Chapter 44:

Took You Like a Shot

Content Warning: Lemon. Sex. Fucking. You name it. If you ain't a fan of sex, don't read.

Slipping back inside her womanhood really excite them both, eliciting a slight an 'oh' from Hanji's sweet lips.

His entry wasn't really that smooth despite being a bit more careful. There is still a bit of pain in his entrance towards her warm core. She squirmed under him as he do her again since his entry was still a bit slow for she is still tight as fuck.

Hanji opened her legs a bit farther so he could move a bit better so when Levi places a hand and clung into her right leg, she truly appreciated it, patting her inner self for helping Levi move into her.

She even kept hearing Levi's groans as he deeply entered fully into her. He eventually settled there for a while taking advantage to look at her straight on her face. Her face was tinted when he did that, lips partly opened and her breathing was a bit heavy. There were little sign of enjoyment on her face, but he vowed to make it exciting for her.

Unknown to him, Hanji has been enjoying every noise that he makes because she finds it really sexy, she thought. Levi's moans and groans were equally salacious when he sucks on her breasts. She finds it as major turn ons for her, she guesses.

Levi then starts to move and pulls a bit from her then push back to her core again, doing the same movements swiftly just like what she see typically in movies and she was happy about it. She watched how Levi was so serious with a burrowed forehead, gripping on her tightly and is starting to sweat like mad.

Inquisitiveness kicked in again and in between pain and pleasure that she is feeling, she felt curious and wanted to do three things altogether, which is to see his dick going in and out of her at the same time look at his face as he fucks her but she also wanted to just close her eyes and feel him.

Because she can't seem to feel herself nearing orgasm, as what they call it.

Although, she did continued to enjoy hearing him grunt as he thrust into her. His absolute glorious body and face and sexy noises, Hanji could still feel that there is something missing with what they are doing.

She can't feel enough pleasure yet compared to what Levi seems to be feeling. She still can't fully enjoy what he is doing inside of her. She could just feel a big block of lump, both soft in texture but hard in composition digging in and out of her but the pleasure isn't there yet.

So, Hanji decided to move her hips with him and meet him halfway of his thrusting. She caught him a bit surprised with her unsure moves but it was what she felt like doing. He didn't complain though and continue to make his way into her as they rhythmically move together as one.

In and out, in and out, her brows knotted together as she clung into Levi's arms and try to feel every move that he makes. Her hands travelled on the vast eternity of his chest and down to his arms again. She even scrambles her fingers into his soft, damp hair and scratch his scalp a little.

As for Levi, he enjoyed the absolute bliss of feeling Hanji so tight unto him. True, it might be a bit difficult to move fast because of her tightness but damn it feel so good. He was so focused into moving swift and smooth in her vagina that he failed to pamper her breasts with much kisses or play his fingers to her clit as he should be.

Kissing her was a bit troublesome for him, even if he wanted to. She might think that he is an opportunist and or even asking for a kiss since he can't easily access her lips or cheeks that much. Instead, he licks and kisses her neck, which he can still reach and he earned a slight giggle from her.

He loved hearing that so he tried to thrust into her while kissing her neck, breasts and clit alternately. When he paused and looked at her, he saw her lips and thought as though it was begging for him. It was enticing but he refused the thought away and deiced to look into her eyes again.

Ah…. Ah… nngghhh… there it was, the pleasure that she was seeking and it was already starting to take effect. There, that's nice, it's starting. I can feel it! She felt excited but not even a minute, she felt the entire massive dick of Levi pulled away from her.

Where the hell did it go?

She recoiled and immediately stood.

"What happened?" she asked furiously, just when she was already feeling some satisfaction and fun building up. When she looked at Levi, he was holding his dick and pumping it fast into his hands and just a few seconds, he spilled out white liquid from his shaft and realized it was his semen.

He was digging in too much into her a bit harder and she should have realized sooner that he was cumming.

"I came" he said, out of breath.

