"Have enough courage to trust love one more time and always one more time."

― Maya Angelou

JJ watched as Emily exited her office again and she went and grabbed another drink from the vending machine along with some crackers. Making sure no one was following her in, she followed Emily into her office and shut the door quietly. The dark haired woman looked over and gave JJ a look. "Can I help you, Jayje?"

The younger woman sat down and looked at her boss. "Have you checked if you're pregnant yet?" She blurted out watching as Emily's face fell.

"No, but…"

"But what?" JJ countered. "When was the last time you had your period? Do you still get your period on hormones?"

Emily frowned and bit down on her lower lip thinking hard. "Um...I guess it's been a bit since I've had my last period. I just...with Reid being in jail and everything…But...I can't be pregnant. They said that it takes about a year."

"You are always the over achiever." JJ teased while she pulled out a pregnancy test box out of her bag. "Well...do you want to find out?"

Staring down at the box, Emily looked up at her best friend. "Okay, we do this incognito. I don't want anyone to know if I'm pregnant or not, okay?"

JJ grinned. "Got it. Go to the washroom and pee on the stick, then put it back in the box and then we'll come back to your office." She said standing up.

"But...can't there be false positives?"

Four other tests, all different brands rolled out onto the table when JJ dumped her bag. "Oh yee of little faith." She said softly. "I've got you covered. Now let's go."

They found themselves a few minutes later back in Emily's office with the five tests laid out on toilet paper. Neither spoke as the time ticked down on JJ's phone until the alarm went off. Emily stared at her friend, eyes wide, and slowly reached for the first pregnancy test.

Plus sign. What the fuck did a plus sign mean. JJ seemed to understand and she picked up the box. "Plus sign means pregnant."

Blinking Emily picked up the next one. "Two lines."

"Pregnant."

"Another plus sign."

"Pregnant."

"This one says pregnant."

They went through each test and each one was positive. Emily kept trying to swallow but it was like all of the saliva in her mouth had dried up into sand. Her heart hammered in her chest and her vision swam. JJ walked around and grabbed her head, lowering it between her knees. "Deep breaths." She ordered softly, her hand rubbing small circles on her back. "You're okay." She whispered. Finally, Emily calmed down and sat up slowly.

"I'm pregnant." She whispered softly, her voice shaking.

"You're pregnant." JJ replied with a smile. "Mama."

Emily blinked a few times before looking down at the tests and back at JJ. "I need to tell Derek."

"Yeah you do." JJ grinned and waited for Emily to get to her feet and she walked over and wrapped her arms around her friend. "I'm so excited for you."

Returning the hug, Emily exhaled softly. "Jayje, can this stay between us? At least until we know that...it...takes?"

JJ nodded and pulled back. "Of course, Em. Anything." She grinned at her friend. "Go tell your husband this amazing news." She said softly.

Emily nodded and pocketed two of the tests and headed out of her office. JJ went back to her desk, a smile on her face. Taking the stairs up to the VICAP floor, Emily popped out and gave a few of the agents gentle smiles.

"He's up in his office." Agent Vasquez told Emily.

"Thanks." Her heart pounded as she took the steps two by two. Knocking on the door, she let herself in, shutting the door behind her.

Derek looked up from his desk and gave his wife a smile. "Hey Princess. Not that I don't love seeing you, but did I miss a lunch date or something?"

Sitting down across from Derek, she pulled out the two pregnancy tests placing them in front of him. She watched as his face lit up and his eyes welled with tears. "Are these….real?" He whispered, picking up one of the tests.

"Yeah, they're real."

He was around the desk instantly and pulled Emily to her feet, his hands cupping her face as he pulled her in for a deep kiss. When he pulled away, he leaned his forehead against hers. "You're pregnant?"

"I'm pregnant."

Dropping to his knees, Derek pushed her shirt up and placed one of his palms on her abdomen. "You're pregnant." He whispered, just kneeling there, his thumb drawing small circles on her skin. "We're having a baby, Princess."

They stayed like that for longer than either would care to admit before Derek got to his feet. "We're having a baby." He repeated. "I can't wait to tell everyone -"

Emily took his hands and squeezed them gently. "About that. We should wait until we go to the doctor and get a blood test done...and see if the embryo is viable." She said sadly, wishing that she didn't have to be the one to give him the news like that. "And then...wait until I get past the first trimester when the risk of miscarriages drop."

His face fell slightly, but he nodded. "Oh. Yeah. Okay." Running a hand over his face, he sighed. "We've waited this long, we can wait a bit longer." He said with a small shrug.

Nodding, Emily pushed her shirt down and reached for him, giving him a soft kiss. "We can wait a bit longer." She whispered. "I love you."

"I love you too, Emily." He replied leaning down and pulling her in for another kiss. "Now get to work." He teased, holding the edge of her shirt with both hands.

Her face was bright and she nodded. "I'll make an appointment with the OBGYN." She said heading out.

Derek sat back down at his desk, the tests still there. Grinning, he took a picture of them before gently placing them in the trash.

Four days later they were in the office of Dr. Addison Montgomery. Taala had made some calls and got them the best doctor in mother and fetal medicine that she knew. Derek laced their fingers together and he kissed them, a calm mask on his face, despite his heart hammering in his chest. When Emily's name got called, they stood up and he followed her into the exam room. Pulling herself up onto the exam table, Derek held her hands between his until the door opened. A tall redheaded woman walked in and she gave Derek and Emily a wide smile.

