Rjzero00: yes the revitalization was much needed. And yeah that speech she gave them was inspired by a few others to be honest, yet it really worked out and I felt satisfied with it. Sorry it sounds like an excuse, but that's my interpretation of it. And yeah he's supposed to be king in the future, but that doesn't mean that he's always going to be like this. He obviously overcomes more things along the way to becoming king and evolves beyond the man that he is right now. He just has to go through and get over the hurdles that way when he meets a dignitary that say fancies her, he can be secure in his and Usagi's growing relationship to not act out or react unless necessary. Same thing with her on his behalf.
Aiyoku: yup and here's the last one.
InuKaglover4ev22: its not a problem. I get it, I'm behind on some stories to read to and some t.v. shows that I need to catch up on. And yes your right that wiseman manipulated Chibi Usa's memories, but she didn't see them all as bad, she was convinced that her and Mamoru could be a thing or whatever her memories were twisted into on that one, cause it is clear that she has a weird crush on him from the start and only nulls out when she finds out he's her future father. It only really continues so she can agitate Usagi and she enjoys getting a rise from her, but it was there already and I think that he unknowingly contributed to it by paying her more attention and taking her side compared to Usagi's. and while I agree with you on Minako just wait and see what happens there with that. And yeah they all missed each other, and yes Tyler's family does have another babysitter but she's not always available and Usagi's in the area so yeah. Never heard of a chef's kiss' before. Enjoy the continued reading! 😊
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Breaking point ch.37
Mamoru POV
As soon as the girls waked out and left us alone I was nervous about what Usagi might have to say to me considering everything, but I was also thankful for the privacy as this next part was just between us, "Usa first off I wanted to thank you for inviting me out here to this little meeting." Cause to be honest I normally didn't get invited to these. Now though I had a chance to talk to her again and I wasn't going to blow it.
I just had to be okay with exposing myself and letting her see it all and honestly this is a long time coming. "I've been so lost without you in my life these past few days." I tell her, my voice breaking just a bit. "I don't ever want to go another day without you in it. Without talking with you, seeing you…knowing what's going on in your life…you know what's going on in mine, all of it." I hope she hears the plea in my voice, that she sees how much she means to me and that I truly do love her more than anything.
In the last few days I had tried to come up with any and every way possible to show her the depth of my feelings and I came up with two ways that would hopefully showcase to her just how much I love her and what I'm willing to go through and do for her. I went into my pocket to pull out the spare key to my place that I had made extra special just for her. I did it the day after Rei came over.
I knew I had to do something to showcase to Usagi how serious I am about us. That's when it occurred to me to show her how much I was ready to move forward in our relationship. I started to ask myself how much was I ready for and realized I could see myself living with her. Even if I only got to live with her part time since I doubted her family would let her live with me full time, it would still be better than nothing.
I had already talked with the security guard up front of my building to put her down as 'live in guest' so that she wouldn't get stopped or asked what her purpose was there. Ironically the security guard ended up muttering why it took me so long to do it. I couldn't help but laugh a bit at his words as I answered as best as I could 'stupidity'. So here I now stood with an extra key in my pocket hoping she'd want to take it.
I wanted her to feel welcomed into my place. To show her that it was hers to, to feel warm and at home. That when she felt like she was ready to move in full time from her parents place that not only was I ready but that she could decorate however the hell she wanted to. I didn't care if it was rainbows and unicorn looking crap, I just wanted my Usagi back. I had to do something to show how serious I was after seeing her and HIM in the park area.
And I wasn't doing it strictly because of that sight. It was just the final straw for me. I realized I had been ready for a little while I just hadn't let myself see it yet. So after seeing their embrace and losing her in the crowded streets and having even my 'past self' become defeated with me I had to abandon any type of remaining fear I had left and show her that I wasn't going to let it control me anymore.
That ass, Tyler, wasn't going to be whom or what she needed, I mean I knew he could be but she already had it in me. I had to show her that and win her back…again. The more I had a chance to think on it the more I knew I couldn't let her go. Not without a fight in every sense of the word. He'd have to beat me in every way that would show her how important she was so that she knew I would do anything for her.
I should have offered this beforehand, but its better late than never. "I can't go another day without you in it." I go to grab the key in my pocket when she put her hand up to stop me. My heart lurches forward, fear of what she's going to say evident by the way my heart pounds for her to NOT say she's given up on us. She must have seen the look in my eyes as she smiles, "I know, I feel the same way."
