Doctor
Okay, so I'm not used to being a teacher
Especially of sex education.
While Alicia sleeps I've been trying to think of lessons but I guess I'm just more of a practical person.
So lesson one; touch.
I want her to get used to me touching her. It might take more than one lesson though.
And I didn't give her a chance to touch me.
I'm not used to first timers...
"I can only think of teaching you about sex practically.
We don't actually have to have sex yet I just want you to learn some stuff.
If that's okay?"
Alicia looks at me suspiciously. "What sort of stuff?"
"Sex involves a lot of touching. In places you're not used to.
But I don't want to go that far yet.
I didn't give you a chance to touch me last time so I thought to begin with I'd let you um explore me? That's a rubbish word.
What do you think?"
She looks at me for a moment, surprised.
"You want me to feel you?" She sounded confused.
"Yep. We'll start with up top for now. If you want to."
"Yeah sure."
AliciaAnd with those words he strips off his top half and guides my hand to his chest.
I leave it there and bring my ear in to listen to his hearts beat and I'm surprised to hear his breath as well.
When I bring away my head I put my other hand on his chest too.
Then I move them down around his waist, never letting go. He is thin but to me he's perfect this way.
I slide one hand across his stomach before returning to his chest. It's stronger than I imagined.
I move down his arms knowing, feeling the muscles you can't see.
At one point he jumps with a giggle.
"It's nothing." He says.
I think it was in is wrist. I test it and he does it again. Strange place for a ticklish spot.
When I'm done with the front I get him to turn around.
There's nothing there. I can clearly see his spine and run my finger down it.
I almost massage his shoulders and run my hands up the back of his neck.
It took me about half an hour to really get used to being so close to him like this but I enjoyed the experience.
And just to finish off I run my own hand through his hair backwards.
DoctorAlicia took longer than I thought she would exploring.
She already knows what my hearts sound like, she sleeps right by them every night so I'm not sure why she did that.
I don't think that circle she made on my wrist was me being ticklish, it didn't feel right for being ticklish.
The whole experience was brilliant. Just brilliant.
Now I need to work out what to do next. Or where.