Chapter 44
fair warning: smut included in this chapter
Emily and Hotch woke up the next morning to the sound of her phone ringing. They were used to being able to completely wake up when their phone rang in case they ever had a case. She propped herself up with her arm and reached for her phone, laying back down.
"Who is it?", Hotch asked.
"It's JJ.", Emily said before answering it.
"Hey, what's up?"
"Hey, happy late Thanksgiving. Me and Penelope were wondering if you wanted to go grab some drinks tonight.", JJ said.
"Oh um, I'd love to but I think Michael and I were just gonna stay in tonight. What are you doing tomorrow night?", Emily asked.
"Why don't you bring him!", JJ said.
"Don't you think that's a little soon?", Emily asked.
"No. Not at all. You guys have been together, with or without a label for a couple months. He can't come out with you and a couple of your friends? It's not like you're bringing him to meet your parents.", JJ said.
"We're both pretty tired and were just gonna stay at my place and relax. But let's do tomorrow night. Not with him.", Emily said.
"Fine.", JJ sighed.
"Great, I'll text you later, alright?", Emily said.
"Alright. Tell him I say 'hi'.", JJ giggled.
"Goodbyeee.", Emily laughed, hanging up the phone.
She set her phone back down and rolled over to Hotch. He rubbed his eyes and stretched out his arms, one landing on her side.
"I was gonna ask if you wanted to stay an extra day but seeing as you made plans...", he said.
"I'm sorry. I know, I wish I didn't have to lie. If I could have told her the truth, we would be able to.", she said.
"It's okay. We still have the rest of today before we leave. We could leave in the morning if you want instead of tonight.", he said.
"We may as well.", she said.
"Alright. Well, I have a plan for what we can do today, seeing as it is no longer raining.", he said.
"What did you have in mind?", she asked.
"There are these big rocks up on this trail that overlooks the lake and it's the perfect little picnic spot. You wanna go for a small hike?", he said.
"I don't know if I brought the right shoes for that.", she said.
"Well, it's not so much of a hike as it is walking a trail a little bit to a nice spot to stop and have a snack, I guess. Just jeans and sneakers are fine.", he said.
"Sounds great then.", she smiled, giving him a kiss.
"Good! Let's get dressed.", he said, hopping out of bed.
"Right now?", she asked.
"Yeah, it's already noon.", he said, throwing on some jeans and changing his shirt.
"Wow. Okay.", she said, changing into her own clothes.
They went downstairs and made some sandwiches and grabbed a bag of chips and a couple apples. They packed some water bottles and put the rest in a backpack.
They got in the car and drove to the trail up the mountain. When they got there, they parked and got out and walked up the trail.
"They're right over here.", Hotch said, running up and onto the giant rocks, setting the bag down and helping Emily up.
"This is nice.", she said, sitting down.
"Can you keep a secret?", he looked over at her.
"Way too many.", she laughed.
"Carson and I used to come up here all the time.", he said, pulling out his sandwich and handing one to Emily.
"Okay...", she said, curious.
"I wasn't working for the government yet so I did some stupid things.", he said.
"Oh? Like what?", she asked.
"We used to come up here and smoke...", he said, looking over at her.
"Like... weed?", she asked.
"Like I said, I was not working for the government yet!", he said, putting his hands up.
"Oh my god! You didn't!", she said, eyes wide, hand over her mouth.
"You can ask him yourself.", he said.
"Wow. I never would have thought of you to be a stoner.", she laughed.
"I wasn't! It was just something we came up here to do every now and then. Made some good memories.", he chuckled.
"Mmhmm.", she said, continuing to eat her sandwich. "Well, your secret's safe with me.", she said.
"Among many others.", he said.
"What do you mean?", she asked, nervous, thinking he might've found out something else.
"Well... us. That's a big one. But I know you've got more. Many of which you even keep from me. Which is fine. Just as long as none of them actually include a guy named Michael. That I wouldn't be okay with.", he laughed.
"Don't worry, you're my only boyfriend, real or fake.", she said, leaning on him. He wrapped his arm around her and kissed her head.
"I better be.", he said.
"I already tried being with someone else while I still had feelings for you. How did that go?", she said.
"Not very well.", he laughed.
"Exactly.", she said.
"Just so you know, you're my only girlfriend. Real or fake.", he said.
"I better be.", she said, mocking him.
"Do you ever wonder if it was just a coincidence that we came back into each other's lives or that maybe we were meant to be together?", he asked, looking at her. She sat up more and focused on him. "I'm sorry. That sounds totally cheesy, probably really stupid.", he tried to laugh it off.
"It's not... I don't know. I wonder that sometimes. I like to think that we were meant to be brought back together in some way. But, if we were meant to be together or if we were meant to figure out what we want on our own whether it's being in a relationship or something else... I don't know. But we are.", she said. "What do you think?"
"Now I feel stupid for what I was going to say.", he said, dropping his head and quietly laughing.
"What is it?", she asked.
He sighed, "I feel like we were meant to be together... I know that's crazy and all. I probably sound like some foolish teenager falling in love and saying 'I love you' after only two weeks.", he laughed.
