Beautiful Scars by Maximilian
Featuring: Vocals (Me/Pirobal & Lincoln), Instruments (Luna, Mazzy, Sully, Sam)
AN: Back to business. Yeah, I had an anxiety attack and depression that made me take a few days off. I wasn't feeling motivated on doing something back then. Overthinking stuff, panicking, and all that stuff really is heavy. This is still from TLH/TC-8255 or "Brother in Shade" similar world. The studio picked off so I have to settle with the band that is currently available to have this recorded. Anyways, I still have personal crisis that needed attending to for once in a while. Sorry if I made an unannounced break but that's enough for now. I need to get back on track. So here we are and August had arrived. Meaning this pandemic crisis will finally be eased up sooner. There are still cases of CoVID-19 and then there's that Lebanon explosion. With all these bad news around the globe, it's really a struggle to stay positive and hopeful for the next year (heck for the whole lifetime). Without further ado, leave a like, review/request, follow and I hope you enjoy. God Bless, Stay Safe and Peace/Shalom!
-Music Start-
[Verse 1: PiroBal]
Broken all the pieces I've been shaping lately
Focused on the things that didn't make no sense
Guess that growing up was never meant to be easy
Yeah, I got used to doing everything sideways
Didn't really care about how anyone felt
Hiding my emotions down in different ashtrays
[Pre-Chorus: Lincoln]
Oh, but what is lost ain't gone
No, you can't just let go
'Cause it's a part of you that will make you strong
Embrace your flaws
[Chorus: Lincoln & Me]
I'm not gonna fight back what I've become
Yeah, I've got bruises where I came from
But I wouldn't change if I could restart
I ain't gonna hide these beautiful scars
I've been going way too hard on myself
Guess that it's the reason I've been feeling like hell
But I wouldn't change if I could restart
I ain't gonna hide these beautiful scars
[Verse 2: Pirobal]
I went down a road that only got me nowhere
I've seen every corner, every inch of this place
Being all alone it really got me thinking, maybe overthinking
[Pre-Chorus: Both]
That what is lost ain't gone
No, you can't just let go
'Cause it's a part of you that will make you strong
Embrace your flaws
[Chorus: Both]
I'm not gonna fight back what I've become
Yeah, I've got bruises where I came from
But I wouldn't change if I could restart
I ain't gonna hide these beautiful scars
I've been going way too hard on myself
Guess that it's the reason I've been feeling like hell
But I wouldn't change if I could restart
I ain't gonna hide these beautiful scars
[Bridge: Lincoln]
Hide these beautiful scars
Hide these beautiful scars
[Chorus: Lincoln & Me]
I'm not gonna fight back what I've become
Yeah, I've got bruises where I came from
But I wouldn't change if I could restart
I ain't gonna hide these beautiful scars
I've been going way too hard on myself
Guess that it's the reason I've been feeling like hell
But I wouldn't change if I could restart
I ain't gonna hide these beautiful scars
[Outro: Lincoln]
Hide these
I ain't gonna hide these
Hide these
Hide these beautiful scars
No
-Music End-
PiroBal: Please take note that this isn't just for me and Lincoln but it is for those people out there suffering self-doubt and self-deprecation. Lucy and Haiku are prime examples (although they are goths so it should have been an exception) of those who devalues themselves. It's okay to be humble but self-distrust or timidness is much different. Fear shouldn't hold you back on doing good things in life. It's okay to be afraid sometimes but you have to muster courage from time to time, and not let your fears become a reality. Thank you so much and have a nice life.
I stayed for a while and helped Lincoln in therapy. After a while, I decided to convey my farewells to the Loud family and wished them a good luck on getting Lincoln out of the shades of fears, doubts and blame. Rita visited her brother's grave with Lincoln once more and finally moved on with their lives. The mother had finally let go of her fears and grief. The sisters did their best on not overwhelming Lincoln and putting him back to that struggle once more. He finally felt appreciated in life.
-END-
AN: I detached from any social media for a while and tried to return my old spark of life. If not, maybe I can find a new spark. I just wanted to feel better after all that pain and struggle. Some might say this is a midlife crisis for me. Maybe it's true or maybe I'm just over thinking things. I really have no idea what is the case on this matter. I can't be too gullible yet I must remain curious in life. So yeah, that's why I had that kind of social awkwardness and tiny circle of trust. I'm still healing from all that negativity but it's slower than I imagined.
These are current line of suggestions:
Weak by AjR
Savage Love by Jason Derulo
Kiss (Never Let Me Go) by Thyro and Yumi
How to Save a Life by The Fray
Cradles by Suburban
Am I Wrong by Nico & Vinz
Suggestion
We Are The Champions by Queen [cruz2018 - To be done in August]
Once again, Thanks you, leave a like, review/request, follow and I hope you enjoy. God Bless, Stay Safe and Peace/Shalom!