A/N: Well, what do you know? After so long (forgive me, writing for multiple stories is hard :/), there's finally another update for this story! This calls for some cups of tea for everyone! I'm British, you know?! (Abridged Bakura)... JK, I wish I was British. They really do have great accents, though. :(
Eh, ignore me. Here's the next chapter that you probably thought I was going to ignore. And… I'm changing the rating to T now to be extra safe...
Still, enjoy! :)
PS: I don't own Disney's Frozen series. If I did, I would use the powers invested in me to have the cast do a live sing along to the movie for everyone to see and enjoy. :)
Chapter 32: What happens now
Alex's POV
Is it weird to feel fear from this?
Yeah, it is. It should be weird. It's totally weird to even feel fear at this moment.
It's a bit different for me, though.
Of course, it's not because I'm totally scared of the fact that's Elsa kissing me while we're on the floor together and that things might escalate to a whole different scenario, but it's from another concerning thought that's drifting into my mind.
It's the idea of what happens to us now because of this gentle, tender kiss she's giving me directly on my lips.
From the moment Elsa had first come into my dimension and into my life, I had made it clear to myself that I was only going to see her as a friend. As a friend that I would respect at all costs, and only see her as someone I could talk to without causing anything to grow between us.
That meant no matter what happened between us, I wasn't going to make any move on her or ask if she was interested in a relationship out of respect for her.
I just didn't realize that while I was so busy focusing on not falling in love with Elsa and trying to control myself around her, I was accidentally causing her to fall in love with me.
I, Alexander Connor, caused the fifth spirit, Elsa of Frozen, to fall in love with me.
…
Oh boy…
Idiot. I'm. A. Fricking. Idiot.
How stupid was I for not seeing the signs that Elsa was slowly falling for me?
Sure, the idea of me being with Elsa sounds incredible, absolutely amazing over the thought I could date a real-life Disney princess, but let's consider the fact that there would be problems for both of us.
Let's count them down, shall we?
One: How would it work? Especially when she will eventually have to go back to her own world while I stay in my world? Would our dimensions even be able of handling such a thing?
Second: How would the shippings be affected? Trust me, I've seen all types of shipping around Elsa from Jelsa to Helsa to I don't even know anymore. The question is, what the hell would this be even called? How would it trigger people to hear that I'm actually with real-life Elsa? They'll probably kill me just to be with her
Third: The dangers of our relationship. If I recall correctly, oh yes, there's an evil sinister magical organization trying to kill us, plunge the world into darkness, and all that other stuff at the moment while we would be a couple. Even if all is solved, would Arendelle even approve of it? Would Anna approve of it?
I got more issues in mind, but I'm pretty sure that one would get the gist of it of the problems that would come along with being Elsa's boyfriend or lover or whatever one would call it.
So, naturally, I do the only stupid move that only an idiot would do when he's trying to protect the one that he loves a lot but does it for the best for both.
Gently, I grab Elsa by her shoulders to stop the kiss, pull her off me as she stares at me confused, probably wondering what I'm doing since we were just kissing, and sigh to myself sadly.
The words that come out of my mouth are enough to explain the motive for what I just did.
"I can't, Elsa."
Elsa's smile slowly fades as she tries to comprehend what I just said.
"What?"
With a shake of my head, I sit upon the floor as she moves away, glancing at her sadly.
"I'm sorry. I can't do this. I… need a moment to myself."
Before I even allow her to say anything, I simply get up from where I am, walk away from the living room while I don't glance towards the other spirits, Bruni's or Gale's direction, as I head to my room in total regretful silence.
Once I arrive in the room, I close the door behind me, slowly walk on over to my bed as I jump on it, and proceed to grab the nearest pillow as I scream into it.
Damn it.
What the hell just happened?
How did it all lead up to this?
Where, in all this time, did I unintentionally cause Elsa to grow feelings for me?
Maybe it's from the fact that ever since she arrived in my world, the only things I've ever done for her was pure acts of kindness, trying to get her and her fellow spirits back to their own world, sacrificing myself to protect her, and willing to face my own demons because of her.
I can't really blame her though.
Hell, if it wasn't for these mental barriers in my mind, I probably would have asked her earlier if she wanted to be in a relationship with me.
Maybe she might have said yes...
The next thing I know, I throw the pillow aside as I sit up and slap myself angrily.
Slap!
Get ahold of yourself, Alexander Connor. I can't let this affect me.
But I remember what I just did to Elsa, and it only causes me to groan more as I slump onto the bed even more.
Of course, it's affecting me.
I practically acted like, what's the word? Oh right. A douche.
Elsa just kissed me, and I acted like a jerk to her.
I should probably apologize to her.
Yeah. Definitely. Totally.
