Puffgirl1952 the 2nd: oh yes, and things are going to be a dousey. Haven't decided but I don't see that happening.

Princesakarlita411: true but its coming to a close soon so there's that.

SerenityxEndymion: while I'm glad it got a reaction hopefully your eyes are okay now. But yes this provoked a reaction out of me to as I wrote it. And yes Minako is to blame for this as much as Mamoru is, and Usagi will see everyone's fault in this. Even her own as she decides what to do next. But yeah a lot of it does stem from Chibi Usa being her bratty self and the lack of trust shown towards Usagi. As for explaining the past to Usagi's parents, in which stories were those in cause I don't remember doing that in my stories? You stay safe to.

CassieRaven: yeah and the next chapter will give more indication on that. On the rest you'll have to wait and see.

AimlesslyGera: exactly the point to. There are two sides to this point both Usagi's and everyone else's who had their reason to keep it from her. That will get deviled more into soon.

Chibiashue: well it is a story, so yes there will be some unrealistic reactions but in this case perhaps it was more of 'over reaction'. She reacted to receiving this startling news for the first time and from the object of who's been a completely brat to her until recently. And to find out those she trusts kept it from her, she got pissed and reacted. I know I would be upset. That's just me though. As for the rest of what you say, there will be more on that in this chapter. In the end regardless of the reason why they kept it from her she still feels what she feels because they made her feel like she couldn't be trusted to handle things…again. At least in my perspective in this case.

Joanne Frances Tiano Cajilig: your absolutely right on that, and things will tell in time, read on and you'll find out.

kera69love: you'll have to wait and see, I don't want to spoil anything.

Yin - Yang M: they probably have that in the future. Lol

SerenityDeath: basically. Yeah.

TropicalRemix: yeah he did that pretty well.

mikanxnatsume1228: yeah I know I had to get pretty in depth to write it out. There will be one in there from his POV so yes. I'm glad that its not obvious yet if their going to be together or not. As for the next story well see if I can make something happen.

karseneau1: no worries, there's room enough for only one drama queen, and Chibi Usa is tamed down for the moment. Lol

phillynz: exactly. And basically.

Aiyoku: that's one way of putting it. Lol yeah I wanted the blow up to be epic, like when Mamoru reacted to the kiss epic levels. And you'll see.

Kasumi Yawa: well the back and forth is coming to an end very soon. And I appreciate the constrictive critism and hope that you'll be there when it ends which is in a few chapters. There's not much left. I'm honestly surprised it lasted this long.

phillynz: yeah I like those ones to. I actually need to get back to reading them to. And those are some ideas to think about.

setokayba2n: they will have another talk so that will get discussed.

Rjzero00: I was afraid of that. I wanted her to be more vocal but I didn't want her to topple him over in conversation either. I'm am glad thought that her inner monologue was riveting. You'll have to find out who she chooses in the coming chapter.

19 reviews, very nice, we're getting close to the end here, only a few chapters left to go before its done with. Can't believe we made it this far. Wasn't expecting this to be so long. Please read and review!

Breaking point ch.34

Usagi POV

Tears were flowing freely down my face as I watched people pass me by on the bench I had found. I honestly hadn't even registered that I was crying. That I had cried all the way here. A few strangers passed by but thankfully no one bothered me. I had called Nauru to come see me as I knew I was a bit too distraught to try to go over to her place right now. My emotions were all over as I went over everything in my head.

I hated to admit it, but Mamoru did have some valid points. His fears of how I'd react were very real as I did become angry. Very angry with what I initially perceived to be yet again another showcase of lack of trust in myself. Keeping this from me when we had all gone through so much emotional and even mental turbulence. I felt in those moments like my back had been put up against the wall as I got told yet again that something had been done without my consent. I put my head in my hands.

I was willing away the headache that threatened to erupt if I didn't get a handle on the crying and soon. I knew he has his points and when I was able to be a bit more calmed down, yet I do understand some of them. I was just so upset that here I am the supposed leader of the senshi, the supposed ruler of the future and yet those I love and trust with so much still decided to make an executive decision to not saying anything till they felt it was right.

