HICCUPS's P.O.V.

"Do you think John likes me?"

I felt a sweat run down on the side of my temples, should I answer her honestly? Or should I tell her something that would make her feel hopeless, just in case maybe?

"You know what… I- I'm not sure" I took a deep breath of relief, that was both what I honestly think and what I like to assume, John likes Astrid.

"How long have you known each other?" I asked as I drank from my glass of water, wanting to change the subject

"I probably have known him for 3 years now, It's weird it's been that long now" She said

"yeah…"

"Anyway, tomorrow we'll be leaving, Did you enjoy our trip?" Astrid asked curiously, she put both her utensils down, full attention to me

"Yeah I did, I enjoyed it a lot, makes me realize how your so…" my sentences started to fade, I don't want to make her feel bothered.

But to be honest, After this trip I realized what a huge gap Astrid's life is from me, It kinda makes me feel want to have the same so we could be in the same level maybe, but at the same time, the kind of life I have is all that I wanted.

"…It made me realize your so… fun to be with, I really enjoyed." I tried to hide my nervousness with a sheepish smile.

"I enjoyed a lot too, It's sad that we're going home tomorrow"

"Yep,.." I replied in agreement

The next day, We all woke up right around luch time, since we were all tired, basically our lunch was our breakfast, then after that we went back to our rooms to fix our stuff and made sure we didn't leave anything behind.

Then it was off to the airport. We did took some pictures along the way, since we have a scheduled flight and apparently Astrid has new schedules by the time we get back home. She has to leave for three days, which honestly makes me sad.

But I should just think positively, So here I am trying to make the most of my time with her.

She sits next to me in the airplane, she's sleeping with music playing in her earphones, head slightly resting on my right shoulder.

My head started to get lost to some useless thoughts again,

If ever I confess my feeling for Astrid what will she say? Will I be able to handle it just in case I hear it's something I'm not expecting. If she turns me down, will she still want to be friends atleast? Can I do that? Or,.. is it best if I just… keep it from her.

Besides,.. All these things happened just because she didn't know I liked her, But what if she ends up with John?... I guess if that guy makes her happy…. Why not?

_Hope you are all doing well, especially with this pandemic happening keep safe always