"Yeah, seems like it" she mumbles and laid flatly on the bed. After cleaning, Levi joined beside her.

She waited for him to relax based on his breathing and then she looked at him. He tried to shove away bad thoughts but he definitely realizes that she did not reached her peak.

"Do you want some water?" he asked because they were both quiet and Levi didn't liked it so he had to say something.

"Hmm" Hanji swayed her head and grabbed her phone. Hell, it wasn't even one in the morning yet. Levi arrived in his room before eleven after his dance as he was called and needed to cut his private sessions, as she was told by the manager.

And that made her realized that they have been fucking for more or less two hours now, and she can't tell if that is already long or short for sex. Although according to some girls in her club, some can even have three to five hours.

"I'm sorry I came right away" Levi apologized and Hanji just pursued her lips and nodded. She is not sure if he came because she was hot for him to handle like most girls or because he was just too full of lust.

"How do you feel?"

"Okay" she replied without a flinch.

"Sore?"

"Not really"

"We can have another round" he invited as he thought it's still too early and she seemed to be mindful of the time. She turned to look at him.

"Really?" there was a hint of joy in her surprised answer.

"Yeah."

"Okay" she agreed so she immediately went up to him and straddled him. He was surprised of what she did and immediately held unto her hips.

"Don't expect immediate results, I needed to make it hard again."

"Okay" she smirked and accepted the challenged. She gently moved her womanhood unto his and immediately felt results.

"Don't expect immediate results my ass" she mocked and Levi smirked at her back. The view from below was even more enticing. He could see and touch her breasts and her loving face now full of lust and want. He was growing more and more underneath her and he isn't regretting it.

He stretched and reached for her breasts, letting his fingers caress her side boobs and feel it smooth. Carefully, he pinched and played on her breasts, making her bit her lip when she stifled a moan and lean a bit back, exposing more of her round breasts to the air, making her nipples erect.

Each hard rock pebble was pinched playfully and she loved it together with the feeling of his growing penis underneath her.

Hanji then bent down to kiss Levi, this time, their levels to each other just perfectly fine. She conquered his mouth and massaged his lips wildly as she could. Meanwhile, his hands were making their way up and then down her sides, from her breasts then to her hips.

He was getting drawn into her deep and passionate kiss so he turned them around and this time, he is on top of her again. They continued to kiss but this time, wildly. She felt his tongue on her lips and he surprisingly entered her mouth and went all into its every side.

Hanji was complete overwhelmed and surprised but she decided to play along and do the same inside his mouth. She let her tongue ventured inside and then lands on top of his until they were sucking each other like mad.

So this is what it feels like, making out and feeling turned on bit by bit. Nevertheless, she was enjoying this new experience to the fullest. Hanji was even unaware let her hands roam and cup Levi's cheek and only realized it when he places his hand on top of hers.

That touch alone was another connection to him, she noted. First, the feeling of being connected to him with his penis inside her vagina, their tongues intertwined and now their hands, all at the same time.

Although she needed to have him enter her vagina to officially make it connected to him in all sense. So then, she separates herself a bit away from him and breath and had her arm crawl into his penis and place it inside her.

A brow came to raise as Levi realizes what she wanted to do. So without further ado, he lowered himself a bit and enters her again and deep moan from her.

"HAAAAAAA-" it was a bit more painful this time but went quickly gone when he started to move into her.

He checked her out and she was gripping on the pillows for her dear life, sweat dripping on her forehead. Their bodies has been reaching a high amount of heat temperature, their bodies already earning sweat. The same sound of skin to skin flapping to each other echoed into the room again as their low sighs entered in their ears.

It was the same feeling of contentment and amount of lust when he moved inside of her again. He rammed slowly inside of her, focused and determined. She could already feel the tension inside her rising but the hardness eventually faded off.

"The hell?"

"It became soft" he said and flapped the poor guy into his hand as though reviving it and giving it life.

"I think we should have had foreplay first" he said.

