AN: PLEASE PLEASE READ:

1. There is a rape scene in here, as a flashback. It is not graphic but it is implied. I had to write this as it correlates to something else that happened to JJ that has not been explained yet. It is disturbing though and just plain creepy, like beyond creepy.

2. Does anyone know a Criminal Minds fanfic site where I can write an NC17 fic?

3. And for the love of God, someone PLEASE write a JJ harmed in some way, fic...

JJ turned her head away from the man approaching her. The drugs they had been pumping into her body for so long made it hard for her to think, but she still fought. Her muscles and her body still had the muscle memory and she was able to fight… sort of.

"No, no." She heard a man coo, felt his cold hand run down her cheek. "Don't fight," he smiled at her, pealing the hospital gown off her body. "Now, listen up," he leaned down, laying himself on top of her. "I know they are pumping you full of all sorts of shit; I know they are fucking you up, so I want to get this out of the way before you are too far gone."

JJ shook her head, she knew what was happening; the drugs had cleared enough to allow her to think; her response time was just significantly delayed "Get off of me." She yelled at him, thrashing on the mattress as he laughed in her face.

"They promised me you were feisty," the man cupped her cheek in his hand, "now, if you stay still, it won't hurt as bad." JJ glared at him as he stripped his own clothes off, smiling at her the entire time. "Now, Dr. Cruz told me she needed something… well, done. And you are the perfect woman for this to work." He reached down and stroked her hair. "Do you think you can be a good girl, or do you need some help?"

JJ followed his glance and saw, to her horror, another man standing next to them, restraints in his hands. "You've already restrained me," she glared at the two men. "Those won't help!" JJ knew, she was confident she wasn't getting out of this event; but that didn't mean she was going to make it easy for them.

"Oh, we know, darlin" the man giggled, looking down at her body. "Its more for me then you," he winked. "You'll end up in them anyway," he reached under her chin and forced her to look up at him. "I heard you have a husband at home," he squeezed her cheeks, forcing her to look at him, "but I am going to make you hurt more than he ever could,"

"With that?" JJ looked down at the man, she knew she would be disciplined for her mouth, but she didn't care.

She nearly gasped as he wrapped his hands around her throat before lifting and banging her head down, hard against the bedframe. "Bart!" JJ heard the other man yell and took in a deep breath as his hands removed themselves from her throat.

Bart sat back on his heals, glaring at the woman. She was going to hurt; he would make sure of that. "You are going to pay," he warned. "But we need to shut your fucking mouth first." JJ turned her head away and briefly allowed her body to relax as the man climbed off of her. But she knew she was going to pay, she knew he would be back.

And he was, he was back in record time. "I am so excited to be with you," he whispered, holding something above her head. "But I have every thought that you will bite me, so we are going to eliminate that right now."

JJ opened her eyes just in time to see Bart and the unidentified man positioning themselves over her. She struggled to move away from them but the man grabbed her head and forcefully held her in place. She tried to fight as Bart adjusted the gag, tried to pull away, but the man was too strong.

"Open up," Bart joked, proudly showing JJ the details of the gag, "you know what this represents, don't you?" He pointed to one of the features of the gag. "this will stop you from biting." JJ clenched her jaw shut, refusing to allow him to put 'that' in her mouth. "C'mon now, sweetheart, it's only for a few hours," he laughed, reaching up and squeezing her nose shut. She struggled, she fought, she did everything she could but she had to breathe. "That's it," Bart whispered and as soon as her mouth opened, he took his chance and shoved the device inside.

Instantly, JJ began gagging as the long object was forced nearly into the back of her forth; she fought as the men secured the remainder of the gag around the back of her head. She fought back tears as she felt Bart slide himself back over her body and felt herself try and gag when he thrust himself inside her.

"Good girl," he pushed harder and JJ tried to scream in pain, but the gag prevented it. She wasen't sure how long it had lasted but he had taken his time… multiple times. And he finally stopped, and rolled off her, kissing her on the cheek one last time before running his thumb down her cheek. "I think we need to keep that gag on for a few more hours," he whispered before bending down and starting to dress himself.

JJ tried to regulate her breathing, tried to pull on the restraints. She needed the gag off; it was awful. She thrashed her head back and forth as she heard the door open and heard footsteps coming closer.

"Hold on, honey," a female voice called to her. JJ looked up at the woman as she leaned over and reached behind JJ, releasing the gag. "There ya go," she said softly, rubbing JJ's hair. "Next time you'll just do what we ask, okay?"

She didn't say anything else to JJ but JJ watched as the woman turned to Bart. "Thank you, we think that will be enough. We were able to monitor her… well internally and externally and we believe the mission was successful."

