes and throws her arms around me neck. "Hi."
"Hi Baby, you look sensational." She's wearing eastern clothes again and cream white embroidered ensemble. She looks so young and full of life. Just like at the wedding.
"Why, thank you Mr. Grey. You look really handsome, which makes us quite the pair." She winks. I lean down and give her a kiss. I hold her face in my hands to deepen it more when we hear catcalling and whistling.
"I forgot, the heathens are waiting..." she pulls away and rolls her eyes and turns around. "GO INSIDE YOU EMBARRASSING LOSERS" she yells and a everyone led by Rania runs back inside. "Any last requests?" she turns back to look at me.
"None. Let's go get this over with." I smirk and she laughs.
We walk in and see Aria running through the corridor.
"Hi Aana Khala, hi Chwischin." She waves and the runs back and we follow her into the main family room. I can sense Ana's nervousness.
The moment we walk in there are loud cheers.
"PLEASE STOP YOU ARE GOING TO MAKE HIM RUN AWAY." Ana groans and yells making us all laugh.
They all start to make their way to us and Ana jumps in front of me and holds her hands out.
"WE NEED TO BE GENTLE." She warns and I chuckle again.
Rania leads the pack but Ana shoos her away telling her and Raees they already had their turn.
"Christian, this is Aashu, Karan's sister who's getting married next month"
"Hi Christian Bhai, welcome to the family." She comes in for a slight hug. "I hope you're coming to the wedding." She smiles genuinely. Her energy reminds me of Mia.
"It's great to meet you Aashu and yes, I'll be there. Congratulations to you and Imran."
"Christian this is Ahad, Rania's younger brother." She moves to stand next to him and put her arm around his shoulder and it's hilarious because she's so short. "He's our resident scientist, he's gonna cure cancer... now all that's left if for him to find a pretty girl."
He groans. "Aanapa please... give it a rest."
"This is my job little one." She admonishes him.
"I'm only 6 months younger than you." He rolls his eyes "It's great to meet you Christian, I have loads of embarrassing stories to share with you. I've been waiting for this day for years." I chuckle and we shake on it.
We walk towards Nita and Nani to greet them. Once we're done head towards one corner of the room when Scooter and Kiran come up to us and I feel Ana tense.
Scooter and I shake while Kiran gives Ana a crushing hug. Ana doesn't really reciprocate but gives her a small smile and moves to hug Scooter.
"Guys, I just wanted to take a moment to say how sorry I am. It was honestly a mistake; I should've been a bit more careful, I know. I'm sorry." Kiran says apologetically.
"Kiran, I appreciate what you're saying but can we please talk about this later... in private maybe." Ana says.
"Yeah sure." She gives us a small smile and both Scooter and her go to find themselves a place to sit.
The conversation flows and everyone starts to catch up and talk about what they're up to. Ana tells me that even though they have a group chat, and talk to each other individually, there's always so much to talk about when they all get together.
Vishaal isn't here yet but I can sense Ana's apprehension. She's waiting for the other shoe to drop.
The main door opens and suddenly we hear a booming voice from the foyer.
"I HAVE ARRIVED MY FAITHFUL MINIONS." The British accent is a dead giveaway for Karan.
Ana gasps. "He said he couldn't make it." She bolts up and runs towards the front of the room as Karan enters. "If it isn't my favorite cousin in the entire universe." She says in her perfect English accent.
"WHAT DID YOU JUST SAY?" Rania yells from across the room.
"You heard me." Ana sasses back and we all laugh.
"You know darling, I'd rather have you speak in your barbarian accent at least that way I can tell when you're lying or not." Karan laughs and pulls Ana in for a big hug and kisses her forehead. "How's my favorite cousin doing?"
"I'm good Bhai." She smiles at him. My eyes fall to Kiran and I see that she's not entirely happy with this exchange. Karan greets everyone, with the exception of Kiran who only gives an air kiss, everyone hugs Karan and jokes with him. When he finally makes his way to me, he gives me a firm handshake and a hug.
"Great to meet you again mate, welcome to the craziness. I'm guessing I don't need to give the whole you break her heart; I'll break your legs speech. It's implied I mean... you'd do the same for Mia?" He laughs.
"A 100%. They wouldn't find the fucker's body." I smirk.
"Great. We have an understanding then." He winks at me.
"You guys are so lame. Let's go eat." Ana rolls her eyes and walks off.
