I'll probably say this a lot but I'm so grateful for the fanfiction app. I'm sure you guys are good with some chapters being posted closely after the other. I think I write pretty well, my muse hits me so hard at night time.

you might need to bring out the tissues guys...

When Jane came to Frost's apartment he was definitely surprised, he forgotten that her and her brothers were hanging out at the Dirty Robber. Did Tommy tell them what he called him about? He hesitantly opened the door and greeted Jane. "I-uh, I wasn't expecting you."

Jane nodded. "I didn't expect to be here, but I think we should talk. Can I come in?" she asked, and Frost nodded, stepping to the side.

"So what did you want to talk to me about, it's almost 9 o' clock."

Jane plopped down on Frost's couch, looking around, she hardly came here but when she did it didn't have much decorations or pictures up. It just looked like the home of a lonely man, it kind of looked like her apartment when she lived alone. "Frost, are you happy living here alone?" Jane looked up at her friend in real concern.

"It's hard to truly be happy when you feel so alone, wouldn't you think?" Frost sighed. "Did you want something to drink? I have your beer you bought me that I haven't touched. Drinking alone kind of sucks."

Jane just looked at him and nodded, "A beer would be nice, thanks."

Frost nodded and came back with two beers, he sat down on the couch next to Jane, handing her one. "I think I know why you are here. I forgot you were with Tommy and Frankie tonight. What did he tell you?"

Jane opened her beer, "Well he was pretty vague, he never once said your name but I kind of had one of those epiphany things. You know you can tell me anything, right?"

"I guess I wasn't really sure what to talk about. Things have been confusing since Christmas. I kissed Gwen and got rejected and then I take Tommy home and he's drunk and kisses me, then he pretty much abandoned me on his porch. Then the other night Tommy gave me his number saying we could talk, tonight was the first night I called that number. I was sorta surprised you know, I thought he was just trying to be nice. Part of me I guess wasn't sure if he would actually pick up or if the number he gave me was actually his," Frost took a sip of his beer. "You know Tommy hasn't been the first guy to kiss me."

Jane shook her head, "No I didn't know. Wanna tell me about it?"

"It was in college, you know how people say it's nice to experiment in college, well that was what it was. To him anyways, it was a weird feeling being attracted to a guy, but I don't know. I have attraction to girls too, so I guess that makes me bi. But in college it was a confusing time we were dorm roommates, after a party we were talking and we were both pretty drunk. I came out to him and he kissed me, we both ended up passing out in his bed," Frost paused. "Anyways, when I brought it up to him the next day well he called me a... you know," he gripped his beer bottle. "I felt embarrassed, I was upset and then at the end of the day he moved out of the dorm and then there I was... Just alone," Frost paused again this time taking a longer drink of his beer. "That was the first time in my life I felt truly alone. And it kinda followed me."

Jane had rested her hand on his knee, she wiped her eyes, not realizing she was crying, she looked at Frost and could see the pain in his eyes. "I-God Frost I can't even imagine. I am so sorry that happened to you, shit just isn't fair."

Frost wiped his own eyes after tears fell down his face. He took a minute to regain his composure. "Then when Tommy kissed me when he was drunk and left me on that porch, all I felt were those feelings I felt in that moment in college. I didn't want to feel the pain that happened back then, but that's why I have been trying to wrap my head around it. That's why I have been distant with Tommy, I just... I don't know how to trust him, if I can even trust him. I mean you understand right?"

"Yeah I definitely understand, but he has his own way of doing things and well, talking to him tonight, seeing how upset he was after you guys had that phone call. I can't even remember the last time I seen him with actual emotions. I think for the first time in his life he's actually growing up. You know Pop pretty much abandoned Tommy once he got engaged to that Lydia woman, it's been that way for weeks now apparently. He's finally in the right mind set now, I think part of the reason he is the way he is, is that he idolized him for so long. Now he finally is starting to see that me and Frankie were right in keeping Pop away from our lives. I honestly think I see real change and real potential in Tommy," Jane smiled softly, drinking more of her beer.

"You really think he's changed?"

"Not completely yet, but he just needs someone to keep him on the right track. Between you and me, I honestly think he really likes you. It's kind of bizarre in a way. But I do know that this isn't just about Tommy... Frankie was telling me him and Gwen had a talk, trying to figure you out."

Frost sighed and decided to put his beer down, "Yeah I was kind of hoping to avoid that other thing, but might as well get it all out there, you did say you want to know anything. Gwen visited me before I got the nerve to call Tommy. She was concerned about me and my feelings for Frankie. Gwen realized how anxious or upset I got when they both happened to always be together when I was around. Apparently I kept on looking at Frankie in a way she has never seen me look at anyone before, she pointed it out and then I started thinking about it, and thinking that maybe she was right. You know she has a brother who is gay and he sort of looked at her last boyfriend how I look at Frankie. You know it's something I didn't realize, I thought I was upset because I felt alone or envied their relationship, but I think I was upset because in some way I have feelings for Frankie. Frankie is the closest friend I've ever had and I've always felt comfortable around him, you know like you have with Maura. I don't want to lose that... he's happy with Gwen and I can't come between that, I don't want to," Frost looked at Jane. "I-I'm sorry about this..."

"Hey don't be sorry Frost, feelings just happen and sometimes it's not what you want. I know you feel bad about liking Frankie, you looked really down at dinner today. I wish there was some way that I could help."

