Synchronized Heartbeats

Written By: TCOOKIES777

Chapter 37: Sweet Decadence

Isolation wasn't entirely foreign to someone like Rin, who had spent most of his life abroad rather than at home with friends and family. Still, being alone during the holidays was not without its difficulties. By now, his dormitory was starting to feel claustrophobic, the walls pressing in on him and the darkness of the night leaving him a bit too chilly beneath his blankets. He was used to being on his own, but that didn't mean he liked it one bit.

Haru, Ai, and the other boys from Samezuka were all busy with their families at this time, so it wasn't surprising that he'd hardly received many texts from them since the holidays began. Rin didn't blame his friends though; whenever he was with Gou, he wanted to focus only on her. However, at the moment, the main source of Rin's suffering was Gou. His own sister still continued to reject his calls and didn't even bother to read the text messages he'd sent. The least she could do was leave him on read, but she wasn't even opening them.

He had seriously screwed up with Gou this time, and the past few days had given Rin plenty of alone time to beat himself up over it. He'd even deprived himself of a proper session of masturbation as a form of punishment for disappointing his sister like that. Although, even he couldn't bear to punish himself for that long. After all, he was a man with needs at the end of the day.

As Rin prepared the tissue box, he paused and glanced at the duffel bag he'd meant to bring back home with him. Shortly before break began, he'd bought some lube to use with Gou since they'd planned to try out anal sex for the first time. Although his sister had insisted they didn't need it, Rin didn't want to take any risks of Gou getting hurt. And if it would hurt for her, then there would certainly be blood, and Rin didn't think he'd have a good enough excuse to explain to their mom why there was blood all over his bedsheets.

The duffel bag was still stuffed with the clothes he'd packed for home, but Rin's brows knitted together as he blindly felt around for the lube. The bottle was too large for him to miss it, and yet he couldn't find it at all.

"The fuck?" Rin muttered, shoving his clothes and books around to double-check the bag. "Great! Guess my lube is gone too."

Whatever. It's not like Gou wanted to do it with him anytime soon, or that they even could. However, as Rin stared at the mess in his bag, he began to wonder what in the hell had happened to his bottle of protein shake. Ever since that day—the day he was supposed to meet with Ami for his final payment—his lube, protein shake, and ring had gone missing.

But how? He couldn't even remember how he ended up half-naked at the train station!

"I don't care anymore," Grumbling to himself, Rin snatched his lotion and the tissue box before tugging his sweatpants down. "I'm on fucking holidays."

He deserved a damn good time and he was gonna get it.

His cock was limp, but it only took a few strokes to get the blood pumping South. Feeling his erection rapidly grow with desire, Rin fumbled for his phone with a free hand to open the nudes Gou had sent him. He froze, then shook his head as he believed he didn't deserve to see his sister like that when he had hurt her so badly.

Without Gou's nudes to heighten the experience, Rin had to work a tad harder than usual to get in the moment. A familiar warmth began to pool in the pit of his belly as he continued stroking himself from root to tip, the lotion slickening his skin even before his precum began spilling out. Even though he practically had the whole hall to himself, Rin grit his teeth to contain his groans. The sounds of his hand moving against his cock started to fill the room with lewd noises. Heat was rapidly building in his core, his abs flexing and tensing as Rin started pumping himself faster. The fat head of his cock blushed an angry red like the rest of his length, gushing a clear fluid every time his thumb rubbed the swollen tip at the end of each stroke.

"Gou…" Rin allowed himself to utter his sister's name in reverence and pleasure.

"You want to fuck me?" The memory of his sister's voice echoed in his mind.

"Yeah," Closing his eyes, he let the memory of Gou play out like he remembered: her atop of his lap and ready to ride him wild.

"You want to make me pregnant?" Gou had whispered into his ear, low and sultry as she took his hand and pressed it to her lower belly.

"Yesss…" He hissed out with a wide smile.

"Then make me pregnant, Rin. Fuck me." Slowly, gradually, Gou lowered herself onto his cock. His tip squeezed past her folds and Rin remembered the way her body sank down on his, inch by inch, enveloping his thickness in her tight, wet heat. Gou whimpered, brow furrowing the more she took him in. She paused halfway, hips trembling above him.

Rin growled, thrusting his hips high off the bed, his back arching as he followed the memory of Gou riding him, her eyes meeting his with a possessive need that quickened his pulse.

Her own hips started rocking in unison with his as they both worked to match each other's pace, trying to one-up the other. Licking his lips, Rin remembered how he had reached to shove the cups of her bralette up, revealing the pert breasts bouncing above him. He had surged forward, capturing a pale nipple in his mouth and tasting the light sweat on the rosy tip.

"You're—ahn!—h-hitting my womb!" Gou had whimpered, no longer able to keep up with his pace. "Sh-Shit, you're rough!"

She sounded surprised in his memory, and Rin didn't understand why when this was usually the way he made love to her.

"Inside!" He remembered hearing Gou whimper in between moans. "I want your seed! Sh-shoot it into my womb! R-ah! Ah! Rin!"

Rin.

That was his name.

But Gou never spoke his name like that in the middle of sex. His sister always called him with the proper title of respect: 'Onii-chan'. The only time Gou ever called him by his birth name was when she reached climax and even then it was still very rare for her to say his name.

His strokes slowed, and Rin frowned as the sensation of his cock being touched suddenly felt repulsive.

He released himself, opening his eyes to stare at his own palm, sticky with the clear fluid of his precum and shaking uncontrollably.

"Make me pregnant, Rin!" The memory echoed in the back of his mind, resounding stronger as he remembered the moans of the girl he'd been making love to.

Except it wasn't Gou's voice he'd heard—it'd been... Ami's.

Dark brown eyes flashed in his mind, accompanied by the sound of his own moans and wet skin slapping together in the heat of the locker room.

Bile rose in the back of his throat and Rin dashed to the bathroom, naked and sweaty. He barely made it before the puke came out in putrid chunks of what remained of his breakfast. Squeezing his eyes shut, Rin struggled to stop thinking, but all he could see was Ami and himself going at it in the locker room like animals.

"Rin, I love it! Ah! Ah! Ahn—yes! Oh, god, you're big! Oh, god—Rin!"