"You mean this?" Hanji crawled unto his lap and swallowed him whole. She no longer care if she could taste her own juice on his dick but she just wanted him to get his hard on again and find out how to give a blow job.

Of course she lacked experience and only knew from other's experiences so she kept on sucking and sucking him despite being unsure. She listened to stories to feed her curiosity and now the time came for her to understand it firsthand.

Levi looked at her between his legs, a bit leaning backwards and kept his eyes locked on her, complete surprised and can't believe of what she is doing. He let his hand gently hold on to her hair because it kept on interfering with her and tucking her hair behind her ear has been also a sexy image he know he couldn't easily forget.

She let her tongue lightly lick the sides of his now reborn dick and gave kisses on the side after swallowing. And then, she lets go again with a pop sound and the kisses the shaft, the body and swallows him again wholly.

Up and down she goes, swallowing with all her might and squeezing his balls has been driving him insane.

No wonder he came all too suddenly again, and inside of her mouth, without a single warning.

Hanji felt his dick convulsed inside her mouth, counting at least seven times and felt that hot liquid shot inside her mouth and nearly at the end of her tongue. She felt proud of herself and she swallowed his cum.

She did her research before all this of course and found out that a man's semen is a natural protein, so she doesn't mind swallowing it. It might be healthy for her too. And she doesn't mind Levi's cum, knowing his healthy diet and it doesn't taste that bad. Just weirdly a bit bland and salty.

After swallowing, she lets go and smiled at him proudly. Sadly Levi couldn't do the same for her.

Because he just got limp again and he could already feel that he is running out of semen.

She sighed, she really wanted this to be juicy and memorable. Looks like it's going to be memorable in a different way.

-x-

Sex is fun they said, but she did not seemed to feel so.

So that is the only thing that most girls would want from Levi? Even just the losing of virginity, that was it? The only thing memorable about it is the unbearable pain that requires a huge amount of pain tolerance. There was also a tiny bitsy feel of pleasure but it is still a just a whole bunch of pain and uneasiness.

If what she had read and research, asking other girls who already had lose their virginity only mentioned the same about pain and soreness but there are some that had their pleasure. She guessed that it surely is different than hers. Now she cannot help but wonder if this is all worth the wait and the pain, or not.

Levi has been staring at Hanji ever since she showed her back on him. He knew from there that something is wrong, and that she did not had a good time. It was unlikely of him to fail in bed, whether man or woman, he never even had performed badly. Why now all of a sudden? To all people, why her? He needed to make it up to her and yet he failed once again, now how could he be friends with her again?

How can he win her back?

There is nothing left for them recently that is good and he had never felt so hopeless to someone else before, and he is definitely left clueless as well. He was already given a chance to redeem himself and he still blew it off.

He surely is a complete ass.

Hanji on the other hand saw how Levi stared onto nothingness on the wall beside her. She knows that he obviously felt bad about making her unsatisfied for their union, to think that it is her first time. She knows that she should not care on how he is going to feel but she can't but feel bad about their sexual encounter, that she did not obviously became happy and contented about it. With enough hesitation dwelling on her, she reached out on him.

"Hey" she started, taking Levi a number of seconds before responding unto her.

"Hm?" he asked, lips tightly sealed.

"It's okay, really." She asserted, having troubles on looking for the proper words to say to comfort him at least. She did not get any response but watched as his eyes slowly opened and closed.

"I was expecting too much for a first timer, I completely forgot how the pain would affect the actual intercourse." A shy laugh followed by to at least show him that she is okay and it is alright but Levi came to face her as he switched on his side aggressively.

"No you don't understand" Levi started, his head swaying back ad forth as Hanji was taken aside by his sudden move, her eyes widening suddenly. "I swear I could have made it more exciting for you and more satisfying."

"Are you really that regretful when you disappoint your clients?" Hanji softly questions as she saw how serious he is when he said his part and wonder if really is like that to all of his clients.