I'm gonna apologize to her for what I just did. Maybe she might forgive me.
But before I can even stand from the bed, the door to the bedroom opens as I see Elsa enter the room by herself, the fifth spirit glancing in my direction as she says one thing only.
"Hi."
At the same moment...
3rd POV
"I'm sorry. I can't do this."
Elsa can only sadly watch as she sees Alex get up from the floor, the young man walking away as she watches him leave the living room while Gale and Bruni observe as well.
He doesn't even look their way at all.
Before she can say something, Bruni and Gale turn towards her as they exclaim out loud in surprise.
'What just happened?!'
Elsa sighs as she stands up, running a hand through her long, snowy hair as she heads on over to the sofa and sits on it with a slump.
"What did I just do?" Elsa says as she feels a mixture of emotions running through her, her heart beating faster than before, "I just kissed Alex. I kissed Alex. Why in the world did I do that?"
'Yeah, Elsa. Why did you do that?'
It only causes the fifth spirit to cover her blushing face with her hands as she groans, banging her head with her hand as a way to show what she was feeling right now.
"I don't know," Elsa replies as she lowers her hand, the fifth spirit sitting up as she grabs a blanket and pulls it over her, "We were having a snowball fight, I got on top of Alex after a bit of wrestling, and the next thing I know, he's looking so handsome that I couldn't help but kiss him."
Elsa sighs as her eyes become gloomy.
"But now, I think I messed it up between us. I ruined my friendship with Alex."
Just then, the spirits turn in the direction as they hear screaming from the room, hearing Alex's yelling into something as they shake their head.
'He's probably feeling the same thing right now,' Gale mentally says as it flutters around the living room, 'I wonder why though. We thought that you two were perfect for each other. I don't understand why you two are ashamed of what you did.'
'Yeah!' Bruni agrees, the fire salamander crawling on over to where Elsa is as it sits on her lap to look at her, 'Normally, people are happy when they find their perfect match. Yet it seems you look sad. Even Alex as well.'
Hearing what the two spirits had to say, Elsa glances at Bruni, the blue salamander sitting on her lap while it licks its eye, and waves her hand to create a light flurry of snowflakes for the fire spirit to have as a treat as she sighs.
"Maybe it's because he might be afraid of love," Elsa gives her own opinion to the other two spirits, "From all these months I've been stuck in this world of his, I've noticed that he's not really open to other people. Though he's trying to change for me, I notice he's still slightly reserved and that he doesn't express his emotions openly to others."
'Why do you think that, Elsa?' Bruni asks.
Elsa places a hand to her lips thoughtfully, the fifth spirit deep in thought as she snaps her fingers with a twinkle in her eyes.
"I have an idea. But I want to ask him first," Elsa says as she gently gets up while setting the blanket aside, Bruni leaping off her lap as it climbs back onto the sofa while Gale flies by the fire spirit as Elsa glances at the two, "Would you mind waiting here? I want to speak to him in private."
'For what? Maybe he might want to be alone right now…' The wind spirit says as Elsa sighs.
"Because I want to make sure he's alright. If there's one thing friends do, it's to make sure their friends are okay. No matter even if they wish to be alone at the moment."
Respecting her decision, they watch in silence as Elsa leaves the living room, the fifth spirit walking to the bedroom of Alex's as she raises her hand to knock on the door.
Before she stops.
Perhaps the other spirits were right. Maybe Alex wanted to be alone right now. After all, he did say he needed a moment to himself, and she could just walk away…
No. She needs to make sure he's fine, just like how Anna used to check up on her whenever her younger sister made sure Elsa was fine.
With a deep breath, Elsa pushes the door open, the young woman seeing Alex sit up on the bed in surprise upon seeing her. With a gentle smile, she waves a hand to him.
"Hi."
Alex's POV
It's sort of a surprise to see Elsa entering my room, considering I thought she might actually leave me alone. Then again, I realize, that was Elsa in the past, the Elsa that's in front of me is one that learned to talk to others more openly with the help and support of her family.
Mostly Anna could be the reason, but I shake the thought as I wave back at her with a shy smile. "Hey."
I see Elsa carefully walk on over to where I am, the fifth spirit shyly sitting by me as she watches me carefully. After all, I guess we're still dealing with the aftermath of the kiss, the two of us unsure of what's going to happen between us now and later on in the future.
But what she says surprises me. "Are you okay, Alex?"
I raise an eyebrow, clearly confused by what she meant. "Why do you ask?"
