I'm probably going to redo this chapter at some point. I've gotten to the point where I have allll these ideas but zero patience to write them down. Chapter 59 will be a far more engaging read, I hope. I just really wanted to post this because i'm impatient and this quarantine is REALLY getting to me. I'm restless.
How are you all doing? Tell me things.
Chapter 58 – You remind me of a pretty girl, who broke my heart.
Friday, March 20th, 2020
Ana's out cold on the bed next to me... we're about two and half hours away from Miami. I've done as much work as can but I can't seem to focus. The way Ana screamed 'NO' at the apartment triggered a memory. Something I haven't thought of in years.
FLASHBACK
Monday, August 24th, 2015
I'm back in Seattle but my mind is still lost from the weekend.
"Sir, she used a fake ID from New York. Her age according to the ID was 25."
"She looked much younger than that and had a European accent." I'm close to pulling out my hair now. She was probably in a scene. That's only explanation.
Fuck. I just want to know if she's okay. Her screams have plagued my mind. I shouldn't have listened to Elena.
"Were you able to hack into the CCTV feed?" Please tell me there was something there.
"No real visual for facial recognition. Everyone wore masks. There were no cameras in the rooms itself accept for the hallways. For all intents and purposes, it's safe to assume that she indeed was a submissive."
I nod but something is off. I felt it then. Her screams. Maybe Elena was right? Maybe she was playing the part. Like any good sub, she was fulfilling her Dom's wishes. If it was too much for her she would have safe worded. It's that simple. A good Dom respects their sub's limits.
But not all Dom/Domme's are good. Elena on more than one occasion ignored my safe words. Her excuse? She was toughening me up.
I close my eyes and take a deep breath. I need to meet with Flynn. I shouldn't be affected by this. She was clearly a sub. No other reason why she would've been in that part of the club with that man. She knew him, I saw the ease and comfort she felt with him and the way she smiled at him. What the fuck is going on with me?
FLASHBACK ENDS.
I close my laptop and lie down, holding Ana close. I stroke her cheek. She stirs a little and opens her eyes for a few seconds and looks at me, blinking sleepily with a small smile. I give her a small kiss and she hums a little against my lips.
We get to Miami at around 11am local time, Ana is still barely awake and but beams like a sunflower as we step out of the plane into the sun.
"Thank God for the sun and warmth." She muses.
"Thank God for you." I kiss her temple as we walk to the SUV waiting for us. Sawyer and Prescott join us shortly after loading our bags in the trunk. Ana insisted I give Taylor and Gail the weekend off, she's always thinking of others.
Karan and Tony live on Miami Beach. Predictable. That's where all the money is concentrated. They own a waterfront property that offers considerable privacy. They insisted we stay with them given all the extra room but Ana politely declined. I get the feeling that she really does value privacy above all else or that she really hates being a burden.
As we get closer to Miami Beach, Ana perks up a little and looks around.
"I think I like the Miami aesthetic. I could see myself here." She muses.
"I can't imagine you here."
"Oh, Vacation Ana is very much about the Miami aesthetic, at least right now she is." She giggles. "In fact, all of this makes me want to belt out 'in the 305, bitches treat me like I'm Uncle Luke.'" She laughs and throws her hands up in the air and I hear Sawyer snort in the front. "See, my buddy Sawyer gets it."
I give her a pointed look. I know she's friendly with the security staff but I'd still like her to maintain some distance with them. She leans in close me and pouts against my lips as she adorably does when she trying to get her way. "Don't be a grouch Mr. Grumpy Grey... it was just a joke." She whispers.
I relent a bit and give her a quick kiss and she smiles. "Where did that come from?"
"Travis Scott? PLEASE tell me you know Travis Scott?"
"Should I know him?"
She hides her face in her hands and giggles. "So much to teach you, child. SO MUCH!"
...
We check into our hotel and get to the penthouse suite.
"Christian, you shouldn't have booked such a big room, we're barely going to be here." She says with her brow furrowed and half yawning.
"I want only the best for my girl." I pull her into my arms. She smiles back sleepily.
"Still sleepy baby?"
She nods. "I think I'll nap a bit before we go meet Karan and Tony Bhai." She sounds like a little child, it warms my heart.
"How about you eat a little bit before you nap? You didn't eat on the plane either."
"Okay." She yawns again.
"What do you want to eat baby? I give her a small kiss.
"Whatever you'd like, I don't mind." Her brain really hasn't woken up because she always knows what she wants. I have to laugh.
We sit on the couch and I check the news and messages on my phone as she snuggles into me, her face resting on my chest, little sounds of humming escape her. It's like a balm that fills me with warmth.
I hear the door knock and wake her up and she sits up, still half asleep as the food comes in. She smiles and thanks the waiter and wishes him a good day.
My girl, always with the good and gracious manners.
I order a selection of pancakes, eggs and toast with fresh fruit with coffee and tea.
She eats to her hearts content, a little bit of everything all while laughing like a child. She really loves breakfast food.
"I love that you eat so well."
"I love food, I wish women weren't so ashamed of liking food. I know I sometimes eat really bad food but it tastes so good." She whines and giggles.
After we're done she takes a breath as she rubs her belly and laughs "Yep, that's a food baby for sure." I lean down and kiss her belly. "One day they'll be a real baby" I look up back at her. Tears form in her eyes and she whispers something looking up to the sky.
"What did you say baby?" She looks back down at my head in her lap and wipes tears away. I said "Insha'Allah, it's Arabic for God willing or with God's grace."
I remember hearing the word often when we were working to land deals in Abu Dhabi and then setting up a GEH office there.
I get up and hug her, and hold her face close to mine and whisper "Insha'Allah." followed with a long and deep kiss.
"Come nap with me Mr. Grey, I'm a real sleepyhead today." She says smiling as we break from the kiss. I nod and we head to the bed. She takes out her phone and sends a sweet voice message to Karan letting him know that we arrived and she can't wait to see them in the evening. We get into bed and snuggle to nap for a bit. I've never napped during the day like this before her and I love it. She's like a balm in the craziness of the world. She's home.
I feel a buzzing sound followed by Ana moving a bit. I realize I'm halfway on top of her, legs entwined in hers and my face in the crook of her neck. She smells amazing and my body craves her proximity all the time.
She picks up the phone and whispers. I hear her giggle a bit at being teased by Karan or Tony no doubt. The fingers of her free hand lightly dancing in my hair. I savor the feeling.