Levi only sat back properly and contained himself. "No" he whispered back and looked into his hands. "I just apologize and ask if they want their money back, or I could give a discount next time or promise another round." He said it with hidden disgust on himself, misery overwhelming him on his job.

"That is if it is very obvious that they did not had fun or did not get the satisfaction that they wanted."

"Does it happen a lot?" she asked sincerely, somehow forgetting the anger that she has over him. She just can't help but wonder why is she still affected of him?

"Only once, never happened again. I learned my lesson right away." Levi remembered how the brothel manager bombarded him with agonizing words and threats as a young teen and was left with nothing but to work harder and better.

"Oh" Hanji managed to murmur, as she realized that maybe that is the reason why he seemed in pain as he had failed her.

Just like these days, he thought.

"Look, I know how to make you feel the pleasure that you wanted but I just can't understand myself lately." He spat out honestly, getting Hanji's attention all of a sudden. Aside from everything unfortunate that had happened, mainly losing his two friends and losing in the competition, she was actually the one who has main effect on him.

Levi no longer explained further, not wanting to tell her how he can't focus much on his job, his self and almost everything entirely as he too succumb into a big questioning as to why he is very much affected of her and their friendship aside from the other unwanted things happening.

Maybe because he really, truly liked the friendship and the bond that they share. He had never felt much of a true human, only to those people who matters to him only and that includes her.

She just mean so much to him, and he can't stop the growing agony as they broke off their friendship, which he sees to be the trigger of every unfortunate events.

"I am truly sorry Hanji" he said as he looked at her and locked eyes with her. "I'll just give you your money back."

"No Levi" she said instantly and grabbed his arm. "I didn't regret what we had tonight, any part of it. I was just expecting too much and completely forgo-"

"Like I said Hanji, it was me entirely who has the problem here, me and my dick and that includes my testosterone."

"But-" she was still saying the truth. In an experiment and finding out answers, it involves being successful or failing.

"Believe it or not, I really did fucked up a lot of times lately even the previous weeks so don't be surprised that I failed tonight. I guess I should have warned you about it first." He sighed with full regret and disbelief, thinking it would not entirely happen in the first place tonight.

Hanji in the other hand cannot believe what she is hearing. She like anyone else is aware of his reputation, most especially her, knowing that he is always an A list in sex and pleasuring his clients. He rarely, in fact can't even remember him and other people informing her of his failure in bed ever.

And now he usually had it recently. Partly, she guess she knows the reason why and decided not to raise it to him.

It is bad for him since the brothel owner might kill him or throw out into the police, and she knows she is going to be guilty of it despite already having thoughts and feelings that she somehow already forgives him.

Partly, she can't shove the thought if she is one of the reason why he is failing now? She does not want to assume but she can't help but wonder as well.

Levi was waiting for her thought about what he said, not wanting to spill the beans into her that she is the reason why he is already failing in his fucking job but he doesn't want to make her feel blamed for again either.

After giving out a big heavy sigh, Hanji started to move under the sheets as Levi watched her do so. Not until he realized as she was doing her best to complete her clothes unto her body under the sheets, made him realized that she is about to go home once she places her shoes on her feet.

"Where do you think you are going?" he asked abruptly.

"Home." She answered without even giving him a spare of glance.

"You can't do that."

"Why not?" she asked, not stopping from fixing her shoes.

"Because you'd get in trouble even you go home" he paused a bit as he watch her halted suddenly from what she is doing but then continued. "And you won't get your money's worth for tonight if you leave early."

Seeing her entirely clothed made him concluded another reasoning. "And you can't go outside wearing a skirt in the middle of the fucking night." He seldom see her with a girly skirt but it really suits her and he liked it on her oversized shirt on top, entirely her in all sense.

"You can't stop me Levi. I don't care about the worth of my payment or what I am wearing. It's not like no other women out there is walking at night wearing a skirt." She reasoned out, about to get her bag when Levi suddenly threw himself in the middle of her and the door.