Yet I couldn't help but feel justified in my reaction. They had yet again done something that yes was intended to protect me, but this time it was on a different level. This time it felt like they were trying to manipulate me on some level for their own gain. I knew that wasn't the reason for it, deep down I did know but it's something that was presented to me as I questioned why they didn't say something.

Simply put I should have been told from the jump that Chibi Usa was disappearing from this timeline. I myself could have put power into her, but…and this is the part where I knew things got blurred, since she was mine and Mamoru's future daughter I also knew that there would have been a sort of pressure placed on me to make things right with him before I was ready. Now that I had a chance to think on it what would I have done?

Would I have dropped the purpose of staying away just to save her and forgive them all so easily…? I debated on it for a moment as I thought back on how I was feeling during that time and how I would have responded. The answer was simple though, no…I realized I wouldn't have. I wouldn't have felt guilted into it as during that time she was still acting as she was and treating me lesser.

I truly believe now that had I been told about this when it happened, before any 'dates' happened that I would have wanted to put my own power into her to aid in her sustaining ability to be here, along with Mamoru's power, BUT, I do also realize that I would have held doubt on his true intent on WHY he wanted to work so hard on us. I would have wondered this whole time if it truly was for us or there was another reason behind it. Yes, I should have been told but looking back at it I'm wondering if I MIGHT have overreacted.

Yes, I still believe I should have been told about everything that happened. I was her future mother after all, but, and herein lies the conundrum of how I was beginning to feel. Seeing it from their side of things I get why they did it. I was upset, I wasn't going to deny that. It didn't mean I agreed with it or would have done the same thing not by half. If something like that had happened to one of them, like a future child of theirs came back for similar reasons and THAT happened, I would want to tell them.

I would want to say something like 'hey we have this issue going on here'. I would have done something differently than what they did. I know my meddling doesn't always end well but I meddle for a reason. I can sense when its needed even if they don't agree with it or with me, but in the end its necessary. That's when it strikes me that they might have been feeling the same way I would have.

Mamoru did indicate that he hadn't wanted to keep it from me and while he did have a choice, he also clearly didn't think on that either. I think he legitimately forgot that since he's the crown prince of earth he's the only other person besides myself that can give a direct order to the leader of the senshi. Technically speaking. Granted we didn't follow those rules often at all which also might be the reason why he didn't think to do it.

After all we hardly followed any of the rules that the previous millennium had. I defied so many rules to this date still and I didn't regret a bit of it. In fact, I'm probably the last person to go regarding following the rules. So yeah Mamoru's following Minako's advice was wrong, but it was wrong of her to give that advice to begin with. I then began to wonder what some of my closest friends truly thought of me if that was their first choice on what to do was to keep this from me to begin with.

I mean was I such a cry baby as Rei put it that they didn't feel I could handle it? I knew I became emotional about it, but can you blame me? It was a shock for me to hear and from Chibi Usa no less and she didn't even know that I was there to hear it. So I knew this wasn't something she did on purpose no, my finding out this way had been an accident. I just felt that Mamoru should have told me sooner or at least told me period. He's her future father. No instead they did things their way without me, and purposely DIDN'T tell me.

It brought me back to all the times that Mamoru and I dated. I know most of it was real but was all of it real for him as it was for me? Granted I had my guard up for a lot of it but towards the end I felt really happy again. I felt like we were becoming a true couple again, and NOT out of reasons for the past or the future that we saw but for us, ourselves. I felt excited and for the first time in a long time like we were a real couple.

Then this happened. One could view it as deception or betrayal and while I knew that wasn't the case anyone that wasn't familiar with how close we all were could easily see something like that in this from an outside perspective. In the end I wanted to believe him so much but, there was a shred of doubt. There was something that told me if he was truly serious that he wouldn't have lied to me for as long as he did.

Them to though. They lied to me to. Time and time again they never told me. Time and time again they all kept this from me. Fine yes, I got emotional, it's what humans do. It's what makes us human. Even if you were formerly a Lunarian. I listened to his side of the conversation in my mind over and over again. Part of me wanted to go forgive him, forgive all of them but another part of me wanted to leave.

Not skip town leave, that would be not only selfish but a reckless move to make and I didn't have a way to sustain myself for long and it would also be considered highly irresponsible considering who I was and my level of responsibilities, and last but not least I'd never leave my family like that and put that type of pain or hardship on them simply because of this, no I would however want to leave them to their own devices for a while.