I feel my heart start to pound a bit less in fear, but it's still there. She's giving me slight hope here, "And I know that this wasn't entirely your fault." She acknowledged as I relaxed just a fraction more. "I know I yelled at you pretty badly that night and I left out of your place in a distressed state and that you called several times." I felt relieved that she got the calls but knew now that in fact she had ignored them.
She had NEVER before these events ignored a call from me…EVER. She was always quick to pick up or at least ALWAYS picked up. So yeah this was something that unnerved me. "I was just so upset by what I had found out that it felt like everything was hitting me all over again all at once." Great so that bombshell of information going off hit all the triggers all at once for her and made her feel as she did that night.
"I felt so upset and overwhelmed with everything that I hadn't considered what you all were thinking with the matter at hand. I was only seeing things from my side of the coin and I needed to see how things must have been from your ends. I can't imagine keeping this from me was easy." I heard her tell me. "Then….?" I ask as I look around considering everything she said before, "Oh I meant what I said." She tells me.
Her tone changing, "Just because I admit to overreacting a bit doesn't mean that I agree with what decision was made." I nod, "What I meant by 'not being easy' was that I understand how hard it is to keep a secret from someone you love as I've done that plenty." I look at her oddly as she explains, "My family on my secret life as a senshi!" I nod realizing what she meant now. I just hadn't thought about that before.
I know very few people that I would talk to about my secret life as tuxedo mask, very few and they don't even know. Usagi I know however knows many people and that she keeps this secret from and she does it on a daily basis for their own safety. I can only imagine what her parents and Shingo would think if they knew the truth about her, about all of us. It wouldn't be good news that's for sure. At least not to their ears anyways.
"But I'm someone that you should trust enough to talk to about that so yes I meant what I said, I was just 'expressing' that I understand the different aspects of where you all were coming from." She tells me as I take in her words, "I get it I do. I'd be upset to if I found out what you did after all of what you went through." I admit. "I made myself think about how I'd act if I were in your shoes and I think I might have done more than storm off." My words make her look at me with minor mirth.
"Really?" she asks, "Yeah I might have not spoken to you for a whole week if not longer. Truth is I don't know what I would have done. I'd be upset for sure. So the fact that were talking now instead of at the end of next week just proves to me that you're a bigger person than I am." I tell her as she nods at knowing a bit of how I'd react, "I see…I guess we both would have reacted differently…" she begins.
"I really did want to go to that resort with you that Friday." I look up to her as she looks regretful of not going, "Yeah, I had several things planned out for us to do while there." I briefly recalled a few of them to. I sighed, "I really am sorry you found out that way." I needed to apologize to her about this even though I left it repeatedly in the voicemails. Knowing her she probably didn't listen to them or if she did she was giving no indication that she had.
"I don't even know what Minako's plan was for telling you but I knew the longer we waited the worse it would get and I messed up on continuously following her orders and NOT telling you sooner." I apologize to her. "Well you're not the only one who messed up." She starts, "Not just the girls either, but even I myself did." I'm stunned by this as I hadn't expected this from her. I was honestly a little stunned.
"I over reacted a bit that night and took off. I gave into the desire to do so instead of staying behind and talking it out further with you and getting to the gritty details." I was struck by a sudden urge to hold her close to me in the moment. It was like there was a new mature level to her that I hadn't before seen and didn't know existed till now. To show that she too was apologetic on how things were handled.
It only reaffirmed my want to have her move in even if only part time. "I should have calmed myself down more and we should have talked things out better than what we did, but I let my anger get the better of me and took off like a stubborn child rather than a committed adult." I'm still stunned as she gestures for me to sit back down as she comes forward from the table and sits in front of me.
"Naru pointed out a lot of things to me and got me to see where even my own faults in this are." I never did give Naru enough credit, and speaking of, "I actually ran into her when I went to try and find you." She looks a bit bewildered by that for a moment before a clear answer hits her as she says, "Well I know she didn't tell you were I was as I didn't see you." Her words are true as I recall exactly what happened with such detailed accuracy that I grip my fist on the table and try not to make my next words sound like an accusation.
I didn't want to come off as untrusting of her when Even Rei herself pointed out that things could really mean one thing even when it can seem like something else and I didn't want to accuse Usagi of something if what I saw wasn't what I think I saw. My own imagination may have taken the wrong leap forward and I needed to make sure I had all the details before I spoke to much further no how I felt.
"I know…it made it a little bit difficult to find you." I admit then clear my throat, "Eventually I did though." I look to her, forcing myself to see and watch her reaction to my next confession, "I found you by the docks…you didn't see me as I was a bit further away, hell you probably couldn't have heard me either, but I saw you…" I gulped after I let out a low choked out chuckle hoping that it would give a chance to get the words out right.
