It was about two weeks later after Izuku yelled at him in the hospital, when the quirkless man was finally released. He didn't tell anybody. He wanted to be by himself. He hadn't been able to have any peace to himself with nurses and visitors constantly around. Mei would figure out he was home but he didn't care.

Izuku went up the stairs carefully and let himself in his apartment. It looked the same and nothing seemed out of place. He wished he hadn't been going home alone. He had high hopes that Tomura would've been with him. He was still taking some pain meds and he was still exhausted. Everything hurt still but Recovery Girl helped him a lot thanks to Katsuki's begging.

He locked his door then headed for his room. Izuku was expecting someone to be in his apartment but there was no one. He wanted his time to himself but it wasn't the same. His heart physically felt broken into pieces. There was no one around who could make him feel better.

No one.

Izuku hadn't expected people to hand him things or thank him for what he did. He had sacrificed his own body to save people... battle a man who nearly burnt off Izuku's skin more than a few times... Yet... He felt empty. He did all for nothing. It almost felt like Tomura was ungrateful. Izuku wanted so bad to save him and it didn't even seem like it.

He screamed, picked up his lamp and threw it. It had been a while since he had been angry... a few years actually. Angry like this. He proceeded to throw things like an angry child. He didn't care what it was or how valuable anything had been as he destroyed it all. The pain and suffering he went through was for nothing.

He was bitter.

Angry.

Empty.

Alone.

Unloved.

After a good twenty minutes of destroying his possessions, he slid down to the floor. He felt no better. He covered his face with his damaged hands and cried. It was an ugly cry. All that pent of aggression, sadness and hatred from the last few years just came crashing out of him like a tidal wave. He didn't want to do it anymore.

In a way, he wanted Tomura because he knew in some way how he felt. They were almost similar... almost the same person. Someone who understood him... gone from his life. Tomura's suffering might've been more but he was just as alone as he was. He hated his quirklessness... And yet, if he went to UA, he would've been against Tomura at some point.

That very angry thought...

Hurt.

"Izuku?"

He looked up to see Mei standing there. She had a shocked and worried look on her face.

"What do you want?"

"What happened?" she asked stepping forward.

"I quit."

"What? Quit what?"

"I don't... I don't want to work for you anymore. I just don't want to be here anymore."

"What the hell is going on?" she asked more alarmed.

"I hate myself alright?!" he shouted.

She couldn't even speak.

"I hate who I am. I... I just... Why did I end up this way? How could these things happen to me?!" he screamed, "How much more do I have to give before things go my way?!"

"Izuku-

"No! I DON'T WANT TO HEAR IT!"

She backed away from his bedroom door frame.

"What happened to you?" she asked, shaking.

"I'm hurt! What the fuck else could it be?!" he shouted.

"I... I..."

Mei ran out of the apartment, leaving him alone.

X

X

"He's that bad?" Himiko asked.

"Yea..." Mei sighed as she repaired Himiko's shoes.

"I know Tomura has been... quiet. A weird quiet. Vlad is even worried about him."

"It's hard to believe he almost ruined Japan when he acts like such an idiot."

"I know..."

The blonde woman sighed.

"How much longer is Izuku out for?"

"Well, Recovery Girl said she wasn't going to treat him after he left the hospital and the doctor said it would two months before he can return to work."

"Tomura has about two weeks left."

"I've been doing twelve hour days lately but it's because I'm so exhausted."

"Why don't you take a break?"

Mei snorted, "Clients don't wait well. I pushed everyone back by a month. Some of them I straight up cancelled until Izuku is back and himself..."

"You really depend on them a lot huh?"

"Tomura caught on really fast. He even watched a few teaching videos, where Izuku is fast on solutions when we have a problem. I'm not sure how I ever did it before I asked for Izuku's help."

"Why don't we invite them out. Make them talk to each other?"

Mei stopped working and placed her screwdriver down.

"It may work... It's just... how is Tomura?"

Himiko stared at the floor.

"He... feels guilty. He just can't get over what he did."

Mei sighed.

"Call that idiot down here. Now."

"I can have Vlad pick him up."

"Sounds good."

Almost half an hour later, the pro hero showed, pushing the ex villain through the shop doors. Mei kept her hands on her hips seeing how bad Tomura looked. He looked paler than normal and he had bags under his eyes. He looked like he was falling asleep standing up. He did look really bad... no wonder they were concerned.

"Hey dumbass!" Mei snapped.

Tomura stared at her.

"Why am I here? I'm still out on medical leave."

"Sit."

Tomura sat down.

"What happened? Why are you so mopey?"

"Because..."

"Because of what?" Mei said, snapping her fingers, "You're wasting daylight."

"We had a fight at the hospital... I..."

