Cade POV
J.R. became more anxious as we waited for Jayce to wake up. She woke up fifteen minutes later, but as we all thought, she's exhausted. I had her on a monitor, not taking the chance I might be wrong, and something is wrong; everything was fine. I asked Crosshairs and Drift what they wanted to do since J.R. has been anxious as we waited for Jayce to wake up. She asked them to keep Jayce here though she knows Jayce will be asleep soon, and I think J.R. will fall asleep. Drift laid J.R. on the other bed. The two girls looked at each other but said nothing as Crosshairs and Drift covered the two with blankets. Either J.R. is no longer dealing with being cold, or she is distracted by Jayce. Then I realized, how are we going to explain this to Jamie? I brought this up when Jayce and J.R. fell asleep.
"Jamie should still be working for at least two more hours," Drift points out, "I'd take Jayce to her room, but I'm concerned about J.R.'s reaction. The seizures are terrible to watch, but she's seen them before. I wasn't expecting bee to react the way she did."
"I know, I can't believe that's what Jayce has thought since we found out J.R. has an infection."
Ok, I missed something important. I asked the two to repeat what Jayce said.
"...I think she feels terrible, and she might not try to end her life," Crosshairs finished.
"Maybe, but we can't assume."
I went over to J.R.'s bed and carefully lifted her shirt. The infection isn't spreading, but the area around the wound is still red. It must still be warm to the touch as J.R. still has a fever.
"Well?" Crosshairs asked.
"The infection isn't spreading, but I don't think she'll be well enough for oral antibiotics in the next day or two," I trailed off.
Crosshairs sighed but said nothing. Drift didn't look pleased I'm bringing this up. The three of us didn't want to come to this decision, but eating very little will not help J.R. get over this. With the two girls asleep, we left the room. Crosshairs and Drift went for a Drive. Hound and I went to tell Bumblebee what's been going on.

One hour later

Jayce's nightmare
I'm sitting in my room when I sense two fading energy signatures, fuck. I rushed out of my room, the weapons room. As I feared, one energy signature is J.R.'s. she stabbed herself in the chest, I can't pull out the weapon, and I can't do CPR with the weapon in her. She's fading fast. No one can hear me even if I scream. I don't want to leave J.R., but I have to get help. That's Terrifying enough, but the second energy signature is fading faster and in the medbay.

"Jamie!" I screamed as I rushed through the doors. Bumblebee stopped me from getting to her. Drift is on his knees, terrified, watching Cade and Hound try to revive his girl. Crosshairs tries to comfort him though he's having a hard time since he's terrified himself. They don't know I'm here, and I can't get them to help J.R. Two minutes pass before Cade says Jamie is gone. Bumblebee still won't let me go; all I can do is scream.

J.R. POV
A scream wakes me up. For a second, I thought it was Jamie looking at my wound. Shit, even worse, it's Jayce screaming in her sleep and tossing around. I can't get to her. Sure, I can rip the IV out, but that's dangerous. I don't have my phone with me to text Drift. I start crying, hating how I can't help Jayce. The door opens, Drift comes rushing in. I don't think he heard the screaming from out there, nor did Drift expect to find Jayce screaming and tossing around. I was focused on her, though my vision is getting blurry from the tears, I didn't know Crosshairs came in until I felt myself being moved. He must be sitting on the bed, and I'm on his lap. I know he'd take me out of the room if he could, but he can't carry me and push the IV pole.
"Wake up, you're ok," Drift says, trying to be calm, but I can hear the panic in his voice.
"I need to text the others to help," Crosshairs says as he moved his arm. I wrapped my arms around him, trying to ignore how dizzy I am feeling. He texted as fast as he could. The room goes silent for a few seconds before I hear Jayce cry. A damn seizure and having a hard time realizing she's dreaming, fuck.
Cade and Hound walk in, not sure what to think about what they're seeing.
"I want to stay here," I say before Crosshairs could tell Cade or Hound anything. He tells them what he wanted to do but forget it now. Drift is holding Jayce, moving in a slow rocking motion as she cries.
What was it this time, Jayce? I don't think it wasn't less terrifying than usual; she's exhausted. I watched Cade and Hound leave the room, but I doubt they're going far.