"And with him…" I really couldn't help the slight edge to my voice as I said the even associated with Tyler. It bothered me on levels I didn't know existed that this guy who I wouldn't normally view as a threat was a truer threat than most and I was to stuck up my own ass to see that. I had it backwards initially. I had really thought that since I was this former prince, someone who fought side by side her, that could be a part of that world of hers that I was the best and really only real fit for her.
I failed to take in other aspects into account. I felt that I could be superior in most senses. That since I had the upper hand through combat training and other forms of training that I would win out in majority cases, yet the simplest case is where he was winning out and that was simply by being a good guy and showing her what a good boyfriend could do for her. He showed her how he could be there for her and show her how he cared about her.
Granted I did feel those things towards her but didn't SHOW that I did. At least not to the point where the people that I knew even KNEW of her existence. He showed her he was happy to show her off and I showed her I wasn't. It had NOTHING to do with being a part of our world, he showed her what she had been missing with me and had I not messed up I could have shown her all that and more.
She might have already been living with me. I know she never would have even blinked in his general direction had things not happened as they did. I slipped up though and got too damned cocky and he somehow knew this. From guy to guy he knew it and he slipped further into her life and got closer to her. He showed himself to be better than I for her and he wasn't going to get his way without a fight from me.
"I saw you both together…in his arms…" her hand comes on top of mine as I look at her. Having lost the eye contact when I was deep in my thoughts. "Did you think that something happened?" she asked me. I wondered if this was a trick. If I should tell her no, that I believed in us but the truth was I gave her reason to doubt me before so instead of lying to her I gave her the truth even if she didn't like it.
"It's not like I didn't give your reason to feel differently about us. I do trust you Usagi, I always will and yeah, its hard sometime to let you in on certain things…not going to deny it, but it doesn't mean I love you any less." I could see the reaction as I knew I had to pull this up before it sounded like I didn't trust her, "It doesn't mean I don't trust you at all but it does however mean that I know I don't always give you reason to trust me." I could tell she wasn't expecting to hear that from me.
"I know I hold things close to the vest a lot, and it's a defensive mechanism. It's something I have in place from being a kid from how I grew up and really I shouldn't have it on with you or even Motoki. Or the girls for that matter. Its hard to put my trust in someone else, especially you." I could see the bit of rejection in her eyes as I spoke, so I had to make her understand what I was getting across here.
"And it's not because you've done anything wrong, it's because I can't believe someone as beautiful, inside and out as you are would want to be with such an anti-social, ass hole that can be an unbearable, even unsufferable at times dick. You deserve so much better than me that I let my own doubts and insecurities plague me and allow me to make bad decisions and hurt our relationship." I see her eyes moisten and soften towards me.
"So yeah that came up to hit me in the gut when I saw you with him cause for a little while, I thought I really truly lost you to him. That I screwed up that one last time and you had made your choice to be with him cause I had proven once more that I wasn't worth the effort. It didn't occur to me till much later on that as I revisited the events that I started to rethink things and see them differently as I HOPED they really were." I see the amusement in her eyes now, "And what do you hope that they were?" she asked.
I gulped, "Just one friend comforting another." I simplified not wanting to get into potential further trouble. She smiled, "Well your half right." She agrees half heartedly with me. "Yes we were comforting the other but it was also because I told him that we were working things out." She gestures between us as I can't help but mentally shout out YES! Even my inner prince was smiling in reflection.
"To be honestly I didn't even have to go into detail on us as he seemed to already realize and figure it out that you and I were going to make it through things." I couldn't stop the mental shouts of THANK YOU I just hope she couldn't hear them through our link. "We gave a hug as a ways of parting away. We will always be friends but nothing more." She tells me as I feel relief flood my whole frame and can't help but feel myself slump against the table a bit as it hits home that I had in fact let my imagination get the better of me.
"You have no idea how happy I am to hear that." I admit to her as she squeezes my hand gently, I put my other one on top of hers and feel the warm emanating from it. "And you have no idea how much knowing you actually do get jealous over me and knowing that you TRUST ME…" she emphasizes as I look at her, "Can turn me on." There's a sparkle in her eyes that I haven't seen in a long time.
"It shouldn't really, not during those moments when it really shouldn't, especially depending on the situation and who's all there, but it does, a bit. Now I feel a tad foolish for telling you that." She looks regretful that she open up about it. "Don't be." Without thought I pick her up from her position in front of me and pull her closer to me, sitting her in my lap as she blushes from the close contact.