"Well," Elsa replies as she pushes strands of her hair to the side of her face to show those gorgeous ocean eyes of her more clearly, "I saw that you looked hurt after we kissed. I know that I acted out of line, and I wanted to apologize for what I did. It wasn't right, and I shouldn't have done that in the first place and it was awkward for us after…"
"It's fine!" I stammer nervously, my face growing red as I wave my hands to stop her, "If it makes you feel any better, it's sort of my fault as well! I shouldn't have tried to pin you down after you won the snowball fight because it's totally such a bad move to do and you're a girl while I'm a guy and…"
I really need to shut up, don't I?
My thoughts are right because Elsa is growing red right now, so I shut my mouth, looking away while I'm hot red as well. Besides, she's here because she wanted to make sure I'm fine, so I decided to restate myself in a more appropriate manner.
"But, to be honest, I'm alright. There's nothing to be worried about."
Elsa gives a nod, her skin returning back to her normal skin color as she eyes me carefully as I slowly divert from her glance.
"You're not okay."
"Huh?" I look back at her as she crosses her arms together with a slight frown.
"Alex, if there's one thing I've picked while being stuck here with you, it's that I can tell you're not alright. There's something bothering you, and I like to know what it is."
There is something bothering me, but I'm not sure if she would like to hear it. "Well…"
"Come on, Alex," Elsa says as she gives me a smile while she gently takes my hand, "I'm your friend, remember? You can tell me what's bothering you."
She does have a point. After all, she's a friend, mind an unbelievable one from the fact she's real, and it must be a desire by other people to have a conversation with Elsa about their life problems (which sometimes isn't really great, I'll say), so I decide to tell her something not even my parents nor Emily really knows.
"Well, Elsa, to be truthful, I've always been kinda of a…" I remove my hands from her own as I sigh sadly, "Loner."
"Loner?" Elsa asks, clearly confused as she tilts her head slightly, "Exactly what do you mean you've been a loner?"
I glance at the floor, fiddling with my fingers as I bite my lower lip, thinking exactly how to explain it to her.
"Ever since I was a kid, I was always one that not a lot of people wanted to hang out with. Sure, I might have been a normal kid with normal parents, but, truthfully, I've always felt different than the others. Like there was something off about me, something dark in me that wanted to just isolate myself from everyone without a care for them. And… it was tough on me, for sure."
Elsa listens carefully, watching me with a sad expression as I go on.
"I think some kids saw that in me, and basically, they started to shut me from hanging out with them. I never really cared at all because I was always focused on my work, never having time to even consider the possibility of finding a friend to even hang out with or even involve myself in a relationship. Whereas others focused on having friends or relationships at a young age, I kept silent to myself and did all that was required of me."
"Of course,despite not having any friends," I continue with a sad smile, "I had Erick to be there for me. He was my motivation, my younger brother that I could trust without a doubt. Despite him not being normal, I wanted to be a role model for him, be the big brother that would protect him at all costs. So I made sure to never get in trouble, complete my schoolwork, and simply be respectful to my parents so that he wouldn't pick up any bad habits from me."
My voice slowly begins to quiver as I feel my eyes grow teary.
"But, the day he died, I felt a hole grow in my heart, a piece of my soul torn off with Erick's death. Sure, I had people to comfort me the day he died, but I felt isolated from everyone. That no matter how many people tried to be friends with me, I didn't let them in. None of them couldn't really give me the motivation that I needed to keep on going in my life. Sure, I kept on living because I didn't want for Emily to suffer and lose the only brother she had left, but I felt like I had no purpose at all. Like I was a machine that was still operating but had no objective to do anything at all."
I then turn to Elsa, offering a smile to her.
"Then you came along in my life, and suddenly, I've felt… different. The day you arrived, panicked, and insulted me before the Heartless attacked, I was just living my life like a normal college guy would. Of course, aside from you, the only person closest to a friend I knew was Marcus, who was just a guy tutoring me. But he was just, how do I say this, a colleague perhaps. But you… you were different. I had seen you in Disney movies, saw the journeys you went through with Anna and your family, and I felt like I could almost connect with you. You were a friend I could count on, someone to give me motivation to live, to keep on fighting and protect you from all evils that dared to come your way. You were like the light to my darkness, the one who could finally make me change for the better, and help me become a better person in life."
I chuckle as I turn to the side, wiping away the tears in my eyes as I sigh before I look back at Elsa.
"I know it might sound cheesy, but I'll speak from the truth, Elsa. The thing is, not only have you, Anna, and everyone from Frozen touched the hearts of children, you touched the world's heart so it can become better. You touched my heart and other people out there so they can change for the better. From your childhood with Anna to the moment of Show Yourself, you showed us a way to change for the good of the world. If you hadn't existed, if Disney hadn't thought of you, I… I don't want to imagine what the world would be like without you around."
With another sigh, I feel myself smile as I finish.
"So, I know I may not have said this before, but thank you, Elsa. Thank you for being my friend and for helping me overcome my inner conflicts to become a better person in this world."