"What time is it right now?... oh wow, I really did sleep the day away. No 7pm is perfect, we'll be there... What's the vibe?.. hmm okay... I'll figure it out...I promise I won't wear black... happy?... God stop trying to be the fashion police... okay sure send me the address and we'll meet you outside the place. Love you!" She hangs up and puts her phone away. I begin to kiss her neck and play with her breasts.
"Hey! I thought you were sleeping." She giggles as kisses my forehead."
"And now I'm up, fully awake." As I suggestively grind into her. She laughs and I climb on top of her and launch the attack of a full blown sensual assault.
"It's a little after 5 and we need to meet them at 7 somewhere on Ocean Drive." She breathes between kisses.
"Well, we're 5 minutes from there and I don't take that long to get ready."
She stops me mid kiss "Well I need time to get ready! I want to look nice."
"Babe, you could make a burlap sack look like couture."
"You're just saying that because you want sex."
"Yes, now let me have some."
She laughs "You have 10 minutes only then I have to go and take my sweet ass time to get ready."
"I need more than 10 minutes with your sweet ass."
She laughs out loud and I work to take off her jeans and t-shirt, she lies braless before me, bed hair and only wearing white lace panties. I take them off and plant wet kisses on each of her thighs leading up to the promised land. Her body arches up and she moans, with her hands in my hair. She loud and I love it. I lick and suck, sometimes biting her sensitive lips and it drives her wild, "Fuckkkk, christian, pleaseee." She feels it more this time around since she decided to get a full wax yesterday. More fun for me.
FLASHBACK
"HOLD ON... What do we have here?" I ask failing to hide my enthusiasm.
""Shut up, Grey." She laughs.
"Oh baby,... this is a pleasant surprise that I intend to enjoy."
"Wait... before you enjoy... do you prefer me this way?"
"I prefer you any way I can get you Miss Steele." I smirk.
Truth is, I preferred my submissives completely waxed but with Ana it was never an issue. I didn't care about any of my previous preferences, I just wanted her. Everything about her was what I wanted and needed.
"Good answer." She giggles.
"This is going to be intense baby and I'm going to enjoy every second of you losing yourself"
"God, Just don't kill me..." She giggles, covering her face with her hands.
FLASHBACK ENDS
I stop and move up and she unzips my fly and runs her hand along my shaft, fuck it feels so good, I need her. I bury my tongue her mouth and we moan into each other as she strokes me, I'm painfully hard now and need to be inside her. I grab her hand and hold it above her head.
I break the kiss and hover over her as I position myself and slowly enter her. I love watching her face as she feels me. She's so responsive. I lay with my forearms on either side of her face and her pulls my face closer to hers with her hands in my hair and legs locked over me.
I thrust into her in a circular motion, it's so much deeper this way and I know she loves it, her moans are exquisite.
"You're so fucking beautiful Ana." I breathe between kisses.
"Only because I'm yours." She whispers.
Fuck, the words light a fucking fire in me. I increase my speed a little and she matches it thrust for thrust.
"Mine." I bite her lip and groan.
"Yours, always." She pants back. She's so close.
I pound into her, as I kiss her neck. She's gloriously loud and close, just like I love her.
"Christian... Christian..." She calls out as she reaches her climax and I follow almost immediately as I tense up out
"Ana..." I try to catch my breath..."I love you, baby." I whisper.
I love how intense it can be with her. It's so fucking satisfying yet I can't help but want more and more.
I rest my head in her breasts and kiss them every now and then.
"If I look like crap tonight, it'll all be your fault because I didn't get enough time to get ready." She giggles.
"You always look amazing to me." I bite down on her breasts.
"Oww, that hurts, stop assaulting my poor breasts." she laughs
"Whatever, you love me and these tits are mine. I'll do whatever I please."
"Perv. Let me go we need to get ready." She half whines and giggles.
"But I want more." I look up.
"You can have more when we come back tonight but please let's make our way to get ready."
...
You remind me of a pretty girl, baby
You remind me of a pretty girl, you do
You remind me of a pretty girl, baby, who broke, who broke my heart, baby
That tore my life apart
"You look beautiful." I tell her as she hums and finishes fixing her hair. She's in a red jumpsuit she told me she was only going to wear really bright colors for this trip and really enjoy the Miami vibe.
She beams at me and cocks her head to one side and narrows her eyes at me "Nice try, Grey but we're going to be late."
"Miss Steele, it was an honest to god compliment. You wound me." I chuckle.
"Yeah, yeah... I know you're game, Mr. Billionaire." She turns back to apply mascara.
She joins me out in the room when she's done and goes to slip on her heels.
"Baby..."
"Yeah?"
I walk to her and give her a small kiss. "I got you a little something." She's wearing the charm bracelet, I place a small wrapped box in her open palm and wrap my arms around her waist and rest my face on her shoulder.
She turns her face slightly gives me a sweet smile before opening the box. Inside she finds two new charms.
"Charlie Tango!" She gasps and squeals but then looks back at me confused. "A phone?"
""Booty call." I smirk as I whisper against her lips and she bursts out laughing and peppers my lips with kisses.
"Thank GOD, you didn't have your actual ass modeled out of silver for the charm."
"I almost did. Didn't want you to forget what it looked like."
"Oh god, how the hell would I have explained that to people?" She giggles as she adds the new charms to her bracelet.
"I'm sure that smart mouth of yours would've come up with something." I chuckle and kiss her again.
She wraps her arms around my neck. "I love that all my firsts are with you."
"Same here baby, same here."
...
We meet Karan, Aashu and Tony at the Mango Tropical Café. Ana told them she wanted to see some of the nightlife. So they arranged a small part of the balcony seating on the café's second floor to be sectioned off for a little privacy and peace of mind.
"I love this place." Ana claps and looks down to the live band playing while people dance.
"Yeah, I figured the party animal in you would appreciate it. It's not too crazy but it's a fun place." Tony laughs.
Karan and Tony have been in a relationship for 6 years now but they act as business partners in public. No one in the family except for Aashu and Ana know about them. Karan suspects that other cousins may know that he's gay but no one has ever questioned him. Similarly, it wouldn't be good business for KGI if Karan's status got out. A lot of KGI's shareholders are conservative, including the business contacts they have on the other side of the world. He doesn't want to jeopardize the family business in any way which is why Karan and Tony keep a very low profile.