Let them believe that I'm gone. Be away and not do anything for days or a week for that matter from them. Yet I knew that would be a selfish act to. Or would it be justifiable? I mean I knew it would be wrong of me to just abandon everyone when I knew deep down, I didn't want to, not be any means did I WANT to, I wanted to be here for everyone. I still loved them all so much. I couldn't not love them.

I just didn't agree with their decision and felt that there was a better option out there that they didn't take due to whatever logic was running through their heads over the situation. I didn't feel that they trusted me enough and after all that we had all been through hadn't I proven that I could handle anything thrown my way? After all I put Mamoru and I on a break for a reason, does that NOT show how dedicated I am to evolving and change?

The question was where do I go from here? Before I can think much more on it, I see Naru running towards me. I knew I had to think of a logical reason for the 'emergency' I called her out for that wasn't senshi related but perhaps…I don't know. Was she ready to learn the truth about the girls, Mamoru and I? She had somehow become a bit of a magnet for trouble and I always tried to keep an eye out for her.

Maybe… "What happened?" she asked, truly wanting to be there for me as she sat down next to me on the now seemingly secluded bench. She was always so supportive of me and even the girls when I, we all, kept so much from her and that's when another strike hit me. Since I became a senshi I kept a LOT from her and my family. Granted there was a good reason for that. Her own safely since she couldn't protect herself the way we could.

Noe of them could. Though now that I think of it, it was more so the very reason why I nearly ostracized her from being a friend to begin with. Luna told me not to tell her anything. She practically made it an order and I followed it thinking it was the right decision at the time. I followed blindly as Luna was guiding us all and we trusted her with everything. At the time I was really new to all of it and followed along without complaining or even really questioning it when perhaps I should have.

Yet now, Naru and I have proved over the last several months that our friendship could still be so strong to overcome many obstacles so now I wondered could she handle and keep this a secret? I briefly wondered about my family keeping it a secret to, but I had a strong feeling that I already knew the responses of my parents and they weren't entirely positive. Th visual of their reactions became very real in my mind's eye.

My mother would ask at first if there was anyone else that could be sailor moon besides myself, perhaps even going as far as to tell me that I was grounded for life if I went out to fight off evil once more. My father I knew would react the worst. He would forbid me from fighting going forward. He would refuse to let any senshi business be around the house and he might even kick out Luna for bringing this into his home.

Not that its her fault per say, no this was always meant to be for us. There is no one else to become the senshi besides us till the next generation is born for each senshi. I just knew that their reactions would be less than thrilled. Shot I think Shingo would just be in shock for a while knowing his big sister that he pranks is actually a soldier of justice. Plus, he'd find it 'ew' considering at one point when I first started out, he had the tiniest crushes on my senshi self, something I'm GLAD he grew out of fast.

Naru however, I knew somehow deep down inside that I could trust her with it. Deciding to put my faith to the test I make sure there's no one around and confess everything to her. All of it. I realized that if I didn't tell her and just feed her another lie type of response that I was in fact doing what the other girls and Mamoru did to me as an act of protection. It would be hypocritical of me to keep her in the dark further on when I knew in my heart that I could trust her to keep it secret, even from Umino if need be.

She'd definitely keep it from her mother who would undoubtedly talk to my parents out of a sheer need to protect one of her daughter's friends and might even second guess letting Naru hang out with me going forward. Naru however, would understand how dangerous it would be to let even one other person who couldn't keep it contained know. The possibilities would and could be disastrous.

They had proven so beforehand on occasion whenever an enemy got close to those we cared for and made a mistake on identity. Yes, I had kept it from her before, but I hadn't wanted to even then. I was following Luna's orders. Perhaps I was a bit hypocritical without even realizing it already. Which also reminded me of Mamoru's words this evening that he HADNT wanted to keep it from me.

He had wanted to tell me. He had wanted to NOT follow Minako's order to keep silent on it till she felt it was time. He just choses instead to follow her orders. The more I thought on it as I told Naru everything the more I realized that perhaps I did overreact a bit even though I was just responding in an angered state over everything that I was feeling in the moment. So yeah, I have my own faults and I knew that I needed to talk to the girls and Mamoru about all of this. It was necessary for us all.