We haven't been this intimately close since that date where I had her on the counter. I had been nearly afraid that day that she would push me away so I barely spoke a word to her and only went with touch and sensation to know to keep going. It had been far too long since we'd have sex and I couldn't help the fact that I missed every intimate thing about her. "I should be more expressive with my feelings towards you and you should be able to be that way towards me to." I tell her as I tuck a strand of hair behind her ear.
She smiles, "We should be able to with each other…" she confirms as she leans her forehead against mine. It feels so comforting to have her back in my arms that I wrap them around her and hold on to her form. "I don't want to ever let you go again." I confess as I pull her in tighter, "Then don't." she faces me as she pulls my face up to look into her eyes. Those beautiful blue eyes that capture me in the moment.
"Nothing could drag me from you." A vow, a promise I was making to her. She kissed me then as I decided to make sure that she knew from that point forward that no matter what happened to keep a better, more open and honest relationship with her. Getting an idea I tell her, "The exams are finishing up for this next semester. I want you to come with me as my date, my girlfriend, if you'll have me." I half playfully yet hopefully demand and ask at the same time. She smiles, "Is this going to include all of your friends?"
I smile, "All the ones that matter." I respond, "Then I'll be happy to go." I can't help it as I pull her in for a kiss and am pleased that there's no resistance. She's kissing me back as happily as I'm kissing her and I have a hard time putting a clamp down on the need to do some very not so innocent things to her in the temple. Instead I hold her close and thank whomever is listening for the gift of my Usagi.
"There is something I want you to have." I remember as I pull out the key. "I want you to be able to come over whenever you want." She takes the key and looks at me with stunned happiness, "Is this what I think it is?" she asks as I smile, "Yeah, whatever you want to move into my place I'll be happy to have over. If you wanted to live there part time even…" I suggest as she lights up, "I really don't know what to say…" I can see her mind trying to put it together and formulate words to her thoughts.
"Now I don't want you to feel pressured, or anything, this is just me wanting to - " I'm thrown off guard when she kisses me breathlessly. "I don't feel any pressure. I just want to make sure this is something you want to and not just be - " I cut her off this time, "This isn't because of all of this, it's because I want to not only show you what I want but because I want it to. I've wanted it for a while now." her smile just lights up the room were in, "So when do I get to put the fluff pink pillow on the couch?!" I close my eyes for a moment…and so it begins.
Usagi POV
It's been nearly a month now since we had the big meeting. It feels like it's barely been any amount of time at all really. Between the girls and I starting to train again, and now Chibi Usa, with my power in her, not that I think she needs it anymore joining in to train not just with me but with the rest of the girls she is starting to do better on controlling her own attacks. I can sense her power core now though, and while I know I could always feed her more energy I can also feel that she doesn't really need it.
I can also sense that our bond is getting better to. We talk more now, or rather we have actual conversations that don't end in insults. It seems as though we've all fallen into a sort of new normal that has come from everything that's happened. The girls are talking more with Naru now about senshi duties. It seems they've found a friend in her with it and are able to talk with her more and become closer friends with her.
We even brought Umino in on it since Naru didn't want to keep it from him. She asked us of course before telling him and we all decided even as Luna and Artemis were hesitant that they were our closest friends and most trusted to so they should know. Plus it would be helpful if and when we were under attack again and needed an excuse. They could be helpful. Plus, I know that soon enough Mamoru will want to tell Motoki.
It's inevitable and he has my full support on it. He needs a male friend in this and it's not really fair that he doesn't have one. Though Umino has been a bit helpful as a guy to go to but I can tell that as much as he's grateful to have Umino to talk to he wishes his long time best friend knew of his secret life. So here I stand getting ready for this new party. Mamoru decided to have it at his place, again. Almost like he's trying to have a do-over of that evening that things took the turn for the worst.
So I decided to put on a nice faded strappy red dress. It had a small slit in it up the side but was already so short that the slit was barely noticeable. It formed around my frame nicely as I put on short red pumps and grabbed a sweater so my parents didn't see the really potential skimpy factor to it. My father had grown to be more accepting of Mamoru after that last talk we had and now Mamoru was invited over for family dinner this coming Sunday.
It was real progress considering my father's previous stance on him. I think the surprising twist was when he ran into Tyler one day as he was cleaning up the front yard of leaves and tried to 'convince him' to be with me that Tyler made it clear on my behalf that while he'll always be there that my heart was Mamoru's and he could see it clear as day. My father hearing that finally seemed to accept things.
So I left out that Friday evening as I went over to the party. Deciding to walk there as it was a nice night out. The weather wouldn't be favorable coming up so I made sure to take advantage while I could. I knew that people rarely showed up to the party early on as usually people were between 15-30 minutes late so I made sure to be there at the 15 minute late mark. Once I got there the party already seemed to be in a full swing.