A waitress comes by to take our drink and food orders.
"Bachay, the usual?"
"Yep" She beams.
"A virgin Pina colada." Karan tells the waitress.
"You like Pina Coladas?" I ask, thoroughly amused at this new revelation. I learn something new every day.
"And getting caught in the rain." She sasses and does a little dance making us all laugh. "I love them. I could drink them allll day."
I fucking love this girl
"You know, I was surprised you and Christian ended up together." Karan muses.
"Why do you say that?" I ask.
"Well, this one has a friendzone problem." He points at Ana and laughs.
"No, I don't Bhai." Ana rolls her eyes
"Yes you do bachay...allow me to further prove my point... when you met Elliot, you high fived him within 10 minutes."
"So?" She looks at him confused.
"Every straight guy I have seen you interact with, you high five them almost immediately after meeting them. You did the same with Tony when you didn't even know he was gay."
"I fail to see the point."
"Have you ever high fived Christian?"
She looks at me and I see her thinking then suddenly her eyes go wide. "OH MY GOD. I NEVER HIGH FIVED YOU. I have literally high fived every guy I know..."
"That's how I knew she was into you." Karan laughs.
"Well, he was my boss, I wasn't going to high five my boss." She sasses.
"No, you were just going to hook up with him at your cousins wedding." Karan wiggles his eyebrows and Ana reaches across from the table and smacks his arm, giggling.
"You better not high five me, Miss Steele." I kiss her temple.
"I wouldn't dream of it, Mr. Grey." She whispers against my lips and gives me a small kiss.
Tony and Karan are hilarious, even though it's mostly at Ana's expense. She doesn't falter for a second and hits them back with equal sass.
"I understand that dancing and music is a huge part of the culture but where does the competitive aspect come from?" I ask.
"Ah, well... weddings can otherwise be very boring and drawn out if we just stuck to the traditions of it all. The competitive aspect is honestly to put some fun back into atmosphere. For example, for Kiran's wedding the competition was between the guys and girls because it was a half white wedding and well, they just fucking sucked at choreographed dancing... for Aashu's wedding... it's all out war. The grooms side versus the brides side... it's also a way for the brides side to warn the groom's side not to mess with her or we'll bury them..." Karan replies.
"Yep, and it's all fun and games till someone gets hurt... so the goal is to remind them to not hurt our girl." Ana sasses, waving her finger. "Also, the dances at Aashu's wedding will be significantly different than what you saw at Kiran's wedding. Kiran is all about the sexy and sensual vibe... I mean she wanted us to dance to this song called Bed that had us humping the floor at one point and I had to put my foot down on that. There's a limit to my being a hoe..." She giggles.
"This I find very intriguing." I raise an eyebrow and we all laugh.
"Trust me... it would've been a shit show but this guy here." She points at Karan. "This guy is a drill Sargent. His vibe is... let's scare these bitches into an early grave. He goes for the most intricate and physically demanding routines. I took me FOREVER to learn our Sangeet danceoff routine. It was a miracle I didn't mess up."
"Good thing you didn't or I would've thrown you off the dance floor. I do not accept failure." Karan laughs.
I chuckle. "Tony what were your thoughts when you first witnessed all this at Rania's wedding?"
"I thought they were are fucking crazy but it was hilarious. We're Italian and it's sorta like that in my family too, we verbally abuse and threaten the groom's family... these guys do that and produce fucking musicals with it." Tony laughs.
"No one messes with the guidios from Joisy shore." Ana says in an aggressive Italian accent.
"I could put you in the ground for such insolence." Tony warns in an equally animated accent.
"I'd like to see you try, Avazni." She sticks his tongue out at him and he shakes his head while he laughs.
Tony's great grandparents came from Sicily and settled in New York then New Jersey later on, there are suspected to have ties to the Mafia but it's never talked about. His family back then started a small restaurant that grew popular and they now run a successful chain of Italian restaurants along the eastern seaboard. As of now, Karan and Tony have been working on creating their own nest egg of sorts with real estate acquisitions and in the past 6 years developed a portfolio with a net worth a little over $750 million dollars. They are projected to hit a billion by the end of 2020 if their Texas deal goes through.
Aashu's wedding has been postponed till August of this year. Something about her maternal family members in India being unable to make it to the States given the upcoming exams for most of the cousins. In August everyone will be able to visit for longer rather than making the long haul trip to SF for just 4 days. She has 7 events in total. A whole week of wedding festivities but Ana has only promised our attendance for the 4 main events that fall on the Thursday to Sunday schedule.
"Christian bhai, will you join us in the dances? Now that the wedding has been postponed you have time to practice." Aashu looks at me and laughs.
"I don't know if that's a good idea for me Aashu."
"Come on, you can't be worse than Elliot. He was a disaster." She giggles.
"That may be true but I don't think I'm cut out for this." I smirk.
"Aashu, I just found him. Let's try to keep him a little longer. How about he first survive a full Indian wedding as a spectator THEN we can really get him to participate." Ana laughs.
"Nah, mate... if you're gonna be a part of this family, you've got to pay your dues." Karan laughs.
"Listen to me you heathens. Leave my poor man alone. We've already bombarded him with too much. We need to be gentle." Ana playfully chides and runs her finger through my hair at the back of my neck. It's such a simple gesture full of love. I look back at her and she winks. I don't know how I've lived without this for so long.
Aashu tells me how her first year of law school is going at Stanford. She currently works with Rania at AHAK learning the ins and outs of the business. She passionate about what she does and tells me that despite her very bubbly persona she loves a good smack down in the board room. She'll help out Karan in his deals whenever it's needed. Ana hasn't been able to hangout with Karan and Aashu as just them ever. They've always been surrounded by other cousins and or the schedules just never linked up when Ana would go to visit SF during her college years which were few and far in between. This weekend marks them hanging out like this for the very first time.
The live band starts to play a song, making Ana and Aashu exchange an animated look.
"Boys, we must forsake you for the dance floor. They're playing Mr. Worldwide and I need to pay my respects." Ana laughs as she gets up.
Karan groans. "Of all the people to have an obsession with."
"Shut up. Don't talk smack about Mr. Worldwide."
"Who the fuck is Mr. Worldwide?" I ask, clearly not in the loop.
