Chapter 45
fair warning: smut included in this chapter
Once Emily and Hotch got back to the cabin from their "hike", they went upstairs to change out of their clothes and take a shower.
"You go first. I don't think it's big enough for us both.", he said.
"You can fit. Come on.", she said.
They got in the shower and there was hardly enough space for them to both be in it but they squeezed.
"Emily, I have no room to move.", he said.
"That's alright. I'll soap you off.", she said.
"No, no, no. I know what you're thinking and that's not happening in here. I'm very satisfied from earlier.", he said.
"Aaron, do you really think I would expect you to go again this soon?", she asked.
"I guess not... Wait, you don't think I can? You think I'm too old, that I can't do that?", he asked.
"I never said that.", she said.
"I could go again.", he said.
"Whatever you say.", she said, grabbing the soap and washing him off.
"Ohhhh, I see what you're doing.", he nodded.
"I don't know what you're talking about.", she said.
"You're trying to get me to prove you wrong.", he said.
"No.", she said, turning around. "Will you soap off my back?", she asked.
"It's not gonna work.", he told her, beginning to wash her off.
He rubbed her shoulders and kissed her neck. He brought his mouth to her ear and whispered, "You're gonna have to try a little harder than that. I'm not that easy."
"Whatever you say.", she said, turning off the water and stepping out, handing him a towel.
She loved doing that to him. It was one of her favorite games to play and pretending like she had no idea what he was talking about, making him even more frustrated. She knew he was aware that that's what she was doing but he still went crazy when she wouldn't admit to it.
They walked upstairs and changed into fresh clothes that didn't have any stains on them. They walked down to the dock and took the boat out onto the lake like she suggested earlier. He showed her around and took her down to a channel where they spotted some deer and other wildlife.
A little over an hour later, they took the boat back and went inside. They read their books for a bit and relaxed. After a while, she set her book down and looked over at him, laying next to her on the bed they had on the porch inside.
"Hey.", she nudged him. He looked up and placed his book to the side. "Have you thought about reaching out to Sean?", she asked.
"Um... I don't know. I saw him a couple years ago when he told me he was working at this diner. It was a random visit. I haven't really spoken to him since but it was nice. Why?", he asked.
"I was just thinking it might be nice to get in touch with him again. You obviously have some unresolved issues with your relationship with him. Maybe it'd be good to reach out.", she said.
"I guess. I do wish we were closer but it's hard to be with what I do and he doesn't live in D.C.", he said.
"Where does he live?", she asked.
"Well, he does live in Virginia.", he said.
"So he doesn't live far. Why haven't either of you made an effort to see one another? I never get to see my parents. They're pretty much the only family I really have. If I had more or my mom and I had a better relationship and she wasn't always traveling, I'd hope that we'd be able to be in each other's lives more. Maybe you should try that... He is after all pretty much the only family you have other than Jack.", she said.
"Would you like to meet him?", he asked.
"Jack? I don't think that-", she started and he cut her off.
"No, I mean my brother.", he laughed.
"Oh. Really?", she asked.
"Yeah, I mean, you're one of the most important people in my life and you're the one pushing me to get in contact with him...", he said, taking her hand.
"I mean, if you feel comfortable with that... You don't think it's kind of soon to meet the family?", she asked.
"Not for us. Like I told you earlier, if you were just anybody else I was dating for the amount of time we have, then yes. But you're not just a new girlfriend. We've been together a lot longer and you're my best friend too. I'm not bringing you home to meet the parents. But if you wanted to meet my brother, I don't see anything weird about that. You've already met Carson and here's more of a brother to me than Sean. But you don't have to if you feel uncomfortable with it.", he said.
"No, it'd be nice. I'd love to, assuming he says he's okay with all of that.", she said.
"I'm sure he will. Why don't I give him a call now?", he said, getting up to find his phone inside the living room.
He grabbed it and called Sean. After a few rings, he picked up.