It reminded of last time as I forced those nervous feelings away from me. This wasn't last time and while I looked good last time to, this time would be different for many reasons. I smiled and was glad that I was greeted so happily by Mamoru, "Hey!" he pulled me in for a hug and kiss. I was nearly a taken aback by the passion he put into it as he held me so close I felt him flushed against me.
I was almost embarrassed by how deep it was. However, I did soon forget that we had an audience until one of his friends started to hoot at us. "Yeah! Get that!" I couldn't help but feel a blush come across my face as Mamoru parted from me but with no regret that he so publically kissed me. I smiled and forgot about any potential embarrassment now and let him take my hand in his and pulled me over to meet his classmates again, "Everyone you remember my girlfriend, Usagi." they all nodded from the last time and I nodded back.
"Good to see you all again." I greeted, "So you thinking anymore about coming to our college?" one of them asked, "Oh definitely." I agreed as I know my respond had Mamoru now interested to as he handed me a red cup full of a sweet liquid, as I took a small sip. He then took a seat on the sofa and gestured then pulled me gently to sit in his lap as I sunk in and felt the warmth of his hand along my back as he held me close.
A far cry from the last time I was here in the party environment. This was far more welcoming and inviting and I felt like I was becoming a part of the group compared to the last time, "Yeah I decided at some point before I even take my finals that I'll apply so I can see about early approval." They were all smiling, "That's great, it'd be nice to have a freshman with a set of brains for once."
I smiled at the sorta compliment, "You've got to do a keg stand at least once though. Gotta have that cool factor." One of them said as the other slapped him upside the head as I replied, "While I love to try new things, I think my cool factor is that I'm in a committed relationship with one of the best students already, and that's BEFORE becoming a freshman." I got a resound amount of cheers for that as I was able to respond back with a good retort.
That's when I saw their eyes widen up a bit at seeing someone new come in. I looked over to see Saori herself get greeted by Motoki as he gestured inside to the rest of the party, "I can't believe she came here." One of his friends remarked stunned by seeing her as well. She admittedly looked pretty shy. Like she was trying to be inviting but was becoming nearly unapproachable with how she must have been feeling.
I had a feeling she had done a few more things other than kiss Mamoru that night and none of them were things that she was proud of especially with how some people were looking at her then turning their backs on her. No one should be ostracized like that though. I felt for her, I may not have liked what she did but that didn't mean she needed to become a social pariah. She wasn't a bad or a mean person.
I had met those types and felt no sorrow towards them, but I felt bad for her. When she spotted me, as she seemed to be looking for someone, she looked torn between wanting to confront me and wanting to run away before she took a breath and walked over towards us all. "Holy crap she's actually coming over. This should be entertaining." I heard one of his friends said as she walked up.
I stood from Mamoru's lap as he couldn't help but try to stand to only for me to push him back down, "Don't. Not yet." I tell him as he stays in place while keep some form of contact with me and his eyes on the situation. A subtle way I know to show me that he's there for me without overstepping the bounds of what I know I can handle and what he wants to back me up on and it's nice that we've grow this much closer.
"Usagi, I'm glad to see you here." Saori began, as she forced herself to talk to me, that much I could tell as it's clear that she doesn't want to have this conversation as much as she feels she needs to have the conversation. Plus the last time she saw me it was right after she was drunk and kissed Mamoru, before she went to go puke her guts out so I'm sure while she wanted to meet me at some point, being a girlfriend to a friend of hers, she definitely wanted it to be under different, and better circumstances than what had occurred.
Especially with the way we first met. Judging by the expression on her face she probably regrets most of that night and doesn't ever wish to have a repeat. "I wanted to apologize to you for things that have happened." I listen to her as she continues on, keeping to herself and maintaining a distance. I wasn't sure if that was due to her need for space or if she thought I was going to haul out and hit her for kissing Mamoru. Truth was that at the time, had she NOT been drunk I probably would have.
However, that wasn't the case. "I was drunk that night, I shouldn't have had more than I was used to but I did and while being drunk ISNT an excuse to do stupid things and use it to get away with it, it doesn't take away from the fact that I did exceed how much I can handle and let my judgement get clouded for the worse." I could tell she hated her actions that night. Even though she was lead there a bit she still felt guilt for what happened.
The remorse she showed me made me feel better about how to handle this now. I was more confident in what to do and say. "I know that the last thing you'd probably want is to hear my apology. Maybe you might think it's just an excuse." She stops to get her breath, "But I can guarantee you it's not. There's no excuse for the actions under being drunk. It's one of the reasons I'm going into law enforcement." I can see the determination on her face now. It's a passion of hers.