"Mr. Worldwide, runs the 305 and the world. Pitbull, Christian. Oh God... Karan, tell this man who Pitbulll is... I have to go dance." Ana rolls her eyes and laughs and soon Aashu and her run around the balcony down the stairs and get their dance on. It's like watching Mia being multiplied.
"Good luck with that one." Karan laughs.
"I honestly have trouble keeping up with her sometimes." I chuckle."
"I have nothing to help with that brother, you're all on your own." He shrugs.
I need you
Hey mama, hey mama, hey mama, hey ma'
Girl, it's getting hotter
I can't take much more
I need you
We watch them dance from the balcony. They're as animated as I saw them at the wedding. The band plays on and Tony makes his way to join Ana while Aashu comes back up to get her drink and take a little break. I have no reason to be jealous but he holds her as they try to dance the Salsa... Ana keeps messing up, throwing her head back as she laughs and it makes me long for her just as I did at the wedding.
"Excuse me, Karan, I have to go and steal my girl back from your boyfriend." I tell him and he smirks.
"Have at it, Grey." He smirks.
I walk down and make my way to them.
"Can I have my girl back?" I ask.
"Oh shit, Richie Rich came out to play." Tony gives Ana a look making her burst out laughing.
"Go away, I wanna dance with my man now. BYE." She gives him a small kiss on the cheek and turns away wrapping her arms around my neck.
"I missed you." I whisper against her lips.
"I missed you, too but I didn't want to put you on the spot to dance with me in public. I know you're shy" She looks into my eyes gives me a small kiss.
"I know... but I saw you butchering the Salsa and I had to rectify the situation."
"WAIT. You can dance the salsa?" her eyes go wide.
"I told you, Grace signed us up for ballroom dancing as we were growing up but my skill level is elementary in this particular style." I smirk at her and she giggles.
"I'm so excited." She jumps up and down as she laughs.
"Calm down, Miss Steele... we're going to take it a little slow." I chuckle
The song changes and the girl starts to sing about Havana. It's a slightly slower song and I pull Ana close to me and hold her tight and she molds herself to me. We look into each other's eyes and I feel her breathing change. She bites her lip, trying to suppress a smile. I've got you where I want you, Miss Steele.
I knew it when I met him
I loved him when I left him
Got me feelin' like
Ooh-ooh-ooh, and then I had to tell him
I had to go, oh na-na-na-na-na
The dance floor is filled with couples dancing but it really feels like we're the only ones here. I spin her around, and teach her the steps and she's able to keep with me. She has a natural rhythm and she's a quick study but then again, I suppose it's also because we're just so in tune with each other. There's no way I'm going to go all out with her in public, so I settle for keeping it as PG-13 as I can. I kiss her neck every now and then, making her giggle. I see the happiness on her face, the light in her eyes... this is what she's always needed. The simple things. I could buy her all the diamonds in the world, take out on all the most elaborate dates and vacations but she will always cherish more is the simplicity of us being, us. Just like we are now. Just two people, having a night out and dancing. Nothing more, nothing less. Just us, being normal.
This is how we were at the wedding. We were just us. It didn't matter who were back in our real lives, all that mattered was the connection we had.
Once the song ends she giggles and kisses me deeply and sways a little. We're both breathless, as we break apart.
"I'm so happy." She beams at me.
"Me too, baby."
We walk back up to our table and join everyone.
"Need a room there guys?" Aashu wiggles her eyebrows.
"No, just some ice-cream and donuts." Ana deadpans.
"Of course, how could I forget. I have a gremlin over for the weekend." Karan laughs.
...
"Ana, this isn't ice-cream, this is like eating chilled chilli powder." I shake my head as I try her ice-cream selection.
"You're such a baby. Learn to live a little." She rolls her eyes and we all switch our ice-creams for everyone to try out
We're at Azucar Ice-cream, the first stop on Ana's food wish list. Both Ana and Aashu took their sweet time deciding what to get and sampling all the flavors under the sun. She finally settled on a combo of Burn in Hell Fidel, a chocolate ice-cream with an overly generous helping of cayenne pepper along with a scoop of Abuela Maria, a sweet guava cream cheese with sweet crackers.
I kept it simple with the Cuban vanilla. She laughed when I gave my order and kissed the corner of my mouth.
After getting our ice-creams, we walk down half a block to the doughnut place. The entire area is alive with people walking around and some dancing in the streets as the live music blares out from one of the restaurants on our walk to the doughnut shop.
"I think I really, REALLY like Miami." Ana laughs as she scarfs down her ice-cream.
"You say that now, Bachay... but then it goes into the high 90's and the humidity is at an all time high, it's fucking brutal."
"Fine, I'll just be a snowbird. Spend my winters in Miami like an old grandma. Make sure my room is prepped to my liking, Kapadia." She sasses.
"You're dating a monster, Christian." Karan laughs and I shake my head.
APOV
Tonight has been awesome. The warm weather definitely helps. I feel light with not a care in the world. I'm mentally kicking myself for not being brave enough to just have flown out to Miami back in college but I guess I was meant to be here with Christian. He's been able to hold his own so far with us. I know we're a whole lot of noise compared to what he's used to but I can see he's making an effort and he's doing so well.
Sometimes I catch him looking at me and it's a look that I can't seem to decipher. It's not filled with lust it's... I don't know what it is. His eyes are kind but I see sadness in them. There's something he's thinking about. I give him small kisses every now and then, it's the only way I can communicate right now till we're alone and I can ask him what's on his mind.
We walk into 3dough5. They had a really good rating on Yelp and I sincerely hope it's not hyped up.
"Hi! I'd like to get six donuts please." I smile at the store rep.
"Sure, which ones would you like?" he asks.
"A boston cream, one dulce de leche, two nutella and and two guava cream cheese ones, please."
I turn to my crew and Karan gives me a look.
"Thanks for asking which ones we wanted." Karan chides.
"News flash... this box is all mine. Get your own." I am not sharing.
"You're going to eat 6 donuts?" Christian asks.
"Yes." Did he really doubt my ability to inhale these?
He looks taken aback while the rest of us laugh.
"Told you, you're dating a Gremlin. Right now, she's in a good mood so she might share." Karan laughs.
"I don't share my food." I growl and they continue to laugh.
Karan orders his own selection and I give them my box as well to keep for our brunch tomorrow, not before taking out the nutella one.
I let Christian have one bite but ate the whole thing myself. Not everything is meant to be shared, the sooner he learns that, the easier his life will be.