The way their hips had smacked painfully together in a vicious act of copulation.

"How the hell do you have so much cum left? Have you not been touching yourself lately? Hm? You have so much cum in here. You know it needs to go somewhere, Rin. It's not good to hold it all inside… but don't worry, I'll take it all for you. Fill me up nice and full of your baby milk. You'd like that, wouldn't you, Rin?"

The heat of her mouth sucking his tip in, her throat closing around his length in a smooth, experienced motion.

"That was a lot more than I expected, but you don't taste that bad. You have a strange sweetness."

The sensation of her hand gripping his cock and pumping him until his seed had splattered against the locker.

"That's it, Rin. Let it come out… let it come out! Let it come out, Rin!"

He let out another bout of vomit into the toilet as he remembered how his body had felt from the drug's effects on his body… how it made the sex feel like it'd been dialed up all the way to a thousand… the orgasms leaving him weak, confused, and at the mercy of Ami.

'It hurts', he had told her.

"You still have so much in you." He could practically hear her as if she was cooing into his ear right now. "You haven't been masturbating?"

"Shut up!" Rin yelled, slapping his hands over his ears to shut out her voice.

But there was nothing he could do to erase the memory of what had happened. What she had done. What he had done. To Ami… To Gou.

Without another thought, Rin jumped into the tub at his side, cranking the knob and letting the ice-cold water hit him at full blast. Even that wasn't enough to settle the knots in his stomach, but he took the moment to scrub his entire body down. Every nook and cranny where Ami might've touched him. When he started to wash his cock, Rin paused and grit his teeth, fighting off the ugly phantom sensation of Ami's fingers tracing the thick veins that'd bulged across his girth. How she'd complimented his generous size. She'd held him so firmly and with such precise control that she could've been holding a knife to his throat and it all would've felt the same.

His eyes stung and blurred, but Rin blamed it on the shower water that was now steaming hot. The sponge scraped harshly against his skin and Rin continued lathering his body until his fingertips were pruney and his skin had reddened from either the heat or the scrubbing, or both. It wasn't enough. He still felt dirty everywhere.

It felt like he'd dipped his body in ink, staining himself black, and no amount of water could cleanse him.

The mirror was fogged up and Rin had to wipe a hand across to see his reflection. His shaggy hair draped across his eyes and Rin slicked it back to reveal the fury in his gaze.

Good.

He didn't bother to dry himself off with a towel as he grabbed a pair of dark sweatpants and zipped up a jacket, letting the water that'd clung to his skin soak into the black fabrics. In any normal situation, it'd be a nightmare to go out in the freezing snow wearing nothing but a jacket and sweatpants that were now soaked, but Rin felt hot with rage and that was all he needed.

The girls dormitory building was designed exactly the same as the boy's dormitory. The only difference was the decorations that were pinned to the walls and the nauseating mix of dozens of various perfumes.

The expression on Rin's face darkened as he remembered the artificial strawberry perfume Ami had worn. He didn't know if it'd been sheer coincidence that she'd tried to smell the same as his sister, but her perfume had been a poor replica of Gou's natural scent. If anything, it angered him even more to think that Ami thought she could ever compare to his sister.

His sneakers stomped horribly loud against the linoleum flooring, signaling how empty the building was now that nearly all of its residents had emptied out for vacation. Rin walked at a brisk and swift pace, passing the numbered doors of the first floor until he reached the end of the hallway where a girl about his age was situated at a counter.

"I'm here to see Ami Fujioka." It took some effort to contain the anger that tightened his throat.

The girl finally glanced up from her phone and the pink in her cheeks deepened slightly at the sight of him, followed by a bright smile. "S-Sure! Are you a visitor or a student?"

"Student."

"Okay, just sign your name here, please, and then your student I.D. number."

The pen bounced off the clipboard once Rin finished the necessities and he stared at the girl expectantly for a moment as she stared back at him, biting her bottom lip as if she was lost in thought.

"Well?" He asked, his voice heavy with irritation despite his attempt to remain in control.

"O-Oh, yes! Sorry! Um, let's see…" Rin watched the dormitory assistant reach under the counter to procure a large binder. It took her a full minute of flipping through pages and scanning the names until she peered up at him and answered with another smile, "Her room is 113, just down the hallway near the end!"

"Thanks," He muttered, turning away while the girl was still smiling and batting her lashes at him.

Room 113 sounded just as quiet as all the other rooms in the hallway, but Rin didn't doubt that Ami was inside. He wondered what sort of things she did in her free time if she had the opportunity to buy and use drugs like the one she'd surely used on him. Although he wasn't entirely sure if she'd drugged him, but then how else had that happened? There's no way he would've had sex with her in his right mind. So how? He was going to find out right now, along with other truths.

His fist slammed against the door, resonating loud in the halls. It only took a few seconds before the door creaked open and Rin found himself staring into those same brown eyes that'd been staring into his at that time in the locker room. He had no idea how he could've mistaken Gou's beautiful garnet eyes for these plain brown ones.

The fist at his side tightened as Ami spoke, "Well now, I wasn't expecting you, Rin. What are you doing here? How's your injury?"

"On the roof. Now."

"Wh—Hey!" She protested when he grabbed her arm and dragged her to the elevator, practically pushing her in. Normally, Rin would never handle a girl like he was doing right now; his mom and Gou had taught him better than that. But he had no remorse for Ami who was rubbing her arm where he'd gripped her. "Geez, where's the fire? Rin, will you tell me what's wrong? Helloooo?"

He didn't answer her. He couldn't even bear to look her in the face. Just standing in this cramped elevator with her at his side was enough to make Rin's skin crawl and it was a struggle just to hold back the nausea that twisted in his belly once again.

Once the elevator doors opened, Rin nearly sprinted up the last flight of stairs and out onto the rooftop where he was able to fill his lungs with the crisp winter air. At least he no longer felt sweaty, but if only his hands could stop trembling.

"Rin, what's going on?" Ami asked from behind.

Shoving his hands into his pockets, Rin spun on his heel and hissed at her through clenched teeth. "I know what you did!"

"I'm… sorry?" She blinked at him, her face the picture of innocence. "What?"

"I know what you did to me, Ami! Last week!"

