breaking point

by max333

What if Usagi had finally decided enough was enough? Between the jabs and the lame excuses on problems going on involving not only Mamoru but Chibi Usa as well, Usagi has had enough and hits her breaking point. Now the girls must realize their own individual faults in the conflict and rise together to show Usagi that she is the glue that holds them together.

32. revelations & choices part 1

Puffgirl1952 the 2nd : lol that would be entertaining to see and write. Lol

Adelita P.M: your right, it isn't. and yeah she and her dad needed to talk and she needed to get that out about Mamoru. And oh boy will she learn the truth.

Joanne Frances Tiano Cajilig : fathers do and he's still on the fence but he's working at it. How the truth gets revealed will be a dousy.

LoveInTheBattleField: thank you.

Princesakarlita411: jealous Mamoru is always nice, and yeah the talk was needed between them.

AimlesslyGera: her reaction will be big believe that.

beets6669: that is coming up VERY shortly.

Rjzero00: you'll find out soon enough. Your imagination is not that far off from mine but it is different. Lol you'll see.

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Breaking point ch.32

Makoto POV (several days ago)

I was still upset that we couldn't tell Usagi just yet about Chibi Usa's problem but damn it if Minako didn't have a point about my speed. In my senshi form I was able to make it to Mamoru's place in record time. Jumping all over buildings and sprinting past them so fast at one point it felt like I was truly flying through the air. In fact, by the time I set my sights on his building I was willing to bet that I'd just set a new speed record.

Especially to get there in the time that I did and while it was yes annoying that Minako didn't do the job herself it was worth it when I landed on it cleanly then swung myself down to Mamoru's balcony without knocking anything over though I did manage to scare the living crap out of him as he had the sliding door open. I can only imagine the sight I made as I swung down and landed gracefully within a few meters of him.

He literally jumped up into a fighting stance, as he had been sitting on the couch next to the balcony, dropped his phone while his coffee mug flipped into the air, landed, broke on impact and the coffee went everywhere. Though he didn't seem to mind that as he nearly fumbled his phone around for a moment before gripping it as if he were going to use it as a weapon himself before he realized who it was and relaxed.

You'd think by now having a life like we do that this wouldn't happen but I guess since we hadn't had any enemies in as long as we had even he let that side of his persona get comfortable enough to let his guard down a bit. "Jupiter!" he coughed once he realized that it was me. He looked a tad annoyed now as he looked down at his coffee stained floor and went to go get a dish cloth to wipe up the coffee.

Apparently by the time he and Minako communicated and when I got there was pretty close, so he hadn't counted on me being there so soon, so he was easily startled. He then abandon the wash cloth as he started to assume another fight to be prepared for, "Is there an enemy?" that's when I saw him begin to pull a rose, "Hold it there hot shot." Putting my hands up to prevent him from transforming himself.

He looked at me since I was in my senshi fuku. "There's nothing wrong, I just needed a speed boost since I'm on the clock and couldn't afford to much of a time lapse." I tell him as he almost transformed himself. He finally released the tension in his form as he was aiming for the dish towel again when I walked forward and handed him the two tickets I hide safely on my person. I had put them in my subspace pocket when I traveled so that they wouldn't bounce out of my fuku, not that I thought they would but better safe than sorry.

He didn't question it as he took them from me. I'm just glad that he didn't try to transform right afterwards. I didn't want that 'bunny radar' of his to active her into thinking something was wrong. I wasn't sure if it went the other way around, but soul mates could feel it if one was in trouble from the other or not. Its how they knew if something was happening to the other around the world.

Something Minako taught me. That and trust in her wisdom, which I will admit I was questioning right now for other reasons. Either way I didn't want Usagi to know something was up. She'd know something was off if he transformed and she felt it. They may be back into the grove of dating right now but if she felt something activate, I didn't want anything to go wrong or for her to question WHY he was transformed if not for practice.

And as I looked around, I definitely COULDN'T see Mamoru using practice as a reason to be transformed in his place. It was too nice and there was risk of damaging some good modern architecture. It wasn't believable so she would ask more questions that couldn't be answered on top of that. I was sure of that. "Here are the tickets Minako mentioned, use them wisely cause honestly were all getting tired of holding this secret back." I tell him.

He gripes the tickets in his hand once he receives them. "You think I don't feel that way?" he nearly snaps at me. I'm about to tell him off for his tone. He doesn't need to snap at me when I'm the one helping make this delivery and Minako's the one who got the damned tickets to begin with. Granted they were for free to her and her parents go them but still, don't bite the head off of the messenger.