When I'm done, I notice Elsa is gently crying, the fifth spirit's tears dripping down her face as I instantly ashamed of myself for making her emotional. "Oh, I'm so, so sorry! I didn't mean to make you cry, Elsa! All I was saying was how I appreciate you for being a friend and all…"
"It's alright," Elsa replies, using her spirit dress's sleeve to wipe away her tears as she calms down, "I wasn't really expecting a heartfelt speech in response, but what you told me about your past and how I touch many people's lives is just… amazing. I know in the past you told me that kids from your world watched my life in the movies, but I didn't know how impactful it was to your world. All this time in the past, I've been afraid of who I was and my powers, but I didn't realize that so many people were observing my life. That so many people got inspiration, along with motivation, from what happened in my life. If only I knew…"
Elsa chuckles as she shakes her head, giving me a warm, loving smile.
"Thank you, Alex, for telling me this. I'm really glad that I met you as a friend, you know?"
I nod in response, offering a cheesy grin in return.
"Well, I might be the best one you've had, right?"
Elsa sighs, rubbing her forehead to cover her disappointing look. Although, I could notice the faint hint of a smirk crossing her lips as she turned back to me.
"Still, you're not mad over the fact we've kissed by mistake?" She asks, which causes me to look away in thought before I turn back to her.
"Well, I was afraid of what would happen if we fell in love," I take her hands gently as I feel my heart pace faster, "But, it's up to you, Elsa. If we get together, are you willing to face the dangers that come along with it?"
It takes a moment, but Elsa gives a nod of her head with a smile.
"I guess so. After all, I do have my powers to protect me, unlike you."
I laugh as I shake my head, simply dying on the inside, before I lean and tenderly place my lips against her own.
Carefully, she kisses back, the two of us simply enjoying the tender, loving, soft kiss that I could feel my heart leap in joy from the emotion running through me. It's almost as if a supernova exploded in me, a vast system of galaxies filling the hole in my soul that I never really thought could be patched again.
I wonder if she feels the same way too.
It's a tender moment of blissful joy, the two of us pulling apart from the kiss as we grow hot red, still unable to get over it. After all, aside from the fact that we're now a couple, it's still pretty embarrassing for the two of us to be here alone. By ourselves. Without no one to watch… and I better do something to make it less awkward right now.
"Hey, Elsa," I ask her as she looks at me, "What do you say that we head out right now? We could go out to a restaurant, grab something to eat, maybe watch a movie together…"
Elsa nods, clearly happier than I've ever seen before. "Sure! Maybe we could bring Bruni, Gale, and Nokk along with us, if possible? I mean, it's up to you…"
"Sure! I know just the perfect spot where we could all hang out, have fun together while not getting any attention from other people, and it's like the best drive in theater…"
I just rant on about how we could go to a drive in theater, Elsa listening as she agrees with the plan. So, naturally, we get up, leave the bedroom while heading to the living room, where we announce our newfound relationship to the other spirits.
Surprisingly, they approve of it, seeing how happy Elsa is by being with me. The problem is, I still have yet to gain Anna's approval, and it's already making me sweat nervously...
But we tell the spirits that we're heading to a drive in theater and that they're free to join us, the other spirits mentally call out to Nokk, and, turns out, they decide to give us the evening to ourselves. That we can hang out like the couple we are, like the best friends we are, I suppose.
So that's what we do. We give them our thanks, I grab my keys and wallet, and proceed to go out with Elsa on a friendly date for the evening. Where we go is by a nice restaurant by the shore, where the two of us have a nice view of the ocean while enjoying a meal to ourselves. Besides, we enjoy our newfound loving friendship to ourselves, laughing and talking with a kiss every now and then while we watch the starry night sky above.
Maybe… things might get better between us. Maybe we might stay together in the end, maybe I should keep the crystals I found and never tell Elsa about them. Maybe… who knows? Things could change between us...
But sadly, deep down, I know it's a long shot of a hopeful future that may never happen.
A/N: Well, chapter done! And, regarding how far this story has gone, I say around 10 to 12 chapters left! After that, it should be done and completed. Just a heads up. By the way, this kinda feels like an anime now. Yep, definitely feels like a Disney anime show.
Also, heads up, Frozen 3 confirmed to be released in 2025, year of Black Ops 2 events. Hopefully, we'll still be around by then (leaks yikes)… :/
Anyways, yeah. I haven't had a lot of time to focus on this story because of Until We Meet Again, but I got the motivation to write this chapter down and post it. So I hope you like it. What are your thoughts? Leave a review on your feelings towards Alex and Elsa getting together. Do you think they'll stay together or will they be torn apart? Reviews give life! :)
That's all from me! Until next update! :)