Those doe brown eyes narrowed into slits. Just like that, she'd put up a guard, leaving her face unreadable. "And what did I do to you last week, Rin?"

"You know what!" He jabbed a finger towards her in accusation, only to put it down quickly when he saw how badly it'd shaken.

For all the venom that coated his words, it did nothing to help the unease twisting in his stomach.

Resting both hands on her hips, Ami tipped a brow at him, "No, I don't. Enlighten me."

"You… The day I was supposed to go home… You were going to meet me at the pool for the last payment." Rin began to explain, balling his hands inside his pockets to keep his whole body still. "But you were running late, so I went to take a shower. When I was dressing, something happened… and I… and then we were…"

"We were… what?" Ami leaned forward and Rin leaned back, watching her eyes twinkle with amusement as if she was getting a kick out of this. "We were what, Rin?"

"We were together…" Rin looked the other way, "naked and, I think… having sex."

"Well, that's a very small description with a very large accusation," Ami crossed her arms, the twinkle in her eyes now gone. "So you're telling me… that what happened that day was that you went to go shower while waiting for me… and then when you came out, we ended up having sex? Is that right? You and I just stripped naked and went at it?"

"Th-That's not how it went!"

"But you just said that's what happened."

"No, that's not what happened!" Rin began pacing side to side, thinking and forcing himself to recall every detail of that memory. It was like trying to remember what he had for lunch on the first Friday of last month. "I mean, well, yes! Y-Yes, that's what happened, but—"

"But what, Rin?" Ami huffed. "You can't even remember?"

"I'm trying!" He shouted, clutching his head as he struggled to remember everything. "My head is still fuzzy!"

"Then how do you know it really happened?"

He stopped pacing at that question.

Had it really happened? Or… had it just been a dream-turned-nightmare? A nightmare that'd felt so real…

But Gou's ring. That'd been real and he remembered holding the silver band so tightly with excitement, admiring the way the sapphire rock would compliment his sister's hand. The ring he'd worked long hours for weeks to buy. A promise of his love to Gou.

Those feelings were real just like the ring.

"It was real. All of it," He said, turning to her. "Something happened between us, Ami. I'm not sure how, but I know we had sex!" A second thought followed that had all of Rin's muscles lock up with fear and anxiety, and he looked at Ami with wide eyes. "Did we… did we even use a condom?"

"Hm, no, we didn't," Ami sighed, shrugging when Rin let out a string of curses in response, "or maybe we did use a condom. Who knows? Even you can't remember..." She raised a hand to study the red polish of her manicure that was beginning to chip away, "Would you even believe me? You can't even remember the details of us having sex or how it happened. Do you even remember how much you came inside me?"

Rin was staring at Ami… staring at the way the innocent facade she'd worn just a minute ago had disappeared to reveal a face of... hilarity? The nausea in his stomach had returned tenfold now, but there was nothing to throw up even if he wanted to.

"So it's true," He whispered.

"I'll tell you what's true," She lowered her voice as if they were just gossiping for fun. "You came so much inside me, I thought I was going to burst." The snow crunched beneath her feet as Ami began stepping around him, surveying his frozen figure, "The way you took me so aggressively… any woman would feel desired and loved when a man screws their pussy as hard as you did mine." Stopping in front of him, she slid a hand down her belly and her eyes fluttered shut as she sighed out, "Mm, I can still feel my belly full to the brim with your cock and your warm cum. I remember feeling you shoot your stuff inside me, pulsing and spurting… your pent up release… So much of it."

"No, that's a lie…" Rin shook his head, swallowing back the thick lump in his throat. "I can't.. I didn't…"

"But you did, Rin. You came inside me." Ami said so casually, her glossy lips spread into that pearly white smile that haunted Rin. "I've never had a man like you, Rin Matsuoka. Never had anyone fill me up as much as you did to the point that I thought you were gonna break me. And when you finally pulled out of me, fat tip squeezing out of my folds, your stuff gushed out like a river, spilling onto the floor and staining my thighs like…" She paused, "like melted vanilla ice cream."

"Stop it!" He pinched the bridge of his nose, a headache forming as he struggled to remember such a thing. "It's not true!"

Ami continued, "And even after I cleaned myself up, your cum just kept spilling out of me for days, soiling my panties, pair after pair. I was surprised by the amount you had stored up even after the blowjob I gave you beforehand. A bit salty, but you're a lot better than other guys I've tasted. And—mmn!—you had this strangely pleasant taste too. A natural sweetness… I could feel you throbbing in my mouth like a heartbeat. I almost choked with how you just kept shooting loads down my throat, pulsing with each wave of cum. I counted it," she raised a hand up, wiggling her fingers, "Five times. You were really thick and sticky. I had to swallow over and over again just to get all of your seed down, but you just kept shooting into my mouth.

You know that bit of uncooked egg white you sometimes find on your sunny-side? It was kinda like that; slimy and hot, spurting and pouring down my throat and filling my belly up. It settled down, warm and full like hot milk."

For a second, Rin almost made a motion to throw up, or at least dry heave. Even now, despite the chills running down his body since he was only wearing a thin jacket, a light layer of sweat pebbled the temples of his face. The urge to fall to his knees and purge out everything within him threatened Rin, but he sucked in a deep breath to gather enough strength to speak.

"What you're talking about," He said, "is a romanticized version of what happened! You're twisting it around to make it sound like… like it was good, but it's w-wrong! It's perverse!"

"Wrong?" She shook her head as if she was disappointed with him, "Then why is it, once we were completely done, you were still rock-hard? Your penis wanted more, and there's nothing wrong with that, Rin. You're a healthy young man with a healthy—and quite high—sex drive. That's not your fault though. Your body just can't help it. Sex is natural. The urge to copulate is natural. Don't fight what your body wants."

"Rin, this is a natural reaction. Don't fight it." Her voice from that time resounded once more, accompanied by the horrific sensation of her touch between his legs.

"I'll admit, your amazingly short refractory period astounded me." She was biting her bottom lip to hold back a grin. "This other guy I had took fifteen minutes after just the second round, but you? I barely put my panties back on and your cock was already rising to release another bout. It made me wonder just how much seed you had stored down there." Pausing, Ami tapped her chin in thought, "And then I wondered who you were saving all that cum for."