Especially when the messenger, i.e. myself, could kick your ass from here to China and back. He May be a prince here on earth, but I wouldn't hesitate to kick his ass if need be. I'm not the princess of Jupiter for nothing. We're a group of strong and proud fighters, we don't take it lying down. Before I can lay into him about his tone and words that's when I see the torn expression on his face.

I hold back on my own words as I see the anger at the situation and realize that he's just hitting his own wits end with this. He hates to keep this a secret just as much as we do. I sigh and tell him, "Look I get it okay." He looks to me, "You think we like to keep this from her?" I ask, "You think we WANT to keep this from her? Trust me Mamoru we all feel as you do, even if Minako, the one who's essentially convincing us all to NOT tell her, and acts like its easy to keep this a secret, she hates it most of all."

I knew Minako well enough to know that she has been back and forth over this to. After all, Usagi trusted her first after things went south. She'd never want to betray her trust like that or become the one person Usagi would feel the most betrayed by. She's taking a huge risk as we all are by not telling her. I just hoped the risk panned out in the end and that's when this was all leading up to.

"Usagi trusted her first after things went south for a lot of us and she doesn't want to lose Usagi over this." He agrees as he looks at the tickets briefly, "I had hoped Usagi would have trusted me before some of the others, I mean she knew me before most of you…" I couldn't help but feel a tad annoyed by that. Fine yes, he was right, but WE girls had an actual friendship with her, he was a 'freinemy' before they became friends then lovers.

Didn't mean he had to rub my nose in it. Not that that was his intention but still. It did rub me a bit as I avoided rolling my eyes at him. He must have sensed my displeasure as he amended, "Not to take away from your friendships with her but I always felt a connection with her that I couldn't explain in the beginning." I gestured to keep going as I kept my patience and cool. I was still on a limited time frame here.

"But I guess after everything that happened between us, I didn't exactly give her reason to trust in me much more than she already did, only reasons to keep a guard up around me." His words sound like a confession as I see the angered at himself expression in his eyes. I sighed and knew I had to express my understanding of what he was feeling, after all o could see the level of doubt that he had.

The need to break down and confess everything to her. We had seen our very enemies do it to her to. Hell, we had seen our enemies lay down their lives for her. Only Usagi could elicit such a response as to get an evil dick prince to trade his life for hers. All she ever did was give him the truth and in turn he made one final act of good. She was a person worth loving and respecting as not just a future queen but as a leader…and we were doing this to her.

Mamoru knew the level of compassion she elicited form others, but he also knew that her big heart could also get her into trouble to. He just let his need to protect her outweigh knowing that he could trust her regardless of the situation. He let the doubts in and when you're in a relationship of any kind you need to express your doubts, or they can seriously impede a relationship. Irony is I think our doubts on how she would have reacted might just do that with our relationship with her, yet we were STILL taking that risk.

And here I was working to convince him of the purpose through what I knew I would be feeling if I were in his shoes which on another side of things…in a sense I was. "It's hard to trust people for people like us." He looks to me knowingly as I barely meet his eyes then full on look at him as he sees exactly what I mean. He knows what I'm talking about though. Its hard NOT to see the same look in the other's eyes.

Years of being in similar environments gives us both a way of understanding what the other is talking about. It's something only one who's been in foster care can see with just a look. It's almost…almost similar to the one where you know if someone else besides yourself has been in prison. They just have that look. The one that means you've had some form of institutionalization and somehow managed to come out with your head on straight on the other side and are alive.

So, I know he'll get the meaning of it. "It's hard to trust others even when their Usagi or especially cause their Usagi." I can see the expressions changing on his face. He didn't have to say it because I knew it. "You can't understand why someone so pure, kind-hearted and beautiful inside and out would want to be there for us when no one else was." I express as I felt the words myself deep down.

I could tell it was hard for him to hear perhaps his own thoughts voiced out by someone else, but it was the truth. For people like us it was hard to accept that good things could happen. Losing people, you love at an early age has a tremendous impact on you. We both lost our respective parents at early ages and went into foster care due to it. Granted we never once met during that time, but still I knew how the system worked. I knew how hard it was too be accepted as a kid when you only wanted your parents.

