1-800-273-8255 (Logic ft. Khalid & Alessia Cara)
Featuring: Vocals (Me/Pirobal & Lincoln as rapper/Logic, Clyde as Khalid, Sam Sharp as Alessia) Instruments (Luna, Sully, Mazzy, MTV/VMA)
Special Guests: Dr. Lopez and other therapists, NSPL, Families and friends.
AN: This is from a different Loud-Verse (TLH/TC - 8255), and this dimension is a bit of a dramatic, if not tragic setting. Think of this place as the dimension where "Brother in Shade" happened. There's a reason why I deviated from the suggestions I made myself and went straight to this song. I'll cover that in the second Author's Note. For now let's get this over with. Without further ado, leave a like, review/request, follow and I hope you enjoy. God Bless, Stay Safe and Peace/Shalom!
-Music Start: Instrumental Intro-
[Pre-Chorus: Lincoln]
I've been on the low, I been taking my time
I feel like I'm out of my mind
It feel like my life ain't mine (Who can relate? Woo)
I've been on the low, I been taking my time
I feel like I'm out of my mind
It feel like my life ain't mine
[Chorus: Me/Pirobal]
I don't wanna be alive, I don't wanna be alive
I just wanna die today, I just wanna die
I don't wanna be alive, I don't wanna be alive
I just wanna die
And let me tell you why
[Verse 1: Me/Pirobal & Lincoln]
All this other shit I'm talkin' 'bout, they think they know it
I've been praying for somebody to save me, no one's heroic
And my life don't even matter, I know it, I know it
I know I'm hurting deep down, but can't show it
I never had a place to call my own
I never had a home, ain't nobody callin' my phone
Where you been? Where you at? What's on your mind?
They say every life precious but nobody care about mine
[Pre-Chorus: Me/Pirobal]
I've been on the low, I been taking my time
I feel like I'm out of my mind
It feel like my life ain't mine (Who can relate? Woo)
I've been on the low, I been taking my time
I feel like I'm out of my mind
It feel like my life ain't mine
[Chorus: Lincoln]
I want you to be alive, I want you to be alive
You don't gotta die today, you don't gotta die
I want you to be alive, I want you to be alive
You don't gotta die, now let me tell you why
[Verse 2: Sam Sharp]
It's the very first breath when your head's been drowning underwater
And it's the lightness in the air when you're there chest-to-chest with a lover
It's holding on, though the road's long, seeing light in the darkest things
And when you stare at your reflection, finally knowing who it is
I know that you'll thank God you did
[Verse 3: Lincoln & Me/Pirobal]
I know where you been, where you are, where you goin'
I know you're the reason I believe in life
What's the day without a little night?
I'm just tryna shed a little light
It can be hard
It can be so hard
But you gotta live right now
You got everything to give right now
[Pre-Chorus: Me/Pirobal]
I've been on the low, I been taking my time
I feel like I'm out of my mind
It feel like my life ain't mine (Who can relate? Woo)
I've been on the low, I been taking my time
I feel like I'm out of my mind
It feel like my life ain't mine
[Chorus: Me/Pirobal]
I finally wanna be alive, I finally wanna be alive
I don't wanna die today, I don't wanna die
I finally wanna be alive, I finally wanna be alive
I don't wanna die, I don't wanna die
[Outro: Clyde]
Pain don't hurt the same, I know
The lane I travel feels alone
But I'm moving 'til my legs give out
And I see my tears melt in the snow
But I don't wanna cry, I don't wanna cry anymore
I wanna feel alive, I don't even wanna die anymore
Oh, I don't wanna
I don't wanna
I don't even wanna die anymore
-Music End-
PiroBal: I know there are people out there that needs help. You are not alone in this struggle. No matter what your origin is, I'm glad I can use this platform to talk about something real. We all have our mental battles, such as anxiety, depression, suicidal thoughts, traumas and so much more. It doesn't matter what your origin such as religion or ethnicity or sexual orientation is. We're here to fight for you and remind everybody that you are not alone. We are born and created equal but we lived and are treated as if we are not. For the sake not just for ourselves, but of future generations out there that will soon rise after us. This is for peace, love and familial unity will all of us.
Its was a standing ovation from the audience and the VIP (The therapists, NSPL, families, and friends). Us singers had received hugs from the friends and families that are invited and Lisa kinda offered antidepressants and phone numbers of doctors that can help. It will take me days before I can go back to a different Loud-Verse but it was worth it here so maybe a little time wouldn't hurt at all.
-END-
AN: Okay as for the reason why I did this is because I had some sad news. No, I didn't commit the deed but I was at the verge of doing so. I found myself lost again and the healing I did or tried to do felt in vain. I'm still suffering this mental illness and was about to give up hope. I felt abandoned. I didn't want to do this because it might sound as if I seek attention like a nuisance. But I needed a place to vent and all I can do is cry here in my bedroom. I even got a flu again from all this negativity and the rainy weather. Spiritually, I became doubtful too. That's the reason why I became agnostic. I lost reason to believe in religious dogma like a few years ago when I'm still in college. I'm nowhere near of ever getting to understand God's will for me as to all the people of the world. It is the truth I wanted to get off my chest. I read some books about doubting religious systems like the Pauline doctrines (Letters of Paul, I can't believe I missed the negative parts of this guy's life and how much he contradicted the Torah/Teachings of Moshe/Moses), questioning patriotism and militarism (okay this one I get the idea).
Here are some Suicide Prevention Hotline. I hope you don't ignore this.
USA: 1-800-273-8255
Philippines: 0917-899-8727/0917-558-4673
Japan: 110/119 (General Police and Ambulance number)
Israel: 100/100 (Gen. Police and Ambulance) 1201/972-9 8891333 or 076-88444-00
Canada: 911 (General Emergency)
These are current line of suggestions:
Weak by AjR
Savage Love by Jason Derulo
Kiss (Never Let Me Go) by Thyro and Yumi
How to Save a Life by The Fray
Cradles by Suburban
Am I Wrong by Nico & Vinz
Beautiful Scars by Maximilian
Suggestion
We Are The Champions by Queen [cruz2018 - To be done in August]
Once again, Thanks you, leave a like, review/request, follow and I hope you enjoy. God Bless, Stay Safe and Peace/Shalom!