...
"Christian, your photoshopped body gives me anxiety sometimes. Like, I love food but now looking at those abs, I'm regretting eating that donut." I whine as I tie up my robe tighter. I'm wearing a nightgown but I feel the need to hide myself further.
He laughs out loud and standing over there in just his boxers as we finish brushing our teeth. I hate him so much.
"Baby, you have an amazing body." He says sincerely.
I look at him with I'm pretty sure is bug eyes. This man is blind. I have cellulite on my thighs, it's gotten significantly better but still... it's there, I don't have the flattest stomach, if I'm bloated enough, I can look pregnant. I've always thought my boobs were too big for my body but Kate says that men love that shit so I'll let that go. I guess I should thank Carla for that piece of DNA. I used to have flabby arms but I really worked on fixing that shit. I don't have a thigh gap but I'm okay with that I think... over all, I'm okay... I wouldn't call my body amazing but yes I can do a motherfucking handstand in my sleep so I'm proud of the progress I've made but I still have a ways to go. Maybe, I should train with Claude... just to get some definition. Nothing crazy just to tone up a little more. I only recently started upping my pilates game. For the past few years, I've kept myself on the intermediate level because I couldn't really afford to sign up for the unlimited monthly classes when I was in Portland, I could've gone the mat pilates route but I would always get so bored. So, I would pay per class and then yoga was free thanks to youtube university.
I suddenly feel his lips on me and my spiral into the oblivion of endless and mindless thoughts is halted. It takes me a minute to respond and breathe. Our tongues clash, trying to reacquaint themselves as if we've been apart for years.
He pulls away and I see that intense look. He takes my hands and drags me out to the room and has be stand in front of the huge mirror right outside the walk-in closet.
He stands behind me and unfastens my robe, gently letting it fall to the floor. He then lifts up the nightgown and takes it off of me and throws it too the floor and the quickly takes off his boxers but remains standing behind me. I'm completely naked and I suddenly feel so conscious. We haven't said a word in the last few minutes. I look down, I can't really look at myself like this.
"Look at yourself Anastasia."
Oh crap. Dom Christian is in the house. Time to party.
I gulp and look in the mirror but I look at him instead. My mind just automatically blurs my own body and I stare into his eyes through the mirror. My very own censor board.
He bends down a little and uses his left hand to run it on the insides of my thigh. It slow and deliberate. Like a slow growing fire. He reaches my sex and starts to play with me. It's just as slow. My body arches a little at the sensation and I close my eyes to control myself a little.
Need to not be such a lightweight.
"These thighs... and this pussy." He whispers into my ear while keep his eyes and hand on me. Holy shit this is hot.
Going to expire soon.
"I dream about getting lost in them all fucking day and night." He bites my earlobe and I squirm a little but he grabs me with right arm. Snaking it around my waist. A giggle escapes me.
His left hand remains on my sex. Alternating from using his fingers to play with me and simply holding on to me.
"You're so wet for me, baby." This time he sucks on my earlobe and I'm unable to stop myself from throwing my head back.
I moan out my affirmation, desperately trying not to close my eyes and holding his gaze. I see a smile form on his lips. He knows what he's doing. Ass.
His arm slowly moves upwards and I feel his hand grab on to my left breast. "See how you fit my hand. Only for me. You were made only for me." I look and I feel my insides on fire. A burning furnace now at full force. Any hotter and I'll melt to the ground completely. "I think about these perfect tits, all day at work. To see them bouncing in front me as you ride me and scream my name."
"Yes..." I moan and grind into him a little. I'm trying to keep my eyes focused on him but it's not working. I feel my eyes roll back.
Suddenly he slaps my clit. I arch involuntarily and gasp. FUCK... that... didn't really hurt. It's an odd sensation and my hoe of a mouth betrays me as I moan. Thanks for nothing.
He looks pretty fucking pleased with himself. "Yes, what Anastasia?"
"Yes sir." I moan and god I sound like a needy hoe right now.
"You liked how that felt didn't you?" He continues playing with my breast, pinching and twisting my nipple. It's so many different sensations. His lips grazing my neck, his hand and fingers teasing my nipples, his hand on my sex and finally, his dick behind me. He's hard as a rock as he lightly grinds into me every so often.
I slowly nod, biting my lip and he slaps my clit again.
"Yes sir." I say out of breath, closing my eyes for a moment.
His hand travels up to my neck and he holds me place. "Look at yourself Anastasia. Your body is all lit up for me, only me. You're completely mine, aren't you?" He kisses my temple, still looking into my eyes and I feel my vision blur a little.
"Yours, Sir."
"This is who you are. You're meant for me. Your body craves me just as I crave you. Do you see that, baby... do you feel it?" I feel his voice vibrate against my skin. I'm losing my ability to keep coherent. "Tell me Anastasia." He commands.
"Yes, Sir." I am now wound up so tight, I could snap at any minute. I breathe and try to control myself.
He slowly turns my face towards him, his hand resting on my neck. I get lost in his eyes, his breathing is heavy like mine. He kisses me, soft and gentle kisses to start with and then I feel his tongue graze my lower lip and slowly meet my own and I start to lose myself again. He teases me with his fingers and I moan into him. I'm so close and I can feel my knees start to turn to jelly.
He immediately stops and breaks away and I take a few seconds to open my eyes and the bastard is smirking at me. I give him a small smile.
"You were getting a little lost there, we can't have that now can we. Not yet at least."
I whimper a response because my brain is still all scattered. He turns me around slowly and starts to stroke himself.
"This is what you do to me baby."
I look down and even though we've been together a while now, I can't a) how big it is and b) how does it fit into me. Every time he enters me it feels like the first time, minus any pain.
I look up at and kneel down biting my lip, never taking my eyes off of him. I take him in my hand. I stroke him a few times and then take him in my mouth. Making out with his cock at this point, I hear his breathing get louder, almost moaning at he throws head back. He tries to get me to stop but I don't till growls and picks me up, making me wraps my legs around him as he walks us to the bed.
He lays me down and kisses me. It's a searing, all consuming kiss that drives me insane. I wrap my legs around him, urging him to fill me. Once he does, all bets are off. He fucks me, really fucks me, hitting the spot every time. It's sensory overload with his fingers on my clit, his cock inside of me and his tongue in my mouth.