"You need to make up your mind now," Himiko said, "You're stringing Izuku along. He has made it clear what his feelings are but you haven't yet. What do you want?"

"I don't know-

Mei slammed her fist into her desk.

"Stop it already! The damage is done! Are you really going to torture yourself forever over a dumbass mistake?" she snapped.

He looked over at his best friend but Mei grabbed his shirt.

"Don't look at her! Look at me!"

He was now terrified.

"How much more does Izuku have to give up to prove anything?" Himiko asked softly, "You said he turned down Uravity's hero offer."

Mei's jaw dropped open.

"WHAT?!"

Himiko stared at her.

"You... you didn't know?"

"NO!"

Himiko jumped as Mei slammed a fist into Tomura's jaw. he fell backwards onto the floor, breaking the chair. Vlad King jumped to stop Mei but his girlfriend held him back.

"He... HE GAVE UP HIS DREAM FOR YOU?!" she screamed.

Tomura stared at her. He blinked a few times trying to gain his bearings after being slugged like that.

"He... he had the chance- especially after saving your sorry ass and this is what you give him?! HE WON'T EVEN TALK TO ME! ALL HE DID WAS SCREAM AT ME!"

Tears started rolling down her cheeks.

"I can't even fathom how he feels right now! He... he did everything for you!"

"What if I just hurt him again!" Tomura yelled back, finally standing up, "What if I do something else?!"

"YOU ALREADY DID THE WORSE THING POSSIBLE TO HIM!"

He snapped his mouth shut.

I find that to be debatable.

"It took him over a year to even come out of his depression because of Katsuki but he wasn't over there messing with him! Do something now!"

Himiko glanced at Tomura. He didn't like being yelled at.

"I- I love you because your my friend but I can't allow you to keep hurting him!" Mei yelled, "I never wanted to see him suffer like this! You can't undo what you fucking did but at least you can fix it! The worse is over... Quit being afraid!"

Tomura looked over at Himiko.

"We didn't risk it all for you to be wishy washy. Just... be straight with him," the support hero said quietly.

"Ok."

X

X

Izuku sat at the coffee shop Mei asked him to go too and the only real reason he did was because he felt gulity for treating her like shit. He hadn't been himself. He had been through traumatic shit before but this time was different. He went in rushing thinking the love of his life was dead or hurt to find out he was in love with Izuku but didn't want to pursue anything more.

Just as he started looking through his phone to message her, someone sat down across from him. He looked up to be greeted by the same red eyes he had loved.

"What the-

"You two are talking now and I refuse to hear you cry about it," Mei said.

"What happened to your face?!" Izuku cried.

His jaw was bluish looking and he had a little bit of blood in the corner of his mouth.

"Mei... tripped and punched me."

She snorted as she walked away. Izuku stared at her until she disappeared.

"She hit you? What did you do?"

"We do need to talk," Tomura said, ignoring his question.

We do but I don't think I'm ready for it, Izuku thought.

Izuku frowned at him.

"You already made yourself clear."

"Actually I haven't. I have some issues and I had time to reflect on them... Why did you keep... talking to me? I know I was an asshole."

Izuku looked mildly surprised by the question.

"I... I wanted to know everything about you. Why you were a villain- everything. You interested me. I kind of thought you found me interesting. That's why you showed up that night."

The ex villain closed his eyes.

"In a way... I kind of thought it was a joke."

"Why would I make it all a joke?"

"Well, I was taken in to help destroy the world then I was stupid enough to run back to a man who's only interest was to murder his hero dad. I was afraid of being used and in fact I got myself played. Again."

Izuku messed with the hem of his shirt.

I know where this is going.

"I had no intentions of that," he said quietly.

In a way, he could see his behavior as suspicious in general. Not everyone would be so trusting about a random guy asking about their personal life. Most of the villains he encountered didn't like him either. He wasn't really surprised by any of that at all. He was surprised Tomura never asked sooner.

Tomura ran a gloved hand through his hair.

"There's something about me that I only told Himiko. Even as a psychotic villain, I never forgot. I carried those hands with me everywhere. The reasons why I'm so... Unsure."

"Oh."

"I killed my family by accident. My dad... was pissed my sister showed me a picture of my hero grandmother and he locked me outside. I was a little older and originally thought to be quirkless but... I killed my dog first. The one I painted."

Izuku's face fell.

Oh...

"The power overtook me and I couldn't control it. I killed everyone who came near me. My dog, my sister, mom, dad and my grandparents."

Tomura scratched at his neck but the gloves were in the way.

"I- I'm so sorry."

"I'm afraid to kill you by accident too."

Izuku blinked. He had never really thought of that but he hadn't known much about Tomura's family to begin with.