She set her hand on his thigh and looked at him until his eyes met hers. "Your feelings are valid. Don't diminish them. I don't want you to think that I don't believe we were meant to be together. I just can't say for sure how the universe works and like to think we have some control over our lives. But sure, let the universe take over sometimes. Like how it brought me to you. And then we made the decision to create what we have now.", she said.
"I like that... I've just had this connection with you from the very beginning since you came back. I felt something instantly that I hadn't felt since I first met you years ago but it was more intense, more real but also… more confusing... Although we've been involved for over a year, we've only been in an official relationship for a little over a month but we've said "I love you" way before that. I feel like we've been together for so long. I feel so comfortable around you like... you were made for me? Once again, it sounds ridiculous but I don't know how else to explain it. I definitely wouldn't have done or said half the things that we have, to anybody else if I'd been seeing them for the amount of time we have. I never have. But it's different with you. In a way, you came back at the right time... kind of.", he laughed. "There were some obstacles but overall...", he said, staring deep in her eyes.
"I've definitely never felt this way about anybody else before. And I've been with a lot of people.", she laughed.
"People? As in not just men?", he raised his eyebrows.
"Fine. Men. But in college, there were a lot of things I experimented with.", she said quietly at the end.
"Do tell.", he said, intrigued.
"You just wanna know all the dirty details.", she rolled her eyes.
"Maybe but... yeah, alright, I can't think of anything else to say. Tell me.", he said, scooting around to face her.
"Are we talkin' relationships or just drunken nights?", she asked.
"Whoa, there was a relationship?", he asked.
"I've dated quite a few guys over the years but there was one girl, yes.", she said.
"Emily. How did I not know this!", he said.
"Are you okay with that? It doesn't bother you or anything?", she asked.
"Emily. I wanna hear all about these drunken nights.", he smirked.
"Okay, so guys really do find that hot... Two girls together and all.", she laughed.
"Emily! Go on.", he said, impatient.
"Alright, alright. I wasn't used to partying or anything, growing up the way I did and all, as you know, so when I went to college, that changed. There were a lot of parties I went to, got pretty drunk most nights.", she said as he raised his eyebrow. "Okay, pretty much all nights. One time, there was this girl. I don't even think I ever got her name or saw her around campus after but we both had a lot of beer and next thing I knew, we were making out. It was so crowded that no one even noticed us go upstairs in someone's bedroom. Then we were on the bed and then all our clothes were off and then yeah. Maybe I was just drunk but girls are much better kissers than guys.", she said,taking a bite of her sandwich.
Hotch just stared at her, unable to speak for a moment. His mouth open in awe.
"Aaron? Are you there?", she asked, looking at him.
"What?", he asked, snapping out of it.
"So that was that.", she said.
"It only happened once?", he asked.
"No. But that was the first time.", she said.
"How many more times?", he asked.
"Not too many. A few. But it wasn't just her. But like I said, I was pretty drunk all of those nights so a lot of it is pretty blurry but they were good nights. I do remember that.", she said.
"Okay. Wow. Um... and this relationship? What happened with that?", he asked.
"It didn't last long. Just a couple of months. I met her on campus during some protest or peace rally I think, I'm not really sure what it was. She was really in to like world peace and all that hippie stuff. Which is great! But she could get a little passionate about a lot of topics and disagreed with a lot of things people including me, did or said. But anyways, I saw her later at of course, a party and we found our way to the bedroom. After that night, we went out a couple times and it turned into a relationship. She was great but after a couple months, I realized how different we were and it just didn't work out. I thought we could still be friends and we actually were for a bit but then she moved for grad school and we lost touch.", she said.
"How? How did I not know about this?", he asked.
"I don't know. It's not a secret. It just never came up.", she shrugged her shoulders.
"So are you bisexual or...?", he asked.
"I've identified as being straight for a while but there was a time when I was into girls but I think a lot of people experiment in college. I didn't always put labels on things necessarily. I mean, I haven't found myself attracted to a woman for a while though so I guess I'm straight. I don't know. I think you shouldn't have to put a label on anything unless you want to feel like it empowers you and you want to embrace it.", she said, eating the rest of the chips.
"Wow.", he said.
"What?", she said.
"You just keep getting more and more interesting.", he said.
"I always had my eye on you though back then or around that time at least.", she winked.
"So. Those girls were better kissers than all guys or...?", he started.
"Not all guys. Just most. But don't worry. You're not one of them. You're probably the best I know. Don't get insecure.", she said, leaning in for a kiss.
"And other things?", he asked.
"Yes, Aaron. You're the best I've ever had... when it comes to a lot of things.", she rolled her eyes, laughing, and kissing him again.
"You're just saying that.", he said.
"I wouldn't have brought it up or said it if it wasn't true. But it's quite a different experience with girls, I must say.", she told him.
"I bet.", he said, clearing his throat, moving around, trying to sit comfortably.
"Yeah...", she said, looking all around before she turned to face him and scooted closer. She could tell he was all hot and bothered from everything she'd just told him so decided to help him out. She reached for his belt and slowly undid his buckle.