I know for the longest time that as a kid I even wondered why my parents left me. The day they left the house was the last day I ever saw them. Granted from Usagi I know a tad bit about Mamoru but only because she trusted me NOT to talk about it. It was a sensitive subject which was also why I was talking to him about this now. I t felt like it was time for us both to have this particular chat.

Or maybe it was late…either way it didn't hurt. I'll just make up an excuse on why I was late if she notices. "You know sometimes I wonder why they couldn't have taken me with them even though I wouldn't be here today if they had." I wasn't sure how I would have been here today if they had and I'm grateful to be here. It was just a harder road to take was all. He looked to me with an understanding expression on his face.

"The thing is if things had been different then that wonderful girl we both love wouldn't be in our lives." This he knew was true. In respect I know that my parents loved me very much, and they couldn't have predicted what would have happened to them, but when you're a kid, things happened that you take into your adult life. You ask yourself 'why did they leave me here?' yet there's no answer.

I mean I was angry at them for it even. I was pissed for a while that they passed and left me alone. I wanted them to come back to life so they could take me out of foster care and tell the other kids that I was worthy of being with a happy family. Obviously, it never happened but I knew that on some level Mamoru understood that. However, it was memories like that that told me that your trust in people diminishes severely after events like that.

You're an impressionable kid. You don't trust people to be there for you so you tell yourself that you're the only one you can truly count out. So, when you hit your adult years or get close to them as Mamoru has to the few people he has trusting someone else becomes a bit of a control issue. You feel out of control if you can't be the one to regulate some aspect of it cause of things that happened or were taken out of your control as a kid.

You want to maintain that power in all aspects of your relationships and it's not to have power but to feel like you can handle those aspects. As an adult to NOT lose someone else that you love even when you were never trying to fall in love or love someone else period in the first place is a hard thing to do. Problem is with trust issues comes issues with maintaining a relationship as that's a HUGE key factor.

You begin to believe that you can't handle it. That you're not worthy enough to have it because of former relationships of people telling you exactly that. You believe them and their words because its been the experience. Being placed into the situations as we were, we had to be tougher than others. Had to be stronger and had to have a will that wanted to keep doing right in a world that said we couldn't cause of where we came from.

That said 'without parents to tell you right from wrong your statistically more unlikely to do good in the world than those WITH parents'. That we were unwanted and not good enough. We had to prove to them that we wouldn't end up on the streets. For Mamoru the world was unkind to him and yet he still pushed through and found the love of an amazing woman who was still fighting for him and him to her.

She showed us both but in this case had showed him that he wasn't the child that no one wanted, but that he was a man that had friends, family and those who loved him deeply. And it was despite his past as an orphan but his resilience that he was strong and was a good man and is making his way through to becoming a doctor. He just made errors in judgement and was paying for them now.

"I know…" he finally responded, "Its just so hard sometimes. There's so much mental re-wiring to do. It's like…" he glanced up at me, "Its like the neuropathways in your head need to be re-wired so they know it's okay. I've been working on that while we've been going out. It's gotten easier I have to admit and I'm grateful that we've gotten as far as we have." He explains and while I don't get the verbiage, I understand the tone and the message he's relaying to me as I see how it's affecting him.

"Yeah…I get it I do. It's tough in the beginning but you've been working at this as we have been to. Just don't let doubt creep in. As long as you keep up…" I indicate the tickets, "Then there's no need to let that crap in." He nods as I finally give him a small smile. I knew I sensed it creeping up on him. I felt it the moment we started to talk. He was doing well with her with however it was going.

We tried pressing for details but didn't press to much. It felt like a fragile state for her. For them both. "Listen Usagi gave us all a second chance and were not going to blow it." I tell him. "Then why does it feel like we are by NOT telling her sooner? By not having told her from the start?" he asks me as even I struggle with this. I can see the pain in him from this. By not telling her this secret earlier, he feels as out of control about it as I do. I can tell he feels ready to break soon if he DOESN'T tell her the truth.

I get his feelings on this. It's one of the reasons why I also took the messenger mission to come over today. To NOT break in front of Usagi. We both wanted her to know from the get go, or at the very least WAY earlier, but we agreed along with Ami and Minako to keep it from her so that she DIDN'T think that Mamoru was only working to get her back for Chibi Usa's sake. It did however turn into a problem to also NOT tell her.