We all make our way to sit down in the formal dining room where there is an insanely extensive spread of Indian breakfast food. I'm seated between Aashu and Ana. Kiran, Scooter, Karan, Rania and Raees along with Aria are across from us with Nita and Nani at either ends of the table. We dig in and they all take turns explaining what the food is and it tastes fucking amazing. As we begin, the front door opens again and I feel Ana's energy dip and I see Karan and her exchange a look. Vishaal walks in and everyone jumbles through their salutations with him. He moves in to kiss Nita on the forehead, followed by Kiran and then walks over to greet Nani but he leans in and she lightly taps his hair in acknowledgement. She seems distant with him.
We all continue to talk as everyone tells me tales of Ana's antics and she groans. At one point, Rania leads the pack and starts to address me in French and everyone joins in with Ana and Raees being the only ones who are out of the loop.
"Aren't you going to stop this?" Ana looks towards Nani.
"Pourquoi devrais-je?" Why should I? Nani responds with a laugh.
Ana throws her head back in frustration and we all laugh at her expense. She clears her throat and commands attention.
"First, I would like to announce that effective immediately you all are DISFREAKINGOWNED and second, you smell that chocolatey goodness? None of you are getting those brownies. I'm giving both batches to Benny."
Everyone whines and begs her not to and we all laugh. I kiss her cheek and she narrows her eyes at me and sticks her tongue out. The banter is hilarious, they're all witty and engaging and it's refreshing to be around people who have no ulterior motive towards me. They've been nothing but kind and genuine. It feels like family. I can see why Ana misses this so much. I can see why she can't let go.
"So Aanapa, when are we going to see another tabloid article of you singing and dancing in a pink wig?" Ahad teases.
"When you agree to join me on stage with a lime green wig little one." She deadpans and we all laugh.
"Has it really been that bad though?" he asks
"Yeah man... like I just wanna go to starbucks in my sweats but that Carmela woman has her spies everywhere. It's annoying. I miss the sun, I feel like I'm turning into a vampire." She giggles.
"Honestly, you're overreacting." Vishaal speaks up. He's across the table to my left and Ana whips her face to him. The room goes quiet.
"Honestly, your ill-informed opinions aren't welcome, Vishaal Bhai." She enunciates the word Bhai and I know what's she's doing.
My fists clench, but I keep my eyes on her. God she's beautiful in every single way but I love it when she stands up for herself. She moves her hand to hold my mine and strokes her thumb across my knuckles and I start to relax only slightly. She's completely calm and I don't know how she's doing this.
"You need to learn respect." He raises his voice.
"You need to learn how to earn it." She raises and eyebrow.
He starts to say something else but it interrupted.
"Vishaal, enough." Nani's cool and collected voice fills the room.
"Are you not going to say anything to her?" He's obviously taken aback from her interjection.
"You started this, I am ending it. We are moving on. Christian, please excuse this interruption but you know how family can be unfortunately, it's never really a successful reunion unless we have a tiff." She smiles at me and I nod.
Vishaal scoffs and gets up to leave from the table.
"Aana, that was uncalled for." Kiran looks to her. "He has only tried to help you."
"That comment was not him helping." Ana bites back. Kiran gets up and goes after Vishaal and the room is still dead silent.
"Fuck... MAMA MY WATER FINISH" Aria's little voice cuts through and we all lose it.
"RANIA..." Ana yells laughing.
"Why do you all always yell at me? She is 50% of her father's DNA too." Rania groans and Raees clutches his belly trying to control his laughter.
"Bachay, I have missed that snap." Karan claps in appreciation.
"What's a snap?" I ask. I remember that Jacob guy making a similar comment at the Gala.
Ana looks at me and giggles. "It's their nickname for my smart mouth."
...
It's a warm day and we're sitting in the backyard on couches while some lay on a sheet laid out with cushions. This is part of the family's reunion tradition. Sometimes they play badminton, some times they lay around in the sun drinking tea and eating oranges with salt and pepper catching up on life and sometimes they sing and play games.
Ana tells me this only happens two or three times a year given how everyone leads separate lives but they all try to come together for important events and spend time with each other.
Vishaal hasn't come down since the tiff at breakfast. Kiran is mostly quiet and Scooter is otherwise engaged with us while Ana seems to ignore the tension and carry on.
"Christian, have you met Gremlin Aana?" Karan asks while flashing a smirk to Ana.
"I don't believe I have. This I have got to hear." I chuckle.
"I'm definitely going to jail for homicide this weekend." Ana narrows her eyes are Karan.
"Oh brother, prepare to be enlightened." Karan rubs both his palms together and stretches his arms upwards and gets comfortable. "During Rania's wedding festivities... it was Day 1 of the major events and we got done from all the partying... it was after 2 am and Aana was in a foul mood. She was hungry and angry and on the precipice of delirium."