Frost sighed, "I know you want to help Jane, but I really think it's just a lost cause. Frankie could never like me knowing I have these feelings for Tommy. And Frankie is happy with Gwen, and I don't want to get in the way of that... But I shouldn't ignore these feelings. I mean you eventually told Maura how you felt and you both are the happiest I've ever seen both of you. I just want to be happy in my personal life, like I'm happy at work. You know it doesn't help that we all work together. I mean Korsak told me your mom quit the cafe because she didn't want to be stuck at a job where she seen Cavanaugh while she was trying to move on and work on a relationship with Korsak. What if work gets that way for me?"

Jane looked at his friend and frowned, "You're not thinking about leaving, are you?"

Frost shook his head, "This job means the world to me, I couldn't leave it but there are those obstacles. Like I'm not even sure if these feelings for Frankie are real or I am just trying to ignore the feelings for Tommy because of fear of not being able to trust him. Frankie is more comfortable to be around and I never have to second guess his intentions, but with Tommy all I do is second guess things."

Jane patted his leg, "Maybe you're projecting your feelings for Tommy off onto Frankie. I think that's what it's called... Comfort overpowering the confusion and fear. Maybe you just think you have feelings for Frankie because Gwen put that in your head," she shrugged. "Anything is possible, but if my hypothesis is correct it might just be that whole projecting your feelings thing." She smiled, moreso to herself. "Fuck if I'm right about this Frost I actually am smarter than I make myself out to be. I might actually be smart about feelings, can you believe that?"

Frost just raised his eyebrow at Jane, "Um Jane, I think you lost your focus." Jane coughed and stopped smiling.

"Right, sorry."

"No it was actually pretty amusing," Frost smiled. "Lightened up this mood some. It sort of got real depressing. I guess I have some things to sort out."

Jane nodded, "Yeah but whatever happens I will still love you and whatever choice you make, even though I was quite shocked when I realized you had feelings for Tommy. Like mind blowing, I would never imagine in a million years you and Tommy. I'm not sure what you see in him but if you're sure you like him..."

"If there's one thing I know is that yes I have feelings for Tommy. God that sounds so odd saying it out loud. I have feelings for your brother, well and or brothers plural," Frost said, then sighed, looking around his apartment. "You know every night when I come home I realize how empty my place feels, not really knowing just how alone I feel. I hate it here Jane. I honestly have nowhere that feels like an actual home."

Jane nodded, "I know that feeling too well, I finally found a home at Maura's, hell just like my mom did until she moved to Korsak's. Wait a minute, Frost I have an idea. I need to call Maura for a moment, if you don't mind..."

Frost shook his head, "Not at all."

"This shouldn't take long, I'll be right back," Jane stood up putting her beer bottle down and headed into the hallway. She dialed Maura's number and she picked up in a few rings.

"Hey Jane, you lasted longer than I thought before you asked me to save you from your brothers."

"Actually something came up and I had to go see Frost."

"Why? Is Barry okay, did, did something happen?" she asked, worry laced in her voice, it tugged at Jane's heartstrings.

"Not exactly, me and my brothers were talking, something was said and I thought I needed to go see Frost. I've been helping him talk things out, he finally felt comfortable talking to me about it I guess. Anyways we got to talking and I had an idea. God Maura, you should see this place, it looks worse off than when I lived alone. Frost is lacking some joy in his life and I was seeing if maybe I mean if he wants... that he could stay at our place for a bit. Until he gets back on his feet, you know."

Maura listened to Jane talk about what was going on. "Jane I would love nothing more than to help out until Barry is back to feeling better. I can set up the guest room in the house until maybe he's comfortable sleeping in the guest house. I want to do anything to help, it really hurt seeing him so down at dinner. Tell him he can stay as long as he wants." Maura paused a moment, "I love how much you care about Barry."

"He's like one of my best friends Maura, if something happened to him I well... I don't even want to think about that. I'll see what he says about it. I love you and I'll be home soon."

"I love you Jane, see you soon," Maura spoke and hung up.

Jane ran a hand through her curls and then went back into Frost's apartment. She looked around and didn't know where he was. She heard shuffling in his bedroom, she knocked on the door. "Hey Frost, I'm done talking to Maura. Are you doing okay?"

She waited until Frost came out, she looked at what he was holding. "When you said you had to talk to Maura I figured out what you wanted to talk to her about. Was my hypothesis correct?"

Jane smiled warmly at Frost, "Yeah, we would want you to stay at our house for as long as you need to." She looked at him, "Can I give you a hug?" she asked and Frost just smirked and nodded. Jane pulled him into a hug.

"Thanks for being here for me tonight Jane it's more than you could ever know. I know I opened up to you a lot, hope it wasn't too much," Frost told her in the hug before pulling away.

"No, I feel like I know you even more now, we never really talked about your past, so that was new. Me and Maura will always be there for you if you need anything, you got us."

"I'm glad that I do, I um hope I don't end up bothering you and Maura too much though, I know you guys are probably sexually active. That's the whole reason you were glowing this afternoon I figured, you had that sex glow. I know I've seen Korsak with that look before."

Jane frowned, "Ugh come on Frost, I don't want to know his activities with my mother. God... that's probably why he's been eating healthy so he could be energized for... ugh that's gross."

"He's in love and actually working out Jane, give him some credit," Frost smirked.

"Well I'm glad my disgust can cheer you up," she gave him a small nudge. "Were you ready to go?"

"Just need a few more things then I will be ready. Thanks again for this Jane. I'm so grateful for you being in my life, if everything else falls apart in my life I know that I can always count on you."

Don't you just wanna hug Frost? I totally cried writing their talk and Frost's past... poor dude. I couldn't just have the whole chapter sad though. What did you think? Who do you guys think he will end up with? And can Tommy really change?