"Cause…." I begin, "Usagi is Usagi." As if that explained everything yet also not. "But at the same time she's still as human as we are. She has her breaking points same as we do. For the two of you early on you've discovered that you let your own issues get the better of you and it nearly cost you her in the process." He turned his head downwards a bit knowing the truth of it, "I messed up in my near blinding need to protect her and keep her as mine." He admits as I see the pain of time wasted form being with her.

I could only imagine what Minako would be feeling if she were here to feel it as I'm only seeing it. It might be to much for her to handle right now. Her powers were strong yes but it's one thing to feel the depression of sorrow over that of love. I wondered if she felt the opposite in lovers that she could sense? A question for another time. "I love her more than words can express." He tells me in a voice so small yet so fierce I believe every once of emotion in it. Minako would be proud that even I could sense the love and devotion within him.

I gave a small internal chuckle for that. "I know." My words just as deep as his are as he looks at me, "And part of you will always feel that need to protect her as you had before." I could see the guilt of it in his eyes.

"I'm working to do better." He defends though with just the right amount of conviction in his tone that told me he was, "I know…and so does she, its why she's working with you to mend your bond cause despite everything that's happened between you two, despite the pain you've put her through…" he can see the tear threatening to escape his eye as he looks at me, "She will never stop loving you. She never gave up hope that she'd save you from the dark kingdom and she did it." He inhaled deeply.

The need to release emotions was strong as we stood there, "Its hard for us to trust in another even when that other is someone whom you know loves you as you love them, as deeply and fiercely as you do…even when they trust you with their lives you still have that systematic message that tells you that the only one whom you can truly trust is yourself." I saw the slightly shocked yet understanding look on his face.

"Sometimes I forget." The look was all knowing. He did sometimes forget we had likeminded back-rounds. "Shit happens." I tell him, "And for a reason…you want this to work with Usagi trust in her as she does with you. FULLY trust in her. You may trust her with your life and the world but trust her with her heart and your mind as well. Trust her to make the right decisions and the right calls." The tickets in his hands looked nearly crushed at this point.

His grip was that strong before he released them, "I guess there are some things that we never truly let go of even when we think we have." He admits in a low chuckle. "I know I still have issues to work on and she and I are working through them together. I'm better for it and for her because were talking things out." I nod, "I know and now you're working to improve them and things between you two have been mending. Just as she has."

He sighs, "I just want her to know so that there are no more secrets between us." He tells me, I can feel his frustration at this point. From one orphan to another I can feel it as he does. "Listen, I get it I do." He looks to me, sees that same edge in me, the one that he has he sees it and relaxes a bit recognizing it from one like mind to another. Almost as if from brother to sister he sees the meaning behind my words.

"We both love her in our own ways and we both want her to know the truth. She deserves it after everything she's done for us." He nods, "So do this…" I indicate the tickets, "And we can all tell her." He grips the tickets as he sighs. "Thank you, seriously I really am grateful for all of this." I wave it off a bit, "Don't be grateful just yet. Don't think that this is guaranteed just yet lover boy. You still have work to do as we all did ours." He accepts that as I leave out the window and back to the group hang out that Usagi is already at.

I haul ass to get back there as I spent a bit too much time talking to Mamoru, but I knew it was needed. From one loner to another he needed to hear what I had to say and needed to hear it from me. Perhaps that was another reason why Minako sent me instead of herself. I do sincerely hope this works out cause as I fly through the wind back towards my friends something in it tells me this won't be nearly as easy as some might think it is.

Usagi POV (now)

When Mamoru texted me a few days ago that he had gained two tickets to a resort for this Friday evening going into Saturday I was thrilled. I honestly felt excited for it. We'd go out to dinner this evening then with my duffle being packed up now and with him packing his own, we'd head out on the train to the resort for tonight going into Saturday. For all of the fun events they had going on for it.

I had texted Minako with the great news as she even volunteered to be the excuse for my parents for the overnighter as we wouldn't be back till late Saturday or early Sunday, depending on when we could get a train back since they became scarcer on the weekends. They usually were seldom less due to lack of commuters on board which made sense but still provided less chances of catching a train out due to it.

I had to admit part of me was a tad nervous as I was excited. Mamoru and I had never done anything like this before. Not ever. Not in either life if I recall correctly. It felt so 'grown up' and I felt ready for this to happen. I felt like this was supposed to happen and there was no doubts or 'what ifs' going on in my mind. There was just knowing that this was going to happen and that I felt confident in my acceptance of it.