"I... I ran back to Dabi because he was familiar but if I killed him... It wouldn't have been so bad. He wasn't really a great person. He's the main reason I wear gloves all the time because he constantly belittled my quirk control. In fact, it is bad if I don't wear these. You scared me handing me those gloves that day. I never really thought much about it but look what I did to you."

"I'm not mad about that-

"I know."

Tomura looked down.

"It's why I ran out after I marked you. It's been a few years since I lost control... the night I found Dabi and Himiko. I probably killed people that night too but honestly... I can't remember."

Izuku looked down at the table.

"I'm not safe to be around. Not safe to lay next too or love for that matter. I'm afraid to hurt you because I could kill you."

The quirkless man said nothing.

"The fact you threw caution to the wind and went in after me terrifies me. In the back of my head I was thinking you had an ulterior motive. I... feel the same way about Mei. The trust you placed in me was... too fast."

"Tomura..."

"You were right about it all being too fast for me. I never took the time to think it all through. The fact you didn't run or shut me down after your permanent hand print... It made me think of All for One. I hurt him too and he went in stride with it. He was unfazed- in fact he cheered me on."

Izuku reached over and took his hand in his.

"Don't scratch like that."

"Sorry. Bad habits die hard."

He cleared his throat.

"I want to start over with you but I have a question to ask you," Tomura asked.

"Ok."

"I plan on having my quirk permanently surppressed. They have some... super effective drugs. After our fight, I talked to Himiko about it too. I decided if you still wanted me, I would take them but you wouldn't have the same old Tomura Shigaraki the ex villain. I would just be, quirkless."

"Why would you do that to yourself-

"Because. Control isn't easy for me. I can rip apart islands in minutes. Buildings and people in seconds. I don't want the day I decide to take those drugs be the same day I accidentally kill you."

"You... you don't have to give up your quirk to be with me. I'm not that special-

"It's no different than you not taking the hero job Ochako wanted to give you. What you said right now, is exactly how I feel when you go so far for me."

Izuku smiled with tears stinging his eyes.

"I can say... I've never met another quirkless person before."

Tomura smiled.

"So... you're ok? You're not mad about it?"

"How can I be mad?" Izuku asked, "You... you're giving up half of yourself."

"There's more to me than a quirk."

"Yea... You're right."

"What... what do you have to say?" Tomura asked.

"I... I'm sorry I didn't know all that. It seems we both have a lot of problems."

"Let's start over then."

"Slower this time?" Izuku asked with a smile.

"Slower."

"I can do that."

X

X

Two and Half Months Later

"Well, you healed quite fast!" Recovery Girl said looking over his arms and legs.

"I did my best not to do anything."

"You did gain ten pounds but it's nothing."

"I need to workout again."

Tomura and Bakugou rolled their eyes in unison.

"I am impressed. You're quite impressive young man."

He blushed, "Thank you. It was well worth it."

She shook her head.

"Don't do it again though."

"Only if I have too."

She sighed before turning her attention to Tomura.

"Have you been taking your pills and injections like you're supposed too?" she asked grabbing his chart.

"Yea, my ass hurts."

"You have no other place to do it?" the old woman asked.

"It hurts the least getting the shot. I'm pretty much... bones and skin."

"Well, I need blood work this time. I'd say in another month, you should be quirk free."

"Are you going to work on my new suit now?" Katsuki asked.

Izuku snorted, "I have a vacation I'm going on in two days. I'll work on it when I get back."

The pro hero rolled his eyes again.

"Bye."

Once Tomura was all done, the two of them left the building into the sunlight. It was fall now and it felt great.

"Let's get home and pack up."

Tomura grinned, taking his hand.

"Soon, I'll be able to hold you hand without decaying you to ash."

He kissed the top of his head.

"I know. At least I have a nice scar from it though."

The ex villain groaned.

"I hate seeing it everyday."

"I like it. You broke my dry spell with it."

Tomura blushed as he pulled the car door open.

"I hate you sometimes."

"No you don't."

The ride to their apartment was quiet. Once Tomura parked the car, he shut it off.

"Is everything ok?"

"I'm afraid your parents won't like me."

"They'll love you!"

"I don't know."

"I need you to be the strong one this time. I'm meeting my sister for the first time. I'm nervous."

Tomura smiled.

"I wonder if she'll be anything like you."

Izuku snorted, "Poor Dad."

They got inside and Tomura locked the door behind them. He tackled Izuku onto the pull out couch. He screamed in surprise as he went down into the blankets and pillows.

"I love you."

Izuku kissed him as he brushed the light blue hair from Tomura's face.

"I love you too."

I lost track of my days so I'm sorry for that. I didn't mean to make you guys wait lol I hoped you liked the story very much! I know Shigaraki was an ass and I love that lol See you guys at my next story in about 2 weeks.

Have a great weekend!