"Aaron?", Sean said.
"Hey...", Hotch said.
"What- what's going on?", Sean asked, confused.
"I was just thinking about you the other night and thought I should call. It's been a while...", Hotch said, pacing across the room slowly.
"I haven't seen you or even heard from you in a couple years... So why'd you really call?", Sean asked.
"Listen... before you say anything, Haley and I split up and I have a girlfriend which I'll explain more of that later but... we were talking last night and you came up. I didn't realize how much we've missed out on by not keeping in touch. She gave me the push to call you and... I'd like to see you. Do you want to get together soon? Maybe? If not, I completely understand. I've been a pretty shitty brother.", Hotch said.
"Yeah... sure, alright. What's her name?", Sean asked.
"Emily. And... I'd like you to meet her.", Hotch said.
"Whoa. Really?", Sean asked.
"Yeah. Unless... you don't feel comfortable with that or prefer it to just be you and I.", Hotch said.
"No, I'd love to meet her. Wait- but- when the hell did you and Haley separate? That's huge.", Sean said.
"Well, she left over a month ago but we were done long before that.", Hotch said.
"I'm really sorry... We'll talk about the rest of that later I'm assuming but how long have you been with Emily?", Sean asked.
"That's a little more complicated than it seems...", Hotch said.
"What does that mean? How long have you guys been together?", Sean repeated.
"Long story short... I met her years ago, nothing happened. I was with Haley, Emily was younger and I worked for her mom so... nothing could even have happened but I can't say I wasn't attracted to her. I was drawn to her. There was something special about her, I could tell even then. After I moved up in the FBI, I never saw her again until she started at the BAU a little over a year ago. I'm her boss which I know... it sounds bad. But I love her. When she showed up, things with Haley had already gone to shit and I was once again just drawn to Emily and we became involved... on and off for a while. But pretty much ever since the night Haley left, we've had nothing really holding us back so I guess you could say we've been with each other for a little over a month... officially. But technically... a little over a year.", Hotch said.
"That was the short story? Wow. There's still some questions I have though.", Sean said.
"I figured you would.", Hotch said.
"You said you love her.", Sean said.
"Yeah. I do.", Hotch said.
"Did you sleep with her before Haley left?", Sean asked.
"I know it's bad, alright? I know. I feel horrible about it but Emily is not a mistake. It just happened one night and that didn't happen again until after Haley was gone. It was so hard to stay away from her. I thought I could fix me and Haley. I should've known what was gonna happen but... I have Emily now, I actually have her. I don't have to feel as guilty anymore or hurt her by pulling away.", Hotch said.
"What about Jack? What's gonna happen with him?", Sean asked.
"Well, Haley is going to file for divorce and I'll be moving out soon and getting my own place. She's staying with her sister for now and has Jack. I see him a few times a week or at least try to when I can when work doesn't get in the way. I think once everything is done, we'll have joint custody but I'm not sure yet. I'm going to make sure I see him all the time no matter what happens. He's the most important thing in my life. Along with Emily but I'll never let anything happen to affect my relationship with Jack. I love him more than anything else.", Hotch said.
"Good. I'm glad you guys have some sort of a plan worked out so far... When did you guys wanna get together?", Sean asked.
"When are you off work? Are you still working at that diner?", Hotch asked.
"No, I work at another restaurant now as a chef actually and at a bar at nights. Making a little extra money. But I can take Friday night off. I'll drive up and get there after you're off work?", Sean said.
"Yeah, I think that'll work. Do you have anything in mind of what you want to do?", Hotch asked.
"I don't think I've ever been around the city before...", Sean said.
"Why don't we grab a drink or some dinner and we'll show you around a bit?", Hotch said.
"Sounds like a plan.", Sean agreed. "Oh- uh, listen, I gotta head to work in a few minutes but I'll text you, alright?"
"Alright, yeah. Sounds good.", Hotch said.