I briefly wondered if I should have weighed my options on if we weren't ready for it but instinctively I knew we were. I had already got the text to accept written out before I could think as he asked me. He even texted me pictures of both tickets that he had procured. Almost as if he was giving me further evidence that YES this was happening and we were getting a romantic night and day away.

I pulled my phone out in the midst of packing my light pink moon duffel bag, and looked at the pictures once more. Almost as if checking for the umpteenth that this was real and it was happening for us. Not that I didn't believe him but I couldn't stop looking at them as they represented to me the undeniable proof that he was working hard to make this happen and work between us cause there in bold print on the photo shots were both tickets.

The time stamps and the seat numbers for where we were going as I read over the information once more. When he first told me, I tried not to sound too excited on the phone, not wanting to get my hopes up and forcibly stopped myself from sending the happy accepting text from sending so I didn't sound to eager. Then he texted the picture to me. Proof that this was not only happening but that it was real. Granted some might think that he was making plans without my consent especially considering his own issues.

However, he did ask me out for Friday and we have been having dates between Friday and Saturday so I decided to take this as 'I'm making extra effort for us' and not as 'I'm trying to exert control over the situation and using this to do it'. He was trying to be romantic and do something surprising for me, for us, and there was no backing out of this. There was no 'cancelled plans' cause as I'd found out upon a quick web search, the tickets went for a decent amount of yen.

Plus after everything that had happened between us I truly believed that this was happening. He had given me renewed faith in his commitment to us as a whole. There was not a chance in hell that he'd bail or cancel out when so much was at stake. He may be sometimes a tad socially inept BUT he wasn't so glorified stupid that he'd do something to ruin this for us both. Not after all the effort he had been putting in to prove that things had changed.

You don't do all of that just to blow it when you're in the home run stretch…so to speak. I held real hope and real assurance that this would be a weekend not to ever be forgotten for us and I couldn't wait till it started. It's why I was packing with such forethought. I wanted to be sure that I had something to wear for any occasion while we were there AND extras of the essentials just to be safe.

Though I will admit that I did grab some other protective rubber essentials hidden away in a drawer on my night stand hidden at the bottom. I hadn't used them in so long I actually had to check the date on the packaging to make sure they were still good. Thankfully condoms could last a few years before they went bad. I wasn't expecting sex to happen BUT if the mood felt right then I definitely wasn't going to object.

Those were tightly and safely packed in to avoid any potential sights to be found by any surprise inspections by my family. Not that I thought they would, dad wasn't THAT bad and did respect that privacy especially since there was such a huge risk of seeing undergarments that could scar us BOTH for life…again…he I'm sure wasn't too keen to seeing that again even by accident, the last time that happened was a screaming moment for us both for sure.

Its why to this day mother does the folding of laundry when she does it and he doesn't touch it at all. The mental picture of dad looking horrified at seeing some of my lacy pieces and my own 'Dad!' as he realized why I looked on in horror was enough to scare us both. However, just to be just to be safe I packed them into a hidden compartment on the inside. Once the duffel bag was nice and tightly packed I went downstairs, duffle slung over my shoulder as a knock came at the door. I smiled as I greeted Mamoru.

He smiled upon seeing me as he gave me a light kiss and saw my duffel. He smiled knowingly and just when I thought we were home free my father came around the corner. He'd come home from work early today, and of course on THIS particular Friday of all days. "Going to Mamoru's?" he asked eyeing the duffle bag with a frown, "No not at all, Mamoru's coming with me to the temple." His brow raised.

I was starting to wonder if I should have just MET Mamoru at his place but lugging the heavy duffel all the way to his place would have been difficult. It was nearly four times the weight of my school satchel and would have definitely weighted me down. "I'm really just giving her a ride there sir." He stepped forward as he easily hauled the duffel over his shoulder. A small reminder of his strength.

"We're working on studying mathematics with complex variables. I know Usagi has improved on it in the last few months but the girls want to all test how far they've come on it since their last testing. I'm here as a ride since this is a bit much to haul by walking alone." He pats the bag as if to emphasize, "And you don't mind her using you as a chauffeur?" my father asked as I bristled at him for the dig.

"I have to drive out in that area anyways so this was not a big deal. Besides as were having dinner to, I figured to pick her up from there, then drop her back off at Minako's place as planned, and no later than midnight." Mamoru said all of that with such cool confidence I had to bite the inside of my mouth to keep a smile from spreading on my face. I didn't want any change in facial expression to tip my father off.