"Not on my watch." He stared solidly deep into her eyes and she started to push him off the door which is cold on his but is distracted due to his big dick already starting to grow hard and hanging wildly between his legs. Fuck it, growing when it is not time for it to do so.

"Why do you even give a shit." She continues to knock him over, his arms surrounding her as though he is embracing her but she tries to move him away to the side with no such luck as she finds him extremely heavy.

"Why can't you just stop being a pain in the ass."

"Now I am being a pain in the ass!?" she yelled out, hands balled into fists. He knew he might have tear on a chord but he did not went away from where he is standing.

"Look, think about what I said first and you know I am right Four Eyes." His given nickname to her slipped out and in a second there, he felt scared that he might have offended her or trigger some unwanted memory or any kind of shit.

To his surprise, she turns around after a few long seconds, sat down on the bed and sigh heavily.

"You're right, even Nanaba is already sleeping soundly at this time." She tells him absent mindedly.

"I can still try giving you a different form of entertainment if you want." He informs her and received an annoyed and disbelief look.

"Just to give you your money's worth." He said with shuddered shoulders, forcing his invitation once again.

"You sure are hardworking, Levi." She said in a monotone but eyes flashing with surprise.

"I just know to how to make it up to my clients." He explained and kneels down in front of her, much to her surprise.

"So tell me Hanji" he started as his voice starts to give shivers down her spine. Why does he need to sound and look so sexy? "How do you want me? I can entertain you by my fingers and for you I don't mind using my tongue and my lips." He said and started to kneel down before her.

Hanji is completely enthralled and tantalized of what she is seeing. She never saw Levi act like this or even hear him speak in that kind of manner and she can't deny that it is already taking effect on her and it is making her feel uncomfortably wet.

Not knowing what to do as she felt sad for him as she thought suddenly this is how he works for money. She sighed and wrapped him in a bed sheet, his eyes widening a little as Hanji noted meaning he is completely surprised of what she did to him. She felt him stiffened and did not moved while Hanji took a pair of clean shirt and shorts, as well as an underwear for him to put on.

Once she handed it to him, he gave her a stern and hard look whether if she is being serious or not. With her second wave of motion of her hand indicating for him to seriously dress, he sighed and went up from his knees and put on the clothes she had gotten him. As he did so, he can't help but feel bad and slightly embarrassed on himself. He sounded desperate in front of her and looked so pathetic.

He shrugged, maybe he deserved it and should let it go since he was the one who wrecked their friendship apart.

Hanji took a few glances of him as he clothe himself up. He was actually thinking she was focusing elsewhere and not to him but caught her off guard and surprised her.

"Sorry" she mumbles and looks back into her hands. She immediately felt awkward and blames herself.

"Nothing to worry about, we've seen everything anyway." Levi tries to console her at least but at some point, he felt amused that she was staring at him with wide and wondering eyes. Despite the growing feeling that she might have liked his body, he believes that she might be just curious as to how the male anatomy really looks like.

But she had witnessed it earlier, so why still look?

Did she at least enjoyed seeing him naked? Or maybe she was just curious as to how clothe?

He slowly went beside her, sitting slowly and looked at her as he wait for what she have in mind. With a hinted upward movement on her lips that suddenly gave him a jolt of joy. She slowly faced him and then crawled on the right side of the bed. Hanji pats the left side, telling him to lay down beside her.

"Just literally sleep with me this time" she said once he had placed himself comfortably beside her. It will also stop him from asking her again for another chance of redeeming himself.

They locked eyes, and they both knew that he would obliged.

And he can't say no to such easy offer for the night. He missed this, sleeping beside her again, nothing to do, nothing to force. Just comfortable and carefree, and loved it. He craved for her presence again and missed this kind of scene with her, why would he even decline or even have a hard time to decide?

"I'd love that." He mumbles.