"In other words I was raging bitch that night after the event." Ana rolls her eyes.
"Bachay... your words, not mine." He shrugs while we all laugh. "So we all decide to go to the Mcdonalds drive-thru before we retire to our rooms for the night. In my car, I had Rania, Kiran, Aana and Priya. We had I think two cars behind us with the rest of the cousins?... Anyhoo, we get to the drive thru and the car in front of us is taking a little longer than usual to place their order... meanwhile all this time, Aana is deathly silent and not participating in any conversation... at all. She's just... I believe seething would be the accurate word to describe her. Then... out of nowhere, she opens her door, climbs out, and walks to the car in front of us and literally screams at the passenger side window... "HURRY THE FUCK UP." And walks back to our car and sits back down and acts as if nothing happened... then she barks her order to the mcdonalds rep... and guess what she ordered?"
"Keep going... just tell me the story this is too good..." I try my best not to laugh
"I love how you're not interrupting his story time but me... you interrupt mine all the damn time." She sasses at me.
"This gremlin orders a 20 piece chicken nuggets, with a large fries and large diet coke and doesn't share a single one with us. She just sat in the back eating and I swear I heard growling noises... like a fucking gremlin gnawing on fresh meat."
We all fucking lose it and Ana looks at us, trying to suppress a smile but she's beet red and shaking her head.
"I can confirm the growling noises." Rania says in between her laughing fit.
I look at her and kiss her temple trying to control my own laughter.
"I fucking hate you all... and in my defense I had had shitty day while flying in from Portland." She says trying her best not to smile.
"Yeah brother... you're all on your own with this one. It was nice knowing ya." Karan says his piece and continues to laugh.
"I've definitely met a hangry Ana but I'm really intrigued by this Gremlin character you mentioned. I guess I'll meet her soon enough."
"Be careful for what you wish for." Ana smirks.
...
"Karamoo, pick up me up, pweez?" Aria comes to Karan with her arms raised and he stands and throws her in the air and she squeals in delight.
"What did Aria call him?" I ask Ana who's leaning in close to me with her head on my shoulder.
"She called him Karamoo. It's actually supposed to be Karan Mamoo. Mamoo is the urdu word for a maternal uncle but since she's a baby she doesn't separate the words so easily. Similarly, Ahad is Ahamoo."
"That's sweet."
"Technically you could have a name too. You would be Chwischin Khalu. Khalu is a word for a maternal aunt's husband. So right now she calls Daniel Dani Khalu. Kiran is K-Khala."
"I think it's so special you all have these names for different relationships."
"Special names for special people. Once we're married, you'll be Chwischin Khalu." She leans in to give me a quick kiss.
...
APOV
I feel my OCD start to kick in as I see the tray full of empty cups and orange peels on the table. We all are lost in conversation; Christian, Karan, Ahad and Daniel are talking sports and taking this baseball crap way too seriously. Kiran has barely said a word to me. She's been on her phone or talking to Rania and playing with Aria for the most part. Nani is taking her afternoon nap while Nita is talking with Aashu about all things wedding. Thank god she was in the bathroom when the little blowout with Vishaal happened. She would've definitely been disturbed at the exchange. Poor Raees is passed out on a floor cushion and it's fucking hilarious. We all took embarrassing pictures of him and sent it through the group chat. Him and I might end up sharing a cell together before the day is over after we murder everyone.
I make my way to pick up one of the trays and head inside to clean up a little. I feel myself getting tired so I endeavor to drink a little bit more water and get some hot tea and join everyone again. I quickly put away the dishes into the dishwasher and throw out the trash.
I'm so happy Chrisitan is enjoying himself, even if it's at my expense. He looks so young and carefree. I look out the window and seem him laughing with Karan and Daniel. He looks so at ease and beautiful. All things considered I think this weekend has been great for us. I'm glad he got to spend time with my family and see things for himself and experience why I love them so much. If anyone had told me back when I started at GEH that I'd have Christian Grey in my family's dining room eating Halwa Puri and paratha anda for Sunday brunch, I would have peed my pants laughing at the thought.
I shake my head and gather a new batch of plates and oranges. I turn around to drink another glass of water, looking out the window before I leave with I hear a loud smack on the island behind me.
A shiver runs through my body and I feel my heart drop to my stomach.
No.
Please.
No.
Not like this...
Authors Note: Oh shit.
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Music:
Somebody to Love - Kacey Musgraves