"I know its Friday but make it 11 so that you're not bothering Minako's parents late at night." Neither of us protested since it would mean that he might become suspicious. "Agreed. After all one would want to maintain respect in a household." Mamrou tells him as he gruffly says, "Alright, be good, and Mamoru…" I watch as Mamoru meets his gaze, "Take this as your one and only warning, don't mess up again." my father could be very intimidating when he wanted to be and right now I could see the effect it had on Mamoru.

While I knew he could easily make my father submit, the utter respect he had for him made him nod and gulp. He knew family meant a great deal to me and when he was faced off against someone that had protected and loved me my whole life it I believe humbled him a bit. We walked out and I believe out of sheer willpower to NOT tip anyone off, remained silent till we were packed in the car and around the block.

Only then did we finally breath, "That went better than expected." I tell him, "Definitely. I thought for sure he'd say something further and that threat, now I know why the boys in your neighborhood look twice before thinking." I chuckled. Yes it didn't help that my father quiet literally chased boys away and had done so with him once, though technically Mamoru just felt a tad uncomfortable being around a family.

He was unaccustomed to it but he's learned from then as has my father. "Told you the excuse and plan would work though." I tell him, "Yeah but barely. Next time we meet up around the block." He suggests as I roll my eyes and agree, "Perhaps you have a point." I was just happy that he picked me up and this was actually happening. "First things first, let's go and drop this off at my place, you can get changed for dinner if you'd like, then we'll go out, eat, and once we're back, pick up our things and head out."

I looked to him with a twinkle in my eyes. So happy that this was happening that I was excited beyond what I thought I could be. For the first time in a long time I was feeling like everything was working out like it was supposed to. This is how things were supposed to be. Dating my and yes I was calling him my boyfriend again, and I would be telling him this later on this evening, and enjoying the time we had together and actually GETTING that time in together.

Things this past month had been going by so well now. I felt so much relief and barely any stress, so as I watched Mamoru drive as we chatted idly by I couldn't help but feel like nothing could take me from this high. "By the way…" he said pulling out the tickets I had only seen a snap shot of. He handed them to me and to now physically be holding them made it definitely real. This was happening.

"Hold onto them. In fact, put them in your duffle for safe keeping." He smiled. The level of trust he was placing in me to hold onto the tickets was just yet another level of love he was showcasing to me as I smiled, "No problem. These aren't going anywhere." I tell him as I put them safely tucked away in the side pocket. Once we get to his place I take off for the bathroom, glad that he's letting me get changed into something nice.

Not that the trivial yoga pants I had on wasn't nice but for a dinner date I wanted something a bit more sophisticated. So I packed away a nice black body cotton dress that clung to my every curve and showed me off nicely. It went up to my mid-thigh as I slipped on dark blue heels that added a bit of pop of color to the outfit. I stepped out into the living room, clanking a bit loudly in the heels as Mamoru redressed himself.

He was wearing a nice button up shirt and dress pants himself. He let his eyes sweep over mine as I couldn't help the wave of satisfaction that came at seeing him stunned for words but in a positive way. "You look…" he looked me up and down several times, the images going through his mind I could only imagine as he said, "I'm mean that dress is…" he seemed to get a little red there and not in embarrassment, at least not in a bad kind of way.

He seemed unable to vocalize how he was feeling but the way he kept looking at me as I shifted from side to side just to see how he'd react was proof enough that this dress was having the desired effect. "Well I hope the ends of these sentences are good." I joked as he looked up into my eyes and moved toward me, "You look incredible. Stunning. I almost just want to keep you here at home." If I were honest with myself I'd say that I wanted that to.

Seeing that look in his eyes, how much he wanted me and how much without even touching him I had turned him on made me feel so feminine and powerful made me feel sexual even. He for once was under my spell and I hadn't even tried yet. Hell I hadn't even told him about the new panties I wore specifically for tonight yet. He was already putty in my hands, yet I knew as he touched my hips and kissed me lightly, I could easily be putty in his hands to. I had to be careful tonight or else we might miss the train leaving out.

"We should go…" I warn him as he gruffly agrees yet doesn't move. It makes me smile, "Unless you want to miss out on dinner?" I giggle as both of our stomachs protest the very thoughts being verbalized. He chuckles this time to as the moment is temporarily heeded, "As much as I want to, we need nourishment." He snags one more quick kiss before gently pulling me with him out the door as we head back down to the car.