My brain is in the clouds somewhere. My nether regions are going off like fireworks and my mouth? Well that hoe is like a girl gone wild during spring break in Miami.
Which is funny because, it essentially is spring break season in Miami.
"Come on, Ana. Give it to me." He says with clenched teeth as he pounds into me with a force.
I don't even know what I'm saying or what sounds I'm making but pretty soon, I come and feel Christian still going at it when he stills and grunts, pouring himself into me as he calls out my name.
His face is so beautiful as he looks down at me. I belong to him and he belongs to me. He leans down for a kiss and it's soft and gentle.
"I love you baby."
"I love you." I whisper back.
He tries to pull out but I don't let him. He smiles at me and strokes my cheek, looking into my eyes. No matter how much fun we have or how gentle or rough the sex is, there are times when I'm so overcome with emotion for what I feel for him and how he makes me feel. I never thought, I'd ever feel safely desired; in a way that wasn't through eyes of deceit and harm. One look from him and I am completely his. Always and forever.
I guess that's what the universe wanted for us. Yes we had been in the same spaces, even held each other's hand briefly but never had we been in close proximity to look into each other's eyes, in a moment of stillness. That's what we needed. Just us. Close.
"You're so precious to me Ana. I wish you could see it." He says to me with reverence.
I'm unable to speak. I will myself to believe him. To accept the way that he sees me to be enough.
"What are you thinking of Miss Steele?" He asks and kisses the corner of my mouth.
"Thinking of you, Mr. Grey... more with you." I smile back. I feel him start to get hard inside me and I bite my lip at the sensation.
"Let me take care of that need, Miss Steele." He smirks and slowly makes love to me.
Saturday, March 21st, 2020
CPOV
It appears that the one thing Karan is absolute shit at is cooking. The Ana and Aashu took charge of brunch today while Tony is in charge of an all out Italian dinner tonight. They have a golden retriever Spencer who shuffles between Aashu and Ana, effectively ignoring all the men. He's clearly a ladies man.
Once we're done with brunch we relax outside in their outdoor patio area. Ana's curled up with me as we continue to talk about different things.
Suddenly, her phone rings and she starts to laugh.
"It's Jose... my friend from GEH... this should be fun. He only calls me when he's freaking out." She accepts the call and sets it to speaker.
"Hi... Quee"
"DON'T HI QUEEN ME YOU INSUFFERABLE HAG." He spits out.
We all try to keep ourselves from laughing.
"I'm guessing this is about the Seattle Nooz article from this morning?"
"You bet your scrawny white ass it is... I saw that video of you two dancing. I SWEAR I ALMOST GOT PREGNANT."
"Did you now?" Ana giggles.
"I know the hot girl was your cousin but who are those two hotties that were with you?"
Karan and Tony are losing it now. Aashu is hiding her face in a pillow to keep herself from laughing.
"Oh... that's my cousin Karan and our friend Tony."
"Well..."
"Well, what?" she asks.
"When are they coming to Seattle?"
"You're married, Jose."
"DIOS MIO! Bitch, I'm married not blind, deaf and mute."
"I'll let you know when they'll visit. Then you can stare at them up close all you want."
"Good. I only ask for the little things in life."
"How's Miami?"
"It's great, I love it here. By the way, everyone says hi, they think you're hilarious." Ana giggles and we hear Jose gasp.
"You put me on speakerphone again? You bitch... HI EVERYONE... DON'T BELIEVE A WORD THIS HAG TELLS YOU. OKAY BYEEEEE." He hangs up.
We all burst out laughing.
"So this is the Jose you talk about?" Karan asks in between his laughing.
"Yeah, he's my Queen at GEH. He makes life entertaining for me. He's burning with jealousy because he wants to be here too."
...
"Bachay, guess who I ran into in London while having lunch?"
"No idea."
"Shasa Aunty."
Ana groans. "That bitch is still alive?"
"Alive and kicking." He laughs. "She asked about you, said she always knew you'd land a whale."
Ana takes a deep breath. "Karan, this time I'll seriously backhand the bitch when I see her. Thank god she didn't end up coming to Kiran's wedding but if she says something to me at Aashu's wedding... I'm throwing her off the Bay Bridge."
"Who is this woman?" I ask. Not many people illicit this reaction from Ana and it's amusing.
"This woman, more like dis bitch, I should say..." she giggles and then continues. "When Rania was getting married, it was my first time appearing out in the family since the accident... and well, Karan will attest to this, I looked... different. I had lost all the weight and suddenly I was a 'prospect'."
I look to Karan and he shrugs in affirmation.
"Any way, so Shasa Aunty is a Nani's niece... basically part of the extended family that's settled in London. She saw me at the wedding and I kid you not, this bitch is like...wait, I need to channel her accent for this... yeah so she's like 'Oh God, Aana. It's so good to see you again, looking so well and the weight loss is incredible... you know, Nita, if you're interested in setting Aana up, I know so many prospects who would love to talk to her and get to know her." Ana speaks in the perfect british accent with perfect animation and it's hilarious but then I feel a frission of anger run through me.
"What's her full name?" I ask in as measured a tone as I can.
"She's small fish Christian bhai, don't worry... we keep her around for the entertainment..." Aashu laughs.
"Yeah... so Nita in the most polite way possible shut her down saying that Aana is not interested she's still in college etc. THEN, DIS BITCH has the audacity go on and say, that I always thought you were a lovely girl but with this new look you're such a beautiful woman, don't worry you can tell your Shasa Aunty whenever you're interested in settling down... I just looked at her and was like... NO THANK YOU... and by the way Karan bhai, that was why I was such a bitch that first night when we went to McDonald's because every human being in the extended family was coming up to me telling me how the weight loss was so infreakingcredible."
"I know Bachay... you know how our people are... no filter whatsoever." He smiles apologetically.
"That's fucked up." I say.
"It is but I rarely get to see the extended family... it was jarring at Rania's wedding but then I learned to tune it out by the third day... but the damage was done. She had taken a few pictures of me and sent them to her network of aunties who were looking for brides for the sons and as soon as Rania's wedding was over... Mama, Alia Khala and Nani were bombarded with calls about me and wanting to know if I would consider talking to their son." She laughs out loud.
I give her a look. I know this doesn't matter at all but I find this all too fucking weird. She looks back at me and gives me a small kiss.
"Don't worry, now that I'm dating you no one will even dare look at me."