Cade POV
"I knew she'd get worse mentally but not like this," I started.
"It's not the first time she's done this. The fucking nightmares are too real to her."
"You haven't told Crosshairs, have you?"
"He knows about her poor sleep but not how intense the nightmares are. I'd just be adding something for him to worry about."
We went back into the room. Jayce is frightened and has a tight hold on Drift. J.R. had to lie down, and Crosshairs is laying with her. This is a disaster. I fear J.R. is right; Jayce will have to discontinue going on adventures with her and Jamie.

Crosshairs POV
Already two in the afternoon, and J.R. has had little to eat, or nothing sincel she threw up. She's too focused on Jayce. If Jayce talks about her nightmare, I don't want J.R. to hear it. Drift looked over at us, not sure if he should take Jayce to her room. I nod, knowing how J.R. will react, but it's better for both girls if Jayce is in her room.
Sure enough, J.R. tried to break free from my hold. I think she forgot she's on an IV.
"Stop, she's fine. She should sleep in her room."
"She'll be ok," Cade says as he takes J.R.'s hand.
We might be lying but, even though it's been three months, we think it's too soon to know for sure if Jayce will struggle like this for an extended period.
The room is silent for a few minutes.
"Has she had anything today?" Cade asks.
"Sort of."
Cade knew what I meant. He got up and left the room. I don't know if he's informing Bulma or not.
"You know what I'm about to do."
J.R. said nothing as I laid her down and went to the counter to prepare what I needed.
I hope Bulma doesn't tell us we have to put a feeding tube in. I suspect she'll want samples and can do a test to see if J.R. is getting better though not sure if she is in just twenty-four hours. Just another problem we're dealing with.
I got a bottle of the nutrition drink, poured 300 ml, though I doubt J.R. will finish it.
Placing the cup, a 100 ml syringe, an emesis basin, and some paper towels on the table and rolled it to the bed. I sat on the bed and moved the table closer to me, and prepared the syringe before sitting J.R. up.
"I don't care how I have to do this, and I don't care if you throw up. You know what the alternative is."

Drift POV
"You done yet?" I asked Jamie as I sat on the bed.
"Yeah," Jamie laughed as she sat next to me.
I moved her onto my lap and hugged her. I still feel guilty for what I did on New Year's Eve, but I still have terrifying thoughts. I started moving in a slow rocking motion for no specific reason. A few minutes of this and Jamie is rubbing her eyes. Well, I guess we're taking a nap together. Jamie didn't object as I laid on the bed and covered us with the red blanket. Jamie is asleep within five minutes.
You didn't just do recording, did you? Sleep well.
I kissed her forehead and went to sleep myself.

Hound POV
I fear Jayce will struggle a lot more before she gets better. I hope this doesn't mean seizures will be more frequent.
Could we have prevented this if we knew how bad the nightmare situation affected Jayce and J.R.? Doubt it, but maybe we could have done enough that they wouldn't be thinking about death. Maybe Jayce's seizures wouldn't be back, maybe Jayce's nightmares wouldn't be as frequent or intense, and she'd be like J.R. Though I know J.R. has had a few intense nightmares. Maybe I wouldn't be sitting here waiting for Jayce to wake up frightened by a nightmare, hoping it's not as bad as two hours ago.
Jayce wakes up fifteen minutes later but stayed in bed, staring at the ceiling. I'm leaving her alone for now. She rolled to her side, five minutes later. I'm staring at her back, but I know tests are rolling down her face.
"Is she ok?" Crosshairs asked as he walks in.
"I'm not sure," I say as Crosshairs laid on the bed.
"What's wrong?" Crosshairs asked. Jayce didn't answer. He moved closer to hug her. He's going to be here for a while. I'm going to see what the others are doing.
I didn't think Drift and Jamie would be sleeping, but I knew J.R. would be. Bumblebee said he's staying with J.R., so I went for a drive.

Crosshairs POV
Well, I think I can say no way J.R.'s condition is going to get Jayce to change her mindset. Not sure if the seizures influence her decision, but I know the nightmares do and after the one she had today. What do I even say to her?