Sleep couldn't find them and after almost an hour of silence, Hanji wanted to open her mouth and talk. She just can no longer bear the silence between them and it's driving her nuts.

"Levi" she started and Levi glanced at her, not keeping her waiting. "What really happened?"

"With what?"

"You know what."

Levi knows that they will need to talk about this someday and he guesses that it was just right for them to talk about it.

He sighed.

"Petra wanted to have sex with me. She was in the pouring her heart out to me with cash on her hand." He stated and no longer explained why, knowing she will immediately understand.

"I fucked her in the janitor's room and she got what she wanted. Just sex, nothing more. For some shitty reason, some bitches got us on video and since they saw you as a threat for my attention, they framed you up." Hanji could tell that he is doing his best to control what he is feeling but his voice and eyes are reflecting a different thing.

"Petra solved it. She was pretty smart she found out who the real culprits were. But maybe with my guilt over Aurou and can't even looked at him straight, I felt the need not to say honestly who was in the video because I know I will break his heart. I don't want to do that to him, he doesn't deserve it.

"But with a fucking cunt like me who needs money for college and everyday basic needs, I fucked my teammate, his very own girlfriend. I am more than pig. I am a fucking loser. I am disgusting." He said each word with disgust.

"That leads me to deny that it wasn't you on the video. I never wanted to have either of you to get punished and I wanted to tell you that I did try with the very best I can. I told the admin to just give me all the blame and punishment but since they're still going to use me for the championship, they decided to keep me instead and have you go punished." Hanji didn't said anything as everything is starting to make sense. Although, it was still making her feel uneasy.

"I honestly thought that I could get you saved and have myself all the punishment but you know what the admin said?" he stopped and looked at her, those brown orbs of her piercing right into him.

"They told me that I will still need to bring glory to the school in championship so they decided to keep me over you. After that, I decided not to give my best and lose in the championship, much to everyone's dismay."

"But that will blow your scholarships for college?!" Hanji gasped, already comprehending what happened.

"I did but I deserve it. Although, I did not expect Petra to do that to herself, then it lead for Aurou to do the same. I can't even tell you how fucked I felt for being the root cause of their demise." Levi places his hand on his head as it burns in his head and heart.

"I am a fucking lowlife Hanji, and I just proved it." He said in pure agony. "I betrayed Aurou, had Petra killed because of me and led you to your worst nightmare. All this fucking time, I thought I am doing okay, that I am fighting for my way out in life, for a better future but what kind of life will I have if I continuously hurt those people who cares about me? Who's around me?"

"Levi…."

"Hanji, I'm not meant to do great things in life. I'm not meant to save myself from the shittines that I am in now. I can't protect and save anyone. Not you, not Petra, not Aurou, and not my team or the school. Nobody." Levi looked so broken and it was very evident on his eyes.

"As much as I liked cleaning, I can't even clean my life for all the shit that it has." Hanji does not have any idea how to reach out to him, heck she doesn't even know how to really feel about what he had just said.

"Petra and Aurou never deserved what happened to them" he finally had the courage to look at her again and keep their eyes locked. "And you don't deserve to have all the blame and be judged for who you are."

Levi's words caught her off guard. She could tell that he is embarrassed but sincere and true to his words and just right in that moment, she wanted to tell him that she understands but can't find the will to do so. She just stared at him, tries to open her mouth but nothing came out.

He on the other hand, looked down on the bedsheets then let out a deep exhale through his mouth and felt his bones tingle as he await for Hanji's reply.

He felt confused.

After pouring his heart out to her, she couldn't say a single thing towards him. Maybe she too agrees with what he said and so he should not expect anything from her then.

Fuck it.

He doesn't want to lose her too but if he will, he guesses he deserved it.

"Levi" she finally muttered after a long moment of staying so silent it nearly broke his eardrums. A quiet Hanji is not a good thing and would rather have her talk all the time because at least he knows that she is being her good 'ol self.