She wants to be someone that can be seen as responsible and capable so that night was a true regret for her not just personally but professionally to. It makes me feel better about how she views Mamoru. "It's not one that I even accept for myself, but it is why I lost sense of myself that night and acted as inappropriately as I did." I took in how sorry she was and noted that she could barely even look towards Mamoru. I think though it had more to do with wanting to talk with me, the girlfriend versus speaking with him on the matter.
This part of the conversation was a woman to woman one, "I know alcohol can make you do things you wouldn't normally do." I accept that fact from her as she clears her throat. "Yet it will never excuse them and I wouldn't be my true self if I accepted that as okay to do. I'm a light weight for a reason." She tells me. Before I can move to accept this from her she keeps going, "That night I had had one to many and hurt you and Mamoru…" I stopped any motion I had to do this as I held my own feelings back for the moment.
"I would understand if you decided to not want to ever speak with me again unless it's in forced social settings and even then I really couldn't see it happening, but I would like for us to get past this and be civil…hopefully." She finishes as I can't help but let my feelings come to the front now. I give her a small smile, "Don't get me wrong you threw me for a loop that night. Threw us both really, and I was very upset at the situation, but…" I emphasized as I took a breath so that I could make sure she knew without a doubt of how serious I was going forward.
"It wasn't entirely your fault." I explained as Mamoru stood up at that point sensing his need to talk now himself. "She has a point, I had my own contributed involvement in it that was unintentional but still there and I wanted to apologize to you for giving you the wrong impression of my relationship status. It's always going to be Usagi for me…for life." He stated in front of everyone.
It made me smile wider than I thought was possible given the circumstances. Saori for herself is surprised by the responses she's getting, "Wow I honestly thought you were going to yell at me or tell me to stay away from Mamoru for good." I smile as that would be a typical response but I've had time to adjust and see things on different levels. So I lay it out for her. "Don't get me wrong, I can accept this and we can be civil and perhaps even become friends at some point down the road, however…" I catch her up.
She gulps at this, "Only on the knowledge and condition that this NEVER, no matter the circumstances EVER happens again." she nods in acute relief and smiles at it which catches me slightly off, "I can assure you that, and promise it to. In fact…" she looks to the door and we see a dark haired man coming in looking around till he spots her, smiling as he then heads on over towards us.
"That right there is my boyfriend. He's so sweet and charming. I had no idea that my ideal partner would end up being my bestie in college. He finally got the nerve to ask me out a few weeks after…" she indicates what happened the last time, "We ended up in similar classes after I swapped the others out and things have been great. I really haven't ever been happier." I can see it in her eyes how happy she is to be with him as he comes up to her.
Giving her a kiss the cheek she blushes. It's obvious from the stance they have together that their presence sooths the other and makes her feel the way Mamoru has been making me feel. Loved and cherished. I can even see that while he knows about Mamoru, as least by a quick determination of seeing him look at him and giving him a curt but civil nod, I can also see that he's not going to let past mistakes hurt their future progress. It's obvious now that she's found where she needs to be at as have we.
"I can tell." I note to her as she smiles, "Thanks for listening and hopefully we'll see each other again." she remarks as she gives me a respective nod and leaves out. "Wow…" one of his friend's remarks after a few moments of silence. I look over and see the one guy who starts to put fingers up for each point he makes, "Smart, hot, compassionate and forgiving – DUDE!" he starts to exclaim, "MARRY her!" he nearly orders in a semi-serious yet semi joking tone as I blush and laugh. Its Mamoru's response that catches all of us off guard.
"Someday I will, but for right now…" I can tell his friends are both shocked and smiling knowingly. Perhaps already seeing how truthful he was being regarding me as he puts his drink down, "I think I'll have a dance with my girl." I put my cup down as I take his hand and dance with him. With his hands and arms wrapped around me I can't help but laugh and enjoy the beat and swaying rhythm as we enjoy the evening together.
Its hours later when nearly everyone is gone. I decided to stay behind and help clean up the mess left behind. It was only 11 at this point but between people getting ubers and others deciding to leave before the felt like crashing, the place was empty. Even Motoki looked ready to head out since he had a shift in the am. Finally when he said his goodbyes and I put the last trash bag full of discarded cups by the door I sat down and sighed, "That was a great party." it was a long one though and I was glad that I had a chance to hang out with his friends again.