Yet I knew that once I spoke to Naru about all of it that I would have the answer I was searching for, to confirm what I was already thinking I should do in the end and finally that I would never have to keep this from her again. If anything, telling her everything, watching the look in her eyes as she took it all in felt so freeing. I even cried a bit telling her as I never knew how much I kept form her and how much I had been holding in.

I realized belatedly that perhaps this is similar to what Mamoru felt earlier this evening when he broke down and told me everything that had happened. His face had fallen, and he seemed so full of regret for keeping it to himself, between them all and NOT telling me. Yes I had noticed some of it there but now that I had a chance to think back on it when I was also telling Naru everything I realized that it was painful for him to keep it from me as it was painful for me to keep this a secret from Naru…one of my oldest and most trusted friends.

I felt full of regret for not telling Naru myself of our secret life and not once as I told her everything, even as I made sure no one was close enough to hear us, did I fear regret in telling her. Not once did I think that I was making a mistake in telling her the truth. Which now made me wonder how he would have felt if he had in fact told me earlier on what happened, despite Minako's order.

As I finished up telling Naru everything which summing up, being a moon senshi, being the moon princess, the negaverse, the crystal palace in the future, the droids we battled, so much and finally about Chibi Usa and her role in this and what happened between Mamoru and I and hwat had been kept secret from me in the end. It was a lot to go over, but I noticed one very shocking thing on my end.

She didn't seem as shocked as I was expecting her to be. "Naru?" I asked, questioning why she wasn't saying anything and why she looked happy and relieved rather than wide eyed and full on shocked. She looked to me still stunned yes, but not as much I would be if I was in her place, "Why are you…?" before I could finish she smiled and responded finishing off my sentence, "Not as shocked?"

I nodded, "Usagi I've suspected much of that when your cat, Luna came into the picture." Now it was my turn to be stunned as my mouth dropped down nearly all the way. "Wait, what?" I asked, "You acted differently afterwards. You were suddenly hung out with all new people and we didn't hang out so much." I lowered my head down as I felt bad for that, "I knew it was all for a reason, but I had my biggest clue when Nephlite was around."

I looked at her for an answer as she smiled, "When you stopped your tiara from hitting me, I saw that same intensity in your eyes before. As Usagi. My friend. I knew your eyes Usagi. Their full of love and hope and happiness. And when someone you care about is in danger your protective to a fault. Even if it means letting an enemy get away cause your friend found love with him." I didn't realize we were both crying now.

"So, when I did that…" I started to choke up a bit, "I saw how the other two senshi were with you. Mercury, or Ami I'm guessing…" I nodded, "She was skeptical about how to treat it but still wanted to get rid of him and Mars, Rei I'm assuming…" I nodded, "Wanted him gone at all costs. I think she might have still pulled the trigger on him despite my being in front of him willingly." It never occurred to me how that would have looked to her.

"My point is I knew, somehow I knew it was you. From that point forward I was more careful on who I was around, but you were always there in some form or another to be protective over me. I know you wanted to keep it from me, to protect me so I waited till you felt you were ready to trust me with that part of your life." By this point we were both crying from her words as we hugged each other. "Oh Naru, I wanted to tell you so much. I wanted you to know everything I just, Luna said not to, and I thought at first she was right but she was wrong."

I told her, "No, not in the beginning." I looked to her shocked once more, not thinking she'd take Luna's side in the matter since it would mean that she would be kept in the dark still to this day and my decision to tell her would still be based off of Luna's advice. This was purely my instinct decision to make. "In the beginning when I first suspected things, I was a bit angered that you left me out." I breathed in recalling that.

I felt so bad that I couldn't tell her about this fascinating new part of my life that wound up taking over such a huge chunk of it. Yet here she was telling me it was right to NOT tell her in the beginning? Wouldn't it have been better to tell her? "I figured I'd be the first to know since we'd been friends for so long, I mean all that we went through long before you made any of your other friends who I care for to by the way…" she stated.

She wanted me to know she wasn't trying to dismiss them but just trying to make her point, "But in the end, after much debating and thinking things over, and the several close calls I had with the various monsters over time, I knew that you were just trying to protecting me as you did that day. As you did for so many of us since this all began when things would take a sudden turn for the worse." I nodded my head.