She still was not able to say anything but instead, reached out a hand and cupped his cheek. It was soft, a bit sweaty but flawless. He is attractive, Hanji won't deny and loved the feeling of his skin into hers. She honestly don't know what to say because she wanted to say something that will betray the feelings in her heart.

So instead, a light cup on the cheek and drizzle of her fingertips on his skin was enough to make him moan internally.

And he understood what she meant.

Despite being unsure, he still looked up and met her face. She was smiling at him, not the cheerful one but something different, something that tells him that she is here and that she understands him. He further leaned into her touch and felt his cheeks grew warm.

In the deepness of silence, Hanji lightly pushed Levi on the bed and didn't break their stares.

Finally with heavy eye lids, they slept together on each other's side, just like the old times.

-x-

He is used with having limited sleep anyway.

That's what he tells himself internally as last night despite having the will to sleep already, he can't bear to do so as he spent more time watching Hanji sleep beside her.

Watching her.

Observing her.

Admiring her.

Missing her.

With every drop of hair on her eyes, he immediately tucks it away slowly. The way she inhaled through her nose and exhales through her mouth made him worry that she might have colds or blocked nose. The way her eyes move behind her eyelid made him think if she is having nightmares. Most especially that smile that he missed flashed just for him does the same thing to his own lips, mimicking it unaware.

He slept for only three and a half hours when they both stood up, hands her a clean spare toothbrush and brushed together in silence. He stole a few glances of her but she did not even give any indication that she has an intention of looking at him.

Afterwards, she left, like nothing happened.

But before she could even do so, his feet automatically followed where she is going and his mouth even came to side with his legs and opened themselves without even any hesitation.

"We can have pancakes, and they're in percent off." He tells her, hoping that she would accept his offer. He knows he just gave her the best bribe unto her wherein she can't say no since it is made of her favorite combination; discounts on food that she likes the most.

Hanji then came into a halt, surprising Levi a little too suddenly, feeling jolly and excitement run into his veins as she turned to face him. He also saw how it took effect on her as her eyes shone slightly but after a few minutes, gave out a long sigh.

"Don't even think that you could just go unsatisfied and just like that Hanji" Levi declared. With a heavy look and doubted heartbeats in every second that ticked between their silence, Hanji agrees.

Damn, he thought. Going for a breakfast with him was really that difficult to think through?

"Okay." She mumbled softly and waited for him to get prepared as he took his things right away and exited following behind her, leaving his bed unmade for the very first time in exchange of something he can't believe that he would be doing.

For Levi, his unmade bed would be worth of a day's sacrifice.

-x-

It was awkward and not like the times they spent together.

Hanji rarely made eye contact with him nor even started conversation like she normally does endlessly. It took Levi all of his guts to have himself initiate the talking.

"Do you feel sore?" he started off in between of eating his food. In whole honesty, the more he sees Hanji not in the mood to talk and looking rather far off him is making him lose his appetite but remembering that he is the one who is going to pay for the food made him think twice.

For Levi, he has never been used to be the one to start conversations most especially when he is around with Hanji. But in the moment, he guess there are just times that he cannot help but change and do things he did not think he would be doing.

Most especially if it is about Hanji.

If he were to be honest, she had changed him a ton even if he would not spit it out honestly. She had a made a huge impact into him that he never thought that he would try and do anything just to restore back the friendship they once had.

Hanji felt Levi's concern but she knows that he is also trying and it was partly surprising. She had never seen him tried for the sake of others that has something to do with his behaviour and believed that she should be happy about his concern now. Whether he really is concerned or not, she just feel the need to be distant from him again.

This is just the final moment that she would be having together with him, she tells herself. She needed to be far away from him after this.

Because she fears that she might long for him as well, just like with Erwin's. And once ignored or no longer wanted, would make her feel painfully broken in the inside. She needed to learn how to stand independently and have her broken feelings become her strength.

She wanted to be acquainted with this kind of feeling, of strength upon being used and abused.

