After enjoying a lovely meal together which finished with strawberry cheesecake we then retired to bed; we walked hand in hand in silence and when we sat on the foot of our bed I couldn't help but note how nervous we both were.

"Why are we both so nervous?" I muttered as I quickly brushed some of my hair behind my right ear.

"I think because even though we have had sex before this feels different" Ben answered as he nervously pursed his lips together.

"Yeah" I agreed; as I began to think about this. He was right; the sex that me and Ben were about to have was going to be different. As we were now husband and wife; we were now bound together. And when we consummated our marriage it was always going to mean a lot more than any other sex that we had had in the past. "I suppose it is going to be different to the sex we have had in the past" I stated. "Because I am now your wife" I added proudly. "And you are my husband" I finished.

"Yes" he replied proudly and smugly. "A title that I couldn't be any more proud to have" he told me very happily as we slid closer together and wrapped our arms around each other.

"Me too" I agreed. "I never thought I was ever going to be anyone's wife" I admitted.

"Why not?" he questioned.

"Because I don't love anyone else like I love you" I told him fondly as I stroked my fingers against his chest. "You are the only man that I would ever marry" I told him with a warm smile. This was the truth; Ben was the only man that I had ever loved. So it only made sense that he would be the only man that I would marry and have children with.

"Oh Mal" he breathed as he lifted both of his hands up and cupped both of my cheeks. "I feel the same Mal" he advised as he gazes deep into my eyes. "It has and only ever will be you; I know that it has been a rocky road to get to this point" he continued lovingly as she stroked my cheeks with his thumbs. "But I promise you that I will always love you" he promised.

"And I will always love you" I vowed back and we both smiled at each other. I started to get overwhelmed in this moment as the look that we were now exchanged in the candle light was one of such trust, love and pure devotion. However before I could get too embroiled in this our lips crushed together. The kiss started off slow and our heads started to slowly move in sync with each other. I opened my mouth and let his tongue enter my mouth; and I moaned as his smooth tongue slid against mine. I groaned against his lips once more as I felt him cheekily brush his tongue against the roof of my mouth. I moved my hands from his neck and into his hair and the longer the kiss went on I felt Ben's arms tighten around me.

When the need to breath came to the pair of us we broke apart but Ben quickly moved his mouth against the right hand side of my neck; and he quickly began to lace my neck with kisses. I started to feel shivers run up and down my spine; I couldn't stop moans escaping my mouth as our eager hands started to roam over each other's bodies.

As we continued to get lost in making out I started to get lost in giving myself over to my beautiful husband. It felt so surreal to be with him like this; and I felt that due to the fact that I could have lost him made me value him even more. I promised myself that I would never take him, any children we had together and the life we planned to lead for granted.

When the need to breath assaults us both again Ben broke the kiss; and as we looked deeply in each other's eyes I heard a hearty chuckle escape from this throat.

"What?" I panted.

"My heart is pounding" he admitted and I watched as he nervously bit down on his swollen bottom lip.

"Ben if you want to wait-" I began to offer.

"No!" he exclaimed. "I want to" he urged. "I don't even know why I am like this" he stressed. "Probably because I want to be perfect for you" he confessed before he gulped.

"Well Ben-" I started as I cupped his face in both of my hands. "You are" I told him with a lovingly smile. "You always have been" I added hoping that this would reassure him and put him at ease.

"Thank you" he muttered.

"Why don't we lie down on the bed and cuddle?" I suggested as I nodded towards the top of our bed. "Then we see where we go from there" I continued. "I'm just as nervous as you" I added with a slight chuckle. "But I think we both need to remember that we have done this before, and-" I stated.

"And?" he prompted me.

"We have all night baby" I said.

"Yes" he grinned. "That is very true" he said as we untangled ourselves from each other. We then fell into silence once more as we removed our shoes before climbing up to our bed. We then lay down next to each other before we cuddled back together. As I looked into his calm eyes I couldn't help but begin to get lost in being alone with him like this. I loved how we could just be Ben and Mal; and I was going to relish in every second that we spent together - now and for always.