The question prompted Gou's face to flash in Rin's mind and he closed his eyes in fear of Ami somehow finding the answer in his guilty expression.

"You had to be saving it for someone, right?" She asked him, genuinely confused and serious, "There was just too much of it—I'd really never seen so much before—that you wouldn't waste it on nothing. I'm not a guy, but I'm sure that can't be normal for someone your age. I mean, I could tell by the way you were so sensitive that you hadn't been masturbating for a long while."

"That's none of your business," Rin retorted back. "You don't know anything about me so stop acting like you know me."

"I think after having wild, raw sex with you that I now qualify as someone who knows you pretty well. Intimately well," She reached out to toy with the zipper of his jacket.

"Shut up!" Smacking her hand away, Rin grabbed Ami by the shoulders and pushed her forward until he had her pressed against the wall. "You don't know me at all. Don't talk about me and my body like… That wasn't even sex! That was just.. That was just a random fuck or something! An accident!"

"No, it wasn't. I know what a random fuck is like, Rin. But the way you held me… the way you touched me and did all those things to me… You were making love to me."

"Not you!" He quickly corrected her in a sharp hiss. "I wasn't making love to you!"

"Then who?" Those brown eyes of hers had darkened, that wide smile shifting into a close-lipped smirk. She reached out to play with the zipper of his jacket again, raising her steady gaze to meet his. "Who were you making love to, Rin? Who were you storing that much seed for?" Her manicured nails grazed the bare skin of his chest as Riz struggled to come up with an answer to such an invasive question, "Ah, you were planning to pump someone full, weren't you? A girl? You think she could take it all in like me? All of you and your precious seed? I don't think so. I think she'd burst."

A single manicured nail scraped up the center of Rin's chest, delicately and gently, leaving just the faintest scratch mark against his pale skin. "You'd break her, Rin. Most girls are fragile like that, especially the virgins. They can't handle a man like you. You would break her and she'd cry and bleed, moaning that 'it hurts!' and that it's too much for her to take in. Isn't that a huge turn-off? You'll be too much for her. She'd beg you to be gentle when you just wanna fuck like an animal, with no restraint. Unlike me, she won't be able to keep up with you. You'd destroy the poor girl. And a guy like you enjoys cumming inside the girl, don't you? Men like marking their territory." Ami placed a finger under Rin's trembling chin, bringing his stoic face closer to hers so that he could hear the quiet purr in her voice, "Raw. You like fucking hard and good and raw."

Yes… yes, he did. It was impossible to deny a truth as obvious as that. Rin didn't know if he was supposed to feel bad for not feeling shameful about it. He couldn't help it… it was in his nature to take what he wanted and not stop until it was his.

It was how his friendship with Haru had fallen to ruin for so many years until they'd been able to mend it.

"You like seeing a girl laid out before you, her aching tits rising as she tries so desperately to catch her breath. You like seeing her pussy sore and tender, puffy folds smeared white and twitching with the orgasm you gave her. You like the sight of a girl leaking out the cum you pumped her full of. It turns you on, doesn't it? Don't deny it. It turns me on too." Ami hummed cheerily, "It's turning me on right now. Even now, some of your semen is still dripping out of me, soaking my panties and trickling down my leg. You wanna see? Do you wanna see how much you pumped into me that day? Take a look at the work of your creampie, Rin."

Rin followed her gaze down to where she was beginning to raise the front folds of the skirt she wore. Immediately, he snatched her wrist to prevent her from revealing any more leg, prompting Ami to giggle at his reaction. "Why so worried? It's your work. Even now, I can still feel the stuff inside like it was just last night. That uncomfortable, foreign pressure in my lower belly… that gooey heat swishing around inside me with every step. That ticklish feeling of your seed slowly trickling out of me for hours..."

Heat blossomed in Rin's face as she described in raunchy detail the evidence of what he'd done to her. It wasn't shame that filled him, but regret. So, so much regret of what he'd done, and the disgust that sickened him—disgust at himself for betraying Gou like that.

"You really enjoyed it, didn't you?" He felt Ami tugging at his zipper again, but he no longer bothered to stop her. Not when the words she spoke made him want to punch himself… because they were too close to home. "You were so relieved to finally release all that cum you'd been saving for whoever. It was so much, Rin. You should be proud of yourself as a male with primal needs. So much—way more than enough to get any girl pregnant."

That last word shook Rin to the core and he nearly fell to his knees in horror and disbelief, were it not for Ami holding onto his zipper as she still was. There was this knowing look in her face when Rin asked her in a hoarse whisper, "Did you… Did you take an emergency c-contraceptive pill?" He watched her purse her lips in thought and, when she took too long to answer, he grabbed her hand and asked more loudly this time, "Ami, I'm serious! Did you take an emergency contraceptive?!"

"I haven't stepped off school campus since the holiday break started," She answered with a small shrug, and that was enough for Rin to know the real answer was 'no'.

"Damn it, Ami!" He clasped both sides of his head, fighting the urge to yank at his hair. What the fuck is wrong with you? Do you want to get pregnant?!"

A pregnancy should've been the least of his worries, but there was too much wrong here to figure out where to begin.

"Apparently," She said, studying the manicure on her other hand now, "there are certain days when it's safe to shoot it inside a girl. At least, that's what I heard some boys say. They might've gotten it from a porn magazine or something."

"Don't act dumb!" He snarled at her, his anger invigorated by how casual she was behaving. "I know you don't believe that stupid shit! I'll buy you the pill! Just… just swear to me you'll take it!"

Shit, shit, shit, shit, shit! His life was practically over if Ami ended up pregnant with his child. How could he ever hope to have a relationship with Gou if he had another girl pregnant? No, forget a relationship with Gou. His sister would probably disown him in every way possible. She would never forgive him…

"Please, Ami, I'm serious," Rin lowered his voice, pleading with her, "you need to take an emergency contraceptive before it's too late!"

Oh shit, how many days had it been since they did it? He mentally fumbled with the numbers in his mind, swearing aloud again when he realized today was the third day, remembering that the pill was supposed to be taken three days at the latest in order to be effective enough. Was it too late then?