"Four Eyes" Levi woke some sense into her and she slightly jumped on her seat. "You're scaring the hell out of me" Levi confessed and Hanji almost smiled to that.

Almost.

But she can't stop the debate going on in her, whether she should try befriending Levi again?

Heck, where did that thought even came from. Not because of being treated into a breakfast of pancakes, they should already be friends again, not after what happened, despite still leaving him actually innocent in that part.

"Sorry" she mumbles and tucked her hands on her lap.

"Not used seeing you looking like that" Levi mentions with obvious hesitation.

"Like what?"

"Like emotionally constipated." Hanji almost again and if she were to be honest, she still find Levi's rough language to be entertaining and humorous. She had been forgetting that with all the people she knew, Levi is the only one emotionally constipated.

"You still haven't answered my question" Hanji lit up on that and remembered that she indeed haven't answered his question yet. "Are you feeling sore?"

"Not really" she confessed right away, without further thinking what she really feels inside. "Maybe because we didn't thoroughly had sex that long, so maybe that is the reason why I don't feel that sore as expected."

Levi can't help but agree on her assumptions and felt like a total dick. He surely did gave her a poor performance and worse, on her first time. Damn he even doubt he entered her wholly since she was so tight.

And sadly, it was their first time.

"Oh" he murmured. It sucks and he kept blaming himself even if he too can't fully understand what happened to him, though he is sure that is aroused that he even came into her quickly. It was also that, his worry and pressure took over in a higher degree and in a wrong time.

Their orders soon came, with Hanji devouring her favorite pancakes and waffles partnered with creamy milk and strawberry that Levi proudly suggested while he had his usual tea and some usual pancakes. They ate in silence but Levi is pleased to see Hanji eating like a coyote, brimming with a smile, knowing how she find her food delicious.

Somehow, that though that she is happy because of something he did is quite fulfilling, he believes.

Levi paid as promised and they exited the place quietly, and continued to do so until they reached their school. She seemed that she didn't mind him tagging along as they walk and did not asked him to be far away from him either, a sign he took to be good to be near her at least.

Just like the old days, he thought.

As they reached inside the school building, Hanji notices that Levi is no longer walking beside him and took a different route without saying anything of his departure. She ignored the aching feeling of yearning for his usual 'later four eyes' whenever he goes on his way but his reluctance shove the feeling away.

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Author's Notes:

1. This chapter is short compared to the previous one which is extra-long than usual.

2. More sex to come in this story, just watch out.

3. I don't I made a pretty sexy sexy-time -.-''. Promise to do better for the following ones but I guess it's just because it's not actually a great sexy-time for Hanji anyway so no wonder I made it that way .

4. Anyway, I read some Levi/Historia fics and there were that were nicely written except most of them contains a Petra being Levi's former lover (which I have no problem with) but what bothers me is how Levi is pissed off of Hanji like, why do they even do that? Some even made him even also angry with Erwin and boi I mean, Levi is most close with Hanji and Erwin -,-'' They made Levi so out of his character and it bothers me . anyway, sorry about ranting about it. I have no one to tell it so yeah.

5. Lastly, I just want to share this. Two nights ago, I found out the grandparents of my tutee just died. I was so sad because I was never close to my grandparents and with just almost a year being with my tutee and his grandparents, I finally know how it felt like having a supportive and loving pair. They died 9 days apart, without knowing each other's death. I guess true love exist. The sad part was that I never even got the chance to ask how they were since March (Last saw them was also March, before quarantine) even if my mom was telling me to do so. And then they just left the world. All those times, I thought everything's going to be okay and that I'd see them soon. So if you're reading this, I hope you won't do the same mistake like I did. Send a message, ask people you know how they were because you'll never know when's the last time that they'll be with you.

6. TANJOUBI OMEDETOU ITACHI-KUN!

7. Have you read SNK 129? Our Hanji and Mikasa kicking ass together is just so great.

Wherever you guys are, take care and keep safe.

Xoxox

ladyinblack