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Commander Erwin's talk, was meant to be supportive but instead Mikasa just felt her mind race between two opposing difficult realities. Specially since Erwin revealed the fragile state he saw Levi in. In all of her life she never wished to be the center of attention, much less in a situation like this. Erwin's conversation, just left her more aware that choosing wrong would cause her pain throughout the rest of her life. Not to mention that both her and Levi would never be able to leave this type of life. However with Eren it was much the same situation, Eren would never be allowed to leave the Military either. They were all too big of assets. The unfortunate part of being really good at your job is that when its crucial to humanity, there would be no escaping it.

And yet Levi's lips had been the most delightful thing she had been given, it was like all the joy in the world filled her up. As much as she dreaded having to answer questions, she could not help but ache for his touch once more. He could have her wrapped around his finger if he wanted it, but that was dangerous. It had already been bad enough she had kissed him, if they were left alone there was no telling what could happen. Levi's beautiful face and his strong arms left her breathless.

A door creaked open, Mikasa turned around to find Hanji standing in doorway. A slight bit discomfort evident on her features.

"Mikasa, I know this is not the most ideal situation," she paused as if trying to find the correct wording to continue. "As the years have passed, I believe you and I have grown close. That being said, I do not want to be the person to impose between two people that I consider to be my friends. However Levi, keeps asking questions. I think it would be better if you explained to him what has happened. I know it would come better from you."

That was the last thing Mikasa wanted to do, it was enough that she had seen his confused face when his eyes reached that ring. She could see a million question begin to fester in his mind. However, she did come all this way to do just that, to give him all the answers he desired. She could not back down now, it was time to confess what the years without him had been like. It was finally time, to come clean to everybody.

"I understand Hanji, thank you." Hanji led her down the hallway. Into another room, a room with a bed and a chair. He was sitting against the wall facing the window. Hanji quietly made her way out of the room. Leaving them together in the room

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He didn't even turn to look at her, it hurt. Mikasa understood but it didn't make it easier to continue. She remained by the door, incase he felt like throwing her out. It wouldn't surprise her if it led to that. She could feel his anger, even as he faced away from her.

"So who is the lucky guy?" He practically spit out the words, he was beyond angry. Mikasa hoped that maybe he would be understanding but it seemed that that would not be the case.

"Eren," she said in a murmur.

He let out a small chuckle, "How surprising?"

"It wasn't—"

"How long have you and him been," he couldn't even say it. Weirdly she now was actually thankful he wasn't facing her. She couldn't even imagine how painful it would feel to see his expressions.

"We have been dating about 2 years, he proposed a month ago."

"And you said yes."

"Yes, I did." Mikasa wanted to explain but the words could barely come out of her mouth. She wanted badly to go and embrace him, but the fear of only making things worse kept her by the door. Words stubbornly stuck in her throat.

"Does your Fiancé know about us?" he bitterly spat.

"No, Levi. I could not bring myself to tell anyone besides Hanji and Sasha."

She saw as he finally, turned to face her. His eyes were red, his expression was almost terrifying. Captain Levi was one known for his complete control of his emotions, but he was coming apart. The reality of coming back to find his bride to be belonged to another was disappointing enough, but did it have to be this brat. The one she always seemed to never get rid of. He never wanted to admit that there was an insecurity when it came to the titan shifter. No matter how many times Mikasa insisted otherwise Levi knew that there would be residual feelings for the brat. It was like a punch in the gut finding out that his Mikasa, had been 2 years with this boy. Eren would not worthy of such a woman in a million lifetimes. He walked towards her finally closing in the space between them. He was seeing red, he swore first thing when back to camp would be killing the idiot that seemed to steal the woman of his dreams away. The woman, who ruled his body and soul. The woman who always seemed to be slipping away from him just by mere inches. The world had played its cruel joke once more.

"So I'm just some dirty little secret huh?" His voice was low it sent shivers down her spine. "You couldn't even tell your Fiancé of our love. I mean in all of this did you even feel anything. Did it mean anything when I asked you to marry me? Or was I just a holding spot till Eren finally came to his senses."

Before she could stop herself, she slapped him. It was an instant regret, but Levi remained stoic. It was like she hit a wall, he was unreadable. "Are you fucking kidding me, of course it all mattered to me." Tears from escaping her eagerly, revealing the anger, pain, and sadness. She could not begin to comprehend what is occurring, but she felt like in some form this was well deserved in some way. The universe wanted to punish her for all the mistakes she had committed in her short life. "I mourned you Levi. When you died, I died. Ask Hanji for months I could not get out of bed. We couldn't even give you a proper burial, instead I had to cry myself to sleep every night alone because I did not want to tarnish your reputation by revealing our love. When you proposed it was the absolute happiest moment in my pathetic existence. I wanted to claim you the moment the words came out of your mouth. But instead I had to cast aside all of our happiness. It was the most painful and lonely time I've ever had to endure."

"And you think that when I was out there it was easy. I was held captive for years, I escaped only to find that my only hope belonged to another." His jaw was clenched but her words had begun to shake him out of the hole of fury that had him enveloped a few seconds ago.