"Bye.", Sean said, hanging up.
Hotch dropped his phone in the pocket of his sweats and walked back out to the porch. Emily looked up and set her book down, standing up, and walking over to him.
"Hey, how'd it go?", she asked, running her hands up his chest and holding on to his shoulders.
"Really well. How's Friday night for getting together with him sound?", he asked.
"So he wants to meet?", she asked.
"Yeah and he wants to meet you.", he said.
"I'll clear my schedule.", she said.
"You don't have anything on your schedule.", he laughed.
"How do you know? I could have something on my schedule.", she said.
"Oh, like what?", he asked, grabbing her sides.
"I could be going out with JJ or...", she trailed off.
"Or at home watching tv alone or watching tv with me or in bed with me, which is usually the case.", he laughed.
"I have a life outside of just you.", she said.
"The only other thing you and I do when we aren't spending time together is work and even then, we're still with each other. The only difference is at work I can't do this.", he said, leaning down and kissing her.
"Whatever. I could have a life outside of you and work if I wanted to.", she said.
"Whatever.", he laughed, leaning down again and giving her another kiss. "Let's make some dinner.", he said.
They walked into the kitchen and started cooking dinner. They had burgers again and after they ate, Emily went upstairs to start packing a few things before they left the next morning.
When she came back down, there was a fire in the fireplace going and candles lit with the lights turned off. Hotch had laid a couple blankets and pillows down in front of the fireplace and stood there waiting for her with a smile on his face.
"What's all this?", she asked, walking over to him.
"I thought we should have one last night here that's special.", he said, pulling her into his arms, wrapping them around her waist.
"Oh.", she smiled and brought her hands up to his neck. "It's very nice.", she said, giving him a sweet kiss.
He ran his hands up and down her back as they continued. They lowered to the ground and laid down. She laid on top of him, beginning to kiss down his neck and ran her hands up under his shirt and pulled it off.
Shortly after, she took her own shirt off and leaned back down to bring her lips to his. He reached down and started sliding her pants down and helped kick them to the side.
"Very romantic. You treat me well.", she said, kissing his neck.
"I can do much better than this. Don't worry, I'll give you a better night soon.", he said.
"Any night with you is perfect enough, no matter what we're doing.", she said, scooting down to pull his sweats off.
As she came back up, he reached for the clasp of her bra and undid it impressively fast but not rushed. She dropped it to the side and fell back onto him. She kissed him softly and he rolled her over gently, laying on top of her. Soon enough he was sliding her underwear off and pulling down his own, putting them next to the rest of their clothing on the ground.
She'd rested her head on one of the pillows and he pulled a blanket up over them. "Are you warm enough, hun?", he asked in a soft tone, looking down at her.
"I'm about to be.", she said.
"Do you want me to grab another blanket? I can go grab one if you want.", he offered.
"No, sweetie, I'm fine. Thank you.", she said, running her fingers down his face and pulling him in for a sweet kiss. "The only thing I want right now is you.", she told him.
"I can do that.", he smiled and grabbed his length, finding her entrance and slowly sliding in. "Ohhh... you're right. You're definitely warm enough. Quite hot in fact.", he whispered and let out a small, quiet chuckle.
That night it was slow and gentle, as much as it could be. Sweet and romantic for their last night at the cabin.
"Just for you, babe.", she kissed him.
"Em...", he moaned as he started moving slowly.
"Ohhh that feels so nice, Aaron.", she whispered in his ear.
"Just for you, babe.", he repeated what she'd said a moment before.
He kissed her ear and behind it and then nibbled on it slightly, making her giggle. She ran her fingers up the back of his head lightly.
"Mmmm... you're so cute.", she said.
"That's all you, hun.", he said, pulling away from her neck and continuing to move his hips.
He brought his head down and their lips met. Parting their lips, allowing his tongue to glide in her mouth with hers. She moaned into it and grabbed his back, running her hands up and down. One of his hands was on her, roaming her body and the other on the side of her face.