"Em, what are you doing?", he asked, also looking all around, knowing nobody would be anywhere nearby since they were far into the woods and covered by trees all around them.
"You know, I always found it much easier to please a man like this than a girl.", she said, unbuttoning and unzipping his pants.
"Is that so?", he asked, looking down at what she was doing, trying to breathe normal.
"I know your body better. I know what you like. I know what you need...", she whispered. She grabbed the waistband of his boxers and tugged them down the slightest bit. She put her hand under them and grabbed his hard member, bringing it out from underneath his clothing. He twitched in her hand at her touch.
"Seriously?", he asked, looking around them again.
"I knew the minute you cleared your throat and had that look on your face, you needed this.", she said. She stroked him a few times, making him moan.
"Yeah, I guess you were right.", he breathed, almost losing it when she put her mouth on him. "Ohhh.", he threw his head back.
She moved her mouth all the way down on him slowly. She kept one hand on his hip and the other on his shaft. She started moving her hand around as it pumped him and brought her mouth off after a minute of sucking him. She ran her tongue up from the base to the head, making him clench his jaw and fists. She brought her mouth back on him and he wrapped his fingers in her hair and helped bring her head up and down the way he needed.
"God, Emily.", he moaned. He started pushing into her mouth and was surprised when she didn't stop and could actually take it. "Jesus, Emily. I won't last much longer.", he said, pulling her mouth off of him.
"You really want me to stop?", she asked.
"Only if you take your pants off.", he said.
She released him and took her shoes off first and then made quick work of her pants. She sat on his lap, straddling him and reached behind her to grab him and line him up with her hot, wet entrance. Pushing his head in slowly and sinking down on him all the way.
"Oh shiiit...", he whispered, bringing his hands to her hips, holding her there steady while her body got used to him inside her.
"Mmmm.", she hummed, grabbing his face and softly but passionately bringing her lips to his.
She started up and down ever so slightly and brought a hand to his shoulder and kept the other on his face. Her mouth hung open as she stared in his eyes with his lips rolled in, holding in so much.
He started to help lift her up and come back down not too hard at first. After a few minutes, he started pushing up with his hips as he brought her back down each time.
"So am I better than those drunken nights with those college girls even?", he panted.
"Way better.", she gasped.
"Good.", he said, going faster, bringing her down harder.
"Oh, Aaron.", she whined, closing her eyes.
"I can feel how close you are, Em. It's okay, just let go.", he told her.
"Not without you.", she said, opening her eyes and switching to rolling her hips so she could be leveled enough with him.
She pulled his face into hers and crashed her lips onto his. She opened her mouth and let his tongue enter it while she grabbed his hair tight. Their tongues danced around with each other until he hit a sweet spot and she opened her mouth wider, separating from his lips, gasping for air. Keeping them on his face, she breathed heavy against his skin.
"Right there, Aaron.", she sighed.
"Come on, Em. Come for me.", he said.
She whimpered before she let out the words in a whisper, "I'm gonna come Aaron. Come with me, please."
"Oh, fuck, Em. Ahhhh. Me too. Just keep going.", he said.
"I can't hold o- oh my god.", she said.
"That's it, Em. Just like that.", he said as she started riding him faster and more intense to the point where he felt her walls tightening around him more. She shut her eyes again tight and went as fast as she possibly could until she reached her climax. She tried to keep it quiet incase anyone was nearby but it was hard.
"Ahhh. Yes... Oh, fuck yes, yes. Aaron, oh my god.", she cried out, practically in a whisper.
"Fuck, Em. Keep going.", he said through his teeth. She kept going, riding out her high and helping him reach his own. Finally, he did and pulled her towards him, moving her backwards and forwards on his lap. "Ahhh. Emily, fuck! Jesus, you're so good. Shit!", he hissed, not even thinking about the mess they'd made on his boxers and jeans.
Coming down from it all, she buried her head in his shoulder and ran her fingers through his hair. She brought her face up to his and melted into his lips.
"I've never done that before.", he chuckled.
"Done what?", she asked.
"Had sex outside somewhere like this.", he said.
"Really?", she asked.
"Yeah, why? Have you?", he asked.
"I don't kiss and tell.", she smirked.
"I really was hoping that answer was a 'no' so you could tell me that I'm the first and hopefully only one.", he said.
"Okay, sweetie. You're the only one.", she smiled and kissed him.
"That's not super convincing.", he said.
"What else can I do?", she asked.
"One more kiss.", he said.
She laughed and grabbed his face giving him one last kiss before sitting up and pulling her underwear and pants back on. She tied her shoes and sat back down next to him.
He pulled his boxers up, covering himself but looked down at them. "These used to be my favorite jeans.", he said.
"It's not too bad. You can wash it out.", she laughed.
"Definitely worth it.", he said.
"Yes. It definitely was.", she said.
"Do you wanna head back now?", he asked.
"Yeah. Do you wanna take the boat out when we get back?", she asked.
"Sure.", he said, grabbing their bag and helping her up.
They walked back to the car and drove to the cabin, feeling completely satisfied and content with everything in their life.