"So what restaurant are we going to?" I ask as he begins to drive off, a little bit faster than before as he replies, "A little hole in the wall place that serves the some of the best food that Japan has to offer. It's really small but wonderful, quiet and elegant as hell." He smiles as I enjoy this time together. Very soon we'll be at a resort and enjoying our night and day together. "Thank you for taking me." I tell him.

He takes my hand in his, "No thank you for letting me take you. I want this weekend to be special for you, for us. Together." He tells me as we drive through the evening. The sun hasn't yet fallen but its orange hues begin to turn another shade as he keeps its progression of sinking that much deeper. "It will be." I confide as I tell him, "I know that this weekend will be one we'll never forget."

Chibi Usa POV (earlier that day)

As I got back home from school and found that Usagi seemed to be packing up her duffle bag I wasn't sure what was going on until I heard her and Mamo – chan telling papa – Kenji that she was going over to the temple. I left out from listening in on that afterwards not needing to hear about the temple right now. So, in going back up to my room and grabbing my backpack I decided that I would leave out to. Not to the temple though, the girls needed their time to hang out, no I wanted to talk to Mamo – chan about the boost he gave me.

I had been feeling more and more like myself lately and less like I would freak out over seeing through my hand as I once had. I rarely even used the Luna P ball or any powers at all. The fear of using them in the beginning and NOT using them now felt like it was becoming somewhat regular. I was actually getting used to it. In fact, Luna P even suggested that I 'meditate' to help focus the powers I did have so I could feel for any losses.

I thought it was crap at first till I remembered that Rei did her readings so it was worth a shot and so far I could sense between my power and Mamo – chan's nearly faded out power boost he gave me. At first, I was scared but then realized that it was okay. Especially when I couldn't see through my own hand. Things were definitely changing and for the better now to. It did prove one thing though, Mamo – chan was winning Usagi back.

Cause as much as I hated to admit to it, I would be fading out again if not already gone by now if it weren't. So, I had to tell him how I was feeling regarding it all. He needed to know. It might help him out to know to. So, when over-heard that part I knew I should take this as my chance to go. I wasn't sure what was going on, but I felt very positive about my own future now and actually smiled.

I grabbed my backpack and after a half an hour after Mamo – chan and Usagi left out in his car I decided to head out to. I waited long enough till papa – Kenji was back in his office working so I could sneak out over to Mamo – chan's place. Not that I was trying to avoid papa – Kenji but I didn't need to arrive to Mamo – chan's till later on anyways. He still had to go to the temple so I figured he'd be back there in a short amount of time afterwards so I knew I wouldn't be waiting for too long.

Don't get me wrong, while I wanted to tell him how I felt and that while I was still upset over the binding on my power's I got it now. I did feel less prone to be angered and when Usagi spoke to me I did understand the role of being a big sister better. I felt it as another job that I could use to prove that I could handle being independent. Plus with the role I could teach my little brother and sister how to do things.

I smiled as I snuck out and walked over with a happy trot to Mamo – chan's place. Mama would be so happy with me. She'll be so proud. I wanted to make her proud, but I knew now that the first step to making her proud was to make Usagi proud to. I had to show her that I wanted to work at being a senshi. The more I thought on her words not only recently but at the temple to when they bound my powers the more things made sense. The more I understood why they did it and the more I concede to their point.

I needed to be stronger as a senshi to be able to protect my new siblings better. If I had more control I could better my focus and finish my training faster. As much as I wanted to tell Usagi and the girls this I needed to tell Mamo – chan about the power boost first. He was after all my future father. So when I see her afterwards I'll tell her that I want to 'train more with my powers' that I have right now.

I hope she'll see it as me wanting to improve and accept it. I admit I need to train and hone in my skills as they all have and still are. They skills upgrade often enough that they need to continue to train so that they don't falter or make a mistake themselves. I understood this now and knew I needed to work on my own skills. I just wanted to talk to my future dad first. So when I got there and slid past the guard without much problem and got into his place using the key he had safely tucked away I found it was empty.

"Looks like he's still out at the temple." I mutter as I take off my shoes and place them by the corner. I then decide to pull out my homework on his coffee table since its short enough for me to work from and take care of it while I wait. I just hoped to finish before he got home so I could show him that I'm taking things more seriously to. Maybe he can show that to Usagi and she can see it to. It doesn't take long however for me to be done and fall asleep on the couch waiting for him to come back home.