Ami was merely smiling at him, amused and calm as ever. "You're worried even though you were fucking me so hard as if you intended to impregnate me? With how rough you were taking me, I know you were thinking about knocking me up, Rin."

"You want to fuck me?" It'd been his sister's voice he'd heard that time. "You want to make me pregnant?" And it'd been his sister's questions Rin had been answering, murmuring 'yes' without hesitance. In his drugged mind at that time, it was Gou he'd willingly made love to. It was Gou whom Rin wanted to have a child with. It was why he had said 'yes' to that fantasy he'd thought had been a reality.

Of course it had been too good to be true.

His eyes suddenly stung and Rin quickly dropped his gaze to stare shamefully at his shoes, hiding the tears that threatened to spill down his cheeks.

Stop crying!

His fingernails dug into the palms of his hands, the pain acting as a distraction from the pain in his heart.

"I've had other men before, but no man like you, and the difference is as clear as day and night. With that much cum stored and you pouring it all deep in me while we rutted like animals… there's no doubt that you were thinking of getting me pregnant," Ami said, frowning in serious thought of what she remembered. "I could see it in your eyes that time. That intense look you gave me as you pushed your tip against my cervix—against my womb. I could feel every thrust hit all the way into me. I gotta admit, it was fucking insane. Most men can't hold an erection to save their life, let alone pleasure a woman in intercourse. A few minutes of pathetic humping and they're done. But you, Rin? You fucking drilled into me with those beautiful hip thrusts I've always dreamt of. Even during climax, you gripped my hips tight—I still have the bruises—and you were trying to press into me as deep as you could possibly go."

This time, Rin didn't doubt her words. He knew everything she was saying was true because he was aware that he did those kinds of things to Gou. The way he'd grab his sister's hips tightly and guide her on his cock. Glancing down, he peered at his hands, wondering how much he'd unknowingly hurt Gou with his aggressive love for her. He remembered sometimes pinning his sister's hands above her head while thrusting with wild abandon into her. The sound of the headboard banging against the wall during their more careless lovemaking sessions resounded in his ears. He even remembered a glass of water falling off the bedside table all too often when he and Gou were doing it in her room with their mom out. Rin had always been aware that he could be aggressive, and he'd always tried to have some semblance of control when it came to touching Gou, but was he really that much of an animal like Ami had described it?

No, not an animal… a beast.

"You're insatiable, Onii-chan," Gou had once told him when he'd been prepping her body for their umpteenth round of sex.

"You're so rough!" She'd sometimes moan, and he'd always mistook it as a compliment or some mind of encouragement.

"I thought I was going to break in the process too. My belly still aches when I think about it, but it's no longer cramping at least." Ami absentmindedly rubbed her lower belly.

"I... I didn't mean to hurt you." Rin murmured, lost in thought of how he'd treated Gou. How he'd touched her so carelessly when he was supposed to protect her as her older brother. I didn't mean to hurt you, Gou.

"Well," Ami drawled out, leaning against the wall to cross her arms, "usually, I don't like such intense, deep penetration but, with you, I liked how primitive the sex felt. Your cock kissed me so painfully deep in places no one's ever touched before. It hurt so good; it was messy, and wet, and dripping everywhere. It was raw, and we both liked it. You liked the sex."

I liked the sex? No, that was… wrong. How could he enjoy it when it wasn't the person he wanted to have sex with?

"Liked it?" He glared at her, more angry than ever after that comment. "It wasn't even sex—it was rape!" The word came out before he could stop and consider it. Rape. He'd said it; the one thing he didn't want to admit—the one thing he feared from this confrontation. He never thought there would come a day when he'd have to use it for himself. "Wh-Who the fuck likes getting raped?!"

The distraught on Ami's face nearly fooled him, but he realized it was actually bemusement when she said, "Rape is a loaded word, Rin. That wasn't rape, and you know it. We were both fully conscious when it happened. It was your fingers that were inside my pussy. It was your hands gripping my hips and guiding me on your cock. It was you thrusting into me." The more she described what he did to her, the less Rin felt certain of his own convictions. "Don't you remember? You told me you wanted to get me pregnant. I asked several times, and each time you answered 'yes'. In the end, you're the one who came inside me. You came, Rin. Once in my mouth when I gave you that blowjob… then you creampied inside me twice… and then one more time with my handjob. I had to clean up the mess you left on the bench and locker doors," She mentioned that last detail with a quiet chuckle.

"I… I only came because you…" Rin struggled to explain, "you did something to me! You… you drugged me!"

"The drug is something like an aphrodisiac… like Viagra!" Ami gestured to him. "What you wanted was already there. You wanted sex—and don't lie, because that much cum you spilled is all the proof I need. You wanted sex, and the drug merely lowered your sexual inhibitions so that your body could have what it needed. You'd been denying your body release, so your body needed release, and I gave it several releases. Even then, it still wasn't enough for you."

They both glanced down to a few inches below where his jacket's zipper had been tugged down to. With his bare chest so exposed, Rin should have felt cold. Instead, he only felt numb, including his fingers.

"I didn't like it," His voice came out too quiet and soft, and he hated himself for it.

Ami huffed in annoyance, "The evidence of your pleasure is inside me right now. How can you hate something that gave you pleasure? Of course you didn't like it—you enjoyed it. You enjoyed my pussy squeezing your cock and you enjoyed penetrating me because you haven't had penetration for too long already. Your dick was even getting ready for a round three or four so soon, too, but we were pressed for time. I would've offered anal. Guys usually like that. Would you have enjoyed it more if it was anal? You seem like the type who likes having a bitch bend over and fucking her from behind." It sounded like a joke, but the serious expression on her face made it hard to tell. With a roll of her eyes, she said, "Look, it's not my fault you have a high sex drive. You're a young guy. I'm just helping you deal with it since apparently you're not dealing with it yourself, but you definitely enjoyed it."

"Enjoyed it?" Rin scoffed in disbelief. "I didn't enjoy any of it! I said 'no', Ami. I told you no. I didn't want to have sex with you. I still don't!"

She clicked her tongue in disapproval and leaned forward, raising her face until their noses were almost touching. Rin didn't want to stand so close to her, stare into the dark voids of her eyes, but he refused to back down. He was taller than her, stronger than her, and he couldn't help but take pleasure in the fact that she had to really stand up straight to even reach him, and that was when he was leaning into her.

