Disclaimer: The main characters don't belong to me, but the rest does.
Well, I guess we've established I'm terrible at updating. But there's this nagging guilt whenever I remember how I promised to finish this story, so I'll keep going.
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Dear Diary,
I am now officially a senior. It must be strange for you - after all, you've only ever known me as a little junior, and now here I am, all grown up, and almost old enough to vote! But it's strange, Erik not working at the school anymore.
The main reason I wanted to start writing again was that I re-read some of my entries from last year and they made me cringe so hard that I felt I absolutely had to record how much more mature and sensible I have grown since then.
I must say, I find it very annoying, being a high schooler. I had a long, hard think about it, and it still kind of weirds me out that Erik likes me so much even though I'm still a teenager. No matter how you look at it, it sort of makes him a creep — and I don't want him to be a creep. Sure, we're almost exactly the same ages as Marianne and Colonel Brandon in Sense and Sensibility, but back then that was a lot more normal. Anyway, all this to say that I've stopped acting like a fool, and pulled myself back together. There's to be no more flirting, however tempting it might be!
We still have our lessons every other day, though. I'm preparing for the auditions I'll have to do later this year to get into college.
Oh, I almost forgot: Meg broke up with her boyfriend. It's not that he did anything particularly wrong, but apparently he was becoming boring. I must say, it's a bit disappointing, because I really want to believe in true love, and break-ups are so unromantic. But then, I'm not really one to talk, after what happened with Raoul last year. (Raoul's family moved back to France over the summer, incidentally. I wonder how that's going, considering how bad his French is.)
I have so much homework right now it makes me want to scream, but what can I do... I'm much too vain about my image as a straight A student, so there's no way I'm getting out of it.
Even though I just said I've decided to be sensible about Erik, it does kind of annoy me that he's been so unaffected by my aloofness. It's typical of men, really. Raoul couldn't tell when I was ignoring him either, when we were together. I would make a point of not messaging him for five hours in a row to show him I was cross, then cave in and call him, only to realise he hadn't even noticed I was ignoring him in the first place.
Still, Erik's giving me free voice lessons three times a week and calling me every night to say "good night", so I guess he does still care, somewhat.