He changed his movements from moving straight in to rolling his hips and grinding. Eventually she brought her hand down to reach full satisfaction as she could tell he was getting closer by the moans that escaped his mouth and the grip he had on her waist. Before she could bring her hand down all the way, he grabbed it and looked in her eyes.
"What did I tell you one of our first times? You're mine. I take care of you.", he said out of breath but in a soft and quiet tone.
"Oh, Aaron. Please.", she moaned.
"Sweetie, I've got you.", he said, bringing his mouth to her neck and letting his tongue run over the spot his lips were.
He took his hand and started to rub her in just the right spot. She loved how he always knew exactly where it was without her having to redirect him or tell him. Her toes curled as he kept going in and out of her while simultaneously moving his fingers in just the right way.
"Mmmm... oh god, Aaron. I'm gonna-", she started but rolled her eyes back in her head and grabbed onto the back of his neck. She returned her eyes to him and he crashed his lips onto hers.
"Em, I need to feel you come for me. I need you to- fuck...", he dropped his head forward.
"I'm almost there, god you feel so good inside me.", she sighed.
"How good?", he asked.
"Really fuckin' good.", she breathed.
"Well you feel good when I'm inside you.", he groaned. "I love you so much, Em."
"Show me how much, Aaron. Please.", she begged.
He started rubbing her faster but keeping the rhythm of his hips slow still, savoring the moment. He couldn't help but think it was the most passionate time they'd made love other than their first time.
"I can feel you tight around me. Come on, hun, let go. It's okay.", he said.
She opened her mouth wide and took a deep breath in when it finally hit her. "Oh, Aaron. Yes... Oh god. Mmm...", she moaned into his lips. "So good... yesss...", she whispered.
Once he felt her flutter around him, he let it all go inside of her along with a subtle groan. "Ahh god, Emily... ahhh... fuck yes... shit."
He carefully let his body lay on top of hers once they were both done. He kissed her deep and tucked her hair behind her ear and stared in her eyes. "You're so beautiful, hun.", he said, smiling down at her.
She returned the smile and said, "I wish you didn't have to shave that beard when we get back.", stroking his face and beard.
"I know. Maybe I could keep it...", he said.
"No... you have to shave it for work.", she said disappointed.
"Oh well.", he said and pulled out of her, laying down on his side. She pulled the blanket up more as she scooted over, into his arms. They stayed there for a while until the fire in the fireplace went out.
Once the heat was no longer there, they got up, wrapped the blankets around them, blew out the candles, and went upstairs into bed.
"What time do you wanna leave tomorrow?", she asked.
"Whenever we wake up. I'm in no rush.", he said.
"Well, JJ wanted to get drinks tomorrow night and if it's okay, can we be back by early afternoon?", she asked.
"Whatever you want.", he said.
"Okay, thank you.", she smiled, giving him a kiss.
"No problem.", he said.
"I'm really glad you reached out to Sean by the way.", she said.
"Me too. Thanks for the push. And... I'm really excited for you to meet him. Although... everyone always falls in love with him. He's always been the more attractive and charming one, while I've always been the successful one who gets asked about cool serial killer cases I've worked on when people find out what I do. So... don't fall in love with him and leave me please.", he laughed.
"Shut up. I'm sure that's not true and besides, I'm already in love with you and you're the most handsome man I know. Don't worry.", she said, kissing him all the way down to his shoulder.
"Okay, fine. I believe you.", he rolled his eyes.
"Good. Now let's get some sleep. Oh- and... thank you for tonight. Well, all day really. Somehow, you always manage to make me feel so lucky to have you. I don't know if I let you know that enough but I appreciate everything you do for me. That's partially why I love you so much. So, thank you.", she smiled.
"All the same to you, babe.", he said, kissing her nose. "I couldn't have said it better myself."
She curled up in his arms, keeping each other warm for the rest of the night.