This time we talked more and I knew for sure that I was going to choose going there as my college. If only my parents could see me now, planning for college at a college party. I laughed at the thought of it as Mamoru came and sat down next to me. He grabbed my legs and pulled my feet up onto his lap and started to massage them. "Oh Mamo – chan that feels so good, but you don't have to do that. You cleaned up to." I tell him as he stops and looks at me with a stunned happiness on his face.
"What?" I asked, "That's the first time I've heard you say 'Mamo – chan' in so long." He remarks as he looks thrilled and almost afraid as if I might take it back upon realization. I smile and can't help myself, "Yeah what are you gonna do about it?" I give a small smile and laugh it off till he pulls me further into his lap by my lower legs and kisses me deeply. It's a slight shock for us both that we sink into.
I can't help but be taken in by the kiss as I pull him closer towards me and allow him to pull me in to straddle his legs. We haven't had sex in so long I know that if this gets to that point it'll be all consuming. My red dress gets pushed up my thighs as I push the straps down letting him have access to my breasts. He leans forward and pulls one side down to gain access as he pulls the top half down just enough to expose my breasts to his gaze.
I can't help but revel in it as he latches onto a nipple and sucks gently then nibbles at it, "Oh Mamo – chan…" I can't help but moan out just a bit as he keeps me close to him. I sink further into his embrace as we settle on the couch. It isn't till I start to grind against him a bit that he pulls my legs fully around his waist and stands up, on nearly unsteady feet before making his way towards the bedroom.
"You are so delightfully bewitching." He tells me as he buries his face into my neck and begins to suckle and pay generous amount of attention to it. I can feel him stand up to attention from having me so close to him as he opens the bedroom door and before kicking it closer behind us. I noticed that not once in all of this did he let anything distract him in his pursuit of being with me, so far anyways.
So when he deposited me slowly on the bed he pulled up my dress fully and tossed it to the end of the bed as he saw my light pink lacy panties and NO bra. The straps would have clashed with my dress and I had no clean matching bra to wear. He began to lightly kiss down from my lips to my neck, then towards my breasts where he paid loving attention to them. "Oh Usa…" he moaned as he sucked on the pebbled nipple. One then the other as he lavished them through with his attentions.
I couldn't stop the progression of moans as he suckled gently then got only a little bit rough before going gentle again. He rubbed his hands up around my mound gently as he pulled even more sounds of pleasure from my mouth. I couldn't stop them as I enjoyed and reveled in his ministrations. I tried to pull him closer only for him to say, "Let me give this to you." As he moved further down towards my heated core.
I couldn't help but take in a deep breath as I felt his fingers float over towards my core and play with me as I gripped the sheets. Both of us now in the moment and were unwilling to do or say anything more in fear of disturbing it. I know I was. So when he slowly slid my panties down I couldn't help looking at him. He had that look on his face as if he were asking permission, so I lifted my hips up for him to slip them off to.
He pulled them off with ease as they went flying off the bed. He crawled back up only to throw my legs over his shoulders then began to tease me below by lapping at me with his tongue. I couldn't stop the flurry of moans that escaped from between my lips as he held me in place and ravished my heated core. His tongue doing wicked things to me as his teeth gently nibbled on me, "Please!" I couldn't help but let out.
He then sucked heavily on my clit as I cried out from the intense feelings he was evoking within me. I could feel an approaching orgasm coming towards me. My breathing was becoming heavier as he buried his face into my lower lips, sucking on them near voraciously as he enjoyed my taste. At least he seemed to be with all the delightful grunts that were coming from him to, "Damn you taste so incredible." He muttered as he kept going.
I was going to lose it soon as I felt the orgasm beginning to well up within me. "Mamo – chan!" I felt it coming up as he added a finger, then two to the mix and held me pinned in place so that I couldn't pull away or escape, not that I wanted to or would mind you. When his tongue started to dart in and out, mimicking what ELSE could be doing that I wanted that ELSE doing it instead right now.
I reached down and pulled up at him, "Please!" he seemed to get the point and yet still he hesitated, "Are you sure?" he asked me. I looked at him like he was crazy for asking only to have him smile in mirth and crawl over me, pushing my legs further apart as he settled his hips into the crevice of mine. I felt his length aroused and pressed right up against me. I could feel my insides craving his length to be in me again.
It had been far too long now and I needed him. He hovered himself over me before kissing me deeply. I tasted myself on his lip and tongue and while the taste did surprise me since it had been that long it also just told me how intimate we were becoming again. As we kissed continuously I was going to ask him why he wasn't moving in me just yet when a sudden and sharp thrust of his very hard member entered me.