"Whenever those new 'enemies' appeared and tried to hurt people, you and they were always there to put a stop to it. When that weird giant black crystal was in the heart of Tokyo I knew as I ran into you that day that you were going to stop it. I didn't know how but I knew you would, and you did. You saved the lives of so many people and I was proud to call you my friend." We were both still crying as she talked. "I understood that you had this new life and I wasn't to be a part of that." She continued.

"I always held hope though that you would one day tell me everything like you have today, or at least what I'm assuming is a summed-up version of it." I nod my head in acknowledgement of it as she continues on, "I was confident that one day you would want to share this with me and let me be a part of it even if it was just for advice which brings me to the next part of this." I looked to her as she put her hand on mine.

"Mamoru and the girls hurt you a lot with this." I nodded, "They made you feel things that made you react in anger." I nodded again as she seemed like she was mulling over how to say what she had to say next, "I think that they had very good reasons to do it just as you had reasons to react as you did." She began as she sounded like she was trying to tread carefully. "Yes, things could have been done differently." She acknowledged.

"But would having known earlier really changed the outcome of where it's at now?" she asked me, I felt the answer was simple, "Yes." She smiled, "Your right and wrong at the same time." Now I was confused, "What do you mean?" I asked her, "Your right in the sense that the future, of what now is would be different but unless you're talking alternate timelines with the 'butterfly effect' it wouldn't have changed." Now I was a tad confused.

"Think of it this way, had any of them told you what was going on the only real change was that you would have known. You already know what you would have done in response. Your heart would have gone out to her despite how she treated you. It didn't matter what she did to you. You've brought her back from evil and when she was evil you still held love for your future daughter." This was all true to.

"It didn't matter to you, you still saved her. Usagi, you don't have it in your heart to give up." I went to talk when she shushed me, "That doesn't mean that even you don't need breaks cause hey you do, but you still never let those that needed you down. You were still there even when others would have simple walked away. What I'm saying is you were always going to fight to make things right with Mamoru." I sighed knowing she was right.

"It was the point of the two of you taking the break then dating again. To reconnect and better your own relationship. Can you really say that that WASN'T going to happen if you knew about Chibi Usa BEFOREHAND when that was already the goal to begin with?" I slumped in my seat and twitched around a bit. She had a very good point. I had told Mamoru from the start that he had to fight for me.

That things needed to change, "I guess there was this fear that came out again that he really did all this time only date me to be with me so that he could ensure her survival…again. That it wasn't for us." I confided in her, "So when he told you for a fact that that wasn't the reason, that while Chibi Usa is important to him she's not the love of his life. She's not the woman that he would go to hell and back for." I raise a brow at her words since he didn't actually say that at all yet I knew it was the truth.

"Fine I know he didn't say that but that's the jist. The man would do anything for you, the girls would do anything for you. You've all proven to each other time and time again that it's not just friendship between you guys, it's a bond of sisterhood, its family." I looked at her as I said, "You're my family to." She giggled, "Of course I am. Can't get rid of me that easily." We giggled on that one. "My point is he wanted to date you already. He wanted to get you two back together already." I nodded.

"Their sole reason for this was because they believed in the love between the two of you. I'm betting you Minako being the senshi of Venus, planet known for love…" she giggled, "I'm guessing she wouldn't have encouraged Mamoru as she did unless she felt it with herself how much you two loved each other. Do you really see her trying to manipulate this whole thing just to get Chibi Usa back around? I mean didn't you say that she was the first one you went to when things hit the fan?" and she was right.

"Isn't she the one who was protective of you when you were getting close to the girls again?" I nodded knowing the truth of this. "The one who wanted to make sure you were ready and didn't want you to feel pressure she knew you well enough to know when you were ready to be pushed a bit?" I nodded accepting her words again, "Sounds like someone that wants what's best for you, and is making difficult decisions to help you out, not to try to help Chibi Usa." I sighed knowing the truth of it.

"Like I said things wouldn't have changed much otherwise if at all. Yeah, they should have told you but what's done is done and no one is hurt from it and the future daughter, which I'm still wrapping my head around that THAT'S who she is, is fine." I busted out with a good laugh after hearing that, "Yeah it can be a bit much to wrap around your head." I admit as we both chuckle, "You do need to make a decision though."