"They better fucking not." I realize I sound a little petulant and everyone laughs.
"Don't worry Christian Bhai, now that she with a white guy... she's too much of a hoe." Aashu cackles
"Why?" I ask, amused.
"It's a thing. It would be different if I was dating a south Asian guy, these women would still try to get me to notice their sons but now that I'm dating a white guy... well, there's just no competition. Also, south Asian men are really weird. As soon as they've found out you've dated a white guy... they lose interest in you. It's like they know they'll never measure up... it's an ego thing." She sasses.
"Well, then I'm glad I got to you before all those insufferable bastards could." I smirk.
"Same here, Mr. Grey." She kisses me while Karan, Tony and Aashu howl and clap.
...
I find Ana floating on her back in the pool when I jump in. I swim to her and give her a small kiss.
"Having fun, Miss Steele?"
"Yes Mr. Grey, I feel at peace right now." She stands up and puts her arms around me and gives me a dreamy smile and I feel the surge of emotion in my chest. The color of the water really brings out her eyes.
"I'm glad to hear that baby... I have to say, I am really liking you in a bikini."
"I thought you liked me naked." She wiggles eyebrows
"Well, yes but for now, this bikini is still doing a good job and giving me lots of ideas."
"Keep those ideas to yourself. We're in public."
"So? If you're really quiet I'm sure we can get away with it."
"Christian Grey, I should spank your ass." She tries to scold me but ends up giggling.
"You'd only hurt your hand baby..."
"Fine, I'll get a riding crop" She laughs.
"Well, well... someone has been doing some research." I smirk.
"Shut up, I saw it in my initial research." She rolls her yes.
"Would you be willing to experiment, I think you'd really like it." Please say yes.
She tries to suppress a smile and shrugs. "Maybe... " I hear her breathing hitch.
"There's my little freak." I give her a quick kiss.
She giggles. "You know, it's the first time I've felt comfortable wearing a bikini. I feel safe here so I don't mind."
"What about Cabo, didn't you guys go swimming?"
"Everyone did but... " she looks down. "There were too many new people and I was very uncomfortable wearing something revealing in front of some people..." she swallows and I immediately understand what she means. "I just work summer dresses... and told everyone that I didn't like being in the water. Besides... The scar I have on my thigh... I didn't want anyone asking me about it... people don't exactly have the finesse to ask about that stuff."
"I'm sorry baby."
"No, it's okay... it's taken me a really long time to think my body is acceptable, I guess. I'm still working on not always seeing my flaws... it's just a work in progress I guess." She cocks her head to the side and gives me a small smile.
When you looked at me
Eyes the deepest blue
There was nothing else
It was only you
I give her a small kiss.
"KNOCK IT OFF YOU TWO." Tony yells and runs and cannonballs into the pool making us laugh.
Soon, Karan and Aashu join us as well.
"You guys, I think I'm ready to be a real housewife of Miami." Ana declares.
"Of course you are, you two dollar hoe." Tony sneers.
"EXCUSE ME... I was a two dollar hoe in 2019... in 2020, I've graduated to being a private jet hoe so if you're going to insult me... at least get it right." She sasses and we all laugh.
...
After sometime in the pool we find ourselves back inside and relaxing. Karan, Aashu and Ana are deep in animated conversation on the couch together on the far side of the room about the dances for the wedding, every now and then she bursts out laughing, I can't stop looking at her.
Tony and I discuss his next moves in Texas and the overall projection of what him and Karan are trying to achieve. We both find ourselves staring at Karan, Aashu and Ana after a bit when Tony pulls me out of my reverie.
"I owe Ana a lot. She saved our relationship." He smiles softly at her.
I look back at him confused.
"Karan and I had only been together about a year at the time and he invited me over to his cousin's wedding in SF to introduce me as the new business partner, which I was in addition to our romantic one. During the festivities I think one of the indian magazine editors who was there probably noticed something between Karan and I, I mean we tried to be super careful but I guess the editor picked up on something. Ana overheard the editor talk to her boss on the phone about pursuing this as a story and getting a picture of us. Later that evening when Karan and I were heading back to our room, we were being followed by that reporter and Ana ran behind us and put her hand in Karan's and kissed his cheek out of the blue, telling him how much she missed him. It caught us by surprise and when we got in the elevator she quickly closer the elevator before the reporter could get on and told us what happened..."
I look at him in shock.
"She didn't even know Karan was gay and it was her first time out in a huge family celebration after her accident and she did something so huge for us. I'm forever in her debt. We got close that weekend and she told us about Vishaal, it was like a weight had been lifted off her and Karan to finally find someone in the family who understands. Since then Karan and I have tried to take care of her as best as we can and as much as she'll let us all while keeping the balance in the family..." His voice wavers a bit.
"So yeah Grey, you mess with her then you face our wrath... oh also Spencer there but he's a lazy ass most of the time." Spencer looks back at us at the sound of his name and softly barks as Tony lets out a laugh.
"I never knew that. She just told me the tabloid reported a rumor." My voice is barely whisper.
"Yeah... she didn't think they'd report that since she was kind of a nobody. She knows how much Kiran and Vishaal have an issue with Karan and Aashu so she does her best to balance everything while still showing up for them completely. Her pictures got plastered over the indian tabloids after that with the rumor she was dating Karan. They hounded her online and she had to disappear from social media but it died down quickly, she even handled the family's questions with grace telling them it was a rumor and they took an innocent interaction and blew it out of proportion. She's got good instincts and a shit ton of fight in her..." Tony says with pride.
"She never ceases to amaze me Tony. She's completely changed my life." I tell him.
"That's the beauty of who she is. A simple and beautiful girl with so much power and yet she doesn't realize her own potential. Let's cheers to that" he tips his beer bottle to me and we clink.
"What are you guys cheering to?" Ana asks as she walks towards to us.
"We're cheering to having you in our lives." I smile at her.
"Yeah yeah, that's only cause I feed you all." She laughs as she pets Spencer who's now lying at her feet asking for a belly rub.
I'm so out of my depth and in love with her. She's a fucking saint.
She sit close to me for a bit. "I'm going to go and talk to Aashu now. I've already told Karan that I'm going to. Hopefully it won't be too bad." I see the apprehension in her eyes.
I nod and give her a small kiss. "I'm here if you need me."
"I know." She gives me a small smile but I see tears start to form in her eyes but she quickly recovers.