JJ shook her head, what the hell were they talking about?

"And if its not?" Bart asked, taking a sip from the bottle of water.

"Then we will call you back; but she is ovulating right now; she is healthy and she has had a successful pregnancy before. No reason she wouldn't again."

JJ swallowed, and flinched when the woman came back. "JJ, my name is Talia, I am a doctor here. I know that was hard but it needed to be done," she said, grabbing a wet rag and wiping the blood away. "Doc will be here soon to make sure no internal damage was done, but you have some time to rest."

JJ glared at her, her breathing still rapid. "What do you want?"

Talia smiled and shook her head, "don't worry about that. But we need you to get some rest and sleep. Doc will take care of you once you are asleep."

"No!" JJ struggled again as Talia pulled a syringe from her coat pocket and wiped a spot on JJ's thigh.

"Shh, just a sting," she said and jammed the long needle into JJ's thigh, smiling as the woman cried in pain; she smiled as she injected the medication, smiled as she felt JJ stiffen at the medication and shook her head when she withdrew the needle. "See, it wasn't that bad, now was it?" She ran her hand across JJ's forehead. "Now, sleep well baby girl."

JJ tried to fight, she wanted to strangle the woman but her body wouldn't cooperate, nothing would and she couldn't stop it as her eyes shut and her world went dim.

Oooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo

Katie stood in the ICU room, watching her patient fight the ventilator.

"I don't know Katie," Ross was saying, watching Hotch and a few of the nruses trying to calm her down.

Katie shook her head, "I cannot keep sedating her, Ross. I need her off the vent," Katie explained. Ross nodded his agreement, JJ was able to breathe on her own, they had done trials over the night and she passed them; but it was obvious she was not out of the woods just yet. She would require supplemental oxygen until she got the transplant, but that was better then being sedated and on a vent.

"Hotch," Ross called as he and Katie moved over to JJ's side, "We are going to remove the tube, but need you to step back, okay?"

"JJ, Ross is here." Hotch said, stepping back and away from the bedside, ignoring the buzz of the phone in his pocket.

"JJ, I am right here." He squeezed her hand, "how about we get that tube out of your throat?" He whispered as Katie began taking the steps.

"JJ, I am one of the doctors here, lets get this tube out, shall we?" Katie smiled. "Okay, on the count of three, I want you to blow out really hard." She made sure JJ nodded before grasping the tube, "okay, one, two, three."

JJ coughed and gagged as the tube was withdrawn, the horrible feeling sent body memories thoughout her muscles and the PTSD flashback hit hard. She reached up to yank the gag off, her mind flashing between the safety of the hospital and what Bart had done… the tube reminded her of the gag and now something else was on her face. It felt exactly like the gag.. and JJ thrashed.

"JJ, shh," Ross soothed, "you're safe, I am right here," he reached over and grabbed her hands, gently restraining them as he waited for the flashback to end. He knew that was what was occurring and he knew that they just had to wait it out. "That's it, you're safe," he said, bringing the heavy blankets up around her, hoping her senses would kick in and she would feel the warmth.

Katie watched in tears as Ross worked to calm JJ down, watched as the woman fought against some unseen enemy; she knew this was PTSD in full force and there was nothing she could to help. Well, she could do one thing.. and as she watched JJ regulate herself, Katie smiled.

"JJ?" She reached over and sat down next to the woman.

"Hi," she replied. "Sorry…"

Katie looked at her, puzzled. "For what?"

"I thought… I thought I was back…" her throat hurt from the tube, she was tired already from talking but she was terrified to sleep. "Back there…"

"Nope, you are safe right here." Katie smiled. "I know you just woke up, but I know you are exhausted." JJ nodded, "How about we talk later?"

"Thank you…" JJ whispered, settling back into the blankets and quickly falling asleep.

"Fuck you, Ross." Katie smiled at him as the two doctors and nurses worked to help get JJ comfortable and assessed.

Ross looked offended and he brought his hand to his heart in mock shock. "Me? What did I do?"

Katie laughed, "you are crafty and devious. However…" she smiled as she looked down at JJ. "You owe me big time."

Ross stopped in his tracks, a hopeful smile spreading across his face. "Really?"

Katie smiled, "provided she consents to it, yes, she is officially listed as priority in getting the transplant."

Ross nearly jumped in the air celebrating. He turned to grab Hotch but stopped when he saw Hotch's face. Hotch was staring at JJ, he had his stoic expression back on his face and Ross knew something had gone wrong.

"Hotch?"

Hotch shook his head, "Talia escaped."