"Don't lie, Rin," Her breath was hot against his cheek when she whispered low to him, her eyes flicking between his and his mouth, "I don't know what's your problem, but I know you're playing an act of your own as well. You may pretend to be aloof and disinterested in girls and boys but, in reality, you're a wicked beast in the sheets." Chuckling quietly, Ami began playing with his zipper again, tugging it all the way down until it reached the end, barely holding the front of his jacket together. "It gets me so wet, watching you swim, seeing you cut through the water with such ease and grace with your hips and muscles. I could only imagine what you're like in bed. How territorial and possessive you can be."

She wasn't touching him directly—only his zipper—but it made Rin's lip curl up in disgust anyway. When she reached a hand out to drag those manicured nails down his chest, he seized her by the wrist before she could even graze his flesh, holding on tightly despite no struggle from her end.

Instead of asking him to let go, Ami tipped her head back and laughed proudly, eyeing his hold on her. "See what I mean?" Rin instantly let go, but she was already looking at him like he'd done exactly what she'd wanted him to do. "In the animal world, you know what they would call you? An alpha male. Even with just your looks, you could make anyone your bitch. Boys? You like boys? No? Well, you could fuck any girl you want, Rin. You have that power. Imagine it! Fucking the girl you want and breaking her so that she's yours forever. That's how I've always done it and every time I come out on top. There's more to gain than to lose."

"What bullshit are you on about, Ami?" Rin demanded. "This isn't the animal kingdom! This… This isn't like your father's corporate kingdom where there's a monkey king and his monkey servants! This is rape—plain and simple!"

"You're not looking at the bigger picture, Rin!" She rolled her eyes in exasperation. "You come from a fucking small town on a fucking island whereas I come from the big city where there are sharks that will eat you up for snacks. You don't know the outside world like I do. You've only seen the world from your pool… but you and I? We're not just athletes! You're not just a swimmer and I'm not just a volleyball player. We live in a world comprised of a food chain that shows no mercy to those who dare sit back and do nothing. There's only so few people in this world like us: dreamers who make the impossible real. So why are you so afraid to assume that power? You have it. You have the ambition—everything! Why won't you? Why won't you just give in to who you truly are? To who you could be? I'm the discarded heiress of a fucking company. I see who the rich, famous, and powerful are. I know you can be that if you just let go of your fucking inhibitions!"

"Ami, what in the fuck are you talking about?" He hadn't realized they were practically yelling at each other, on a public rooftop and in the middle of the day.

"You can get the girl," She said, dead calm all of a sudden. "I know there's a girl in your heart, Rin Matsuoka. No man can make such passionate love to a woman unless it's because they're madly in love with her. I know there's a girl in your heart that you can't have. It's why you're absolutely blind to all the other people giving you those flirty looks. Let me help you, Rin. I'll teach you… and then one day, you can make her yours. You can make it so that she has no choice but to give herself to you. No one will be able to stop you from having her, trust me."

No one will be able to stop me from having Gou? Rin wondered, toying with the idea that maybe—just maybe—he could have a future where he and his sister could love each other without restraint. With enough money and power, there would certainly be ways to protect Gou, and if they wanted children… He hesitated, "But I want her to choose. I don't want to force her to love me… to be with me. I want her to love me because she loves me."

"Oh, don't lie to me with that cheesy bullshit, Rin. You're a predator. You're like a predator hunting his prey as soon as he smells a bit of blood. You're a predator who takes what he wants."

"I don't take… not like you. If my partner had ever told me no and meant it, I would have stopped. I don't just take things if it means hurting the person I love."

"Well, you were certainly no virgin when I rode your cock that night. I always knew you weren't. I know you, Rin. I can see it… you've already taken things you were never allowed to take, haven't you? I know your secret isn't that your gay since you're not… So, what did you take?" Dark eyes ran up and down his body, studying Rin, assessing him. Whatever answer Ami found from him, it drew out a knowing smirk from her. "A girl's innocence? Was she younger than you? Petite with a pretty face? She must've been so cute. So pure…" Cupping a hand to her mouth, she whispered to him, "Did you promise her you would be gentle after she asked you to? Did you hold her hands against the sheets, whisper in her ear to spread her legs so you could see her special place?"

The heat that bloomed across Rin's cheeks deepened with anger and embarrassment. She was awfully close to the truth. As Ami spoke now, her descriptions elicited memories of his most intimate moments spent with Gou.

"Did she blush when you opened her up fully, watch you part those dewy petals swelling with arousal? What did her voice sound like when you tasted her nectar for the first time, your tongue dipping into that tight virgin hole of hers? How much did she cry when you penetrated her? Did you proudly tell her, 'I just popped your cherry?' or you let her figure it out alone? Did she whimper when you began thrusting away? Were those whimpers of pain… or pleasure?"

Rin turned his eyes away, well familiar with every type of sound he'd drawn out from Gou since they'd first experience the pleasure of each other's flesh together. Sounds of her pain, pleasure, need, desire, and more. They echoed in his mind, taunting him… arousing him.

"Don't be shy about it now," Ami stepped closer, entering his peripheral view again, that same smirk still directed at him. "Let me guess: you came inside her. I wonder what her face must've looked like when she felt it happen… felt your seed pooling in the pit of her belly for the first time. Did you enjoy taking that girl, Rin?" With a nod of her head, she ignored his attempt to deny it, and she raised a finger to Rin's crotch, pointing out the truth. "Ah, you did. Even now, you're getting hard just from the memory of it, aren't you? You're turned on…"

Unable to help himself, Rin followed her finger and he grit his teeth in response, shame twisting in his gut once more. No matter how much he wanted to deny it, claim that everything she'd said was wrong, there was no way to stop his body's reaction. No way to keep his damn dick down. The slight tent in his thin sweatpants was all the evidence Ami needed to prove herself right. Maybe it'd been her lewd words that'd elicited this erection, but Rin knew the real problem was that he'd been thinking of Gou the entire time as the answer to all of her accusations.