I inhaled sharply and deeply as he lunged forward and grunted from the tightness of it. Of course I was wet enough for it but I had been expecting it to happen as suddenly as it had. He hovered over me as he pulled my legs up from his lower calves to around his waist to pulling one over his shoulder before slowly pushing the other one further back to pinning it near my shoulder. My eyes like his went wide.
We both knew I was flexible but it had been so long since sex had happened for us that we may have forgotten a bit just HOW flexible I could be. So when he started to thrust in slowly I couldn't help but moan already as the sensations were delicious at this angle. I already knew we had never tried anything at this position before, we were pretty standard so this was enticing and new for us both.
He made sure to keep the pace slow but with a hard thrust at the end of it so that we'd both be grunting from the force of it. During this slow but yummy build up he maintained eye contact with me. The love, passion and trust that came from him towards me was powerful as I just felt him. No link just him. Just him and his glorious member that was currently making me feel like I was the only woman in the world to him.
I gripped onto his arms since his shoulders were a bit busy at the moment, "I love you Usako…" he broke the steady silence as he maintained the pace. He wanted to drag this out I could tell for as long as possible. I understood that need very well. Especially since it had been a moment for us, but inevitability does hit. Orgasms will hit and this time around is no exception. "I love you to…Mamo – chan!" my voice cracks at the end when he speeds up just a bit. He's changing his angle once more.
The next thing I know I'm lifted up into his lap as one leg is still over his shoulder and now the other is back down touching the bed sheets. My legs are so split that the angle allows for a new depth for the both of us. I have no real way of adding anything to this. My one leg that is on the ground can only bump into it as Mamo – chan uses his muscles and strength to control the pace and tempo still.
His arms bulge a bit as I feel a bit more feminine with him taking such control his muscles do that. It heightens the aroma in the room and makes us both hotter for it, "More!" I cry out as he lifts me over and over on his again, repeatedly. I can feel the orgasm stirring again, building as he bounces me on himself. "Kami – sama Usako!" he grunts louder as we both begin to lose control of the rhythm.
He more so that I but that's only because I have no control over the rhythm and frankly I don't care cause this is to incredible to stop on. I can only enjoy the ride as he kisses any part of me he can reach. Watching my breasts bounce hard up and down to the near point of pain as we get louder and louder. I lose myself in the final moments and call out his name over and over again, not caring who might hear me.
"Mamo – chan! Mamo - " his name gets caught up in my throat as he reaches down and gives my clit a final yet soft twist. It's enough to set me off as I start to come…and hard to as my muscles clamp down around him. I can feel the liquid flow from me as my whole frame wracks with the tremors of my undulating orgasm. I feel like my whole body is taken over by the force of it as I cry out loud.
That's when I hear his very harsh and forceful grunts as I feel him pound his way into me. Its intensity is so prolific that I feel like I'm going to keep coming and never stop. I can work with that though as being in this state of absolute bliss is truly something I know I'll only ever experience with him. I can feel his length sheathing himself into me, stretching me out so wonderfully so and feeling it getting THICKER that I scream out as I feel him pushing another orgasm through my frame.
I didn't know that was possible and yet he made it so. It makes our connection feel so much more intense that I feel incredibly light headed and nearly dizzy as he pounds his own orgasm out into me now. He yells so harshly in during his own orgasm that he sounds like a near perfect mix of both pleasure and pain. As I feel him fill me up till I start to leak out from the juices coming out from us both. I'm in too much pleasure right now to not only NOT care but to give a rat's ass that we've just made a huge mess of his sheets.
It takes us several minutes to get our breathing back under control. He slumps forward with me under him till he finally gets enough energy left to roll over enough to not crush me. After that powerful orgasm I didn't have the energy to tell him he wouldn't crush me. We didn't talk for several minutes after that. We were just enjoying the wonderful afterglow of our love making, "We need to do that again." he tells me.
I bleakly look up to him as he finishes with, "The fantastic sex." He amends. I smile, "I knew what you meant and yes I agree. That was incredible." I tell him as we settle into one another. I then realize we still have to take the garbage out. "We still have cleaning up to do." I mumble, "It can wait…" he pulls my chin up to see him, "I don't want to be parted from you until it's absolutely necessary." He tells me with such seriousness that I smile, "I know the feeling." I respond as I kiss him back.
It sucks that this all happened to begin with but perhaps this was in its own way necessary to happen for everyone involved. I actually feel like all of our relationships were made stronger by it in a sense and that we've matured from all of it. It was a really rough road to be on but as I lay here in bed thoroughly sated and slowly falling asleep next to the man that I love I can only conclude that I'm glad that I took a stand for myself and addressed everything and didn't ignore it like I used to. Who knows how things would be if I didn't.