...
It's been a while since Ana and Aashu have been inside talking. I can see Karan is nervous. He's a little distracted and keeps looking towards the stairs that lead up to the bedrooms. Tony and I continute to talk about sports when we suddenly hear Ana call out Aashu's name as she runs down the stairs.
"ARE YOU FUCKING KIDDING ME? Aashu lashes out at Karan in tears.. "YOU HAVE KNOWN FOR FOUR YEARS AND YOU DID NOTHING? BOTH OF YOU..." she spits out. I see Ana behind her crying.
"Aashu, bachay..." He stands up to try and tries to console her but she steps back. She looks at Tony and I.
She points at me "AND YOU, YOU'RE HER BOYFRIEND HOW COULD YOU NOT DO ANYTHING. YOU HAVE THE MEANS." I open my mouth to speak but truth is I'm a little shocked in this moment... before I regain my composure.
"AASHA. DON'T YOU DARE SPEAK TO THEM LIKE THAT. YOU WILL NOT BE DISRECPECTFUL."
"WHY AANAPA? WHY? THEY SHOULD'VE DONE SOMETHING AS SOON AS THEY FOUND OUT."
"BECAUSE IT IS MY DECISION AND I TOLD THEM NOT TO. YOU BETTER FUCKING CALM DOWN AND APOLOGIZE TO THEM... NOW. AASHA." Ana roars at Aashu and I see her eyes drop to the floor.
"Don't make me repeat myself Aasha." Ana warns.
More tears fall from Aashu's eyes. "I'm sorry, I shouldn't have yelled at you all like that... I just... I don't understand why we aren't doing anything."
Ana takes a deep breath. "Because Aashu, we can't do anything."
"Why not?"
"You know how fucked up he is. This is between me and him. He wants me to play a game and I am not fucking playing any more games. I am tired Aashu. I have been tired for the past four years, okay. I am done. He took the Akash smackdown as the first sign of engagement and I fucked up okay. I should've been smart and maintain my no engagement position but I am really at my wits end now."
Game, what fucking game is she talking about?
"Aanapa we can help you... please." Aashu pleads.
"I DON'T WANT ANYONE'S HELP. OKAY. I HAVE BEEN ALONE IN THIS ALL THIS TIME. I WAS ALONE WHEN HE RAPED ME. I WAS ALONE WHEN I WOKE UP IN EXCRUCIATING PAIN. I WAS ALONE WHEN HE TRIED TO FORCE HIMSELF ON ME ALL THOSE TIMES THROUGHOUT THE YEARS. WHEN HE SLAPPED ME AND WHEN HE ALMOST BROKE MY ARM. I HAVE ALWAYS BEEN ALONE. SO THIS IS BETWEEN ME AND HIM AND AS LONG AS I DO NOT ENGAGE WITH HIM..." She shakes her head and runs her hands through her hair. "I'm really tired. I can't sleep. He is always in my brain, taunting me... living my life and doing the most simple things I am reminded of things that I don't want to be thinking of. I am really trying to move forward..."
He fucking did what?
Karan moves towards her.
"NO. Please. Just stop. I don't want anyone to touch me." She takes a few steps back.
"Ana, baby..." I call out to her.
"Please, no." She shakes her head.
Aashu looks to her again. "You need to tell the family. This is all wrong Aanapa. We need to do something."
"And if it rips the family apart? If he comes after me for slander? I don't have the resources to fight him or the proof Aashu... and even if I were by some miracle able to prove what he did to me, it would be the kill switch for KGI."
What the fuck?
"What about recording him, getting him to admit on tape what he did."
Ana takes a deep breath and I can tell she's really getting frustrated. "Aashu, you're a law school student, you of all people should know that pretty much all states have an all-party consent rule to recording in person conversations. Even if I did, it would be inadmissible. I haven't talked him to on the phone in years, if I were to suddenly call him and talked specifically about this; he would see this coming from 10 miles away. You don't think he's thought of everything? YOU KNOW HIM." She takes a few moments. "Look, I just want to wait till the Will is read. Once we know what's been decided, I will quietly walk away. I will not be the reason why everything just dissolves into chaos after everything this family has done for me. Please just stop this. I told you because as much as I am dying to be part of your wedding like I did with Kiran's, I can't. Not with Vishaal AND Akash being at the forefront of it. I can't handle them both."
We all are silent. Ana's voice is the only one that echoes throughout the house and it's painful watching her relive all this. She doesn't make any eye contact with us, she just stares at the coffee table and talks.
She turns away and heads back up the stairs. Tony walks to Aashu and tells Karan he'll take her out to get some last minute groceries for tonight's dinner.
I go up after Ana and find her sitting on the floor by the foot of the bed in the guest room.
I sit next to her but keep my distance.
"Christian, I'm fine. I just want to be alone for a while. Please."
"Baby, I don't want to see you like this."
"I know but this is just how it all is. I just need some time. Please try and understand."
"Okay, I'll be downstairs with Karan if you need me."
She nods and pets Spencer whose curled next to her.
I walk downstairs and find Karan pouring himself a drink. He sees me and takes out another glass.
"I guess we're going to need a lot of this today." He says with a sad smile.
"Yeah, I guess."
"I'm sorry for how Aashu reacted. She's... well, she loves Aana a lot and it's all coming from..."
I interrupt him. "I know, it's okay. I feel the exact same way as her. I'm angry that I can't do anything. She also won't tell me anything."
"Because you're her boyfriend. She knows if she told you all the details that you'd end up in jail for murder. It's her way of protecting all of us."
"But she doesn't have to."
"I know."
"What did she mean by the kill switch for KGI?"
"She hasn't told you?"
"Karan, there is a lot that I don't know and I'm trying to be patient but the fucker... seeing the terrifying effect he has on her... I can't bear it. She hasn't been sleeping well since she came back from SF and that was almost three weeks ago. There's something going on and it's fucking with her brain. You heard her just now."
He looks down and nods. "Follow me to my study, I'll tell you what I can."
Authors Note:Next chapter will have a lot of details about the Will speculation. Karan will reveal a lot of Ana and Vishaal's relationship.
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Music:
Sicko Mode – Travis Scott feat. Drake
My Imagination – Majid Jordan feat. dvsn
Hey Ma – Pitbull & J Balvin feat. Camilla Cabello
Havana – Camilla Cabello
When you move - Parachute