"Do you want me to tell you how awful it felt, do you want me to show you the cuts on my arms that almost lead to my death." She felt exhausted it was like he was trying to take everything out on her, but she was done accepting all of the hurt. "Levi you went back and YOU DIED." She sobbed. Two arms stretched out to comfort her, but she rejected.

"Mikasa, Im—" he tried to interrupt but no she would not let him. What does she mean by the cuts on her arms.

"Levi you were my everything, my future, the love of my life. And you didn't come back. I understand that things are not like they should be. I did the best I could to keep myself sane."

The pain on both their faces was evident, he stared at her for a moment before admitting, "You are right, it is unfair that I am putting so much on you." He pulled back walking toward the chair, "Why did it have to take me so long?" Finally sitting down letting tears fill his eyes. "I tried to make it back, because even through all of the abuse. I knew that I could not die before seeing you down the isle. You were my light at the end of the tunnel, Mikasa. I'm sorry for it," She followed him, kneeling next to him. The last thing she wanted was to make the situation more confusing, but watching the man she loves fall apart was too much.

"You made it back, and that is all that matters." Mikasa could not help herself, she grazed his cheekbone with her hand. "I never have stopped loving you," It was nothing but the truth, as hard as it made things. " And I don't think I ever will."

Those blue orbs, looked up at her then drew their attention down to her lips. Mikasa saw that it was like an instinct, his lips pulled on to hers, engulfing her with passion. With every inch of her being she tried to pull away, but her body would not let her. Every reason as to why she shouldn't engage, fell upon deaf ears. She responded by continuing the kiss more intensely. Levi's hands only travelled down gripping her waist and pulling up as he raised from the chair. His body moving her until she hit a wall. She felt the slight pain surge through her body, but she didn't care. A desperate desire to undress him overtook her, as she pulled his shirt over his head. Levi's pupils filled with a never ending desire to consume the nakedness of her. He pushed her jacket down, and ripping her blouse into shreds. Revealing her slender form. She still had her wraps on, much to his his annoyance. Once they were off, he indulged in drinking in the form of her breasts. She felt as his stubble rubbed her chest, his mouth finally taking in one of her peaks. His hand caressing her other breast, as she moaned in pleasure. "Levi ahh," she could barely see, due to everything he was doing. Surprising how her legs still managed to hold her up against the wall.

"Say it again," as he bit down gently on her rosy nipple, but possessively.

"Leevvi," She could barely utter his name. The sensations filling her with the upmost desire. Onyx eyes that finally opened to see the man that was once her fiancé, partaking in the same longing. His hands moved downward and on to her belt buckle, anxiously taking it off and moving his mouth downward from her breast down her stomach. His hands worked tirelessly pulling those pants and underwear off. Finally Mikasa naked body stood in front of him. With only her a chain, that revealed where the ring he had given her was. A surprise, but one that gave him hope.

"You haven't changed one bit Mikasa," he whispered. She felt a path of kisses moved downwards until her reached her inner thighs. Parting them slightly before saying, "You will always be mine, Mikasa." Without a second thought he inserted two fingers, delighted to find how wet he had made her. Her body remained entranced by his touch. Pumping them back and forth, as she tried to stifle those moans that had no intention of staying quiet. Her body had missed his touch, even if this was not a situation that they should be in.

"A..always.." she could not help but agree with the truth. His thumb pressed gently down on her clit, to her delight. With eyes shut, she felt his body raise up, Levi's mouth crashed down on her lips, releasing a grunt into her, as he pressed his hard erection against her stomach. He needed it, she reached down finally exposing him as she pulled his pants down. Pushing him down until they both crashed into each other on the floor. His physique under her body, eagerly awaiting for them to finally join together.

Mikasa's hand ran down pumping him tenderly, watching him buck his hips against her hand. Her core hot against his abdomen, driving him crazy with the ache of desire. They both craved each other so much, an obvious symptom of their extended time apart. However both still knew how to please each other, and drive one another to their limits. Even with Eren it never felt quite the same. Her mouth laid careful and slow kisses against his neck enjoying his taste. Until finally her mouth reached his, licking his lips as they engaged in a passionate kiss. She could barely see straight but she needed him now. With a swift motion she raised herself up and back until his hard dick finally entered her wet and hot core. He gritted his teeth, trying to not come right then and there. His dick felt like he made her whole again, it was big and it hurt slightly. But he filled her with so much happiness.

She loved the feeling of him being inside her. She moved up and down watching how erotic his expressions were. Unable to contain, how wet and aroused he made her. She didn't want it to ever stop. Levi's grip on her hips was tight and rough. Guiding her at an agonizing pace, making her head spin. It was her that was supposed to be in control, but clearly that was not up to her.

"Your pussy is so wet baby," Levi could not help himself but moan. As he looked up at her, she was such a sight. Riding his dick, with such hunger, he desperately tried to not look. She would undue him quickly if he gave in.

"I really missed you, my Captain," she teased in gasps. "I missed your touch, and your kisses." He pushed himself deeper, feeling her walls close in. She was close, his hand reached between them taking his thumb and rubbing it against her clit. Her rosy cheeks, became red as she approached her limits.

"Is that so," he could barely retort. Finally her walls contracted holding him in place for a moment as her pussy released its sweet juices around his dick. She almost collapsed but continued going until her Captain joined her in an orgasm.