I nod accepting that as we hug, "I know, I need to take a few days…take everything in and see what my next move is going to be." I admit, "I understand that you may feel the trust issue since it's not what you would have done but it doesn't mean it wasn't a decision made by the people you trust and care about that you know wouldn't do anything to hurt you or those you love." I nodded once more, "Right…"

"I think I'll head to the park by the boats. Mamoru and I shared our first kiss there, one of many between us. The calming of the waters should help me out. Oh, is it okay if I crash at your place tonight?" I asked her, "Of course, mama loves to have you over. We can do a small PJ party, you can wear a pair of mine since I don't see any extra clothes with you." That's when I realized, "I left my duffle at Mamoru's place." I grumbled.

"I was in such a rush to get out I left it since it was right behind him." I grumbled more, "Hey it's fine, you can borrow a pair of mine and we can have some ice cream and chill for the night." I smiled and hugged her again, "I'm so lucky and glad you have you in my life." I tell her, "No I am." there were any number of reasons she could have had but at the moment it didn't matter as I asked one last favor of her.

"If you run into Mamoru out here, please don't tell him exactly where I am." she nodded, "You sure you don't want him to find you?" she asked me, I mulled over it. "Give him the first kiss hint. If he can't figure that out, then he really needs a few days as I do. After all, all of our treasured moments are etched into my memories. I'll never forget them." Naru smiles at me and says, "I'll see you later on at my place." I nod and leave off.

Mamoru POV

I was in a state of panic once I got back up to my place and shut the door. That Usagi is quicker than a damned rabbit when she wants to be. I lost sight of her after the fifth level of stairs when one of my neighbors came out into the stairwell. As good as my reflexes are as Tuxedo Mask, they aren't the exact same when in civilian form going at top sped down way to many flights of stairs while chasing my beloved.

No what that resulted in was as I heard the exit door she left out of close up I crashed bodily into my forty something year old neighbor who was hauling a bag of garbage outside and was planning on using the stairs so he could get some exercise in. Or so he stated as he ripped me a new one for running down steps. Plus, it definitely didn't help that as I apologized profusely and got back up that I literally slipped on an old ass banana peel from his garbage as it to flung up broke open upon impact and landed HARD on my backside.

The tenant only muttered, "Serves you right for plowing into me." As I got back up again and nearly limped my way out the back door in time to find her completely gone from view. I tried to look for her in the crowds, but she disappeared. Even with her distinctive hairstyle she was gone from my sight. I tried to use our link to find her, but it wasn't strong enough for that yet, so I had to admit to defeat at the moment and go back inside.

Problem was I ran out WITHOUT my keys and couldn't get back in through that exit as it automatically locked from the inside, safety reasons of course but inconvenient now. Especially as I had to walk smelling like garbage through the lobby and talk the front desk guy into helping me back into my place. I wasn't sure if Chibi Usa stayed inside of if she fell back asleep, either way I wasn't about to knock on my own door.

Chibi Usa was still there but she looked to still be in shock and not to responsive as I grabbed my cell, not having grabbed that either as I took off after Usagi and rang Minako. My voice was gruff and catchy as I didn't even bother to let her speak upon answering, "Usagi knows!" was all I could get out. Still feeling a tad winded from my mad dash trek, I just had. "WHAT?! HOW?! WHEN?!" she demanded of me.

The litany of snappy remarks I wanted to make as her voice was high pitched and sounding upset now to. Understandably so but I didn't have time to answer her. If I couldn't get to Usagi then perhaps one of her friends could, "Can't that wait she's out there, ALONE…" hopefully not going over to HIS place, "And I can't find her…at least not as easily I used to be able to. It takes time now and I don't have time right now." I admit as I recalled how long it took me to find her on that date she went on.

Granted the link was stronger now but I was unfocused and Minako's high pitched voice wasn't helping matters. "You are so aggravating at times." She stressed, "How am I aggra – you know what never mind!" I snapped again, getting frustrated by her trying to figure out what happened when all she needed to know was that Usagi was out there and PISSED at ALL of us, even if her telling me I was aggravating was aggravating in and of itself.