"See? A natural-born predator. So don't pretend to be innocent. You like to fuck, I like to fuck," She laid a hand on his chest and Rin glanced down at it, "and I have a thing for powerful alphas like you, Rin—and we both have set our eyes on the Olympics. We both would do whatever it takes to get there. We're not like other people or other athletes. We were born to be alphas."

Alphas. What a funny word for someone as human as him. Yet, deep within, Rin had become well aware of the animal that rattled its cage and howled for Gou. That animal inside him that he hid from everyone, including his sister. Even now, it wanted out… it no longer wanted to be hidden away in the dark. The beast sought to taste the fruits of this world, and Rin wanted nothing more than to indulge it—indulge himself. Let the shackles loose for once and give into his inhibitions without worrying about repercussions.

But the world wouldn't let him. This taboo… the secret between him and Gou was like a leash that tightened more the longer it went on, and he was getting tired of it.

"It's all right. Ssshh, there's nothing wrong. It felt good right? Giving into your instincts, breaking that dam open and releasing all that cum… you don't have to wake up with wet sheets anymore. You don't have to hold back. I can take it." Her hand slid up from his chest to cup Rin's cheek, and he held still as Ami raised her face closer to his. "I can take all of you, Rin. You and I, we're alphas in this world and we could achieve so much if we're together. Think of what we could do if we were together. All the media attention we'd get as a power couple in the Olympics. The fame, the money, the power! With our potential… We belong together."

Together?

'Onii-chan, we were made for each other.'

Closing his eyes, Rin allowed himself to fall back to that memory of when he and his sister had sworn their love for each other that night as they laid naked together beneath the stars.

That's right, Gou. You and I were made for each other... We belong together.

"You're right, I am a predator." He said, grabbing Ami's hand from his face. A gasp caught in her throat, surprise flashing across her face as he tightened his grip on her hand, watching her wince. This time, it was Rin who smirked when he leaned in until their noses were touching, and he whispered to her, "I know the taste of blood and how it looks on crisp white sheets. I love hearing my name screamed in ecstasy. I'm an apex predator who takes whatever I want. And there's this girl I really want to fuck, and break, and make mine because I'm a selfish piece of shit and I'm… I'm crazy in love with her." He paused, weighing the words he'd just admitted aloud. The pressure in his chest felt lighter, and Rin took a step forward, and another step as he continued backing Ami against the wall. "And, one day, I'm going to fuck her so hard, she'll remember nothing but screaming my name and me moving inside her. In the dead of night, in the early morning, or even during lazy noons. I swear on my life that girl will never know any other greater pleasure than the one I give her."

"There's far more to pleasure than sex," Ami replied, unsurely, hesitantly.

"And you would know? Because I do. And I know there's only one girl in my life who I will ever want to share my bed with. And when I'm fucking her in bed, or anywhere else, I'm going to make her the happiest girl in the world while I'm at it. But you're not her, Ami. You're not that girl. Because that girl already owns me and I belong to no one but her. I was hers long before she even knew it. Whether she wants me or not, I will always be hers and only hers. Sure, you can call me an alpha…and you're, what? My beta?" Towering over her, Rin considered the way Ami looked small, trapped between him and the wall like his prey. He grinned down at her, his sharp teeth glinting menacingly. "See, that's the thing: I don't want a beta bitch as my partner. I want an equal and she's my equal. That's why I'm no one's but hers."

"Well, well," she shook her head, "Whoever this girl is, she's got you whipped, and she doesn't even know it… That's why I feel so sorry for you, Rin. She's the one thing holding you back, and you're too blind with love to see it." Ami stood up straighter, more confident when she caught the frown on his face. "We're athletes, Rin. Performers. I told you. We train for years to put on a show that lasts only for a couple of minutes. But what's the point in putting on a performance when there's no audience? I need this. You need this. We need each other in this shithole of an industry where the powers-that-be choose their favorites to come out on top. We don't have to be exclusive. The sex is just a bonus, but we'd be killing all these birds with a single stone if you and I were together. We belong together."

"No, we don't, and I've had enough of your bullshit. Stay away from me, Ami—I fucking mean it." He stepped away from her, raising a finger in warning, "And from now on, I don't want you anywhere near my little sister, you got that?"

"Gou? I wouldn't hurt one hair on her pretty little head," That smug grin was back again as she added, "In fact, it won't be me who will hurt her. She's, what, seventeen? Soon enough, she'll spill a lil' blood and then dozens of predators will come running to taste a piece of her. That is, if they're not already. A sweet girl like her would be devoured, and there'll be nothing you can do to stop it. At least, not as you are now."

What was that supposed to mean?

"I'll protect her," he said, resolute and firm for the first time since they'd began conversing.

"How can you when you can't even protect yourself?" Ami shook her head. "You can't even remember what happened between us that day."

Whatever confidence he'd had in that brief moment now wavered at that comment. When Ami saw this, she made a sound of exasperation before turning to leave. A cold chill filled in the space where she'd been standing, and Rin was left staring at his sneakers, contemplating her words and weighing the truth of them.

Fidelity had never been an issue in Rin's life. All he had to worry about was taking care of his body and training for competitions so that he could someday achieve his dream of reaching the Olympics. Relationships were a vital aspect of any person's life, but he'd never had to consider the fidelity of those bonds. The only thing that came close had been his fallout with Haru, but even that had just been a mere childish spat born from his hurt pride. This time was different. Gou… made him question everything now.

Snapping out his thoughts, Rin turned to follow Ami, slamming the door behind him to hurriedly catch up to her. At first, he thought she'd taken the elevator even though they were only three levels up. Hearing the squeak of sneakers against metal, however, Rin glanced down the staircase to find Ami already moving down the second level. His footsteps resounded loud against the stairwell as he hurriedly chased after her.

"Why?" He demanded, voice booming and echoing. "Why me?!"

She tossed him a dismissive look, "If you have to wonder, then that means you didn't understand a single word of what I'd just told you."

"You expect me to understand all your bullshit about predators and animals?"

"It's an analogy."

"So explain it!"

"You still won't be able to understand," Ami said, taking out her keys when they reached the first floor. Crossing his arms, he noted her vexed expression as she glanced at him over her shoulder in the midst of looking for the right key for her door. "Whatever feelings you have for that girl is holding you back. You just can't see it because of your rose-tinted glasses. That's why you won't understand."

