Olivia wrapped her arms around Fitz neck and tried to pull him towards her for a kiss.
"I don't kiss fuck buddies."
"I need you."
"I am fucking you."
Olivia let her arms fall and looked away from him. This was the worse sex she ever had. Her legs were over his arms while he jack hammered into her. That was the only contact she had with him. She couldn't feel the warmth of his chest or the softness of his kisses. He held onto her hips and increased his speed. He grunted loudly and released inside her. That was it. Olivia didn't get anything but sex. Not even an orgasm. He pulled himself out of her and quickly grabbed his clothes.
"I'll call you in the morning Olivia."
"Are you serious? That's it?"
"You wanted to be fucked."
"I said a good fuck."
"You don't get that without a marriage license."
Fitz didn't look at Olivia when he spoke to her. He was smiling inside. Hopefully, she would fall apart when they fucked again. He wanted her to cry, an emotional breakdown. He knew they could be a family when the baby arrived if he could get her attached emotionally. He was taking advantage of the pure emotions that came with being a woman. There was no way they could have sex throughout the whole pregnancy without her having an emotional breakdown. She would complain about not being kissed. He would make himself distant to Olivia. If she wasn't calling him about Karen, the baby or jogging, he wasn't speaking to her. He might let his secretary answer his phone and let Olivia know he is busy and can only take important phone calls.
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"Good morning Olivia. We missed you around here."
"Thank you. It's good to be back at work."
"Did you have a good break?"
"It was okay. I do like being able to sleep longer."
"I know Karen keeps you busy."
"She does, but I'm thankful for her dad. I drop her off at his house after school."
"That sounds great. I wish my ex-husband kept the kids more often."
"I didn't think I would like co-parenting, but it's great."
"Does he help you out on weekends?"
"Yeah, but I don't expect him to keep her every weekend. I know he needs a break."
"If we could find a way to bottle their energy and sell it, we would be rich. Most days I think I'm failing as a mom. My kids ate fast food everyday last week. I can cook dinner without any problems when the kids have been at school all day and I've been at work all day. It's hard to find the energy to keep going when I have to be constantly alert from 6:00 in the morning until 9:00 at night. Someone is always arguing about something or just being loud because it's the middle of the day. Be glad you only have one kid right now. Having four can make you crazy."
"How do you balance it all?"
"I am still figuring that out."
Olivia often joked about work being a break from parenting, but it was really true for annalise. Before Fitz came into her and Karen's life, she could call her mom when she needed a break. Maya loved spoiling Karen. She probably wouldn't have that luxury with four kids. Around this time next year, Olivia would have two kids. She wanted her baby. At the same time, she worried about giving Karen enough attention.
"I have a lot of work to do today."
Olivia ended the conversation with her work friend and looked at her phone. Fitz still hadn't called. Maybe next time the sex will be better.