"Hi, I'm Addison Montgomery." She said putting Emily's file down and shaking their hands. "It's nice to meet you. I'm going to be honest, I don't normally do OB consults, but Taala gave me your file and I agreed to take it on. You're a high risk pregnancy and I'd like to see you through this. I'm a neonatal surgeon with board certifications in both obstetrics and gynaecology and maternal and fetal medicine." She said, giving the couple a smile.

Emily bit her lower lip and gave her a weak smile. "So you are very good at what you do."

"Very very good." The doctor said honestly. "Anyway, I'd like to do a blood test and then we'll do a transvaginal ultrasound and check things out." She got up and called the nurse in and waited for her to take Emily's blood sample before wheeling out a smaller ultrasound machine. "Okay Emily, I'll give you a couple of minutes to get changed into the gown, but I need everything off including your underwear." She left the room, leaving Emily and Derek alone. Emily stripped down and pulled on the gown, sitting back on the bed. Addison returned a few minutes later and smiled. "Alright, let's get this show on the road."

Derek watched carefully as the doctor slipped a condom on the wand and he frowned as she added some gel. "Okay Emily, knees up and bent." She said as Derek looked away quickly.

Taking a few deep breaths, Emily winced as she felt the wand inserted and tried to relax. Addison moved the wand around, twisting and turning, before taking a few pictures of the screen. "And there is a heartbeat." She said with a smile. There was a flicker on the screen, a black and white ball. She hummed softly and pointed to the screen. "And that is another heartbeat."

Emily blinked and stared at the screen. "Wait, what?"

"Twins." Addison smiled and circled the two flickering blobs on the screen. "Baby A and Baby B."

Shaking her head, Emily looked over at Derek. "Two?" She said smacking her husband softly who was staring at the screen. He reached out and gently ran his fingers over the screen before pulling it back quickly.

Addison smiled and took a few more pictures before removing the wand. "I'll print you off some pictures. You're at seven weeks gestational. I'll give you a script for some prenatal vitamins. You can get dressed Emily and I'll come back and we can discuss some things."

Pulling her clothes back on Emily looked at her husband who was still silent. "You okay?"

Derek blinked and ran his hands over his face. "Yeah."

Slipping her shoes back on, Emily took his hand and squeezed it. Addison returned with a bottle of pills, some pictures, and a prescription. She passed the pictures to Derek who held them carefully as he tried to focus on what Addison was going to say.

"So looking at your blood test results, you're slightly anemic. I've added some iron supplements and folic acid along with your prenatal vitamins. Because you're a high risk pregnancy, I'd like to see you every few weeks, okay? Just to be on the safe side."

Emily twisted her hands and nodded. "But the pregnancy, it's viable?"

The redhead turned and looked at the couple. "I wouldn't be here if it wasn't." She said seriously. "But I don't want to make light of the seriousness. Due to your age, the trauma you've suffered and the anemia, you are a high risk pregnancy, but that in no way doesn't mean that this pregnancy will fail. We'll do everything to send you home with a baby."

Nodding, Emily squeezed Derek's hand, though he was focused on the singular use of the word baby instead of babies. He didn't hear the last of the directions, only getting to his feet when Emily tugged him up.

"Thanks, Doctor." He said quietly, shaking her hand.

Addison nodded and handed everything else to Emily. "See you in a couple of weeks." She said getting the door for the couple.

Emily took Derek's hand in hers and squeezed it softly, his hand cold in her warm one. He was still silent once they reached the vehicle and she closed the door, leaning against the driver's side door. "Alright, what's up?"

Sighing, Derek ran his hands over his face and head, a nervous habit. "She said baby, Em. You're pregnant. With twins. She doesn't think that our babies are going to make it."

She took his hands and pulled him close. "I'm pregnant, Derek. That in itself is a miracle. Let's just celebrate that." Emily whispered. "And in six weeks, when we get the all clear, we can celebrate with our friends and family."

After a few minutes he leaned over and pressed a kiss to her forehead. "You're right. It's just a lot to process right now."

"I know." Emily smiled and handed him the keys and walked around to the passenger side. Buckling herself up, she toyed with the prescription in her hands. "Let's go get this filled and then can we grab some ice cream?"

He laughed softly and started the vehicle. "Of course, Princess." Derek smiled. "Ice cream cravings starting already?"

Emily shrugged. "Don't really know, but we should probably pick up some crackers and gingerale and ginger tea." She said as they headed to the nearest pharmacy. "Guess we can officially call it morning sickness, but mine seems to be lasting for much longer than just the morning."

His eyebrows knitted together and Derek turned and stole a glance at her as they drove. "You didn't think to tell me that?"

"Put it off to having a bug. You spent a few days throwing up, I just thought I had that." Emily reasoned. "And I didn't realise how long it had been lasting, or the fact that I had missed my period with the whole Reid in jail thing, and then Will being a dick thing."

Nodding, Derek pulled into the parking lot. "Okay, but can you let me know the next time anything happens?" He questioned. "Please."

"Alright. As long as you get me ice cream that has caramel in it." Emily replied, climbing out.

"And maybe we should talk to Mackenzie about what kind of food I can make that has more iron." He started to muse.

Rolling her eyes, Emily gave the pharmacist her prescription, leaving Derek talking to himself and reading the labels on different foods. Once her name was called, Emily grabbed the couple of pill containers and went with Derek to pick up their ice cream.

Maybe, maybe just this once, things were starting to look up for them. Maybe just this once.