"HOW did this happen?" She demanded, pressing on the 'what went wrong factor' rather than on the 'I'm on it factor'. My frustration was turning into anger towards her, "Dos that really matter right now?" I got snappy, "It does in knowing where she'd head to." She concluded. "Fine, long story short, Chibi Usa accidentally spilled the beans before we could, we argued, she left end of story." I pressed as our current future daughter was watching to see what was going to happen still. I was pretty sure she was thinking 'what's gonna happen to me now?'

I just didn't have the time or the patience to tell her that everything would be okay when I didn't know it for a fact. "Unbelievable…do yourself a favor Mamoru - baka, make yourself useful and work on that damned link of yours to FIND her. Cause I sure as hell can't. Or do you want to take the risk of her going to Tyler as a friend in need?" I felt my body blaze up with anger and jealousy at the mere thought of that.

The last thing I wanted or needed was for her to go to him in her state of distress. I didn't trust him to NOT try something. I trusted her but she was vulnerable right now and didn't need him around. I needed to focus and find her. "I'll let the other girls know just do your part." She hung up on me after that as I tried to call Usagi. It rang till on the second ring it went to voicemail. She ignored the call.

"Did I mess things up?" Chibi Usa asked, I griped my phone in my hand. I knew she deserved to know the truth but right now she also needed to go home. I wasn't in any mental state of mind to have a pleasant conversation with her. I felt very close to snapping on her and she didn't deserve that right nw. "I'll work to fix things. Just as I have been." I confide in her as I keep my emotions in check, "You should go home." I advise.

I see her slowly getting up, "Okay…please let me know if you hear anything before I do." Her voice is small and near timid. It hurts my heart that my own future daughter is fearful right now, but it can't be helped. There's a reason to be fearful and I have to fix it…again. She steps away without any real eye contact with me, knowing I wasn't in the mood for much of anything leaves out the door.

I want to kick at something right now. I turn back around and see Usagi's duffle still sitting there. It was still innocently carrying the resort tickets as I stumbled back and sat on the couch where Chibi Usa made her couch cushion haven out of while we argued in front of her. I leaned my head over into my hands as I felt nauseated. I tried calling her several more times but each time they went to voicemail. "Please Usagi…" I begged for her to pick up as I looked at the outgoing calls.

A dozen calls from me to her alone and not once did she pick up. I tried to focus on the link that we had to try to find her. Once I managed to locate her, I raced to the location, damn near flew to get there only to find that she wasn't there anymore. I could even smell the perfume she was wearing this evening. She had literally just been here. I looked about nearly mad as I looked to see which direction she could have gone in.

I looked over and saw Nauru walking down another path. I could feel a sudden surge of hope hit me as I went over to her wondering if perhaps Usagi had gone to Naru for friendly comfort and was still within range to be caught up with. "Naru!" she looked stunned to see me only to then change her look to nearly expectant. "Well if it isn't the devil himself." She stated telling me she had indeed spoken to Usagi.

"I need to know where she is!" I urged her. Trying to reign back my inner prince that was just as worried yet wanted to order the young red head into telling me where she was. Naru wouldn't respond well to that though. Her head shook no, I blanched. "You need to give her some time to mull over things that have happened this evening. I spoke to her in depth about it, listened to her, but you need to understand that your actions just like hers do have consequences." This was starting to feel exasperating.

I also didn't know what Usagi told her at this point in time as it mostly tied in with senshi business and Chibi Usa. "Naru, I'm not sure - " she waved me off, "Some stuff I already knew about you guys others I didn't…Tuxedo mask." My eyes couldn't have gone wider if I had had a bottle of eye drops squeezed all at once into each socket. I was flabbergasted as one might say and left fumbling for a moment.

"Naru…" I was a bit poleaxed as she seemed to be accepting of this and not at all as stunned as one might have assumed. "Listen…" she tells me, "I'm only telling you this because I know she loves you beyond anything and I know you love her." I felt a tiny wave of relief, but it didn't quell the turbulence of emotions coursing through me as I wanted to talk to Usagi and not a third party on this.

"Despite the stupid decisions you've made with her. I know you did a lot of it out of love for her." I nodded my head, "Of course, I'd do anything for her." I tell her, "I know and it's incredibly sweet how you both will do anything even if it's deathly stupid to protect the other." Her words had a ring of truth in them as I wondered how much exactly did Usagi tell Naru about us, and what we all are.