"What?" He scoffed. "You're trying to save me from heartbreak or something?"

"That too," She answered, "but maybe it's too late. Maybe your love for her has become too vast and immeasurable, like a boundless ocean. It's surprising. I thought your only love was the water, but you're more in love with her than you are with the deep blue... I'm just trying to help you."

Like a boundless ocean?

The strange comparison drew a frown from Rin as he watched Ami unlock her door. Just as she pushed her door open, Rin's eyes shot wide and he grabbed the knob, slamming the door shut on her before she could pass through. When Ami spun around to face him, agitated by his rudeness, she went silent at the rage simmering in his eyes. "You took it," he said in a low growl.

"I beg—"

"The ring." He stepped closer to her. "You took the ring."

Gou's ring.

All that time he'd wasted fretting over where he'd somehow dropped it. All the effort he'd spent digging through the snow at the train station in search of the velvet box he'd meant to gift to his sister. The answer had been staring at him right in the face, smug as ever while he'd wallowed in anguish over such a loss, blaming himself for nothing.

Ami glanced at his hand tightening around the doorknob, effectively cutting her off from escape as she was trapped between the door and him. Knowing this, she tipped her face towards his, her own eyes glinting with a challenge. "I knew you'd been working hard these past months to buy something, but I never expected a ring."

"Give it back." Fury deepened his voice, stringing it tight and sharp.

"You've got great taste. It sparkles like the heart of the ocean, and I think the blue compliments my hair," She said daringly, twirling a blonde lock around her finger, "don't you think?"

"Where. Is. It?" He was seething.

Tipping her head, Ami studied the animosity that'd darkened the handsomeness of Rin's face. She smiled, prettily and patiently, before turning her face down in indication. Rin followed her line of sight until his eyes fell to her cleavage that peeked from beneath the v-neck of her sweater. "Wanna look for it?"

Without thinking, Rin snarled and grabbed her by the shoulders, slamming her back against the door, hard enough for the frame to shake from the force.

Instead of making any noise of complaint, however, Ami merely tipped her head back and let out a sharp bark of laughter. "See? You and I like it rough. You were rough like this when you were fucking me too."

That prompted him to instantly let go of her, a sudden wave of revulsion running through him. As soon as his hands released her, Ami slid her eyes aside and Rin followed, meeting the curious gaze of the dormitory assistant who was now leaning over the counter and watching them warily. He cleared his throat, taking a step back to create the illusion that everything was fine, but Rin was sure he'd grabbed Ami hard enough to leave some sort of bruise. The thought of leaving any more mark of his on her body made him scowl.

"What do you want from me?" He asked.

"In exchange for the ring?" Rin frowned, but nodded reluctantly. Squinting at him in observation, Ami noted, "You really want this ring… No, what you really want is the girl. I've never seen you this desperate before."

"It's not like you're giving me a choice here." The spite was clear in his words.

"Oh, but you do have a choice." Ami raised both hands at her sides like she was weighing something, "Forget the ring, and forget the girl and your feelings for her. Or, get the ring, and risk the heartbreak."

"That's your way of helping me?"

"Well, if the only way to move on from this girl is to have your heart broken, then I suppose my help isn't necessary." She shrugged, "In that case, by all means, take the ring. Either way, you'll learn. I'm just offering the easy way."

"You're forgetting one thing." Narrowing his eyes at her, Rin leaned down to murmur in her ear, "That ring doesn't belong to you. And it sure as hell doesn't belong in your bra. If you really think the presence of that girl over there is gonna stop me from taking what's mine, then you don't know me as well as you think you do."

A mix of satisfaction and pleasure brightened her dark eyes, and Ami bit back a smile that deepened his frown. "Actually, that just proves that I do." She whispered back to him, "I'll give you a hint: the ring isn't in my bra."

Rin stared hard at her for a moment longer before dropping his gaze down to her skirt. Giggling, she shook her head, "Not in my panties either." But her hand slid down to grip the edge of her skirt as she added, "Feel free to check if you want though."

"I'm not fucking around, Ami." He growled, feeling his patience about to snap any second now. He truly didn't care if that dormitory assistant was watching them. "Give me the ring."

"So you've made your decision then." Disappointment dulled her teasing expression. "You really refuse to give up the girl, huh? You really are crazy in love with her. Fine then, but don't say I didn't warn you, Rin." Opening her door once again, Ami gestured to her room, "If you want the ring, come inside and I'll show you."

It wasn't like she could take advantage of him in there. At six feet tall, Rin towered over her and could easily overpower her if he so wanted. Sure, Ami was also an athlete, but the physical difference between them was stark. There was nothing she could do to him in that room that he couldn't defend himself from.

Peering into the dark, intimate space of her room, Rin asked, still dubious of her offer, "If I go inside your room, you'll give me the ring?"

"For a price," She winked at him, and then lowered her voice to a teasing whisper, "but hey, I'll even let you watch me take the morning after pill if that'll make you feel better."

In his desperation to retrieve Gou's ring back, he'd almost forgotten about the lack of contraception when he'd done it with Ami. With the risk of pregnancy as a higher priority, Rin knew he really had no choice now. He was aware that Ami knew it too, and it was infuriating.

"Promise you'll take it?" asked Rin.

"Well, today will be the third day, but you know what they say!" She smirked, "Never late is better, but better late than never."

His fist tightened at his side, but Rin remained silent, his thoughts stewing like a storm in his mind. He already had made his decision, but his feet refused to budge. It wasn't because he was still skeptical of Ami's deal, but his body still shuddered with repulsion at the thought of being alone with her in a room, especially one as small and intimate as her dormitory. It was pathetic; that a man as large and strong as he was couldn't stand the thought of being alone with a girl. Yet, the nausea roiling in his gut hadn't gone away this whole time.

Peeking over at Ami, he caught the way she was biting her lip, studying him under her lashes. His nails dug into his palms once again, shaking Rin awake with the pain. Sucking in a deep breath to brace himself, he took a step forward, hesitating for another second before stepping into Ami's room.

The door shut behind him quietly, and then he asked, "So what's your price?"

A/N: I really hated writing this chapter even though it's my own story, haha. It just felt so disgusting to write...