"Which is why I'm going to do you a favor, against my better judgement." Her smile brightened up. If anyone could definitely help me out here it was one of Usagi's dearest and oldest friends, "Now I know you used that little link to get here but what you didn't know is that she's been gone for a good minute and I know where she's going." that part was a bit obvious, I had noticed she was gone when I noticed Naru alone here.

Usagi would have been by her side if she were still here. "Where is that?" I asked of her, "Where you two had your first kiss here…after bitch queen lost to you guys." She amended as I wracked my brain to remember when that was. Or rather WHERE that was. I shook my head, "Where is that?" I asked her. "I don't know, only you and her do." I narrowed my eyes at her, "You do know don't you." I called her out.

She shrugged her shoulders, "Maybe I do, perhaps I truly don't..." I wasn't in the mood to be played with, "Naru." I gently warned, "It doesn't matter either way, she needs to be alone right now and to figure out what she wants to do." I nearly huffed at her when Minako called. I picked it up without thinking, "You find her?!" I asked, hoping that Nauru would stay so I could try to wrangle the information from her.

"No, I was hoping you had. We can't reach her. She has her cell turned off and her communicator is 'emergencies only' use for enemies." Damn! "Where are you now?" She asked, as she was starting to sound worried herself now, "Talking to a well aware of who we are Naru. Usagi told her." I iterated to her to get that out of the way, "Wow, Usagi finally told her. About time." I rolled my eyes; this wasn't the time for that.

"So have Naru tell you where she is, she must have just spoken to her." I looked to Naru who arched a brow at me like 'you're supposed to remember not me' look as she stood there with her arms folded across her chest. I rolled my eyes, "There was just one clue, where Usagi and I first kissed. I'm trying to remember right now so I can go." I tell her though with my racing thoughts it's hard to pull up a single memory like that out of the blue.

I knew I'd have to if I was going to find my Usagi though. "Wait where you two first kissed, you said?" she asked, "Yeah why?" now I was worried at how she seemed to calm down, "Wasn't it at the scaffolding when you realized as Tuxedo mask that you were in love with her?" I was tempted to ask her how SHE knew that but considering Usagi probably told her it was useless to ask how, "No she was referring to the first kiss we shared after Beryl's demise." I explained making sure no one besides Naru was around to hear me.

"So are we talking before or WHEN Chibi Usa first arrived?" while Minako I knew was trying to help jog my memory I knew that somehow Naru knew and she was keeping it from me in an effort to make I'd remember on my own and have that be the reason why I'd find Usagi. I looked at her as she had a knowing expression on her face. Like she wanted me to figure it out but also wasn't going to tell if she did know.

She wasn't Usagi's bestie from childhood for nothing. Usagi confided in her about being a senshi so I have no doubt that she would keep where Usagi went to a secret and would only tell me if I already figured it out. "Yeah I don't remember. Try to use your link again and as long as she stays there you should find her." Minako suggested. If what Naru said was in fact true, which I didn't doubt it was, then Usagi would be there for a small amount of time before going anywhere else so I had a chance to find her.

I already got close with tracking down and finding Naru. Usagi wasn't too far behind so I was getting close, "Okay I'll hit you back when I find her, or you hit me back when you hear or find her." I ended the call before she could respond. Naru just looked at me, "It's not my place to tell you even if I did know." She confides, I huff and leave to go sit down. I needed to be more focused to find her again.

Finding the bench, I closed my eyes and searched as I mentally tried to remember WHERE that kiss took place. It also however forced me to see the many canceled dates I had made with her, which just frustrated me further that I had really been a lame ass boyfriend. Refocusing one more I sense her energies as I begin to get closer again. I manage to start narrowing it down to where exactly she was at when a block hits me.

I open my eyes in shock when her words come into my head…if you want truly to find me, then use your memory and don't rely solely on the link…you have your clue use it. I sighed and groaned as her voice goes out. She was making this harder and blocking me, but I knew she did it for a good reason. To not rely so heavily on the link would prove that I was remembering the good with the bad and facing things. That's when it hits me, "The docks. Just before Chibi Usa came along." I raced over there hoping I wasn't too late.